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EMMA
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BY
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JANE AUSTEN
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VOLUME I
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CHAPTER I
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Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home and
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happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of
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existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very
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little to distress or vex her.
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She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate,
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indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister's marriage,
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been mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother had
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died too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct remembrance
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of her caresses; and her place had been supplied by an excellent woman
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as governess, who had fallen little short of a mother in affection.
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Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse's family, less as a
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governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters, but particularly
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of Emma. Between _them_ it was more the intimacy of sisters. Even
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before Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal office of governess,
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the mildness of her temper had hardly allowed her to impose any
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restraint; and the shadow of authority being now long passed away, they
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had been living together as friend and friend very mutually attached,
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and Emma doing just what she liked; highly esteeming Miss Taylor's
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judgment, but directed chiefly by her own.
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The real evils, indeed, of Emma's situation were the power of having
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rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little too
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well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened alloy to
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her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present so
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unperceived, that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes with
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her.
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Sorrow came--a gentle sorrow--but not at all in the shape of any
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disagreeable consciousness.--Miss Taylor married. It was Miss Taylor's
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loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day of this
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beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought of any
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continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone, her father
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and herself were left to dine together, with no prospect of a third to
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cheer a long evening. Her father composed himself to sleep after
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dinner, as usual, and she had then only to sit and think of what she
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had lost.
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The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston
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was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age, and
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pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering with
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what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished and
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promoted the match; but it was a black morning's work for her. The
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want of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day. She
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recalled her past kindness--the kindness, the affection of sixteen
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years--how she had taught and how she had played with her from five
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years old--how she had devoted all her powers to attach and amuse her
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in health--and how nursed her through the various illnesses of
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childhood. A large debt of gratitude was owing here; but the
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intercourse of the last seven years, the equal footing and perfect
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unreserve which had soon followed Isabella's marriage, on their being
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left to each other, was yet a dearer, tenderer recollection. She had
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been a friend and companion such as few possessed: intelligent,
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well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing all the ways of the family,
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interested in all its concerns, and peculiarly interested in herself,
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in every pleasure, every scheme of hers--one to whom she could speak
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every thought as it arose, and who had such an affection for her as
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could never find fault.
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How was she to bear the change?--It was true that her friend was going
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only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must be the
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difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them, and a
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Miss Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages, natural and
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domestic, she was now in great danger of suffering from intellectual
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solitude. She dearly loved her father, but he was no companion for
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her. He could not meet her in conversation, rational or playful.
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The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had
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not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits;
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for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity of mind
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or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years; and though
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everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart and his amiable
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temper, his talents could not have recommended him at any time.
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Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony, being
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settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond her daily
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reach; and many a long October and November evening must be struggled
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through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next visit from
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Isabella and her husband, and their little children, to fill the house,
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and give her pleasant society again.
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Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town,
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to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies, and
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name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses were
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first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had many
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acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil, but
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not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss Taylor for
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even half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma could not but
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sigh over it, and wish for impossible things, till her father awoke,
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and made it necessary to be cheerful. His spirits required support.
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He was a nervous man, easily depressed; fond of every body that he was
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used to, and hating to part with them; hating change of every kind.
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Matrimony, as the origin of change, was always disagreeable; and he was
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by no means yet reconciled to his own daughter's marrying, nor could
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ever speak of her but with compassion, though it had been entirely a
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match of affection, when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor
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too; and from his habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able
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to suppose that other people could feel differently from himself, he
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was very much disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad a thing for
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herself as for them, and would have been a great deal happier if she
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had spent all the rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and
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chatted as cheerfully as she could, to keep him from such thoughts; but
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when tea came, it was impossible for him not to say exactly as he had
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said at dinner,
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"Poor Miss Taylor!--I wish she were here again. What a pity it is that
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Mr. Weston ever thought of her!"
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"I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such
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a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves a
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good wife;--and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us for
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ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her
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own?"
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"A house of her own!--But where is the advantage of a house of her own?
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This is three times as large.--And you have never any odd humours, my
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dear."
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"How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see
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us!--We shall be always meeting! _We_ must begin; we must go and pay
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wedding visit very soon."
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"My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance. I could
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not walk half so far."
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"No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage,
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to be sure."
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"The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for such a
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little way;--and where are the poor horses to be while we are paying
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our visit?"
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"They are to be put into Mr. Weston's stable, papa. You know we have
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settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston last
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night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like
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going to Randalls, because of his daughter's being housemaid there. I
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only doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was your
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doing, papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought of Hannah
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till you mentioned her--James is so obliged to you!"
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"I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would not
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have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account; and I am
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sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil, pretty-spoken
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girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always
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curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner; and when you
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have had her here to do needlework, I observe she always turns the lock
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of the door the right way and never bangs it. I am sure she will be an
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excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort to poor Miss Taylor
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to have somebody about her that she is used to see. Whenever James
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goes over to see his daughter, you know, she will be hearing of us. He
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will be able to tell her how we all are."
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Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas, and
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hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably through
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the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own. The
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backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards
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walked in and made it unnecessary.
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Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not
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only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly
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connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella's husband. He
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lived about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and always
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welcome, and at this time more welcome than usual, as coming directly
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from their mutual connexions in London. He had returned to a late
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dinner, after some days' absence, and now walked up to Hartfield to say
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that all were well in Brunswick Square. It was a happy circumstance,
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and animated Mr. Woodhouse for some time. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful
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manner, which always did him good; and his many inquiries after "poor
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Isabella" and her children were answered most satisfactorily. When
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this was over, Mr. Woodhouse gratefully observed, "It is very kind of
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you, Mr. Knightley, to come out at this late hour to call upon us. I
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am afraid you must have had a shocking walk."
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"Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild that
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I must draw back from your great fire."
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"But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may not
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catch cold."
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"Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them."
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"Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal of rain
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here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour while we were at
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breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding."
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"By the bye--I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware of
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what sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry with
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my congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well. How did
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you all behave? Who cried most?"
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"Ah! poor Miss Taylor! 'Tis a sad business."
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"Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly say
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'poor Miss Taylor.' I have a great regard for you and Emma; but when it
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comes to the question of dependence or independence!--At any rate, it
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must be better to have only one to please than two."
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"Especially when _one_ of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome
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creature!" said Emma playfully. "That is what you have in your head, I
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know--and what you would certainly say if my father were not by."
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"I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed," said Mr. Woodhouse, with
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a sigh. "I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome."
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"My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean _you_, or suppose Mr.
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Knightley to mean _you_. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant only
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myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know--in a
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joke--it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another."
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Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults
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in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them: and
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though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself, she knew it
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would be so much less so to her father, that she would not have him
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really suspect such a circumstance as her not being thought perfect by
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every body.
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"Emma knows I never flatter her," said Mr. Knightley, "but I meant no
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reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used to have two persons
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to please; she will now have but one. The chances are that she must be
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a gainer."
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"Well," said Emma, willing to let it pass--"you want to hear about the
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wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all behaved
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charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their best looks:
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not a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no; we all felt that
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we were going to be only half a mile apart, and were sure of meeting
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every day."
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"Dear Emma bears every thing so well," said her father. "But, Mr.
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Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I am
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sure she _will_ miss her more than she thinks for."
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Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles. "It is
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impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion," said Mr.
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Knightley. "We should not like her so well as we do, sir, if we could
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suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to Miss Taylor's
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advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be, at Miss Taylor's
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time of life, to be settled in a home of her own, and how important to
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her to be secure of a comfortable provision, and therefore cannot allow
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herself to feel so much pain as pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor
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must be glad to have her so happily married."
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"And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me," said Emma, "and a
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very considerable one--that I made the match myself. I made the match,
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you know, four years ago; and to have it take place, and be proved in
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the right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again,
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may comfort me for any thing."
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Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied, "Ah!
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my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things, for
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whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any more
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matches."
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"I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed, for
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other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And after
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such success, you know!--Every body said that Mr. Weston would never
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marry again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower so long,
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and who seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife, so constantly
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occupied either in his business in town or among his friends here,
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always acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful--Mr. Weston need
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not spend a single evening in the year alone if he did not like it. Oh
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no! Mr. Weston certainly would never marry again. Some people even
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talked of a promise to his wife on her deathbed, and others of the son
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and the uncle not letting him. All manner of solemn nonsense was
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talked on the subject, but I believed none of it.
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"Ever since the day--about four years ago--that Miss Taylor and I met
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with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle, he darted
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away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas for us from
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Farmer Mitchell's, I made up my mind on the subject. I planned the
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match from that hour; and when such success has blessed me in this
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instance, dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave off
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match-making."
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"I do not understand what you mean by 'success,'" said Mr. Knightley.
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"Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and
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delicately spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four years
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to bring about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young lady's
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mind! But if, which I rather imagine, your making the match, as you
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call it, means only your planning it, your saying to yourself one idle
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day, 'I think it would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor if Mr.
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Weston were to marry her,' and saying it again to yourself every now
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and then afterwards, why do you talk of success? Where is your merit?
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What are you proud of? You made a lucky guess; and _that_ is all that
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can be said."
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"And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?--
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I pity you.--I thought you cleverer--for, depend upon it a lucky guess
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is never merely luck. There is always some talent in it. And as to my
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poor word 'success,' which you quarrel with, I do not know that I am so
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entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn two pretty pictures;
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but I think there may be a third--a something between the do-nothing
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and the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston's visits here, and
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given many little encouragements, and smoothed many little matters, it
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might not have come to any thing after all. I think you must know
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Hartfield enough to comprehend that."
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"A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational,
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unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their
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own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself, than
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good to them, by interference."
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"Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others," rejoined
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Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. "But, my dear, pray do not
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make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up one's family
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circle grievously."
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"Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr.
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Elton, papa,--I must look about for a wife for him. There is nobody in
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Highbury who deserves him--and he has been here a whole year, and has
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fitted up his house so comfortably, that it would be a shame to have
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him single any longer--and I thought when he was joining their hands
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to-day, he looked so very much as if he would like to have the same
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kind office done for him! I think very well of Mr. Elton, and this is
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the only way I have of doing him a service."
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"Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very good
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young man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you want to shew
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him any attention, my dear, ask him to come and dine with us some day.
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That will be a much better thing. I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so
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kind as to meet him."
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"With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time," said Mr. Knightley,
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laughing, "and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much better
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thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best of the
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fish and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife. Depend upon
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it, a man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care of himself."
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CHAPTER II
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Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family,
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which for the last two or three generations had been rising into
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gentility and property. He had received a good education, but, on
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succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become indisposed
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for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers were engaged,
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and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social temper by
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entering into the militia of his county, then embodied.
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Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances of his
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military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill, of a great
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Yorkshire family, and Miss Churchill fell in love with him, nobody was
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surprized, except her brother and his wife, who had never seen him, and
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who were full of pride and importance, which the connexion would offend.
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Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command of her
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fortune--though her fortune bore no proportion to the
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family-estate--was not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it took
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place, to the infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who
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threw her off with due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion, and
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did not produce much happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found more
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in it, for she had a husband whose warm heart and sweet temper made him
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think every thing due to her in return for the great goodness of being
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in love with him; but though she had one sort of spirit, she had not
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the best. She had resolution enough to pursue her own will in spite of
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her brother, but not enough to refrain from unreasonable regrets at
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that brother's unreasonable anger, nor from missing the luxuries of her
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former home. They lived beyond their income, but still it was nothing
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in comparison of Enscombe: she did not cease to love her husband, but
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she wanted at once to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill
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of Enscombe.
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Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills,
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as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst of
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the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years' marriage, he
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was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain.
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From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved. The boy
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had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering illness of his
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mother's, been the means of a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs.
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Churchill, having no children of their own, nor any other young
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creature of equal kindred to care for, offered to take the whole charge
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of the little Frank soon after her decease. Some scruples and some
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reluctance the widower-father may be supposed to have felt; but as they
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were overcome by other considerations, the child was given up to the
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care and the wealth of the Churchills, and he had only his own comfort
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to seek, and his own situation to improve as he could.
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A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia and
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engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a good way in
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London, which afforded him a favourable opening. It was a concern
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which brought just employment enough. He had still a small house in
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Highbury, where most of his leisure days were spent; and between useful
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occupation and the pleasures of society, the next eighteen or twenty
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years of his life passed cheerfully away. He had, by that time,
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realised an easy competence--enough to secure the purchase of a little
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estate adjoining Highbury, which he had always longed for--enough to
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marry a woman as portionless even as Miss Taylor, and to live according
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to the wishes of his own friendly and social disposition.
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It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence his
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schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth on youth, it
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had not shaken his determination of never settling till he could
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purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long looked forward to;
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but he had gone steadily on, with these objects in view, till they were
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accomplished. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and obtained
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his wife; and was beginning a new period of existence, with every
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probability of greater happiness than in any yet passed through. He
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had never been an unhappy man; his own temper had secured him from
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that, even in his first marriage; but his second must shew him how
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delightful a well-judging and truly amiable woman could be, and must
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give him the pleasantest proof of its being a great deal better to
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choose than to be chosen, to excite gratitude than to feel it.
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He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was his own;
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for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought up as his
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uncle's heir, it had become so avowed an adoption as to have him assume
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the name of Churchill on coming of age. It was most unlikely,
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therefore, that he should ever want his father's assistance. His
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father had no apprehension of it. The aunt was a capricious woman, and
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governed her husband entirely; but it was not in Mr. Weston's nature to
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imagine that any caprice could be strong enough to affect one so dear,
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and, as he believed, so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in
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London, and was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine
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young man had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too. He was
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looked on as sufficiently belonging to the place to make his merits and
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prospects a kind of common concern.
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Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively
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curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little
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returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming to visit
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his father had been often talked of but never achieved.
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Now, upon his father's marriage, it was very generally proposed, as a
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most proper attention, that the visit should take place. There was not
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a dissentient voice on the subject, either when Mrs. Perry drank tea
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with Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the
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visit. Now was the time for Mr. Frank Churchill to come among them;
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and the hope strengthened when it was understood that he had written to
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his new mother on the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in
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Highbury included some mention of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had
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received. "I suppose you have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank
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Churchill has written to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very
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handsome letter, indeed. Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse
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saw the letter, and he says he never saw such a handsome letter in his
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life."
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It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course,
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formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing
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attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense, and a most
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welcome addition to every source and every expression of congratulation
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which her marriage had already secured. She felt herself a most
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|
fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough to know how fortunate
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she might well be thought, where the only regret was for a partial
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separation from friends whose friendship for her had never cooled, and
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who could ill bear to part with her.
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She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think, without
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pain, of Emma's losing a single pleasure, or suffering an hour's ennui,
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|
from the want of her companionableness: but dear Emma was of no feeble
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|
character; she was more equal to her situation than most girls would
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|
have been, and had sense, and energy, and spirits that might be hoped
|
|
would bear her well and happily through its little difficulties and
|
|
privations. And then there was such comfort in the very easy distance
|
|
of Randalls from Hartfield, so convenient for even solitary female
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|
walking, and in Mr. Weston's disposition and circumstances, which would
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|
make the approaching season no hindrance to their spending half the
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|
evenings in the week together.
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Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude to Mrs.
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|
Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her satisfaction--her more
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|
than satisfaction--her cheerful enjoyment, was so just and so apparent,
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|
that Emma, well as she knew her father, was sometimes taken by surprize
|
|
at his being still able to pity 'poor Miss Taylor,' when they left her
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|
at Randalls in the centre of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away
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in the evening attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her
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|
own. But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse's giving a gentle
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|
sigh, and saying, "Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to
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stay."
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There was no recovering Miss Taylor--nor much likelihood of ceasing to
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|
pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation to Mr. Woodhouse.
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|
The compliments of his neighbours were over; he was no longer teased by
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|
being wished joy of so sorrowful an event; and the wedding-cake, which
|
|
had been a great distress to him, was all eat up. His own stomach
|
|
could bear nothing rich, and he could never believe other people to be
|
|
different from himself. What was unwholesome to him he regarded as
|
|
unfit for any body; and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade
|
|
them from having any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as
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|
earnestly tried to prevent any body's eating it. He had been at the
|
|
pains of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr.
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|
Perry was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were
|
|
one of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse's life; and upon being applied to,
|
|
he could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the bias
|
|
of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree with
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|
many--perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately. With such an
|
|
opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to influence
|
|
every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the cake was eaten;
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|
and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till it was all gone.
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There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys being
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|
seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston's wedding-cake in their hands: but Mr.
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|
Woodhouse would never believe it.
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CHAPTER III
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Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much
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|
to have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes,
|
|
from his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his
|
|
fortune, his house, and his daughter, he could command the visits of
|
|
his own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked. He had not
|
|
much intercourse with any families beyond that circle; his horror of
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|
late hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for any
|
|
acquaintance but such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately
|
|
for him, Highbury, including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell
|
|
Abbey in the parish adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended
|
|
many such. Not unfrequently, through Emma's persuasion, he had some of
|
|
the chosen and the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what
|
|
he preferred; and, unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to
|
|
company, there was scarcely an evening in the week in which Emma could
|
|
not make up a card-table for him.
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|
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|
Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley; and
|
|
by Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it, the privilege
|
|
of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude for the
|
|
elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse's drawing-room, and the smiles
|
|
of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being thrown away.
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|
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|
After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able of whom were
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|
Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies almost always at
|
|
the service of an invitation from Hartfield, and who were fetched and
|
|
carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse thought it no hardship for
|
|
either James or the horses. Had it taken place only once a year, it
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|
would have been a grievance.
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|
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|
Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a very old
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|
lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille. She lived with
|
|
her single daughter in a very small way, and was considered with all
|
|
the regard and respect which a harmless old lady, under such untoward
|
|
circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed a most uncommon degree
|
|
of popularity for a woman neither young, handsome, rich, nor married.
|
|
Miss Bates stood in the very worst predicament in the world for having
|
|
much of the public favour; and she had no intellectual superiority to
|
|
make atonement to herself, or frighten those who might hate her into
|
|
outward respect. She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness.
|
|
Her youth had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was
|
|
devoted to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a
|
|
small income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman, and
|
|
a woman whom no one named without good-will. It was her own universal
|
|
good-will and contented temper which worked such wonders. She loved
|
|
every body, was interested in every body's happiness, quicksighted to
|
|
every body's merits; thought herself a most fortunate creature, and
|
|
surrounded with blessings in such an excellent mother, and so many good
|
|
neighbours and friends, and a home that wanted for nothing. The
|
|
simplicity and cheerfulness of her nature, her contented and grateful
|
|
spirit, were a recommendation to every body, and a mine of felicity to
|
|
herself. She was a great talker upon little matters, which exactly
|
|
suited Mr. Woodhouse, full of trivial communications and harmless
|
|
gossip.
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|
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|
Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School--not of a seminary, or an
|
|
establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of
|
|
refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant
|
|
morality, upon new principles and new systems--and where young ladies
|
|
for enormous pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity--but a
|
|
real, honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable
|
|
quantity of accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price, and where
|
|
girls might be sent to be out of the way, and scramble themselves into
|
|
a little education, without any danger of coming back prodigies. Mrs.
|
|
Goddard's school was in high repute--and very deservedly; for Highbury
|
|
was reckoned a particularly healthy spot: she had an ample house and
|
|
garden, gave the children plenty of wholesome food, let them run about
|
|
a great deal in the summer, and in winter dressed their chilblains with
|
|
her own hands. It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple
|
|
now walked after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of
|
|
woman, who had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself
|
|
entitled to the occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly
|
|
owed much to Mr. Woodhouse's kindness, felt his particular claim on her
|
|
to leave her neat parlour, hung round with fancy-work, whenever she
|
|
could, and win or lose a few sixpences by his fireside.
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|
|
|
These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently able to
|
|
collect; and happy was she, for her father's sake, in the power;
|
|
though, as far as she was herself concerned, it was no remedy for the
|
|
absence of Mrs. Weston. She was delighted to see her father look
|
|
comfortable, and very much pleased with herself for contriving things
|
|
so well; but the quiet prosings of three such women made her feel that
|
|
every evening so spent was indeed one of the long evenings she had
|
|
fearfully anticipated.
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|
|
|
As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close of the
|
|
present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting, in most
|
|
respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her; a most
|
|
welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen, whom Emma knew
|
|
very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in, on account of her
|
|
beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned, and the evening no
|
|
longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.
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|
|
|
Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had
|
|
placed her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard's school, and somebody
|
|
had lately raised her from the condition of scholar to that of
|
|
parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known of her history.
|
|
She had no visible friends but what had been acquired at Highbury, and
|
|
was now just returned from a long visit in the country to some young
|
|
ladies who had been at school there with her.
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|
|
|
She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort
|
|
which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair, with
|
|
a fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features, and a look of
|
|
great sweetness, and, before the end of the evening, Emma was as much
|
|
pleased with her manners as her person, and quite determined to
|
|
continue the acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith's
|
|
conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging--not
|
|
inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk--and yet so far from pushing,
|
|
shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly
|
|
grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly impressed by
|
|
the appearance of every thing in so superior a style to what she had
|
|
been used to, that she must have good sense, and deserve encouragement.
|
|
Encouragement should be given. Those soft blue eyes, and all those
|
|
natural graces, should not be wasted on the inferior society of
|
|
Highbury and its connexions. The acquaintance she had already formed
|
|
were unworthy of her. The friends from whom she had just parted,
|
|
though very good sort of people, must be doing her harm. They were a
|
|
family of the name of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as
|
|
renting a large farm of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of
|
|
Donwell--very creditably, she believed--she knew Mr. Knightley thought
|
|
highly of them--but they must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit
|
|
to be the intimates of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge
|
|
and elegance to be quite perfect. _She_ would notice her; she would
|
|
improve her; she would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and
|
|
introduce her into good society; she would form her opinions and her
|
|
manners. It would be an interesting, and certainly a very kind
|
|
undertaking; highly becoming her own situation in life, her leisure,
|
|
and powers.
|
|
|
|
She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking and
|
|
listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that the
|
|
evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table, which
|
|
always closed such parties, and for which she had been used to sit and
|
|
watch the due time, was all set out and ready, and moved forwards to
|
|
the fire, before she was aware. With an alacrity beyond the common
|
|
impulse of a spirit which yet was never indifferent to the credit of
|
|
doing every thing well and attentively, with the real good-will of a
|
|
mind delighted with its own ideas, did she then do all the honours of
|
|
the meal, and help and recommend the minced chicken and scalloped
|
|
oysters, with an urgency which she knew would be acceptable to the
|
|
early hours and civil scruples of their guests.
|
|
|
|
Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouses feelings were in sad warfare.
|
|
He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion of his
|
|
youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome made him
|
|
rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his hospitality
|
|
would have welcomed his visitors to every thing, his care for their
|
|
health made him grieve that they would eat.
|
|
|
|
Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that he
|
|
could, with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he might
|
|
constrain himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing the nicer
|
|
things, to say:
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs. An
|
|
egg boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling an
|
|
egg better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled by any
|
|
body else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small, you
|
|
see--one of our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma
|
|
help you to a _little_ bit of tart--a _very_ little bit. Ours are all
|
|
apple-tarts. You need not be afraid of unwholesome preserves here. I
|
|
do not advise the custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say you to _half_ a
|
|
glass of wine? A _small_ half-glass, put into a tumbler of water? I do
|
|
not think it could disagree with you."
|
|
|
|
Emma allowed her father to talk--but supplied her visitors in a much
|
|
more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had particular
|
|
pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness of Miss Smith was
|
|
quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse was so great a personage
|
|
in Highbury, that the prospect of the introduction had given as much
|
|
panic as pleasure; but the humble, grateful little girl went off with
|
|
highly gratified feelings, delighted with the affability with which
|
|
Miss Woodhouse had treated her all the evening, and actually shaken
|
|
hands with her at last!
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|
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|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
|
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|
|
|
Harriet Smith's intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick
|
|
and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging,
|
|
and telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance
|
|
increased, so did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking
|
|
companion, Emma had very early foreseen how useful she might find her.
|
|
In that respect Mrs. Weston's loss had been important. Her father
|
|
never went beyond the shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground
|
|
sufficed him for his long walk, or his short, as the year varied; and
|
|
since Mrs. Weston's marriage her exercise had been too much confined.
|
|
She had ventured once alone to Randalls, but it was not pleasant; and a
|
|
Harriet Smith, therefore, one whom she could summon at any time to a
|
|
walk, would be a valuable addition to her privileges. But in every
|
|
respect, as she saw more of her, she approved her, and was confirmed in
|
|
all her kind designs.
|
|
|
|
Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile, grateful
|
|
disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring to be
|
|
guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment to herself
|
|
was very amiable; and her inclination for good company, and power of
|
|
appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that there was no want
|
|
of taste, though strength of understanding must not be expected.
|
|
Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet Smith's being exactly the
|
|
young friend she wanted--exactly the something which her home required.
|
|
Such a friend as Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such could
|
|
never be granted. Two such she did not want. It was quite a different
|
|
sort of thing, a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was
|
|
the object of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem.
|
|
Harriet would be loved as one to whom she could be useful. For Mrs.
|
|
Weston there was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.
|
|
|
|
Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who
|
|
were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell
|
|
every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain.
|
|
Emma was obliged to fancy what she liked--but she could never believe
|
|
that in the same situation _she_ should not have discovered the truth.
|
|
Harriet had no penetration. She had been satisfied to hear and believe
|
|
just what Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her; and looked no farther.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of the
|
|
school in general, formed naturally a great part of the
|
|
conversation--and but for her acquaintance with the Martins of
|
|
Abbey-Mill Farm, it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied
|
|
her thoughts a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with
|
|
them, and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe
|
|
the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her
|
|
talkativeness--amused by such a picture of another set of beings, and
|
|
enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much
|
|
exultation of Mrs. Martin's having "_two_ parlours, two very good
|
|
parlours, indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard's
|
|
drawing-room; and of her having an upper maid who had lived
|
|
five-and-twenty years with her; and of their having eight cows, two of
|
|
them Alderneys, and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch
|
|
cow indeed; and of Mrs. Martin's saying as she was so fond of it, it
|
|
should be called _her_ cow; and of their having a very handsome
|
|
summer-house in their garden, where some day next year they were all to
|
|
drink tea:--a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen
|
|
people."
|
|
|
|
For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate
|
|
cause; but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings
|
|
arose. She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and
|
|
daughter, a son and son's wife, who all lived together; but when it
|
|
appeared that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was
|
|
always mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing
|
|
something or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs.
|
|
Martin, no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little
|
|
friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she were
|
|
not taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.
|
|
|
|
With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number and
|
|
meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin,
|
|
and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready to
|
|
speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry
|
|
evening games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very
|
|
good-humoured and obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in
|
|
order to bring her some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was
|
|
of them, and in every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his
|
|
shepherd's son into the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her.
|
|
She was very fond of singing. He could sing a little himself. She
|
|
believed he was very clever, and understood every thing. He had a very
|
|
fine flock, and, while she was with them, he had been bid more for his
|
|
wool than any body in the country. She believed every body spoke well
|
|
of him. His mother and sisters were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had
|
|
told her one day (and there was a blush as she said it,) that it was
|
|
impossible for any body to be a better son, and therefore she was sure,
|
|
whenever he married, he would make a good husband. Not that she
|
|
_wanted_ him to marry. She was in no hurry at all.
|
|
|
|
"Well done, Mrs. Martin!" thought Emma. "You know what you are about."
|
|
|
|
"And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send
|
|
Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose--the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had ever
|
|
seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all the three
|
|
teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to sup with
|
|
her."
|
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"Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line of
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his own business? He does not read?"
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"Oh yes!--that is, no--I do not know--but I believe he has read a good
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deal--but not what you would think any thing of. He reads the
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Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay in one of the
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window seats--but he reads all _them_ to himself. But sometimes of an
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evening, before we went to cards, he would read something aloud out of
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the Elegant Extracts, very entertaining. And I know he has read the
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Vicar of Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The
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Children of the Abbey. He had never heard of such books before I
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mentioned them, but he is determined to get them now as soon as ever he
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can."
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The next question was--
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"What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?"
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"Oh! not handsome--not at all handsome. I thought him very plain at
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first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know,
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after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every now
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and then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way to
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Kingston. He has passed you very often."
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"That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without having
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any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback or on foot,
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is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity. The yeomanry
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are precisely the order of people with whom I feel I can have nothing
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to do. A degree or two lower, and a creditable appearance might
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interest me; I might hope to be useful to their families in some way or
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other. But a farmer can need none of my help, and is, therefore, in
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one sense, as much above my notice as in every other he is below it."
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"To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have observed
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him; but he knows you very well indeed--I mean by sight."
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"I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man. I know,
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indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well. What do you
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imagine his age to be?"
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"He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is the
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23rd just a fortnight and a day's difference--which is very odd."
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"Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is
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perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable as
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they are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him, she would
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probably repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet with a good sort
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of young woman in the same rank as his own, with a little money, it
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might be very desirable."
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"Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!"
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"Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry, who are
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not born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine, has his fortune
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entirely to make--cannot be at all beforehand with the world. Whatever
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money he might come into when his father died, whatever his share of
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the family property, it is, I dare say, all afloat, all employed in his
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stock, and so forth; and though, with diligence and good luck, he may
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be rich in time, it is next to impossible that he should have realised
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any thing yet."
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"To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably. They have no
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indoors man, else they do not want for any thing; and Mrs. Martin talks
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of taking a boy another year."
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"I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does
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marry;--I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife--for though his
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sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether objected
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|
to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit for you
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to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you particularly
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|
careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt of your being a
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gentleman's daughter, and you must support your claim to that station
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by every thing within your own power, or there will be plenty of people
|
|
who would take pleasure in degrading you."
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"Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit at Hartfield,
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and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse, I am not afraid of what any
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|
body can do."
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"You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I
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|
would have you so firmly established in good society, as to be
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independent even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you
|
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permanently well connected, and to that end it will be advisable to
|
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have as few odd acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say that if
|
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you should still be in this country when Mr. Martin marries, I wish you
|
|
may not be drawn in by your intimacy with the sisters, to be acquainted
|
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with the wife, who will probably be some mere farmer's daughter,
|
|
without education."
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"To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any
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|
body but what had had some education--and been very well brought up.
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|
However, I do not mean to set up my opinion against yours--and I am
|
|
sure I shall not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall always
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|
have a great regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and
|
|
should be very sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well
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|
educated as me. But if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman,
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|
certainly I had better not visit her, if I can help it."
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Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech, and saw no
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|
alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been the first admirer,
|
|
but she trusted there was no other hold, and that there would be no
|
|
serious difficulty, on Harriet's side, to oppose any friendly
|
|
arrangement of her own.
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|
They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the
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Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully at
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|
her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion. Emma
|
|
was not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey; and walking a few
|
|
yards forward, while they talked together, soon made her quick eye
|
|
sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin. His appearance was
|
|
very neat, and he looked like a sensible young man, but his person had
|
|
no other advantage; and when he came to be contrasted with gentlemen,
|
|
she thought he must lose all the ground he had gained in Harriet's
|
|
inclination. Harriet was not insensible of manner; she had voluntarily
|
|
noticed her father's gentleness with admiration as well as wonder. Mr.
|
|
Martin looked as if he did not know what manner was.
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|
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|
They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must not be
|
|
kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a smiling face,
|
|
and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse hoped very soon to
|
|
compose.
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|
|
|
"Only think of our happening to meet him!--How very odd! It was quite a
|
|
chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls. He did not
|
|
think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked towards Randalls
|
|
most days. He has not been able to get the Romance of the Forest yet.
|
|
He was so busy the last time he was at Kingston that he quite forgot
|
|
it, but he goes again to-morrow. So very odd we should happen to meet!
|
|
Well, Miss Woodhouse, is he like what you expected? What do you think
|
|
of him? Do you think him so very plain?"
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|
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|
"He is very plain, undoubtedly--remarkably plain:--but that is nothing
|
|
compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no right to expect
|
|
much, and I did not expect much; but I had no idea that he could be so
|
|
very clownish, so totally without air. I had imagined him, I confess,
|
|
a degree or two nearer gentility."
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|
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|
"To be sure," said Harriet, in a mortified voice, "he is not so genteel
|
|
as real gentlemen."
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|
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|
"I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been
|
|
repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen, that you
|
|
must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin. At
|
|
Hartfield, you have had very good specimens of well educated, well bred
|
|
men. I should be surprized if, after seeing them, you could be in
|
|
company with Mr. Martin again without perceiving him to be a very
|
|
inferior creature--and rather wondering at yourself for having ever
|
|
thought him at all agreeable before. Do not you begin to feel that
|
|
now? Were not you struck? I am sure you must have been struck by his
|
|
awkward look and abrupt manner, and the uncouthness of a voice which I
|
|
heard to be wholly unmodulated as I stood here."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine air
|
|
and way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference plain
|
|
enough. But Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley's air is so remarkably good that it is not fair to
|
|
compare Mr. Martin with _him_. You might not see one in a hundred with
|
|
_gentleman_ so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is not the
|
|
only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you to Mr.
|
|
Weston and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of _them_.
|
|
Compare their manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking;
|
|
of being silent. You must see the difference."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes!--there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost an old
|
|
man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty."
|
|
|
|
"Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a person
|
|
grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners should not
|
|
be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness, or coarseness, or
|
|
awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth is detestable in later
|
|
age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt; what will he be at Mr.
|
|
Weston's time of life?"
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|
|
|
"There is no saying, indeed," replied Harriet rather solemnly.
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|
|
|
"But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross,
|
|
vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking of
|
|
nothing but profit and loss."
|
|
|
|
"Will he, indeed? That will be very bad."
|
|
|
|
"How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the
|
|
circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended.
|
|
He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing
|
|
else--which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has he
|
|
to do with books? And I have no doubt that he _will_ thrive, and be a
|
|
very rich man in time--and his being illiterate and coarse need not
|
|
disturb _us_."
|
|
|
|
"I wonder he did not remember the book"--was all Harriet's answer, and
|
|
spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might be
|
|
safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time.
|
|
Her next beginning was,
|
|
|
|
"In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton's manners are superior to Mr.
|
|
Knightley's or Mr. Weston's. They have more gentleness. They might be
|
|
more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness, a quickness,
|
|
almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body likes in _him_,
|
|
because there is so much good-humour with it--but that would not do to
|
|
be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley's downright, decided,
|
|
commanding sort of manner, though it suits _him_ very well; his figure,
|
|
and look, and situation in life seem to allow it; but if any young man
|
|
were to set about copying him, he would not be sufferable. On the
|
|
contrary, I think a young man might be very safely recommended to take
|
|
Mr. Elton as a model. Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging,
|
|
and gentle. He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I
|
|
do not know whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with
|
|
either of us, Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that
|
|
his manners are softer than they used to be. If he means any thing, it
|
|
must be to please you. Did not I tell you what he said of you the
|
|
other day?"
|
|
|
|
She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn from
|
|
Mr. Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed and smiled,
|
|
and said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving the young
|
|
farmer out of Harriet's head. She thought it would be an excellent
|
|
match; and only too palpably desirable, natural, and probable, for her
|
|
to have much merit in planning it. She feared it was what every body
|
|
else must think of and predict. It was not likely, however, that any
|
|
body should have equalled her in the date of the plan, as it had
|
|
entered her brain during the very first evening of Harriet's coming to
|
|
Hartfield. The longer she considered it, the greater was her sense of
|
|
its expediency. Mr. Elton's situation was most suitable, quite the
|
|
gentleman himself, and without low connexions; at the same time, not of
|
|
any family that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet.
|
|
He had a comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient
|
|
income; for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known
|
|
to have some independent property; and she thought very highly of him
|
|
as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man, without any
|
|
deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.
|
|
|
|
She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful
|
|
girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield, was
|
|
foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet's there could be little
|
|
doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all the usual
|
|
weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing young man, a
|
|
young man whom any woman not fastidious might like. He was reckoned
|
|
very handsome; his person much admired in general, though not by her,
|
|
there being a want of elegance of feature which she could not dispense
|
|
with:--but the girl who could be gratified by a Robert Martin's riding
|
|
about the country to get walnuts for her might very well be conquered
|
|
by Mr. Elton's admiration.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER V
|
|
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|
|
"I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston," said Mr.
|
|
Knightley, "of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but
|
|
I think it a bad thing."
|
|
|
|
"A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?--why so?"
|
|
|
|
"I think they will neither of them do the other any good."
|
|
|
|
"You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her with
|
|
a new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good. I have
|
|
been seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure. How very
|
|
differently we feel!--Not think they will do each other any good! This
|
|
will certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels about Emma, Mr.
|
|
Knightley."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you, knowing
|
|
Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here, for he
|
|
thinks exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking of it only
|
|
yesterday, and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma, that there
|
|
should be such a girl in Highbury for her to associate with. Mr.
|
|
Knightley, I shall not allow you to be a fair judge in this case. You
|
|
are so much used to live alone, that you do not know the value of a
|
|
companion; and, perhaps no man can be a good judge of the comfort a
|
|
woman feels in the society of one of her own sex, after being used to
|
|
it all her life. I can imagine your objection to Harriet Smith. She
|
|
is not the superior young woman which Emma's friend ought to be. But
|
|
on the other hand, as Emma wants to see her better informed, it will be
|
|
an inducement to her to read more herself. They will read together.
|
|
She means it, I know."
|
|
|
|
"Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve years
|
|
old. I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at various times
|
|
of books that she meant to read regularly through--and very good lists
|
|
they were--very well chosen, and very neatly arranged--sometimes
|
|
alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule. The list she drew up
|
|
when only fourteen--I remember thinking it did her judgment so much
|
|
credit, that I preserved it some time; and I dare say she may have made
|
|
out a very good list now. But I have done with expecting any course of
|
|
steady reading from Emma. She will never submit to any thing requiring
|
|
industry and patience, and a subjection of the fancy to the
|
|
understanding. Where Miss Taylor failed to stimulate, I may safely
|
|
affirm that Harriet Smith will do nothing.--You never could persuade
|
|
her to read half so much as you wished.--You know you could not."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say," replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, "that I thought so
|
|
_then_;--but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma's omitting
|
|
to do any thing I wished."
|
|
|
|
"There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as
|
|
_that_,"--said Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had
|
|
done. "But I," he soon added, "who have had no such charm thrown over
|
|
my senses, must still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by
|
|
being the cleverest of her family. At ten years old, she had the
|
|
misfortune of being able to answer questions which puzzled her sister
|
|
at seventeen. She was always quick and assured: Isabella slow and
|
|
diffident. And ever since she was twelve, Emma has been mistress of
|
|
the house and of you all. In her mother she lost the only person able
|
|
to cope with her. She inherits her mother's talents, and must have
|
|
been under subjection to her."
|
|
|
|
"I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on _your_
|
|
recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse's family and wanted another
|
|
situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for me to
|
|
any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said he, smiling. "You are better placed _here_; very fit for a
|
|
wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing yourself
|
|
to be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield. You might
|
|
not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would seem to
|
|
promise; but you were receiving a very good education from _her_, on
|
|
the very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will, and
|
|
doing as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend him a
|
|
wife, I should certainly have named Miss Taylor."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife to
|
|
such a man as Mr. Weston."
|
|
|
|
"Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away, and
|
|
that with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing to be borne.
|
|
We will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross from the
|
|
wantonness of comfort, or his son may plague him."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not _that_.--It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not
|
|
foretell vexation from that quarter."
|
|
|
|
"Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma's
|
|
genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart, the
|
|
young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.--But
|
|
Harriet Smith--I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think her
|
|
the very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have. She
|
|
knows nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing. She
|
|
is a flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse, because
|
|
undesigned. Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can Emma imagine
|
|
she has any thing to learn herself, while Harriet is presenting such a
|
|
delightful inferiority? And as for Harriet, I will venture to say that
|
|
_she_ cannot gain by the acquaintance. Hartfield will only put her out
|
|
of conceit with all the other places she belongs to. She will grow
|
|
just refined enough to be uncomfortable with those among whom birth and
|
|
circumstances have placed her home. I am much mistaken if Emma's
|
|
doctrines give any strength of mind, or tend at all to make a girl
|
|
adapt herself rationally to the varieties of her situation in
|
|
life.--They only give a little polish."
|
|
|
|
"I either depend more upon Emma's good sense than you do, or am more
|
|
anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance.
|
|
How well she looked last night!"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you?
|
|
Very well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma's being pretty."
|
|
|
|
"Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer
|
|
perfect beauty than Emma altogether--face and figure?"
|
|
|
|
"I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have seldom
|
|
seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a
|
|
partial old friend."
|
|
|
|
"Such an eye!--the true hazle eye--and so brilliant! regular features,
|
|
open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health,
|
|
and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure!
|
|
There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head, her
|
|
glance. One hears sometimes of a child being 'the picture of health;'
|
|
now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete picture of
|
|
grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley, is not she?"
|
|
|
|
"I have not a fault to find with her person," he replied. "I think her
|
|
all you describe. I love to look at her; and I will add this praise,
|
|
that I do not think her personally vain. Considering how very handsome
|
|
she is, she appears to be little occupied with it; her vanity lies
|
|
another way. Mrs. Weston, I am not to be talked out of my dislike of
|
|
Harriet Smith, or my dread of its doing them both harm."
|
|
|
|
"And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its not
|
|
doing them any harm. With all dear Emma's little faults, she is an
|
|
excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter, or a kinder
|
|
sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities which may be
|
|
trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong; she will make no
|
|
lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the right a hundred
|
|
times."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel,
|
|
and I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John and
|
|
Isabella. John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore not a blind
|
|
affection, and Isabella always thinks as he does; except when he is not
|
|
quite frightened enough about the children. I am sure of having their
|
|
opinions with me."
|
|
|
|
"I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind;
|
|
but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself,
|
|
you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma's
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mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think any
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possible good can arise from Harriet Smith's intimacy being made a
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matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing any
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little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy, it cannot be
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expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father, who perfectly
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approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it, so long as it is a
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source of pleasure to herself. It has been so many years my province
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to give advice, that you cannot be surprized, Mr. Knightley, at this
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little remains of office."
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"Not at all," cried he; "I am much obliged to you for it. It is very
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good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your advice has often
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found; for it shall be attended to."
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"Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy about
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her sister."
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"Be satisfied," said he, "I will not raise any outcry. I will keep my
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ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma.
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Isabella does not seem more my sister; has never excited a greater
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interest; perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety, a curiosity in
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what one feels for Emma. I wonder what will become of her!"
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"So do I," said Mrs. Weston gently, "very much."
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"She always declares she will never marry, which, of course, means just
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nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet ever seen a man
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she cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her to be very much in
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love with a proper object. I should like to see Emma in love, and in
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some doubt of a return; it would do her good. But there is nobody
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hereabouts to attach her; and she goes so seldom from home."
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"There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break her
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resolution at present," said Mrs. Weston, "as can well be; and while
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she is so happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be forming any
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attachment which would be creating such difficulties on poor Mr.
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Woodhouse's account. I do not recommend matrimony at present to Emma,
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though I mean no slight to the state, I assure you."
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Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of her own
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and Mr. Weston's on the subject, as much as possible. There were
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wishes at Randalls respecting Emma's destiny, but it was not desirable
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to have them suspected; and the quiet transition which Mr. Knightley
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soon afterwards made to "What does Weston think of the weather; shall
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we have rain?" convinced her that he had nothing more to say or surmise
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about Hartfield.
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CHAPTER VI
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Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet's fancy a proper
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direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good
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purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr.
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Elton's being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners;
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and as she had no hesitation in following up the assurance of his
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admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon pretty confident of
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creating as much liking on Harriet's side, as there could be any
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occasion for. She was quite convinced of Mr. Elton's being in the
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fairest way of falling in love, if not in love already. She had no
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scruple with regard to him. He talked of Harriet, and praised her so
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warmly, that she could not suppose any thing wanting which a little
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time would not add. His perception of the striking improvement of
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Harriet's manner, since her introduction at Hartfield, was not one of
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the least agreeable proofs of his growing attachment.
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"You have given Miss Smith all that she required," said he; "you have
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made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature when she came
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to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have added are
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infinitely superior to what she received from nature."
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"I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet only wanted
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drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints. She had all the
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natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness in herself. I
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have done very little."
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"If it were admissible to contradict a lady," said the gallant Mr.
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Elton--
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"I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character, have
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taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her way before."
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"Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded
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decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!"
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"Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with a
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disposition more truly amiable."
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"I have no doubt of it." And it was spoken with a sort of sighing
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animation, which had a vast deal of the lover. She was not less
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pleased another day with the manner in which he seconded a sudden wish
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of hers, to have Harriet's picture.
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"Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?" said she: "did you
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ever sit for your picture?"
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Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say,
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with a very interesting naivete,
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"Oh! dear, no, never."
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No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,
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"What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would
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give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself.
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You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had a great
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passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of my friends, and
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was thought to have a tolerable eye in general. But from one cause or
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another, I gave it up in disgust. But really, I could almost venture,
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if Harriet would sit to me. It would be such a delight to have her
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picture!"
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"Let me entreat you," cried Mr. Elton; "it would indeed be a delight!
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Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a talent in
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favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are. How could you
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suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in specimens of your
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landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston some inimitable
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figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?"
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Yes, good man!--thought Emma--but what has all that to do with taking
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likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don't pretend to be in
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raptures about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet's face. "Well, if
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you give me such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe I shall try
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what I can do. Harriet's features are very delicate, which makes a
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likeness difficult; and yet there is a peculiarity in the shape of the
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eye and the lines about the mouth which one ought to catch."
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"Exactly so--The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth--I have
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not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it. As you will do
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it, it will indeed, to use your own words, be an exquisite possession."
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"But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit. She thinks
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so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her manner of
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answering me? How completely it meant, 'why should my picture be
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drawn?'"
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"Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me. But
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still I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded."
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Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made;
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and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the
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earnest pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work
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directly, and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various
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attempts at portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that
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they might decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many
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beginnings were displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths,
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pencil, crayon, and water-colours had been all tried in turn. She had
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always wanted to do every thing, and had made more progress both in
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drawing and music than many might have done with so little labour as
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she would ever submit to. She played and sang;--and drew in almost
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every style; but steadiness had always been wanting; and in nothing had
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she approached the degree of excellence which she would have been glad
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to command, and ought not to have failed of. She was not much deceived
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as to her own skill either as an artist or a musician, but she was not
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unwilling to have others deceived, or sorry to know her reputation for
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accomplishment often higher than it deserved.
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There was merit in every drawing--in the least finished, perhaps the
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most; her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had
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there been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two
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companions would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A
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likeness pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse's performances must be
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capital.
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"No great variety of faces for you," said Emma. "I had only my own
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family to study from. There is my father--another of my father--but
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the idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous, that I could
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only take him by stealth; neither of them very like therefore. Mrs.
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Weston again, and again, and again, you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always
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my kindest friend on every occasion. She would sit whenever I asked
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her. There is my sister; and really quite her own little elegant
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figure!--and the face not unlike. I should have made a good likeness
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of her, if she would have sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to
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have me draw her four children that she would not be quiet. Then, here
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|
come all my attempts at three of those four children;--there they are,
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Henry and John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and
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any one of them might do for any one of the rest. She was so eager to
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have them drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no making
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children of three or four years old stand still you know; nor can it be
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very easy to take any likeness of them, beyond the air and complexion,
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unless they are coarser featured than any of mama's children ever were.
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Here is my sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I took him as he was
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sleeping on the sofa, and it is as strong a likeness of his cockade as
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you would wish to see. He had nestled down his head most conveniently.
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That's very like. I am rather proud of little George. The corner of
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the sofa is very good. Then here is my last,"--unclosing a pretty
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sketch of a gentleman in small size, whole-length--"my last and my
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best--my brother, Mr. John Knightley.--This did not want much of being
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|
finished, when I put it away in a pet, and vowed I would never take
|
|
another likeness. I could not help being provoked; for after all my
|
|
pains, and when I had really made a very good likeness of it--(Mrs.
|
|
Weston and I were quite agreed in thinking it _very_ like)--only too
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|
handsome--too flattering--but that was a fault on the right side--after
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|
all this, came poor dear Isabella's cold approbation of--"Yes, it was a
|
|
little like--but to be sure it did not do him justice." We had had a
|
|
great deal of trouble in persuading him to sit at all. It was made a
|
|
great favour of; and altogether it was more than I could bear; and so I
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|
never would finish it, to have it apologised over as an unfavourable
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|
likeness, to every morning visitor in Brunswick Square;--and, as I
|
|
said, I did then forswear ever drawing any body again. But for
|
|
Harriet's sake, or rather for my own, and as there are no husbands and
|
|
wives in the case _at_ _present_, I will break my resolution now."
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|
Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea, and
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|
was repeating, "No husbands and wives in the case at present indeed, as
|
|
you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives," with so interesting
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|
a consciousness, that Emma began to consider whether she had not better
|
|
leave them together at once. But as she wanted to be drawing, the
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|
declaration must wait a little longer.
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|
She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait. It was to be a
|
|
whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John Knightley's, and was
|
|
destined, if she could please herself, to hold a very honourable
|
|
station over the mantelpiece.
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|
The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid of not
|
|
keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet mixture of
|
|
youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist. But there was no
|
|
doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every
|
|
touch. She gave him credit for stationing himself where he might gaze
|
|
and gaze again without offence; but was really obliged to put an end to
|
|
it, and request him to place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to
|
|
her to employ him in reading.
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|
|
|
"If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness
|
|
indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen
|
|
the irksomeness of Miss Smith's."
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|
Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew in
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|
peace. She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look; any
|
|
thing less would certainly have been too little in a lover; and he was
|
|
ready at the smallest intermission of the pencil, to jump up and see
|
|
the progress, and be charmed.--There was no being displeased with such
|
|
an encourager, for his admiration made him discern a likeness almost
|
|
before it was possible. She could not respect his eye, but his love
|
|
and his complaisance were unexceptionable.
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|
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|
The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite enough
|
|
pleased with the first day's sketch to wish to go on. There was no
|
|
want of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude, and as she
|
|
meant to throw in a little improvement to the figure, to give a little
|
|
more height, and considerably more elegance, she had great confidence
|
|
of its being in every way a pretty drawing at last, and of its filling
|
|
its destined place with credit to them both--a standing memorial of the
|
|
beauty of one, the skill of the other, and the friendship of both; with
|
|
as many other agreeable associations as Mr. Elton's very promising
|
|
attachment was likely to add.
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|
|
|
Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought,
|
|
entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.
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|
"By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one of the
|
|
party."
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|
The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction,
|
|
took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress of the
|
|
picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it was pleased,
|
|
but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended it through every
|
|
criticism.
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|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she
|
|
wanted,"--observed Mrs. Weston to him--not in the least suspecting that
|
|
she was addressing a lover.--"The expression of the eye is most
|
|
correct, but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes. It is
|
|
the fault of her face that she has them not."
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|
|
|
"Do you think so?" replied he. "I cannot agree with you. It appears
|
|
to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature. I never saw such a
|
|
likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect of shade, you know."
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|
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|
"You have made her too tall, Emma," said Mr. Knightley.
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|
|
|
Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly
|
|
added,
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|
|
"Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider,
|
|
she is sitting down--which naturally presents a different--which in
|
|
short gives exactly the idea--and the proportions must be preserved,
|
|
you know. Proportions, fore-shortening.--Oh no! it gives one exactly
|
|
the idea of such a height as Miss Smith's. Exactly so indeed!"
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|
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|
"It is very pretty," said Mr. Woodhouse. "So prettily done! Just as
|
|
your drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws so
|
|
well as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is, that she
|
|
seems to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl over her
|
|
shoulders--and it makes one think she must catch cold."
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|
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|
"But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer.
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|
Look at the tree."
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|
"But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear."
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|
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|
"You, sir, may say any thing," cried Mr. Elton, "but I must confess
|
|
that I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss Smith out
|
|
of doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable spirit! Any
|
|
other situation would have been much less in character. The naivete of
|
|
Miss Smith's manners--and altogether--Oh, it is most admirable! I
|
|
cannot keep my eyes from it. I never saw such a likeness."
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|
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|
The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a
|
|
few difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London;
|
|
the order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose
|
|
taste could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all
|
|
commissions, must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in
|
|
the fogs of December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr.
|
|
Elton, than it was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert.
|
|
"Might he be trusted with the commission, what infinite pleasure should
|
|
he have in executing it! he could ride to London at any time. It was
|
|
impossible to say how much he should be gratified by being employed on
|
|
such an errand."
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|
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"He was too good!--she could not endure the thought!--she would not
|
|
give him such a troublesome office for the world,"--brought on the
|
|
desired repetition of entreaties and assurances,--and a very few
|
|
minutes settled the business.
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|
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|
Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame, and give
|
|
the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it as to ensure its
|
|
safety without much incommoding him, while he seemed mostly fearful of
|
|
not being incommoded enough.
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|
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"What a precious deposit!" said he with a tender sigh, as he received
|
|
it.
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|
"This man is almost too gallant to be in love," thought Emma. "I
|
|
should say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different ways
|
|
of being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit Harriet
|
|
exactly; it will be an 'Exactly so,' as he says himself; but he does
|
|
sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more than I could
|
|
endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good share as a second.
|
|
But it is his gratitude on Harriet's account."
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CHAPTER VII
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|
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The very day of Mr. Elton's going to London produced a fresh occasion
|
|
for Emma's services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield,
|
|
as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to
|
|
return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been talked
|
|
of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something
|
|
extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell. Half a
|
|
minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got back to
|
|
Mrs. Goddard's, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before, and
|
|
finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left a
|
|
little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on
|
|
opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs
|
|
which she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this
|
|
letter was from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal
|
|
of marriage. "Who could have thought it? She was so surprized she did
|
|
not know what to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage; and a very
|
|
good letter, at least she thought so. And he wrote as if he really
|
|
loved her very much--but she did not know--and so, she was come as fast
|
|
as she could to ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.--" Emma was
|
|
half-ashamed of her friend for seeming so pleased and so doubtful.
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|
|
|
"Upon my word," she cried, "the young man is determined not to lose any
|
|
thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can."
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|
|
|
"Will you read the letter?" cried Harriet. "Pray do. I'd rather you
|
|
would."
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|
|
Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized. The
|
|
style of the letter was much above her expectation. There were not
|
|
merely no grammatical errors, but as a composition it would not have
|
|
disgraced a gentleman; the language, though plain, was strong and
|
|
unaffected, and the sentiments it conveyed very much to the credit of
|
|
the writer. It was short, but expressed good sense, warm attachment,
|
|
liberality, propriety, even delicacy of feeling. She paused over it,
|
|
while Harriet stood anxiously watching for her opinion, with a "Well,
|
|
well," and was at last forced to add, "Is it a good letter? or is it
|
|
too short?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, indeed, a very good letter," replied Emma rather slowly--"so good
|
|
a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of his
|
|
sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young man whom
|
|
I saw talking with you the other day could express himself so well, if
|
|
left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the style of a woman;
|
|
no, certainly, it is too strong and concise; not diffuse enough for a
|
|
woman. No doubt he is a sensible man, and I suppose may have a natural
|
|
talent for--thinks strongly and clearly--and when he takes a pen in
|
|
hand, his thoughts naturally find proper words. It is so with some
|
|
men. Yes, I understand the sort of mind. Vigorous, decided, with
|
|
sentiments to a certain point, not coarse. A better written letter,
|
|
Harriet (returning it,) than I had expected."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said the still waiting Harriet;--"well--and--and what shall I
|
|
do?"
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|
|
"What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard to this
|
|
letter?"
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|
|
|
"Yes."
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|
|
"But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course--and
|
|
speedily."
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|
|
|
"Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me."
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|
|
|
"Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will
|
|
express yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your
|
|
not being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must be
|
|
unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude and
|
|
concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires, will
|
|
present themselves unbidden to _your_ mind, I am persuaded. You need
|
|
not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow for his
|
|
disappointment."
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|
|
|
"You think I ought to refuse him then," said Harriet, looking down.
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"Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you in any
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doubt as to that? I thought--but I beg your pardon, perhaps I have been
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under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding you, if you
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feel in doubt as to the _purport_ of your answer. I had imagined you
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were consulting me only as to the wording of it."
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Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:
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"You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect."
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"No, I do not; that is, I do not mean--What shall I do? What would you
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advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I ought to do."
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"I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to do
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with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings."
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"I had no notion that he liked me so very much," said Harriet,
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contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered in her
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silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery of that
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letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,
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"I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman _doubts_ as
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to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to
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refuse him. If she can hesitate as to 'Yes,' she ought to say 'No'
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directly. It is not a state to be safely entered into with doubtful
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feelings, with half a heart. I thought it my duty as a friend, and
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older than yourself, to say thus much to you. But do not imagine that
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I want to influence you."
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"Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to--but if you would
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just advise me what I had best do--No, no, I do not mean that--As you
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say, one's mind ought to be quite made up--One should not be
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hesitating--It is a very serious thing.--It will be safer to say 'No,'
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perhaps.--Do you think I had better say 'No?'"
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"Not for the world," said Emma, smiling graciously, "would I advise you
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either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness. If you
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prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him the most
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agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should you
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hesitate? You blush, Harriet.--Does any body else occur to you at this
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moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not deceive
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yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion. At this
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moment whom are you thinking of?"
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The symptoms were favourable.--Instead of answering, Harriet turned
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away confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though the
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letter was still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted about
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without regard. Emma waited the result with impatience, but not
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without strong hopes. At last, with some hesitation, Harriet said--
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"Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must do as
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well as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined, and really
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almost made up my mind--to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you think I am right?"
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"Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just
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what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings
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to myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no
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hesitation in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this. It
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would have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have been
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the consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in the
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smallest degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would not
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influence; but it would have been the loss of a friend to me. I could
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not have visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I am
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secure of you for ever."
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Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck her
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forcibly.
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"You could not have visited me!" she cried, looking aghast. "No, to be
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sure you could not; but I never thought of that before. That would
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have been too dreadful!--What an escape!--Dear Miss Woodhouse, I would
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not give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you for any
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thing in the world."
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"Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you; but it
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must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all good
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society. I must have given you up."
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"Dear me!--How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed me
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never to come to Hartfield any more!"
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"Dear affectionate creature!--_You_ banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!--_You_
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confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life! I
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wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it. He must
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have a pretty good opinion of himself."
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"I do not think he is conceited either, in general," said Harriet, her
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conscience opposing such censure; "at least, he is very good natured,
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and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard
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for--but that is quite a different thing from--and you know, though he
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may like me, it does not follow that I should--and certainly I must
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confess that since my visiting here I have seen people--and if one
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comes to compare them, person and manners, there is no comparison at
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all, _one_ is so very handsome and agreeable. However, I do really
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think Mr. Martin a very amiable young man, and have a great opinion of
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him; and his being so much attached to me--and his writing such a
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letter--but as to leaving you, it is what I would not do upon any
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consideration."
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"Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not be
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parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked, or
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because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter."
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"Oh no;--and it is but a short letter too."
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Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a "very
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true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the clownish
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manner which might be offending her every hour of the day, to know that
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her husband could write a good letter."
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"Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always
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happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him.
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But how shall I do? What shall I say?"
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Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer, and
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advised its being written directly, which was agreed to, in the hope of
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her assistance; and though Emma continued to protest against any
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assistance being wanted, it was in fact given in the formation of every
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sentence. The looking over his letter again, in replying to it, had
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such a softening tendency, that it was particularly necessary to brace
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her up with a few decisive expressions; and she was so very much
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concerned at the idea of making him unhappy, and thought so much of
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what his mother and sisters would think and say, and was so anxious
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that they should not fancy her ungrateful, that Emma believed if the
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young man had come in her way at that moment, he would have been
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accepted after all.
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This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent. The business
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was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low all the evening,
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|
but Emma could allow for her amiable regrets, and sometimes relieved
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them by speaking of her own affection, sometimes by bringing forward
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the idea of Mr. Elton.
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"I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again," was said in rather a
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|
sorrowful tone.
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"Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet. You
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are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared to Abbey-Mill."
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"And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy
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but at Hartfield."
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Some time afterwards it was, "I think Mrs. Goddard would be very much
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|
surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash
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|
would--for Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married, and it is
|
|
only a linen-draper."
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"One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the teacher
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|
of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you such an
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|
opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest would appear
|
|
valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you, I suppose she
|
|
is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain person can hardly be
|
|
among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet. Hitherto I fancy you and I
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|
are the only people to whom his looks and manners have explained
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|
themselves."
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Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering that
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|
people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was certainly
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|
cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted again towards
|
|
the rejected Mr. Martin.
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"Now he has got my letter," said she softly. "I wonder what they are
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|
all doing--whether his sisters know--if he is unhappy, they will be
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|
unhappy too. I hope he will not mind it so very much."
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"Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more cheerfully
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|
employed," cried Emma. "At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton is shewing
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|
your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much more beautiful
|
|
is the original, and after being asked for it five or six times,
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|
allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name."
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"My picture!--But he has left my picture in Bond-street."
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"Has he so!--Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear little
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|
modest Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be in Bond-street
|
|
till just before he mounts his horse to-morrow. It is his companion
|
|
all this evening, his solace, his delight. It opens his designs to his
|
|
family, it introduces you among them, it diffuses through the party
|
|
those pleasantest feelings of our nature, eager curiosity and warm
|
|
prepossession. How cheerful, how animated, how suspicious, how busy
|
|
their imaginations all are!"
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Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.
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CHAPTER VIII
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Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had
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|
been spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to
|
|
have a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in
|
|
every respect, safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as
|
|
possible just at present. She was obliged to go the next morning for
|
|
an hour or two to Mrs. Goddard's, but it was then to be settled that
|
|
she should return to Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.
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|
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|
While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up his
|
|
mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it, and
|
|
was induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples of
|
|
his own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose. Mr.
|
|
Knightley, who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering by his
|
|
short, decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted apologies
|
|
and civil hesitations of the other.
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|
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|
"Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you will not
|
|
consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take Emma's advice and
|
|
go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun is out, I believe I had
|
|
better take my three turns while I can. I treat you without ceremony,
|
|
Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we are privileged people."
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|
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|
"My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me."
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|
|
|
"I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to
|
|
entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse and take
|
|
my three turns--my winter walk."
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|
|
|
"You cannot do better, sir."
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|
|
|
"I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley, but I am
|
|
a very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you; and, besides,
|
|
you have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I think
|
|
the sooner _you_ go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat and open
|
|
the garden door for you."
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|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being
|
|
immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined for more
|
|
chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking of her with more
|
|
voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot rate her beauty as you do," said he; "but she is a pretty
|
|
little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of her
|
|
disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with; but in good
|
|
hands she will turn out a valuable woman."
|
|
|
|
"I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be
|
|
wanting."
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|
|
|
"Come," said he, "you are anxious for a compliment, so I will tell you
|
|
that you have improved her. You have cured her of her school-girl's
|
|
giggle; she really does you credit."
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|
|
|
"Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I had
|
|
been of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow praise where
|
|
they may. _You_ do not often overpower me with it."
|
|
|
|
"You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?"
|
|
|
|
"Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than she
|
|
intended."
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|
|
|
"Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps."
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|
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|
"Highbury gossips!--Tiresome wretches!"
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|
|
|
"Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would."
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|
|
|
Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore said
|
|
nothing. He presently added, with a smile,
|
|
|
|
"I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you that I
|
|
have good reason to believe your little friend will soon hear of
|
|
something to her advantage."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! how so? of what sort?"
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|
|
|
"A very serious sort, I assure you;" still smiling.
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|
|
|
"Very serious! I can think of but one thing--Who is in love with her?
|
|
Who makes you their confidant?"
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|
|
|
Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton's having dropt a hint.
|
|
Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew
|
|
Mr. Elton looked up to him.
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|
|
|
"I have reason to think," he replied, "that Harriet Smith will soon
|
|
have an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable
|
|
quarter:--Robert Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill, this
|
|
summer, seems to have done his business. He is desperately in love and
|
|
means to marry her."
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|
|
|
"He is very obliging," said Emma; "but is he sure that Harriet means to
|
|
marry him?"
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|
|
|
"Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came to
|
|
the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it. He
|
|
knows I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and, I
|
|
believe, considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask me
|
|
whether I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early;
|
|
whether I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his
|
|
choice altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being
|
|
considered (especially since _your_ making so much of her) as in a line
|
|
of society above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said.
|
|
I never hear better sense from any one than Robert Martin. He always
|
|
speaks to the purpose; open, straightforward, and very well judging.
|
|
He told me every thing; his circumstances and plans, and what they all
|
|
proposed doing in the event of his marriage. He is an excellent young
|
|
man, both as son and brother. I had no hesitation in advising him to
|
|
marry. He proved to me that he could afford it; and that being the
|
|
case, I was convinced he could not do better. I praised the fair lady
|
|
too, and altogether sent him away very happy. If he had never esteemed
|
|
my opinion before, he would have thought highly of me then; and, I dare
|
|
say, left the house thinking me the best friend and counsellor man ever
|
|
had. This happened the night before last. Now, as we may fairly
|
|
suppose, he would not allow much time to pass before he spoke to the
|
|
lady, and as he does not appear to have spoken yesterday, it is not
|
|
unlikely that he should be at Mrs. Goddard's to-day; and she may be
|
|
detained by a visitor, without thinking him at all a tiresome wretch."
|
|
|
|
"Pray, Mr. Knightley," said Emma, who had been smiling to herself
|
|
through a great part of this speech, "how do you know that Mr. Martin
|
|
did not speak yesterday?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly," replied he, surprized, "I do not absolutely know it; but
|
|
it may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?"
|
|
|
|
"Come," said she, "I will tell you something, in return for what you
|
|
have told me. He did speak yesterday--that is, he wrote, and was
|
|
refused."
|
|
|
|
This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed; and Mr.
|
|
Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure, as he
|
|
stood up, in tall indignation, and said,
|
|
|
|
"Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her. What is the
|
|
foolish girl about?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! to be sure," cried Emma, "it is always incomprehensible to a man
|
|
that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage. A man always
|
|
imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is the
|
|
meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness, if it is
|
|
so; but I hope you are mistaken."
|
|
|
|
"I saw her answer!--nothing could be clearer."
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|
|
|
"You saw her answer!--you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your
|
|
doing. You persuaded her to refuse him."
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|
|
|
"And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should not
|
|
feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable young
|
|
man, but I cannot admit him to be Harriet's equal; and am rather
|
|
surprized indeed that he should have ventured to address her. By your
|
|
account, he does seem to have had some scruples. It is a pity that
|
|
they were ever got over."
|
|
|
|
"Not Harriet's equal!" exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly; and
|
|
with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, "No, he is not
|
|
her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense as in
|
|
situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you. What
|
|
are Harriet Smith's claims, either of birth, nature or education, to
|
|
any connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural daughter of
|
|
nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision at all, and
|
|
certainly no respectable relations. She is known only as
|
|
parlour-boarder at a common school. She is not a sensible girl, nor a
|
|
girl of any information. She has been taught nothing useful, and is
|
|
too young and too simple to have acquired any thing herself. At her
|
|
age she can have no experience, and with her little wit, is not very
|
|
likely ever to have any that can avail her. She is pretty, and she is
|
|
good tempered, and that is all. My only scruple in advising the match
|
|
was on his account, as being beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion
|
|
for him. I felt that, as to fortune, in all probability he might do
|
|
much better; and that as to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he
|
|
could not do worse. But I could not reason so to a man in love, and
|
|
was willing to trust to there being no harm in her, to her having that
|
|
sort of disposition, which, in good hands, like his, might be easily
|
|
led aright and turn out very well. The advantage of the match I felt
|
|
to be all on her side; and had not the smallest doubt (nor have I now)
|
|
that there would be a general cry-out upon her extreme good luck. Even
|
|
_your_ satisfaction I made sure of. It crossed my mind immediately
|
|
that you would not regret your friend's leaving Highbury, for the sake
|
|
of her being settled so well. I remember saying to myself, 'Even Emma,
|
|
with all her partiality for Harriet, will think this a good match.'"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say
|
|
any such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all
|
|
his merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate
|
|
friend! Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying a man
|
|
whom I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I wonder you
|
|
should think it possible for me to have such feelings. I assure you
|
|
mine are very different. I must think your statement by no means fair.
|
|
You are not just to Harriet's claims. They would be estimated very
|
|
differently by others as well as myself; Mr. Martin may be the richest
|
|
of the two, but he is undoubtedly her inferior as to rank in
|
|
society.--The sphere in which she moves is much above his.--It would be
|
|
a degradation."
|
|
|
|
"A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a
|
|
respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!"
|
|
|
|
"As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense she may
|
|
be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense. She is not to pay
|
|
for the offence of others, by being held below the level of those with
|
|
whom she is brought up.--There can scarcely be a doubt that her father
|
|
is a gentleman--and a gentleman of fortune.--Her allowance is very
|
|
liberal; nothing has ever been grudged for her improvement or
|
|
comfort.--That she is a gentleman's daughter, is indubitable to me;
|
|
that she associates with gentlemen's daughters, no one, I apprehend,
|
|
will deny.--She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
"Whoever might be her parents," said Mr. Knightley, "whoever may have
|
|
had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part of
|
|
their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society.
|
|
After receiving a very indifferent education she is left in Mrs.
|
|
Goddard's hands to shift as she can;--to move, in short, in Mrs.
|
|
Goddard's line, to have Mrs. Goddard's acquaintance. Her friends
|
|
evidently thought this good enough for her; and it _was_ good enough.
|
|
She desired nothing better herself. Till you chose to turn her into a
|
|
friend, her mind had no distaste for her own set, nor any ambition
|
|
beyond it. She was as happy as possible with the Martins in the
|
|
summer. She had no sense of superiority then. If she has it now, you
|
|
have given it. You have been no friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert
|
|
Martin would never have proceeded so far, if he had not felt persuaded
|
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of her not being disinclined to him. I know him well. He has too much
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real feeling to address any woman on the haphazard of selfish passion.
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And as to conceit, he is the farthest from it of any man I know.
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Depend upon it he had encouragement."
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It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this
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assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject
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again.
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"You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before, are
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unjust to Harriet. Harriet's claims to marry well are not so
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contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl, but she
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has better sense than you are aware of, and does not deserve to have
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her understanding spoken of so slightingly. Waiving that point,
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however, and supposing her to be, as you describe her, only pretty and
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good-natured, let me tell you, that in the degree she possesses them,
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they are not trivial recommendations to the world in general, for she
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is, in fact, a beautiful girl, and must be thought so by ninety-nine
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people out of an hundred; and till it appears that men are much more
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philosophic on the subject of beauty than they are generally supposed;
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till they do fall in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome
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faces, a girl, with such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of
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being admired and sought after, of having the power of chusing from
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among many, consequently a claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is
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not so very slight a claim, comprehending, as it does, real, thorough
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sweetness of temper and manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a
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great readiness to be pleased with other people. I am very much
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mistaken if your sex in general would not think such beauty, and such
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temper, the highest claims a woman could possess."
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"Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have, is almost
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enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense, than misapply
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it as you do."
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"To be sure!" cried she playfully. "I know _that_ is the feeling of
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you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly what every man
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delights in--what at once bewitches his senses and satisfies his
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judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse. Were you, yourself, ever to
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marry, she is the very woman for you. And is she, at seventeen, just
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entering into life, just beginning to be known, to be wondered at
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because she does not accept the first offer she receives? No--pray let
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her have time to look about her."
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"I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy," said Mr. Knightley
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presently, "though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now
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perceive that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet. You will
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puff her up with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what she has a
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claim to, that, in a little while, nobody within her reach will be good
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|
enough for her. Vanity working on a weak head, produces every sort of
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mischief. Nothing so easy as for a young lady to raise her
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expectations too high. Miss Harriet Smith may not find offers of
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marriage flow in so fast, though she is a very pretty girl. Men of
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sense, whatever you may chuse to say, do not want silly wives. Men of
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family would not be very fond of connecting themselves with a girl of
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such obscurity--and most prudent men would be afraid of the
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inconvenience and disgrace they might be involved in, when the mystery
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of her parentage came to be revealed. Let her marry Robert Martin, and
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she is safe, respectable, and happy for ever; but if you encourage her
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to expect to marry greatly, and teach her to be satisfied with nothing
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less than a man of consequence and large fortune, she may be a
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parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard's all the rest of her life--or, at
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|
least, (for Harriet Smith is a girl who will marry somebody or other,)
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till she grow desperate, and is glad to catch at the old
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writing-master's son."
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"We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley, that there
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can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making each other
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more angry. But as to my _letting_ her marry Robert Martin, it is
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impossible; she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think, as must
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prevent any second application. She must abide by the evil of having
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refused him, whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself, I will
|
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not pretend to say that I might not influence her a little; but I
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assure you there was very little for me or for any body to do. His
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appearance is so much against him, and his manner so bad, that if she
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ever were disposed to favour him, she is not now. I can imagine, that
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before she had seen any body superior, she might tolerate him. He was
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the brother of her friends, and he took pains to please her; and
|
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altogether, having seen nobody better (that must have been his great
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assistant) she might not, while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him
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disagreeable. But the case is altered now. She knows now what
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gentlemen are; and nothing but a gentleman in education and manner has
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any chance with Harriet."
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"Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!" cried Mr.
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Knightley.--"Robert Martin's manners have sense, sincerity, and
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good-humour to recommend them; and his mind has more true gentility
|
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than Harriet Smith could understand."
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Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was
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really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone. She
|
|
did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself a better
|
|
judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he could be;
|
|
but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment in general,
|
|
which made her dislike having it so loudly against her; and to have him
|
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sitting just opposite to her in angry state, was very disagreeable.
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Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence, with only one attempt
|
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on Emma's side to talk of the weather, but he made no answer. He was
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|
thinking. The result of his thoughts appeared at last in these words.
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"Robert Martin has no great loss--if he can but think so; and I hope it
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|
will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet are best known
|
|
to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love of match-making, it
|
|
is fair to suppose that views, and plans, and projects you have;--and
|
|
as a friend I shall just hint to you that if Elton is the man, I think
|
|
it will be all labour in vain."
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Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,
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"Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man,
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|
and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely to make
|
|
an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income as well as any
|
|
body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will act rationally. He is
|
|
as well acquainted with his own claims, as you can be with Harriet's.
|
|
He knows that he is a very handsome young man, and a great favourite
|
|
wherever he goes; and from his general way of talking in unreserved
|
|
moments, when there are only men present, I am convinced that he does
|
|
not mean to throw himself away. I have heard him speak with great
|
|
animation of a large family of young ladies that his sisters are
|
|
intimate with, who have all twenty thousand pounds apiece."
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"I am very much obliged to you," said Emma, laughing again. "If I had
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|
set my heart on Mr. Elton's marrying Harriet, it would have been very
|
|
kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want to keep Harriet to
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|
myself. I have done with match-making indeed. I could never hope to
|
|
equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave off while I am well."
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"Good morning to you,"--said he, rising and walking off abruptly. He
|
|
was very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man, and
|
|
was mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the sanction
|
|
he had given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had taken in the
|
|
affair, was provoking him exceedingly.
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Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more
|
|
indistinctness in the causes of her's, than in his. She did not always
|
|
feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that
|
|
her opinions were right and her adversary's wrong, as Mr. Knightley.
|
|
He walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her.
|
|
She was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little time
|
|
and the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives. Harriet's
|
|
staying away so long was beginning to make her uneasy. The possibility
|
|
of the young man's coming to Mrs. Goddard's that morning, and meeting
|
|
with Harriet and pleading his own cause, gave alarming ideas. The
|
|
dread of such a failure after all became the prominent uneasiness; and
|
|
when Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits, and without having any
|
|
such reason to give for her long absence, she felt a satisfaction which
|
|
settled her with her own mind, and convinced her, that let Mr.
|
|
Knightley think or say what he would, she had done nothing which
|
|
woman's friendship and woman's feelings would not justify.
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He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered
|
|
that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done, neither
|
|
with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself, in spite
|
|
of Mr. Knightley's pretensions) with the skill of such an observer on
|
|
such a question as herself, that he had spoken it hastily and in anger,
|
|
she was able to believe, that he had rather said what he wished
|
|
resentfully to be true, than what he knew any thing about. He
|
|
certainly might have heard Mr. Elton speak with more unreserve than she
|
|
had ever done, and Mr. Elton might not be of an imprudent,
|
|
inconsiderate disposition as to money matters; he might naturally be
|
|
rather attentive than otherwise to them; but then, Mr. Knightley did
|
|
not make due allowance for the influence of a strong passion at war
|
|
with all interested motives. Mr. Knightley saw no such passion, and of
|
|
course thought nothing of its effects; but she saw too much of it to
|
|
feel a doubt of its overcoming any hesitations that a reasonable
|
|
prudence might originally suggest; and more than a reasonable, becoming
|
|
degree of prudence, she was very sure did not belong to Mr. Elton.
|
|
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|
Harriet's cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back, not
|
|
to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had been
|
|
telling her something, which she repeated immediately with great
|
|
delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard's to attend a sick child,
|
|
and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash, that as he was
|
|
coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met Mr. Elton, and
|
|
found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was actually on his road to
|
|
London, and not meaning to return till the morrow, though it was the
|
|
whist-club night, which he had been never known to miss before; and Mr.
|
|
Perry had remonstrated with him about it, and told him how shabby it
|
|
was in him, their best player, to absent himself, and tried very much
|
|
to persuade him to put off his journey only one day; but it would not
|
|
do; Mr. Elton had been determined to go on, and had said in a _very_
|
|
_particular_ way indeed, that he was going on business which he would
|
|
not put off for any inducement in the world; and something about a very
|
|
enviable commission, and being the bearer of something exceedingly
|
|
precious. Mr. Perry could not quite understand him, but he was very
|
|
sure there must be a _lady_ in the case, and he told him so; and Mr.
|
|
Elton only looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great
|
|
spirits. Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal
|
|
more about Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her,
|
|
"that she did not pretend to understand what his business might be, but
|
|
she only knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer, she should
|
|
think the luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt, Mr. Elton
|
|
had not his equal for beauty or agreeableness."
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CHAPTER IX
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Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with
|
|
herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual
|
|
before he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave
|
|
looks shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not
|
|
repent. On the contrary, her plans and proceedings were more and more
|
|
justified and endeared to her by the general appearances of the next
|
|
few days.
|
|
|
|
The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after Mr.
|
|
Elton's return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common
|
|
sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half
|
|
sentences of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet's
|
|
feelings, they were visibly forming themselves into as strong and
|
|
steady an attachment as her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was
|
|
soon perfectly satisfied of Mr. Martin's being no otherwise remembered,
|
|
than as he furnished a contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage
|
|
to the latter.
|
|
|
|
Her views of improving her little friend's mind, by a great deal of
|
|
useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than a few
|
|
first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow. It was much
|
|
easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let her imagination
|
|
range and work at Harriet's fortune, than to be labouring to enlarge
|
|
her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts; and the only literary
|
|
pursuit which engaged Harriet at present, the only mental provision she
|
|
was making for the evening of life, was the collecting and transcribing
|
|
all the riddles of every sort that she could meet with, into a thin
|
|
quarto of hot-pressed paper, made up by her friend, and ornamented with
|
|
ciphers and trophies.
|
|
|
|
In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale are
|
|
not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard's, had written
|
|
out at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken the first hint
|
|
of it from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse's help, to get a great many
|
|
more. Emma assisted with her invention, memory and taste; and as
|
|
Harriet wrote a very pretty hand, it was likely to be an arrangement of
|
|
the first order, in form as well as quantity.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the
|
|
girls, and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting
|
|
in. "So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young--he
|
|
wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time."
|
|
And it always ended in "Kitty, a fair but frozen maid."
|
|
|
|
His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject, did
|
|
not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind; but he had
|
|
desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about so much,
|
|
something, he thought, might come from that quarter.
|
|
|
|
It was by no means his daughter's wish that the intellects of Highbury
|
|
in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton was the only one
|
|
whose assistance she asked. He was invited to contribute any really
|
|
good enigmas, charades, or conundrums that he might recollect; and she
|
|
had the pleasure of seeing him most intently at work with his
|
|
recollections; and at the same time, as she could perceive, most
|
|
earnestly careful that nothing ungallant, nothing that did not breathe
|
|
a compliment to the sex should pass his lips. They owed to him their
|
|
two or three politest puzzles; and the joy and exultation with which at
|
|
last he recalled, and rather sentimentally recited, that well-known
|
|
charade,
|
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|
|
My first doth affliction denote,
|
|
Which my second is destin'd to feel
|
|
And my whole is the best antidote
|
|
That affliction to soften and heal.--
|
|
|
|
made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it some
|
|
pages ago already.
|
|
|
|
"Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?" said she;
|
|
"that is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be
|
|
easier to you."
|
|
|
|
"Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind in his
|
|
life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss Woodhouse"--he
|
|
stopt a moment--"or Miss Smith could inspire him."
|
|
|
|
The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration. He
|
|
called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the table
|
|
containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had addressed
|
|
to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which, from his
|
|
manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.
|
|
|
|
"I do not offer it for Miss Smith's collection," said he. "Being my
|
|
friend's, I have no right to expose it in any degree to the public eye,
|
|
but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it."
|
|
|
|
The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma could
|
|
understand. There was deep consciousness about him, and he found it
|
|
easier to meet her eye than her friend's. He was gone the next
|
|
moment:--after another moment's pause,
|
|
|
|
"Take it," said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards
|
|
Harriet--"it is for you. Take your own."
|
|
|
|
But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma, never
|
|
loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.
|
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|
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To Miss--
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CHARADE.
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|
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
|
|
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
|
|
Another view of man, my second brings,
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
But ah! united, what reverse we have!
|
|
Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown;
|
|
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,
|
|
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
|
|
|
|
She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through
|
|
again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then
|
|
passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself,
|
|
while Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion of hope
|
|
and dulness, "Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed. I have read
|
|
worse charades. _Courtship_--a very good hint. I give you credit for
|
|
it. This is feeling your way. This is saying very plainly--'Pray,
|
|
Miss Smith, give me leave to pay my addresses to you. Approve my
|
|
charade and my intentions in the same glance.'
|
|
|
|
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
|
|
|
|
Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye--of all epithets,
|
|
the justest that could be given.
|
|
|
|
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.
|
|
|
|
Humph--Harriet's ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much in
|
|
love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you had
|
|
the benefit of this; I think this would convince you. For once in your
|
|
life you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken. An excellent
|
|
charade indeed! and very much to the purpose. Things must come to a
|
|
crisis soon now.
|
|
|
|
She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations,
|
|
which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the
|
|
eagerness of Harriet's wondering questions.
|
|
|
|
"What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?--what can it be? I have not an idea--I
|
|
cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try to find
|
|
it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing so hard.
|
|
Is it kingdom? I wonder who the friend was--and who could be the young
|
|
lady. Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?
|
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|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
Can it be Neptune?
|
|
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only one
|
|
syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it.
|
|
Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?"
|
|
|
|
"Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking
|
|
of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made by a
|
|
friend upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.
|
|
|
|
For Miss ------, read Miss Smith.
|
|
|
|
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
|
|
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
|
|
|
|
That is _court_.
|
|
|
|
Another view of man, my second brings;
|
|
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
|
|
|
|
That is _ship_;--plain as it can be.--Now for the cream.
|
|
|
|
But ah! united, (_courtship_, you know,) what reverse we have!
|
|
Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown.
|
|
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
|
|
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
|
|
|
|
A very proper compliment!--and then follows the application, which I
|
|
think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty in
|
|
comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can be no doubt
|
|
of its being written for you and to you."
|
|
|
|
Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion. She read the
|
|
concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness. She could not
|
|
speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough for her to
|
|
feel. Emma spoke for her.
|
|
|
|
"There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,"
|
|
said she, "that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton's intentions.
|
|
You are his object--and you will soon receive the completest proof of
|
|
it. I thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived;
|
|
but now, it is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided, as
|
|
my wishes on the subject have been ever since I knew you. Yes,
|
|
Harriet, just so long have I been wanting the very circumstance to
|
|
happen what has happened. I could never tell whether an attachment
|
|
between you and Mr. Elton were most desirable or most natural. Its
|
|
probability and its eligibility have really so equalled each other! I
|
|
am very happy. I congratulate you, my dear Harriet, with all my heart.
|
|
This is an attachment which a woman may well feel pride in creating.
|
|
This is a connexion which offers nothing but good. It will give you
|
|
every thing that you want--consideration, independence, a proper
|
|
home--it will fix you in the centre of all your real friends, close to
|
|
Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy for ever. This, Harriet,
|
|
is an alliance which can never raise a blush in either of us."
|
|
|
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"Dear Miss Woodhouse!"--and "Dear Miss Woodhouse," was all that
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Harriet, with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when
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they did arrive at something more like conversation, it was
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sufficiently clear to her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and
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remembered just as she ought. Mr. Elton's superiority had very ample
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acknowledgment.
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"Whatever you say is always right," cried Harriet, "and therefore I
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suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could not
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have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve. Mr.
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Elton, who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions about
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_him_. He is so very superior. Only think of those sweet verses--'To
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Miss ------.' Dear me, how clever!--Could it really be meant for me?"
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"I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that. It is a
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certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort of prologue to the
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play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon followed by
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matter-of-fact prose."
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"It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure, a
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month ago, I had no more idea myself!--The strangest things do take
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place!"
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"When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted--they do indeed--and
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really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is so
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evidently, so palpably desirable--what courts the pre-arrangement of
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other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form.
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You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong to one
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another by every circumstance of your respective homes. Your marrying
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will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does seem to be a
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something in the air of Hartfield which gives love exactly the right
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direction, and sends it into the very channel where it ought to flow.
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The course of true love never did run smooth--
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A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that
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passage."
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"That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,--me, of all people,
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who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he, the very
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handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body looks up to,
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quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after, that every body
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says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he does not chuse it;
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that he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And so
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excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down all the texts he has
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ever preached from since he came to Highbury. Dear me! When I look
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back to the first time I saw him! How little did I think!--The two
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Abbots and I ran into the front room and peeped through the blind when
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we heard he was going by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, and
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staid to look through herself; however, she called me back presently,
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and let me look too, which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we
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thought he looked! He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole."
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"This is an alliance which, whoever--whatever your friends may be, must
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be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense; and we
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are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they are anxious to
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see you _happily_ married, here is a man whose amiable character gives
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every assurance of it;--if they wish to have you settled in the same
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country and circle which they have chosen to place you in, here it will
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be accomplished; and if their only object is that you should, in the
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common phrase, be _well_ married, here is the comfortable fortune, the
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respectable establishment, the rise in the world which must satisfy
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them."
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"Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you. You
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understand every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever as the
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other. This charade!--If I had studied a twelvemonth, I could never
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have made any thing like it."
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"I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining it
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yesterday."
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"I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read."
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"I never read one more to the purpose, certainly."
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"It is as long again as almost all we have had before."
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"I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour. Such
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things in general cannot be too short."
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Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory
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comparisons were rising in her mind.
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"It is one thing," said she, presently--her cheeks in a glow--"to have
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very good sense in a common way, like every body else, and if there is
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any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter, and say just what you
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must, in a short way; and another, to write verses and charades like
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this."
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Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin's
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prose.
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"Such sweet lines!" continued Harriet--"these two last!--But how shall
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I ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found it out?--Oh!
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Miss Woodhouse, what can we do about that?"
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"Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening, I dare
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say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense or other will
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pass between us, and you shall not be committed.--Your soft eyes shall
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chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me."
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"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful
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charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good."
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"Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you should
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not write it into your book."
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"Oh! but those two lines are"--
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--"The best of all. Granted;--for private enjoyment; and for private
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enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know,
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|
because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does
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its meaning change. But take it away, and all _appropriation_ ceases,
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and a very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection.
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Depend upon it, he would not like to have his charade slighted, much
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|
better than his passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in both
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capacities, or neither. Give me the book, I will write it down, and
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then there can be no possible reflection on you."
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Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts, so
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|
as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down a
|
|
declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any degree
|
|
of publicity.
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"I shall never let that book go out of my own hands," said she.
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"Very well," replied Emma; "a most natural feeling; and the longer it
|
|
lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father coming:
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|
you will not object to my reading the charade to him. It will be
|
|
giving him so much pleasure! He loves any thing of the sort, and
|
|
especially any thing that pays woman a compliment. He has the
|
|
tenderest spirit of gallantry towards us all!--You must let me read it
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|
to him."
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Harriet looked grave.
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"My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this charade.--You
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|
will betray your feelings improperly, if you are too conscious and too
|
|
quick, and appear to affix more meaning, or even quite all the meaning
|
|
which may be affixed to it. Do not be overpowered by such a little
|
|
tribute of admiration. If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would
|
|
not have left the paper while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards
|
|
me than towards you. Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He
|
|
has encouragement enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls
|
|
over this charade."
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"Oh! no--I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please."
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|
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|
Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again, by the
|
|
recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of "Well, my dears, how does
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your book go on?--Have you got any thing fresh?"
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|
"Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh. A
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piece of paper was found on the table this morning--(dropt, we suppose,
|
|
by a fairy)--containing a very pretty charade, and we have just copied
|
|
it in."
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She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read, slowly and
|
|
distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations of every
|
|
part as she proceeded--and he was very much pleased, and, as she had
|
|
foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.
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"Aye, that's very just, indeed, that's very properly said. Very true.
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|
'Woman, lovely woman.' It is such a pretty charade, my dear, that I can
|
|
easily guess what fairy brought it.--Nobody could have written so
|
|
prettily, but you, Emma."
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|
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Emma only nodded, and smiled.--After a little thinking, and a very
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|
tender sigh, he added,
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|
"Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother
|
|
was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I can
|
|
remember nothing;--not even that particular riddle which you have heard
|
|
me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza; and there are
|
|
several.
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|
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,
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|
Kindled a flame I yet deplore,
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|
The hood-wink'd boy I called to aid,
|
|
Though of his near approach afraid,
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|
So fatal to my suit before.
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|
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|
And that is all that I can recollect of it--but it is very clever all
|
|
the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it from
|
|
the Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick's, you know."
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|
|
|
"Aye, very true.--I wish I could recollect more of it.
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|
|
|
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.
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|
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|
The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near being
|
|
christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall have her
|
|
here next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you shall put
|
|
her--and what room there will be for the children?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes--she will have her own room, of course; the room she always
|
|
has;--and there is the nursery for the children,--just as usual, you
|
|
know. Why should there be any change?"
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|
|
|
"I do not know, my dear--but it is so long since she was here!--not
|
|
since last Easter, and then only for a few days.--Mr. John Knightley's
|
|
being a lawyer is very inconvenient.--Poor Isabella!--she is sadly
|
|
taken away from us all!--and how sorry she will be when she comes, not
|
|
to see Miss Taylor here!"
|
|
|
|
"She will not be surprized, papa, at least."
|
|
|
|
"I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized when I
|
|
first heard she was going to be married."
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|
|
|
"We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella is
|
|
here."
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|
|
|
"Yes, my dear, if there is time.--But--(in a very depressed tone)--she
|
|
is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing."
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|
|
|
"It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer--but it seems a case of
|
|
necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th, and
|
|
we ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole of the
|
|
time they can give to the country, that two or three days are not to be
|
|
taken out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises to give up his claim
|
|
this Christmas--though you know it is longer since they were with him,
|
|
than with us."
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|
|
|
"It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were to be
|
|
anywhere but at Hartfield."
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|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley's claims on his
|
|
brother, or any body's claims on Isabella, except his own. He sat
|
|
musing a little while, and then said,
|
|
|
|
"But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back so
|
|
soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade her to
|
|
stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! papa--that is what you never have been able to accomplish, and I
|
|
do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay behind her
|
|
husband."
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|
|
|
This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his
|
|
spirits affected by the idea of his daughter's attachment to her
|
|
husband, she immediately led to such a branch of the subject as must
|
|
raise them.
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|
|
|
"Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while my
|
|
brother and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased with the
|
|
children. We are very proud of the children, are not we, papa? I
|
|
wonder which she will think the handsomest, Henry or John?"
|
|
|
|
"Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they will
|
|
be to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not."
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|
|
|
"Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the
|
|
eldest, he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second,
|
|
is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe, that
|
|
the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry, which I
|
|
thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy, indeed. They
|
|
are all remarkably clever; and they have so many pretty ways. They
|
|
will come and stand by my chair, and say, 'Grandpapa, can you give me a
|
|
bit of string?' and once Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him
|
|
knives were only made for grandpapas. I think their father is too
|
|
rough with them very often."
|
|
|
|
"He appears rough to you," said Emma, "because you are so very gentle
|
|
yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas, you would not
|
|
think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy; and if
|
|
they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then; but he is an
|
|
affectionate father--certainly Mr. John Knightley is an affectionate
|
|
father. The children are all fond of him."
|
|
|
|
"And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling in a
|
|
very frightful way!"
|
|
|
|
"But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much. It is
|
|
such enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down the rule
|
|
of their taking turns, whichever began would never give way to the
|
|
other."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I cannot understand it."
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|
|
|
"That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot
|
|
understand the pleasures of the other."
|
|
|
|
Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate in
|
|
preparation for the regular four o'clock dinner, the hero of this
|
|
inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away; but Emma
|
|
could receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye soon
|
|
discerned in his the consciousness of having made a push--of having
|
|
thrown a die; and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up.
|
|
His ostensible reason, however, was to ask whether Mr. Woodhouse's
|
|
party could be made up in the evening without him, or whether he should
|
|
be in the smallest degree necessary at Hartfield. If he were, every
|
|
thing else must give way; but otherwise his friend Cole had been saying
|
|
so much about his dining with him--had made such a point of it, that he
|
|
had promised him conditionally to come.
|
|
|
|
Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his friend
|
|
on their account; her father was sure of his rubber. He re-urged--she
|
|
re-declined; and he seemed then about to make his bow, when taking the
|
|
paper from the table, she returned it--
|
|
|
|
"Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us;
|
|
thank you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have
|
|
ventured to write it into Miss Smith's collection. Your friend will
|
|
not take it amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed beyond the
|
|
first eight lines."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say. He looked
|
|
rather doubtingly--rather confused; said something about
|
|
"honour,"--glanced at Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book
|
|
open on the table, took it up, and examined it very attentively. With
|
|
the view of passing off an awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,
|
|
|
|
"You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade must
|
|
not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman's
|
|
approbation while he writes with such gallantry."
|
|
|
|
"I have no hesitation in saying," replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating
|
|
a good deal while he spoke; "I have no hesitation in saying--at least
|
|
if my friend feels at all as _I_ do--I have not the smallest doubt
|
|
that, could he see his little effusion honoured as _I_ see it, (looking
|
|
at the book again, and replacing it on the table), he would consider it
|
|
as the proudest moment of his life."
|
|
|
|
After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not
|
|
think it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities, there
|
|
was a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her
|
|
to laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender
|
|
and the sublime of pleasure to Harriet's share.
|
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|
CHAPTER X
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|
Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to
|
|
prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the
|
|
morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who
|
|
lived a little way out of Highbury.
|
|
|
|
Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane
|
|
leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street
|
|
of the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode of
|
|
Mr. Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed, and then,
|
|
about a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage, an old and
|
|
not very good house, almost as close to the road as it could be. It
|
|
had no advantage of situation; but had been very much smartened up by
|
|
the present proprietor; and, such as it was, there could be no
|
|
possibility of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and
|
|
observing eyes.--Emma's remark was--
|
|
|
|
"There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these days."--
|
|
Harriet's was--
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|
|
|
"Oh, what a sweet house!--How very beautiful!--There are the yellow
|
|
curtains that Miss Nash admires so much."
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|
|
|
"I do not often walk this way _now_," said Emma, as they proceeded,
|
|
"but _then_ there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get
|
|
intimately acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards of
|
|
this part of Highbury."
|
|
|
|
Harriet, she found, had never in her life been within side the
|
|
Vicarage, and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering
|
|
exteriors and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of
|
|
love, with Mr. Elton's seeing ready wit in her.
|
|
|
|
"I wish we could contrive it," said she; "but I cannot think of any
|
|
tolerable pretence for going in;--no servant that I want to inquire
|
|
about of his housekeeper--no message from my father."
|
|
|
|
She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence of
|
|
some minutes, Harriet thus began again--
|
|
|
|
"I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married, or
|
|
going to be married! so charming as you are!"--
|
|
|
|
Emma laughed, and replied,
|
|
|
|
"My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry;
|
|
I must find other people charming--one other person at least. And I am
|
|
not only, not going to be married, at present, but have very little
|
|
intention of ever marrying at all."
|
|
|
|
"Ah!--so you say; but I cannot believe it."
|
|
|
|
"I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet, to be
|
|
tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,) is out of the
|
|
question: and I do _not_ wish to see any such person. I would rather
|
|
not be tempted. I cannot really change for the better. If I were to
|
|
marry, I must expect to repent it."
|
|
|
|
"Dear me!--it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!"--
|
|
|
|
"I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry. Were I to
|
|
fall in love, indeed, it would be a different thing! but I never have
|
|
been in love; it is not my way, or my nature; and I do not think I ever
|
|
shall. And, without love, I am sure I should be a fool to change such
|
|
a situation as mine. Fortune I do not want; employment I do not want;
|
|
consequence I do not want: I believe few married women are half as much
|
|
mistress of their husband's house as I am of Hartfield; and never,
|
|
never could I expect to be so truly beloved and important; so always
|
|
first and always right in any man's eyes as I am in my father's."
|
|
|
|
"But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!"
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|
|
|
"That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if I
|
|
thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly--so satisfied--so
|
|
smiling--so prosing--so undistinguishing and unfastidious--and so apt
|
|
to tell every thing relative to every body about me, I would marry
|
|
to-morrow. But between _us_, I am convinced there never can be any
|
|
likeness, except in being unmarried."
|
|
|
|
"But still, you will be an old maid! and that's so dreadful!"
|
|
|
|
"Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is poverty
|
|
only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public! A single
|
|
woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous, disagreeable
|
|
old maid! the proper sport of boys and girls, but a single woman, of
|
|
good fortune, is always respectable, and may be as sensible and
|
|
pleasant as any body else. And the distinction is not quite so much
|
|
against the candour and common sense of the world as appears at first;
|
|
for a very narrow income has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour
|
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the temper. Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very
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small, and generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and
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cross. This does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too
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good natured and too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very
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much to the taste of every body, though single and though poor.
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Poverty certainly has not contracted her mind: I really believe, if
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she had only a shilling in the world, she would be very likely to give
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away sixpence of it; and nobody is afraid of her: that is a great
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charm."
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"Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself when you
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grow old?"
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"If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great
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many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be more
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in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty. Woman's
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usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then as they
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are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less, I shall read
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more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work. And as for
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objects of interest, objects for the affections, which is in truth the
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great point of inferiority, the want of which is really the great evil
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to be avoided in _not_ marrying, I shall be very well off, with all the
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children of a sister I love so much, to care about. There will be
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enough of them, in all probability, to supply every sort of sensation
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that declining life can need. There will be enough for every hope and
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every fear; and though my attachment to none can equal that of a
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parent, it suits my ideas of comfort better than what is warmer and
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blinder. My nephews and nieces!--I shall often have a niece with me."
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"Do you know Miss Bates's niece? That is, I know you must have seen
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her a hundred times--but are you acquainted?"
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"Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes to
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Highbury. By the bye, _that_ is almost enough to put one out of
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conceit with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should ever bore
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people half so much about all the Knightleys together, as she does
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|
about Jane Fairfax. One is sick of the very name of Jane Fairfax.
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Every letter from her is read forty times over; her compliments to all
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friends go round and round again; and if she does but send her aunt the
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pattern of a stomacher, or knit a pair of garters for her grandmother,
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one hears of nothing else for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax very well;
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but she tires me to death."
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They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics were
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superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses of the
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poor were as sure of relief from her personal attention and kindness,
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her counsel and her patience, as from her purse. She understood their
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ways, could allow for their ignorance and their temptations, had no
|
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romantic expectations of extraordinary virtue from those for whom
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education had done so little; entered into their troubles with ready
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sympathy, and always gave her assistance with as much intelligence as
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|
good-will. In the present instance, it was sickness and poverty
|
|
together which she came to visit; and after remaining there as long as
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she could give comfort or advice, she quitted the cottage with such an
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|
impression of the scene as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,
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"These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they make
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every thing else appear!--I feel now as if I could think of nothing but
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these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet, who can say how
|
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soon it may all vanish from my mind?"
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"Very true," said Harriet. "Poor creatures! one can think of nothing
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else."
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"And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over," said
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Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep which ended
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the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden, and brought them
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|
into the lane again. "I do not think it will," stopping to look once
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more at all the outward wretchedness of the place, and recall the still
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greater within.
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"Oh! dear, no," said her companion.
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They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend was
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passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near as to give Emma
|
|
time only to say farther,
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"Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability in good
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|
thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that if compassion
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|
has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers, it has done all that
|
|
is truly important. If we feel for the wretched, enough to do all we
|
|
can for them, the rest is empty sympathy, only distressing to
|
|
ourselves."
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|
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Harriet could just answer, "Oh! dear, yes," before the gentleman joined
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them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however, were the
|
|
first subject on meeting. He had been going to call on them. His
|
|
visit he would now defer; but they had a very interesting parley about
|
|
what could be done and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to
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|
accompany them.
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|
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"To fall in with each other on such an errand as this," thought Emma;
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|
"to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase of
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|
love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring on the
|
|
declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were anywhere
|
|
else."
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Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon
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|
afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised on one
|
|
side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road. But she had
|
|
not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet's habits of
|
|
dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that, in short,
|
|
they would both be soon after her. This would not do; she immediately
|
|
stopped, under pretence of having some alteration to make in the lacing
|
|
of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete occupation of the
|
|
footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on, and she would
|
|
follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired; and by the
|
|
time she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot, she had the
|
|
comfort of farther delay in her power, being overtaken by a child from
|
|
the cottage, setting out, according to orders, with her pitcher, to
|
|
fetch broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side of this child, and
|
|
talk to and question her, was the most natural thing in the world, or
|
|
would have been the most natural, had she been acting just then without
|
|
design; and by this means the others were still able to keep ahead,
|
|
without any obligation of waiting for her. She gained on them,
|
|
however, involuntarily: the child's pace was quick, and theirs rather
|
|
slow; and she was the more concerned at it, from their being evidently
|
|
in a conversation which interested them. Mr. Elton was speaking with
|
|
animation, Harriet listening with a very pleased attention; and Emma,
|
|
having sent the child on, was beginning to think how she might draw
|
|
back a little more, when they both looked around, and she was obliged
|
|
to join them.
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|
|
|
Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail;
|
|
and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he was
|
|
only giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday's party at
|
|
his friend Cole's, and that she was come in herself for the Stilton
|
|
cheese, the north Wiltshire, the butter, the cellery, the beet-root,
|
|
and all the dessert.
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|
|
|
"This would soon have led to something better, of course," was her
|
|
consoling reflection; "any thing interests between those who love; and
|
|
any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart. If I
|
|
could but have kept longer away!"
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|
|
|
They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage
|
|
pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into the
|
|
house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot,
|
|
and fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace off
|
|
short, and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently obliged
|
|
to entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to put herself
|
|
to rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.
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|
|
|
"Part of my lace is gone," said she, "and I do not know how I am to
|
|
contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both, but I
|
|
hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg leave to
|
|
stop at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit of ribband or
|
|
string, or any thing just to keep my boot on."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing could
|
|
exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into his house
|
|
and endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage. The room
|
|
they were taken into was the one he chiefly occupied, and looking
|
|
forwards; behind it was another with which it immediately communicated;
|
|
the door between them was open, and Emma passed into it with the
|
|
housekeeper to receive her assistance in the most comfortable manner.
|
|
She was obliged to leave the door ajar as she found it; but she fully
|
|
intended that Mr. Elton should close it. It was not closed, however,
|
|
it still remained ajar; but by engaging the housekeeper in incessant
|
|
conversation, she hoped to make it practicable for him to chuse his own
|
|
subject in the adjoining room. For ten minutes she could hear nothing
|
|
but herself. It could be protracted no longer. She was then obliged
|
|
to be finished, and make her appearance.
|
|
|
|
The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a most
|
|
favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory of
|
|
having schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not come to
|
|
the point. He had been most agreeable, most delightful; he had told
|
|
Harriet that he had seen them go by, and had purposely followed them;
|
|
other little gallantries and allusions had been dropt, but nothing
|
|
serious.
|
|
|
|
"Cautious, very cautious," thought Emma; "he advances inch by inch, and
|
|
will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure."
|
|
|
|
Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished by her
|
|
ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself that it had been
|
|
the occasion of much present enjoyment to both, and must be leading
|
|
them forward to the great event.
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|
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|
CHAPTER XI
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|
Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma's
|
|
power to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming
|
|
of her sister's family was so very near at hand, that first in
|
|
anticipation, and then in reality, it became henceforth her prime
|
|
object of interest; and during the ten days of their stay at Hartfield
|
|
it was not to be expected--she did not herself expect--that any thing
|
|
beyond occasional, fortuitous assistance could be afforded by her to
|
|
the lovers. They might advance rapidly if they would, however; they
|
|
must advance somehow or other whether they would or no. She hardly
|
|
wished to have more leisure for them. There are people, who the more
|
|
you do for them, the less they will do for themselves.
|
|
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual absent
|
|
from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the usual
|
|
interest. Till this year, every long vacation since their marriage had
|
|
been divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays
|
|
of this autumn had been given to sea-bathing for the children, and it
|
|
was therefore many months since they had been seen in a regular way by
|
|
their Surry connexions, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not
|
|
be induced to get so far as London, even for poor Isabella's sake; and
|
|
who consequently was now most nervously and apprehensively happy in
|
|
forestalling this too short visit.
|
|
|
|
He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a little
|
|
of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to bring some
|
|
of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms were needless;
|
|
the sixteen miles being happily accomplished, and Mr. and Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley, their five children, and a competent number of
|
|
nursery-maids, all reaching Hartfield in safety. The bustle and joy of
|
|
such an arrival, the many to be talked to, welcomed, encouraged, and
|
|
variously dispersed and disposed of, produced a noise and confusion
|
|
which his nerves could not have borne under any other cause, nor have
|
|
endured much longer even for this; but the ways of Hartfield and the
|
|
feelings of her father were so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that
|
|
in spite of maternal solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her
|
|
little ones, and for their having instantly all the liberty and
|
|
attendance, all the eating and drinking, and sleeping and playing,
|
|
which they could possibly wish for, without the smallest delay, the
|
|
children were never allowed to be long a disturbance to him, either in
|
|
themselves or in any restless attendance on them.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle,
|
|
quiet manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate;
|
|
wrapt up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother, and so
|
|
tenderly attached to her father and sister that, but for these higher
|
|
ties, a warmer love might have seemed impossible. She could never see
|
|
a fault in any of them. She was not a woman of strong understanding or
|
|
any quickness; and with this resemblance of her father, she inherited
|
|
also much of his constitution; was delicate in her own health,
|
|
over-careful of that of her children, had many fears and many nerves,
|
|
and was as fond of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father could be
|
|
of Mr. Perry. They were alike too, in a general benevolence of temper,
|
|
and a strong habit of regard for every old acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man;
|
|
rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his private
|
|
character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being
|
|
generally pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour. He
|
|
was not an ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross as to
|
|
deserve such a reproach; but his temper was not his great perfection;
|
|
and, indeed, with such a worshipping wife, it was hardly possible that
|
|
any natural defects in it should not be increased. The extreme
|
|
sweetness of her temper must hurt his. He had all the clearness and
|
|
quickness of mind which she wanted, and he could sometimes act an
|
|
ungracious, or say a severe thing.
|
|
|
|
He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing wrong
|
|
in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little injuries to
|
|
Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself. Perhaps she might have
|
|
passed over more had his manners been flattering to Isabella's sister,
|
|
but they were only those of a calmly kind brother and friend, without
|
|
praise and without blindness; but hardly any degree of personal
|
|
compliment could have made her regardless of that greatest fault of all
|
|
in her eyes which he sometimes fell into, the want of respectful
|
|
forbearance towards her father. There he had not always the patience
|
|
that could have been wished. Mr. Woodhouse's peculiarities and
|
|
fidgetiness were sometimes provoking him to a rational remonstrance or
|
|
sharp retort equally ill-bestowed. It did not often happen; for Mr.
|
|
John Knightley had really a great regard for his father-in-law, and
|
|
generally a strong sense of what was due to him; but it was too often
|
|
for Emma's charity, especially as there was all the pain of
|
|
apprehension frequently to be endured, though the offence came not.
|
|
The beginning, however, of every visit displayed none but the properest
|
|
feelings, and this being of necessity so short might be hoped to pass
|
|
away in unsullied cordiality. They had not been long seated and
|
|
composed when Mr. Woodhouse, with a melancholy shake of the head and a
|
|
sigh, called his daughter's attention to the sad change at Hartfield
|
|
since she had been there last.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, my dear," said he, "poor Miss Taylor--It is a grievous business."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes, sir," cried she with ready sympathy, "how you must miss her!
|
|
And dear Emma, too!--What a dreadful loss to you both!--I have been so
|
|
grieved for you.--I could not imagine how you could possibly do without
|
|
her.--It is a sad change indeed.--But I hope she is pretty well, sir."
|
|
|
|
"Pretty well, my dear--I hope--pretty well.--I do not know but that the
|
|
place agrees with her tolerably."
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any
|
|
doubts of the air of Randalls.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no--none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my
|
|
life--never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret."
|
|
|
|
"Very much to the honour of both," was the handsome reply.
|
|
|
|
"And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?" asked Isabella in the
|
|
plaintive tone which just suited her father.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.--"Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since they
|
|
married. Either in the morning or evening of every day, excepting one,
|
|
have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston, and generally both,
|
|
either at Randalls or here--and as you may suppose, Isabella, most
|
|
frequently here. They are very, very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston
|
|
is really as kind as herself. Papa, if you speak in that melancholy
|
|
way, you will be giving Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body
|
|
must be aware that Miss Taylor must be missed, but every body ought
|
|
also to be assured that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our
|
|
missing her by any means to the extent we ourselves anticipated--which
|
|
is the exact truth."
|
|
|
|
"Just as it should be," said Mr. John Knightley, "and just as I hoped
|
|
it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could not
|
|
be doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it all
|
|
easy. I have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea of
|
|
the change being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended; and
|
|
now you have Emma's account, I hope you will be satisfied."
|
|
|
|
"Why, to be sure," said Mr. Woodhouse--"yes, certainly--I cannot deny
|
|
that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty often--
|
|
but then--she is always obliged to go away again."
|
|
|
|
"It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.-- You
|
|
quite forget poor Mr. Weston."
|
|
|
|
"I think, indeed," said John Knightley pleasantly, "that Mr. Weston has
|
|
some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part of
|
|
the poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife, the
|
|
claims of the man may very likely strike us with equal force. As for
|
|
Isabella, she has been married long enough to see the convenience of
|
|
putting all the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can."
|
|
|
|
"Me, my love," cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in
|
|
part.-- "Are you talking about me?--I am sure nobody ought to be, or
|
|
can be, a greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not
|
|
been for the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have
|
|
thought of Miss Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world;
|
|
and as to slighting Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think
|
|
there is nothing he does not deserve. I believe he is one of the very
|
|
best-tempered men that ever existed. Excepting yourself and your
|
|
brother, I do not know his equal for temper. I shall never forget his
|
|
flying Henry's kite for him that very windy day last Easter--and ever
|
|
since his particular kindness last September twelvemonth in writing
|
|
that note, at twelve o'clock at night, on purpose to assure me that
|
|
there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I have been convinced there could
|
|
not be a more feeling heart nor a better man in existence.--If any body
|
|
can deserve him, it must be Miss Taylor."
|
|
|
|
"Where is the young man?" said John Knightley. "Has he been here on
|
|
this occasion--or has he not?"
|
|
|
|
"He has not been here yet," replied Emma. "There was a strong
|
|
expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended in
|
|
nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately."
|
|
|
|
"But you should tell them of the letter, my dear," said her father.
|
|
"He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her, and a very
|
|
proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me. I thought it
|
|
very well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea you know,
|
|
one cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps--"
|
|
|
|
"My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes."
|
|
|
|
"Three-and-twenty!--is he indeed?--Well, I could not have thought it--
|
|
and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well, time
|
|
does fly indeed!--and my memory is very bad. However, it was an
|
|
exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston a great
|
|
deal of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth, and dated
|
|
Sept. 28th--and began, 'My dear Madam,' but I forget how it went on;
|
|
and it was signed 'F. C. Weston Churchill.'-- I remember that
|
|
perfectly."
|
|
|
|
"How very pleasing and proper of him!" cried the good-hearted Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley. "I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man.
|
|
But how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father!
|
|
There is something so shocking in a child's being taken away from his
|
|
parents and natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston
|
|
could part with him. To give up one's child! I really never could
|
|
think well of any body who proposed such a thing to any body else."
|
|
|
|
"Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy," observed Mr.
|
|
John Knightley coolly. "But you need not imagine Mr. Weston to have
|
|
felt what you would feel in giving up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is
|
|
rather an easy, cheerful-tempered man, than a man of strong feelings;
|
|
he takes things as he finds them, and makes enjoyment of them somehow
|
|
or other, depending, I suspect, much more upon what is called society
|
|
for his comforts, that is, upon the power of eating and drinking, and
|
|
playing whist with his neighbours five times a week, than upon family
|
|
affection, or any thing that home affords."
|
|
|
|
Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston, and
|
|
had half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let it pass. She
|
|
would keep the peace if possible; and there was something honourable
|
|
and valuable in the strong domestic habits, the all-sufficiency of home
|
|
to himself, whence resulted her brother's disposition to look down on
|
|
the common rate of social intercourse, and those to whom it was
|
|
important.--It had a high claim to forbearance.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XII
|
|
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was to dine with them--rather against the inclination of
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in
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Isabella's first day. Emma's sense of right however had decided it;
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and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had
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particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement
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between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper
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invitation.
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She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it was time
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to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. _She_ certainly had not
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been in the wrong, and _he_ would never own that he had. Concession
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must be out of the question; but it was time to appear to forget that
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they had ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather assist the
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restoration of friendship, that when he came into the room she had one
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of the children with her--the youngest, a nice little girl about eight
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months old, who was now making her first visit to Hartfield, and very
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happy to be danced about in her aunt's arms. It did assist; for though
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he began with grave looks and short questions, he was soon led on to
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talk of them all in the usual way, and to take the child out of her
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arms with all the unceremoniousness of perfect amity. Emma felt they
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were friends again; and the conviction giving her at first great
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satisfaction, and then a little sauciness, she could not help saying,
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as he was admiring the baby,
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"What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and
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nieces. As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very
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different; but with regard to these children, I observe we never
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disagree."
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"If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men and
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women, and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your dealings
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with them, as you are where these children are concerned, we might
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always think alike."
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"To be sure--our discordancies must always arise from my being in the
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wrong."
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"Yes," said he, smiling--"and reason good. I was sixteen years old
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when you were born."
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"A material difference then," she replied--"and no doubt you were much
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my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does not the
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lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings a good deal
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nearer?"
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"Yes--a good deal _nearer_."
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"But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right, if we
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think differently."
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"I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years' experience, and by
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not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear
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Emma, let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt,
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little Emma, that she ought to set you a better example than to be
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renewing old grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is
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now."
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"That's true," she cried--"very true. Little Emma, grow up a better
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woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not half so
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conceited. Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I have done.
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As far as good intentions went, we were _both_ right, and I must say
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that no effects on my side of the argument have yet proved wrong. I
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only want to know that Mr. Martin is not very, very bitterly
|
|
disappointed."
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"A man cannot be more so," was his short, full answer.
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"Ah!--Indeed I am very sorry.--Come, shake hands with me."
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This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John
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Knightley made his appearance, and "How d'ye do, George?" and "John,
|
|
how are you?" succeeded in the true English style, burying under a
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calmness that seemed all but indifference, the real attachment which
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|
would have led either of them, if requisite, to do every thing for the
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|
good of the other.
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The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined cards
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entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his dear Isabella, and
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the little party made two natural divisions; on one side he and his
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|
daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys; their subjects totally
|
|
distinct, or very rarely mixing--and Emma only occasionally joining in
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|
one or the other.
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The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally
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|
of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative,
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|
and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had
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|
generally some point of law to consult John about, or, at least, some
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|
curious anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand the
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home-farm at Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear next
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|
year, and to give all such local information as could not fail of being
|
|
interesting to a brother whose home it had equally been the longest
|
|
part of his life, and whose attachments were strong. The plan of a
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drain, the change of a fence, the felling of a tree, and the
|
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destination of every acre for wheat, turnips, or spring corn, was
|
|
entered into with as much equality of interest by John, as his cooler
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|
manners rendered possible; and if his willing brother ever left him any
|
|
thing to inquire about, his inquiries even approached a tone of
|
|
eagerness.
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While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying a
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|
full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.
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"My poor dear Isabella," said he, fondly taking her hand, and
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|
interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one of her
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|
five children--"How long it is, how terribly long since you were here!
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|
And how tired you must be after your journey! You must go to bed
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early, my dear--and I recommend a little gruel to you before you
|
|
go.--You and I will have a nice basin of gruel together. My dear Emma,
|
|
suppose we all have a little gruel."
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Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did, that both
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the Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article as
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|
herself;--and two basins only were ordered. After a little more
|
|
discourse in praise of gruel, with some wondering at its not being
|
|
taken every evening by every body, he proceeded to say, with an air of
|
|
grave reflection,
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"It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn at South
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|
End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion of the sea air."
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|
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"Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir--or we should not
|
|
have gone. He recommended it for all the children, but particularly
|
|
for the weakness in little Bella's throat,--both sea air and bathing."
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|
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|
"Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her any
|
|
good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced, though
|
|
perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very rarely of use
|
|
to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once."
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|
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|
"Come, come," cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, "I must
|
|
beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;--I
|
|
who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please. My
|
|
dear Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about Mr. Perry
|
|
yet; and he never forgets you."
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|
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|
"Oh! good Mr. Perry--how is he, sir?"
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"Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious, and he
|
|
has not time to take care of himself--he tells me he has not time to
|
|
take care of himself--which is very sad--but he is always wanted all
|
|
round the country. I suppose there is not a man in such practice
|
|
anywhere. But then there is not so clever a man any where."
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|
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|
"And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow?
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|
I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon.
|
|
He will be so pleased to see my little ones."
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|
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|
"I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask
|
|
him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes,
|
|
you had better let him look at little Bella's throat."
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|
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|
"Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly any
|
|
uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest service
|
|
to her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent embrocation of
|
|
Mr. Wingfield's, which we have been applying at times ever since
|
|
August."
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|
|
|
"It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been of use
|
|
to her--and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation, I would
|
|
have spoken to--
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|
"You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates," said Emma, "I
|
|
have not heard one inquiry after them."
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|
|
|
"Oh! the good Bateses--I am quite ashamed of myself--but you mention
|
|
them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well. Good old
|
|
Mrs. Bates--I will call upon her to-morrow, and take my children.--They
|
|
are always so pleased to see my children.-- And that excellent Miss
|
|
Bates!--such thorough worthy people!-- How are they, sir?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates had a
|
|
bad cold about a month ago."
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|
|
|
"How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been
|
|
this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them more
|
|
general or heavy--except when it has been quite an influenza."
|
|
|
|
"That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree you
|
|
mention. Perry says that colds have been very general, but not so
|
|
heavy as he has very often known them in November. Perry does not call
|
|
it altogether a sickly season."
|
|
|
|
"No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it _very_ sickly
|
|
except--
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|
|
|
"Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always a
|
|
sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It is a
|
|
dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!--and the
|
|
air so bad!"
|
|
|
|
"No, indeed--_we_ are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is
|
|
very superior to most others!--You must not confound us with London in
|
|
general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square is very
|
|
different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy! I should be
|
|
unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;--there is
|
|
hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my children in: but
|
|
_we_ are so remarkably airy!--Mr. Wingfield thinks the vicinity of
|
|
Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as to air."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it--but
|
|
after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you different
|
|
creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say, that I
|
|
think you are any of you looking well at present."
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those
|
|
little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely
|
|
free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were
|
|
rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were a
|
|
little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness of
|
|
coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow; for I
|
|
assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe he had ever
|
|
sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust, at least, that you
|
|
do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill," turning her eyes with
|
|
affectionate anxiety towards her husband.
|
|
|
|
"Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John
|
|
Knightley very far from looking well."
|
|
|
|
"What is the matter, sir?--Did you speak to me?" cried Mr. John
|
|
Knightley, hearing his own name.
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you looking
|
|
well--but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued. I could have
|
|
wished, however, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before
|
|
you left home."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Isabella,"--exclaimed he hastily--"pray do not concern
|
|
yourself about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling
|
|
yourself and the children, and let me look as I chuse."
|
|
|
|
"I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,"
|
|
cried Emma, "about your friend Mr. Graham's intending to have a bailiff
|
|
from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer?
|
|
Will not the old prejudice be too strong?"
|
|
|
|
And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced
|
|
to give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing
|
|
worse to hear than Isabella's kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax; and Jane
|
|
Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general, she was at that
|
|
moment very happy to assist in praising.
|
|
|
|
"That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!" said Mrs. John Knightley.-- "It is
|
|
so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment
|
|
accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old
|
|
grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them! I always
|
|
regret excessively on dear Emma's account that she cannot be more at
|
|
Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose Colonel and Mrs.
|
|
Campbell will not be able to part with her at all. She would be such a
|
|
delightful companion for Emma."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
|
|
|
|
"Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another pretty
|
|
kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could not have a
|
|
better companion than Harriet."
|
|
|
|
"I am most happy to hear it--but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be so
|
|
very accomplished and superior!--and exactly Emma's age."
|
|
|
|
This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of similar
|
|
moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening did not
|
|
close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came and
|
|
supplied a great deal to be said--much praise and many comments--
|
|
undoubting decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution, and
|
|
pretty severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was never met
|
|
with tolerable;--but, unfortunately, among the failures which the
|
|
daughter had to instance, the most recent, and therefore most
|
|
prominent, was in her own cook at South End, a young woman hired for
|
|
the time, who never had been able to understand what she meant by a
|
|
basin of nice smooth gruel, thin, but not too thin. Often as she had
|
|
wished for and ordered it, she had never been able to get any thing
|
|
tolerable. Here was a dangerous opening.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on her
|
|
with tender concern.--The ejaculation in Emma's ear expressed, "Ah!
|
|
there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to South End. It
|
|
does not bear talking of." And for a little while she hoped he would
|
|
not talk of it, and that a silent rumination might suffice to restore
|
|
him to the relish of his own smooth gruel. After an interval of some
|
|
minutes, however, he began with,
|
|
|
|
"I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn,
|
|
instead of coming here."
|
|
|
|
"But why should you be sorry, sir?--I assure you, it did the children a
|
|
great deal of good."
|
|
|
|
"And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not have been
|
|
to South End. South End is an unhealthy place. Perry was surprized to
|
|
hear you had fixed upon South End."
|
|
|
|
"I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is quite
|
|
a mistake, sir.--We all had our health perfectly well there, never
|
|
found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield says it
|
|
is entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy; and I am sure he
|
|
may be depended on, for he thoroughly understands the nature of the
|
|
air, and his own brother and family have been there repeatedly."
|
|
|
|
"You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.-- Perry
|
|
was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best of all the
|
|
sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very pure air. And,
|
|
by what I understand, you might have had lodgings there quite away from
|
|
the sea--a quarter of a mile off--very comfortable. You should have
|
|
consulted Perry."
|
|
|
|
"But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;--only consider how
|
|
great it would have been.--An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else
|
|
should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much to
|
|
chuse between forty miles and an hundred.--Better not move at all,
|
|
better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get into a
|
|
worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him a very
|
|
ill-judged measure."
|
|
|
|
Emma's attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he had
|
|
reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her
|
|
brother-in-law's breaking out.
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Perry," said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure, "would do
|
|
as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for. Why does he make it
|
|
any business of his, to wonder at what I do?--at my taking my family
|
|
to one part of the coast or another?--I may be allowed, I hope, the use
|
|
of my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.-- I want his directions no more
|
|
than his drugs." He paused--and growing cooler in a moment, added,
|
|
with only sarcastic dryness, "If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a
|
|
wife and five children a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with
|
|
no greater expense or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should
|
|
be as willing to prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself."
|
|
|
|
"True, true," cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition--
|
|
"very true. That's a consideration indeed.--But John, as to what I was
|
|
telling you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning it
|
|
more to the right that it may not cut through the home meadows, I
|
|
cannot conceive any difficulty. I should not attempt it, if it were to
|
|
be the means of inconvenience to the Highbury people, but if you call
|
|
to mind exactly the present line of the path. . . . The only way of
|
|
proving it, however, will be to turn to our maps. I shall see you at
|
|
the Abbey to-morrow morning I hope, and then we will look them over,
|
|
and you shall give me your opinion."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on his
|
|
friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously, been
|
|
attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;--but the
|
|
soothing attentions of his daughters gradually removed the present
|
|
evil, and the immediate alertness of one brother, and better
|
|
recollections of the other, prevented any renewal of it.
|
|
|
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER XIII
|
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|
|
There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning
|
|
among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking over
|
|
what she had done every evening with her father and sister. She had
|
|
nothing to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass so swiftly.
|
|
It was a delightful visit;--perfect, in being much too short.
|
|
|
|
In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than their
|
|
mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out of the house too,
|
|
there was no avoiding, though at Christmas. Mr. Weston would take no
|
|
denial; they must all dine at Randalls one day;--even Mr. Woodhouse was
|
|
persuaded to think it a possible thing in preference to a division of
|
|
the party.
|
|
|
|
How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty if he
|
|
could, but as his son and daughter's carriage and horses were actually
|
|
at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than a simple question on
|
|
that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt; nor did it occupy Emma long
|
|
to convince him that they might in one of the carriages find room for
|
|
Harriet also.
|
|
|
|
Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set, were the
|
|
only persons invited to meet them;--the hours were to be early, as well
|
|
as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse's habits and inclination being
|
|
consulted in every thing.
|
|
|
|
The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event that
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been spent
|
|
by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed with
|
|
a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed by Mrs.
|
|
Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house. Emma
|
|
called on her the next day, and found her doom already signed with
|
|
regard to Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat:
|
|
Mrs. Goddard was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry was talked of,
|
|
and Harriet herself was too ill and low to resist the authority which
|
|
excluded her from this delightful engagement, though she could not
|
|
speak of her loss without many tears.
|
|
|
|
Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard's
|
|
unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much
|
|
Mr. Elton's would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her at
|
|
last tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having a
|
|
most comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much. She
|
|
had not advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard's door, when she was met
|
|
by Mr. Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as they walked
|
|
on slowly together in conversation about the invalid--of whom he, on
|
|
the rumour of considerable illness, had been going to inquire, that he
|
|
might carry some report of her to Hartfield--they were overtaken by
|
|
Mr. John Knightley returning from the daily visit to Donwell, with his
|
|
two eldest boys, whose healthy, glowing faces shewed all the benefit of
|
|
a country run, and seemed to ensure a quick despatch of the roast
|
|
mutton and rice pudding they were hastening home for. They joined
|
|
company and proceeded together. Emma was just describing the nature of
|
|
her friend's complaint;--"a throat very much inflamed, with a great
|
|
deal of heat about her, a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to
|
|
find from Mrs. Goddard that Harriet was liable to very bad
|
|
sore-throats, and had often alarmed her with them." Mr. Elton looked
|
|
all alarm on the occasion, as he exclaimed,
|
|
|
|
"A sore-throat!--I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid
|
|
infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care of
|
|
yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run no
|
|
risks. Why does not Perry see her?"
|
|
|
|
Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this
|
|
excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard's experience and
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care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness which she
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could not wish to reason away, which she would rather feed and assist
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than not, she added soon afterwards--as if quite another subject,
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"It is so cold, so very cold--and looks and feels so very much like
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snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party, I
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should really try not to go out to-day--and dissuade my father from
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venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem to feel
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the cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it would be so
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great a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon my word, Mr.
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Elton, in your case, I should certainly excuse myself. You appear to
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me a little hoarse already, and when you consider what demand of voice
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and what fatigues to-morrow will bring, I think it would be no more
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than common prudence to stay at home and take care of yourself
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to-night."
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Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make;
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which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind
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care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of her's,
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he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;--but
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Emma, too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions and views to
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hear him impartially, or see him with clear vision, was very well
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satisfied with his muttering acknowledgment of its being "very cold,
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certainly very cold," and walked on, rejoicing in having extricated him
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from Randalls, and secured him the power of sending to inquire after
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Harriet every hour of the evening.
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"You do quite right," said she;--"we will make your apologies to Mr.
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and Mrs. Weston."
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But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly
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offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton's only
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objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much prompt
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satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go, and never had
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his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than at this moment;
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never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes more exulting than when
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he next looked at her.
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"Well," said she to herself, "this is most strange!--After I had got
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him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave Harriet ill
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behind!--Most strange indeed!--But there is, I believe, in many men,
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especially single men, such an inclination--such a passion for dining
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out--a dinner engagement is so high in the class of their pleasures,
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their employments, their dignities, almost their duties, that any thing
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gives way to it--and this must be the case with Mr. Elton; a most
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valuable, amiable, pleasing young man undoubtedly, and very much in
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love with Harriet; but still, he cannot refuse an invitation, he must
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dine out wherever he is asked. What a strange thing love is! he can
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see ready wit in Harriet, but will not dine alone for her."
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Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him
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the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment in his
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manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his voice while
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assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard's for news of her fair
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friend, the last thing before he prepared for the happiness of meeting
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her again, when he hoped to be able to give a better report; and he
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sighed and smiled himself off in a way that left the balance of
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approbation much in his favour.
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After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley
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began with--
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"I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than Mr.
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Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned. With
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men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to
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please, every feature works."
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"Mr. Elton's manners are not perfect," replied Emma; "but where there
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is a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook a
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great deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers, he
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will have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is such
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perfect good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot but value."
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"Yes," said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness, "he seems
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to have a great deal of good-will towards you."
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"Me!" she replied with a smile of astonishment, "are you imagining me
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to be Mr. Elton's object?"
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"Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never
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occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now."
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"Mr. Elton in love with me!--What an idea!"
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"I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether it is
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so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly. I think your
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manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend, Emma. You had better
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look about you, and ascertain what you do, and what you mean to do."
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"I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton and I
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are very good friends, and nothing more;" and she walked on, amusing
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herself in the consideration of the blunders which often arise from a
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|
partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes which people of
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|
high pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into; and not very
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|
well pleased with her brother for imagining her blind and ignorant, and
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|
in want of counsel. He said no more.
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Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit, that in
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|
spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea of
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shrinking from it, and set forward at last most punctually with his
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eldest daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent consciousness
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|
of the weather than either of the others; too full of the wonder of his
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|
own going, and the pleasure it was to afford at Randalls to see that it
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|
was cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it. The cold, however, was
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|
severe; and by the time the second carriage was in motion, a few flakes
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|
of snow were finding their way down, and the sky had the appearance of
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|
being so overcharged as to want only a milder air to produce a very
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|
white world in a very short time.
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Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour. The
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|
preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice of
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|
his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least,
|
|
which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated
|
|
nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase; and the
|
|
whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in expressing his
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|
discontent.
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|
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|
"A man," said he, "must have a very good opinion of himself when he
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|
asks people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such a day as
|
|
this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think himself a most
|
|
agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest
|
|
absurdity--Actually snowing at this moment!-- The folly of not allowing
|
|
people to be comfortable at home--and the folly of people's not staying
|
|
comfortably at home when they can! If we were obliged to go out such
|
|
an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what a hardship we
|
|
should deem it;--and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing
|
|
than usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of
|
|
the voice of nature, which tells man, in every thing given to his view
|
|
or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter
|
|
that he can;--here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in
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|
another man's house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said
|
|
and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow.
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|
Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;--four horses and
|
|
four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering
|
|
creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had
|
|
at home."
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|
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Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no
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|
doubt he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the "Very true, my
|
|
love," which must have been usually administered by his travelling
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|
companion; but she had resolution enough to refrain from making any
|
|
answer at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being
|
|
quarrelsome; her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to
|
|
talk, and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening
|
|
her lips.
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They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down, and Mr.
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|
Elton, spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly. Emma
|
|
thought with pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton was all
|
|
obligation and cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful in his civilities
|
|
indeed, that she began to think he must have received a different
|
|
account of Harriet from what had reached her. She had sent while
|
|
dressing, and the answer had been, "Much the same--not better."
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|
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"_My_ report from Mrs. Goddard's," said she presently, "was not so
|
|
pleasant as I had hoped--'Not better' was _my_ answer."
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His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice of
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|
sentiment as he answered.
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"Oh! no--I am grieved to find--I was on the point of telling you that
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|
when I called at Mrs. Goddard's door, which I did the very last thing
|
|
before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better,
|
|
by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned-- I
|
|
had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial as I
|
|
knew had been given her in the morning."
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|
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Emma smiled and answered--"My visit was of use to the nervous part of
|
|
her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat; it
|
|
is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you
|
|
probably heard."
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|
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|
"Yes--I imagined--that is--I did not--"
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|
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|
"He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow
|
|
morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is
|
|
impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party
|
|
to-day!"
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|
|
|
"Dreadful!--Exactly so, indeed.--She will be missed every moment."
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|
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|
This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really
|
|
estimable; but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay
|
|
when only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things,
|
|
and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.
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|
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|
"What an excellent device," said he, "the use of a sheepskin for
|
|
carriages. How very comfortable they make it;--impossible to feel cold
|
|
with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days indeed have
|
|
rendered a gentleman's carriage perfectly complete. One is so fenced
|
|
and guarded from the weather, that not a breath of air can find its way
|
|
unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely of no consequence. It is a
|
|
very cold afternoon--but in this carriage we know nothing of the
|
|
matter.--Ha! snows a little I see."
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|
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|
"Yes," said John Knightley, "and I think we shall have a good deal of
|
|
it."
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|
|
|
"Christmas weather," observed Mr. Elton. "Quite seasonable; and
|
|
extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not begin
|
|
yesterday, and prevent this day's party, which it might very possibly
|
|
have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had there been
|
|
much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence. This is
|
|
quite the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas every body
|
|
invites their friends about them, and people think little of even the
|
|
worst weather. I was snowed up at a friend's house once for a week.
|
|
Nothing could be pleasanter. I went for only one night, and could not
|
|
get away till that very day se'nnight."
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure, but
|
|
said only, coolly,
|
|
|
|
"I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls."
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|
|
|
At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too much
|
|
astonished now at Mr. Elton's spirits for other feelings. Harriet
|
|
seemed quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.
|
|
|
|
"We are sure of excellent fires," continued he, "and every thing in the
|
|
greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;--Mrs. Weston
|
|
indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly what one values, so
|
|
hospitable, and so fond of society;--it will be a small party, but
|
|
where small parties are select, they are perhaps the most agreeable of
|
|
any. Mr. Weston's dining-room does not accommodate more than ten
|
|
comfortably; and for my part, I would rather, under such circumstances,
|
|
fall short by two than exceed by two. I think you will agree with me,
|
|
(turning with a soft air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your
|
|
approbation, though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large
|
|
parties of London, may not quite enter into our feelings."
|
|
|
|
"I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir--I never dine with
|
|
any body."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the law had
|
|
been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come when you will
|
|
be paid for all this, when you will have little labour and great
|
|
enjoyment."
|
|
|
|
"My first enjoyment," replied John Knightley, as they passed through
|
|
the sweep-gate, "will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again."
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|
CHAPTER XIV
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|
Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they
|
|
walked into Mrs. Weston's drawing-room;--Mr. Elton must compose his
|
|
joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr. Elton
|
|
must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the
|
|
place.--Emma only might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as
|
|
happy as she was. To her it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons.
|
|
Mr. Weston was a great favourite, and there was not a creature in the
|
|
world to whom she spoke with such unreserve, as to his wife; not any
|
|
one, to whom she related with such conviction of being listened to and
|
|
understood, of being always interesting and always intelligible, the
|
|
little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father
|
|
and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston
|
|
had not a lively concern; and half an hour's uninterrupted
|
|
communication of all those little matters on which the daily happiness
|
|
of private life depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
|
|
|
|
This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day's visit might not
|
|
afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour; but
|
|
the very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was
|
|
grateful to Emma, and she determined to think as little as possible of
|
|
Mr. Elton's oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant, and enjoy all
|
|
that was enjoyable to the utmost.
|
|
|
|
The misfortune of Harriet's cold had been pretty well gone through
|
|
before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long enough
|
|
to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own and
|
|
Isabella's coming, and of Emma's being to follow, and had indeed just
|
|
got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come and see his
|
|
daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston, who had been
|
|
almost wholly engrossed by her attentions to him, was able to turn away
|
|
and welcome her dear Emma.
|
|
|
|
Emma's project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather
|
|
sorry to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was close
|
|
to her. The difficulty was great of driving his strange insensibility
|
|
towards Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat at her elbow, but
|
|
was continually obtruding his happy countenance on her notice, and
|
|
solicitously addressing her upon every occasion. Instead of forgetting
|
|
him, his behaviour was such that she could not avoid the internal
|
|
suggestion of "Can it really be as my brother imagined? can it be
|
|
possible for this man to be beginning to transfer his affections from
|
|
Harriet to me?--Absurd and insufferable!"-- Yet he would be so anxious
|
|
for her being perfectly warm, would be so interested about her father,
|
|
and so delighted with Mrs. Weston; and at last would begin admiring her
|
|
drawings with so much zeal and so little knowledge as seemed terribly
|
|
like a would-be lover, and made it some effort with her to preserve her
|
|
good manners. For her own sake she could not be rude; and for
|
|
Harriet's, in the hope that all would yet turn out right, she was even
|
|
positively civil; but it was an effort; especially as something was
|
|
going on amongst the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr.
|
|
Elton's nonsense, which she particularly wished to listen to. She
|
|
heard enough to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about
|
|
his son; she heard the words "my son," and "Frank," and "my son,"
|
|
repeated several times over; and, from a few other half-syllables very
|
|
much suspected that he was announcing an early visit from his son; but
|
|
before she could quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was so completely past
|
|
that any reviving question from her would have been awkward.
|
|
|
|
Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma's resolution of never
|
|
marrying, there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr. Frank
|
|
Churchill, which always interested her. She had frequently
|
|
thought--especially since his father's marriage with Miss Taylor--that
|
|
if she _were_ to marry, he was the very person to suit her in age,
|
|
character and condition. He seemed by this connexion between the
|
|
families, quite to belong to her. She could not but suppose it to be a
|
|
match that every body who knew them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Weston did think of it, she was very strongly persuaded; and though not
|
|
meaning to be induced by him, or by any body else, to give up a
|
|
situation which she believed more replete with good than any she could
|
|
change it for, she had a great curiosity to see him, a decided
|
|
intention of finding him pleasant, of being liked by him to a certain
|
|
degree, and a sort of pleasure in the idea of their being coupled in
|
|
their friends' imaginations.
|
|
|
|
With such sensations, Mr. Elton's civilities were dreadfully ill-timed;
|
|
but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling very
|
|
cross--and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not possibly
|
|
pass without bringing forward the same information again, or the
|
|
substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.--So it proved;--for
|
|
when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston, at
|
|
dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares of
|
|
hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton, to say
|
|
to her,
|
|
|
|
"We want only two more to be just the right number. I should like to
|
|
see two more here,--your pretty little friend, Miss Smith, and my
|
|
son--and then I should say we were quite complete. I believe you did
|
|
not hear me telling the others in the drawing-room that we are
|
|
expecting Frank. I had a letter from him this morning, and he will be
|
|
with us within a fortnight."
|
|
|
|
Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented to
|
|
his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making their
|
|
party quite complete.
|
|
|
|
"He has been wanting to come to us," continued Mr. Weston, "ever since
|
|
September: every letter has been full of it; but he cannot command his
|
|
own time. He has those to please who must be pleased, and who (between
|
|
ourselves) are sometimes to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices.
|
|
But now I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in
|
|
January."
|
|
|
|
"What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston is so
|
|
anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost as happy as
|
|
yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another put-off.
|
|
She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do: but she does not
|
|
know the parties so well as I do. The case, you see, is--(but this is
|
|
quite between ourselves: I did not mention a syllable of it in the
|
|
other room. There are secrets in all families, you know)--The case is,
|
|
that a party of friends are invited to pay a visit at Enscombe in
|
|
January; and that Frank's coming depends upon their being put off. If
|
|
they are not put off, he cannot stir. But I know they will, because it
|
|
is a family that a certain lady, of some consequence, at Enscombe, has
|
|
a particular dislike to: and though it is thought necessary to invite
|
|
them once in two or three years, they always are put off when it comes
|
|
to the point. I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as
|
|
confident of seeing Frank here before the middle of January, as I am of
|
|
being here myself: but your good friend there (nodding towards the
|
|
upper end of the table) has so few vagaries herself, and has been so
|
|
little used to them at Hartfield, that she cannot calculate on their
|
|
effects, as I have been long in the practice of doing."
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case," replied
|
|
Emma; "but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you think he
|
|
will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been at
|
|
the place in my life.--She is an odd woman!--But I never allow myself
|
|
to speak ill of her, on Frank's account; for I do believe her to be
|
|
very fond of him. I used to think she was not capable of being fond of
|
|
any body, except herself: but she has always been kind to him (in her
|
|
way--allowing for little whims and caprices, and expecting every thing
|
|
to be as she likes). And it is no small credit, in my opinion, to him,
|
|
that he should excite such an affection; for, though I would not say it
|
|
to any body else, she has no more heart than a stone to people in
|
|
general; and the devil of a temper."
|
|
|
|
Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston,
|
|
very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her
|
|
joy--yet observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather
|
|
alarming.-- Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be
|
|
very glad to be secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting at
|
|
the time talked of: "for I cannot depend upon his coming. I cannot be
|
|
so sanguine as Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid that it will all end
|
|
in nothing. Mr. Weston, I dare say, has been telling you exactly how
|
|
the matter stands?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour of Mrs.
|
|
Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain thing in the world."
|
|
|
|
"My Emma!" replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, "what is the certainty of
|
|
caprice?" Then turning to Isabella, who had not been attending
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before--"You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we are by no means
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so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill, in my opinion, as his father
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thinks. It depends entirely upon his aunt's spirits and pleasure; in
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short, upon her temper. To you--to my two daughters--I may venture on
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the truth. Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very
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odd-tempered woman; and his coming now, depends upon her being willing
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to spare him."
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"Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill," replied
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Isabella: "and I am sure I never think of that poor young man without
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the greatest compassion. To be constantly living with an ill-tempered
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person, must be dreadful. It is what we happily have never known any
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thing of; but it must be a life of misery. What a blessing, that she
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never had any children! Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would
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have made them!"
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Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have
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heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve
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which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed,
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would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills from
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her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own
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imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge. But at
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present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse very soon
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followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting long after dinner,
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was a confinement that he could not endure. Neither wine nor
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conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did he move to those with
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whom he was always comfortable.
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While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity of
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saying,
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"And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any means
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certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant,
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whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better."
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"Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays.
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Even if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still afraid
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that some excuse may be found for disappointing us. I cannot bear to
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imagine any reluctance on his side; but I am sure there is a great wish
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on the Churchills' to keep him to themselves. There is jealousy. They
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are jealous even of his regard for his father. In short, I can feel no
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dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston were less sanguine."
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"He ought to come," said Emma. "If he could stay only a couple of
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days, he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man's not
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having it in his power to do as much as that. A young _woman_, if she
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fall into bad hands, may be teazed, and kept at a distance from those
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she wants to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young _man_'s being
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under such restraint, as not to be able to spend a week with his
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father, if he likes it."
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"One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family, before
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one decides upon what he can do," replied Mrs. Weston. "One ought to
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use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the conduct of any one
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individual of any one family; but Enscombe, I believe, certainly must
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not be judged by general rules: _she_ is so very unreasonable; and
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every thing gives way to her."
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"But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite.
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Now, according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural,
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that while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband, to
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whom she owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice
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towards _him_, she should frequently be governed by the nephew, to whom
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she owes nothing at all."
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"My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper, to understand
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a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must let it go its own
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way. I have no doubt of his having, at times, considerable influence;
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but it may be perfectly impossible for him to know beforehand _when_ it
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will be."
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Emma listened, and then coolly said, "I shall not be satisfied, unless
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he comes."
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"He may have a great deal of influence on some points," continued Mrs.
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Weston, "and on others, very little: and among those, on which she is
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beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be this very circumstance
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of his coming away from them to visit us."
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CHAPTER XV
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Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his tea
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he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three
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companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness of
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the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty
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and convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort; but at
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last the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation. Mr. Elton, in
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very good spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and
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Emma were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them immediately, and,
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with scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.
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Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind by the
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expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget his late
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improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before, and on his
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making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen with most
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friendly smiles.
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He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend--her
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fair, lovely, amiable friend. "Did she know?--had she heard any thing
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about her, since their being at Randalls?--he felt much anxiety--he
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must confess that the nature of her complaint alarmed him
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considerably." And in this style he talked on for some time very
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properly, not much attending to any answer, but altogether sufficiently
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awake to the terror of a bad sore throat; and Emma was quite in charity
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with him.
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But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if
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he were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account, than
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on Harriet's--more anxious that she should escape the infection, than
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that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began with
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great earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting the
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sick-chamber again, for the present--to entreat her to _promise_ _him_
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not to venture into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry and learnt
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his opinion; and though she tried to laugh it off and bring the subject
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back into its proper course, there was no putting an end to his extreme
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solicitude about her. She was vexed. It did appear--there was no
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concealing it--exactly like the pretence of being in love with her,
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instead of Harriet; an inconstancy, if real, the most contemptible and
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abominable! and she had difficulty in behaving with temper. He turned
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to Mrs. Weston to implore her assistance, "Would not she give him her
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support?--would not she add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss
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Woodhouse not to go to Mrs. Goddard's till it were certain that Miss
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Smith's disorder had no infection? He could not be satisfied without a
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promise--would not she give him her influence in procuring it?"
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"So scrupulous for others," he continued, "and yet so careless for
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herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day, and
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yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated sore
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throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?--Judge between us. Have
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not I some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support and aid."
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Emma saw Mrs. Weston's surprize, and felt that it must be great, at an
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address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself the right
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of first interest in her; and as for herself, she was too much provoked
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and offended to have the power of directly saying any thing to the
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purpose. She could only give him a look; but it was such a look as she
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thought must restore him to his senses, and then left the sofa,
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removing to a seat by her sister, and giving her all her attention.
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She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly did
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another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came into the room
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from examining the weather, and opened on them all with the information
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of the ground being covered with snow, and of its still snowing fast,
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with a strong drifting wind; concluding with these words to Mr.
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Woodhouse:
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"This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements, sir.
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Something new for your coachman and horses to be making their way
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through a storm of snow."
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Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else
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had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized,
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and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston
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and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention from his
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son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.
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"I admired your resolution very much, sir," said he, "in venturing out
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in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow very soon.
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Every body must have seen the snow coming on. I admired your spirit;
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and I dare say we shall get home very well. Another hour or two's snow
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can hardly make the road impassable; and we are two carriages; if one
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is blown over in the bleak part of the common field there will be the
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other at hand. I dare say we shall be all safe at Hartfield before
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midnight."
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Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he
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had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word, lest it
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should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse for his
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hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen or likely
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to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke; he was afraid
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they would find no difficulty. He wished the road might be impassable,
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that he might be able to keep them all at Randalls; and with the utmost
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good-will was sure that accommodation might be found for every body,
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calling on his wife to agree with him, that with a little contrivance,
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every body might be lodged, which she hardly knew how to do, from the
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consciousness of there being but two spare rooms in the house.
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"What is to be done, my dear Emma?--what is to be done?" was Mr.
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Woodhouse's first exclamation, and all that he could say for some time.
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To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances of safety, her
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representation of the excellence of the horses, and of James, and of
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their having so many friends about them, revived him a little.
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His eldest daughter's alarm was equal to his own. The horror of being
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blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield, was full
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in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just passable for
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adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay, she was
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eager to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain at
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Randalls, while she and her husband set forward instantly through all
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the possible accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.
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"You had better order the carriage directly, my love," said she; "I
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dare say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly; and if
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we do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk. I am not at
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all afraid. I should not mind walking half the way. I could change my
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shoes, you know, the moment I got home; and it is not the sort of thing
|
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that gives me cold."
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"Indeed!" replied he. "Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most
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|
extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every thing
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does give you cold. Walk home!--you are prettily shod for walking
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home, I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses."
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Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan. Mrs.
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|
Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma; but Emma could
|
|
not so entirely give up the hope of their being all able to get away;
|
|
and they were still discussing the point, when Mr. Knightley, who had
|
|
left the room immediately after his brother's first report of the snow,
|
|
came back again, and told them that he had been out of doors to
|
|
examine, and could answer for there not being the smallest difficulty
|
|
in their getting home, whenever they liked it, either now or an hour
|
|
hence. He had gone beyond the sweep--some way along the Highbury
|
|
road--the snow was nowhere above half an inch deep--in many places
|
|
hardly enough to whiten the ground; a very few flakes were falling at
|
|
present, but the clouds were parting, and there was every appearance of
|
|
its being soon over. He had seen the coachmen, and they both agreed
|
|
with him in there being nothing to apprehend.
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To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they were
|
|
scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father's account, who was
|
|
immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous
|
|
constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not be
|
|
appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued at
|
|
Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in
|
|
returning home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe
|
|
to stay; and while the others were variously urging and recommending,
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|
Mr. Knightley and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus--
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"Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?"
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"I am ready, if the others are."
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"Shall I ring the bell?"
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"Yes, do."
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And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few minutes
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|
more, and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion deposited in his
|
|
own house, to get sober and cool, and the other recover his temper and
|
|
happiness when this visit of hardship were over.
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|
The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on such
|
|
occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley and Mr.
|
|
Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some renewal of
|
|
alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen, and the
|
|
discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for. "He
|
|
was afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid poor
|
|
Isabella would not like it. And there would be poor Emma in the
|
|
carriage behind. He did not know what they had best do. They must
|
|
keep as much together as they could;" and James was talked to, and
|
|
given a charge to go very slow and wait for the other carriage.
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|
Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he
|
|
did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally;
|
|
so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second
|
|
carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them,
|
|
and that they were to have a tete-a-tete drive. It would not have been
|
|
the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure,
|
|
previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked to
|
|
him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have seemed but
|
|
one. But now, she would rather it had not happened. She believed he
|
|
had been drinking too much of Mr. Weston's good wine, and felt sure
|
|
that he would want to be talking nonsense.
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To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was
|
|
immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity of
|
|
the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had
|
|
they passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she
|
|
found her subject cut up--her hand seized--her attention demanded, and
|
|
Mr. Elton actually making violent love to her: availing himself of the
|
|
precious opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already well
|
|
known, hoping--fearing--adoring--ready to die if she refused him; but
|
|
flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled love and
|
|
unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect, and in short,
|
|
very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon as possible. It
|
|
really was so. Without scruple--without apology--without much
|
|
apparent diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet, was professing
|
|
himself _her_ lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly; he would go
|
|
on, and say it all. Angry as she was, the thought of the moment made
|
|
her resolve to restrain herself when she did speak. She felt that half
|
|
this folly must be drunkenness, and therefore could hope that it might
|
|
belong only to the passing hour. Accordingly, with a mixture of the
|
|
serious and the playful, which she hoped would best suit his half and
|
|
half state, she replied,
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|
"I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to _me_! you forget
|
|
yourself--you take me for my friend--any message to Miss Smith I shall
|
|
be happy to deliver; but no more of this to _me_, if you please."
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|
"Miss Smith!--message to Miss Smith!--What could she possibly mean!"--
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|
And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such boastful
|
|
pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with quickness,
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|
"Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account
|
|
for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak
|
|
either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself enough
|
|
to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it."
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|
|
|
But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits, not at
|
|
all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning; and
|
|
having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious, and
|
|
slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,--but
|
|
acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned at
|
|
all,--he resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very urgent
|
|
for a favourable answer.
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|
As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his
|
|
inconstancy and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness,
|
|
replied,
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|
|
"It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made yourself
|
|
too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond any thing I can
|
|
express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed during the last
|
|
month, to Miss Smith--such attentions as I have been in the daily habit
|
|
of observing--to be addressing me in this manner--this is an
|
|
unsteadiness of character, indeed, which I had not supposed possible!
|
|
Believe me, sir, I am far, very far, from gratified in being the object
|
|
of such professions."
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|
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|
"Good Heaven!" cried Mr. Elton, "what can be the meaning of this?--
|
|
Miss Smith!--I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course of my
|
|
existence--never paid her any attentions, but as your friend: never
|
|
cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend. If she has
|
|
fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her, and I am very
|
|
sorry--extremely sorry--But, Miss Smith, indeed!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse!
|
|
who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse is near! No, upon my
|
|
honour, there is no unsteadiness of character. I have thought only of
|
|
you. I protest against having paid the smallest attention to any one
|
|
else. Every thing that I have said or done, for many weeks past, has
|
|
been with the sole view of marking my adoration of yourself. You
|
|
cannot really, seriously, doubt it. No!--(in an accent meant to be
|
|
insinuating)--I am sure you have seen and understood me."
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|
|
It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this--which
|
|
of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was too completely
|
|
overpowered to be immediately able to reply: and two moments of silence
|
|
being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton's sanguine state of mind, he
|
|
tried to take her hand again, as he joyously exclaimed--
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|
|
"Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting
|
|
silence. It confesses that you have long understood me."
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|
|
|
"No, sir," cried Emma, "it confesses no such thing. So far from having
|
|
long understood you, I have been in a most complete error with respect
|
|
to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am very sorry that
|
|
you should have been giving way to any feelings-- Nothing could be
|
|
farther from my wishes--your attachment to my friend Harriet--your
|
|
pursuit of her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me great pleasure, and I
|
|
have been very earnestly wishing you success: but had I supposed that
|
|
she were not your attraction to Hartfield, I should certainly have
|
|
thought you judged ill in making your visits so frequent. Am I to
|
|
believe that you have never sought to recommend yourself particularly
|
|
to Miss Smith?--that you have never thought seriously of her?"
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|
"Never, madam," cried he, affronted in his turn: "never, I assure you.
|
|
_I_ think seriously of Miss Smith!--Miss Smith is a very good sort of
|
|
girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled. I wish her
|
|
extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not object
|
|
to--Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not, I think,
|
|
quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair of an equal
|
|
alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!-- No, madam, my
|
|
visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only; and the encouragement
|
|
I received--"
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|
|
|
"Encouragement!--I give you encouragement!--Sir, you have been entirely
|
|
mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer of my
|
|
friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than a common
|
|
acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that the mistake
|
|
ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued, Miss Smith might
|
|
have been led into a misconception of your views; not being aware,
|
|
probably, any more than myself, of the very great inequality which you
|
|
are so sensible of. But, as it is, the disappointment is single, and,
|
|
I trust, will not be lasting. I have no thoughts of matrimony at
|
|
present."
|
|
|
|
He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided to invite
|
|
supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment, and mutually
|
|
deep mortification, they had to continue together a few minutes longer,
|
|
for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them to a foot-pace. If
|
|
there had not been so much anger, there would have been desperate
|
|
awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left no room for the
|
|
little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing when the carriage
|
|
turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped, they found themselves,
|
|
all at once, at the door of his house; and he was out before another
|
|
syllable passed.--Emma then felt it indispensable to wish him a good
|
|
night. The compliment was just returned, coldly and proudly; and,
|
|
under indescribable irritation of spirits, she was then conveyed to
|
|
Hartfield.
|
|
|
|
There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father, who had
|
|
been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from Vicarage
|
|
Lane--turning a corner which he could never bear to think of--and in
|
|
strange hands--a mere common coachman--no James; and there it seemed as
|
|
if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well: for Mr.
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John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all kindness and
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attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort of her
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father, as to seem--if not quite ready to join him in a basin of
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gruel--perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome; and the
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day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party,
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except herself.--But her mind had never been in such perturbation; and
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it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till
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the usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.
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CHAPTER XVI
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The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think
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and be miserable.--It was a wretched business indeed!--Such an
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overthrow of every thing she had been wishing for!--Such a development
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of every thing most unwelcome!--Such a blow for Harriet!--that was the
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worst of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some
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sort or other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light;
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and she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken--more in
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error--more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the
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effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.
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"If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have borne
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any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me--but poor
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Harriet!"
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How she could have been so deceived!--He protested that he had never
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thought seriously of Harriet--never! She looked back as well as she
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could; but it was all confusion. She had taken up the idea, she
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supposed, and made every thing bend to it. His manners, however, must
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have been unmarked, wavering, dubious, or she could not have been so
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misled.
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The picture!--How eager he had been about the picture!--and the
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charade!--and an hundred other circumstances;--how clearly they had
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seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure, the charade, with its "ready
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wit"--but then the "soft eyes"--in fact it suited neither; it was a
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jumble without taste or truth. Who could have seen through such
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thick-headed nonsense?
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Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners to
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herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way, as a mere
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error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof among others
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that he had not always lived in the best society, that with all the
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gentleness of his address, true elegance was sometimes wanting; but,
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till this very day, she had never, for an instant, suspected it to mean
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any thing but grateful respect to her as Harriet's friend.
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To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on the
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subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was no denying
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that those brothers had penetration. She remembered what Mr. Knightley
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had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution he had given, the
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conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would never marry
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indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer a knowledge of his
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character had been there shewn than any she had reached herself. It
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was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton was proving himself, in many
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respects, the very reverse of what she had meant and believed him;
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proud, assuming, conceited; very full of his own claims, and little
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concerned about the feelings of others.
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Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton's wanting to pay his
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addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion. His professions and his
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proposals did him no service. She thought nothing of his attachment,
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and was insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well, and having the
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arrogance to raise his eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she
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was perfectly easy as to his not suffering any disappointment that need
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be cared for. There had been no real affection either in his language
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or manners. Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she
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could hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice,
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less allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him.
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He only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse
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of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite so
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easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss Somebody
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else with twenty, or with ten.
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But--that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as aware
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of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short), to marry
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him!--should suppose himself her equal in connexion or mind!--look down
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upon her friend, so well understanding the gradations of rank below
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him, and be so blind to what rose above, as to fancy himself shewing no
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presumption in addressing her!-- It was most provoking.
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Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he was her
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inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind. The very want of
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such equality might prevent his perception of it; but he must know that
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in fortune and consequence she was greatly his superior. He must know
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that the Woodhouses had been settled for several generations at
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Hartfield, the younger branch of a very ancient family--and that the
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Eltons were nobody. The landed property of Hartfield certainly was
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inconsiderable, being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate,
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to which all the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from
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other sources, was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell
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Abbey itself, in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses
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had long held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood
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which Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way as
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he could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing to recommend
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him to notice but his situation and his civility.-- But he had fancied
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her in love with him; that evidently must have been his dependence; and
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after raving a little about the seeming incongruity of gentle manners
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and a conceited head, Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop and
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admit that her own behaviour to him had been so complaisant and
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obliging, so full of courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real
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motive unperceived) might warrant a man of ordinary observation and
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delicacy, like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite.
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If _she_ had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to
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wonder that _he_, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken
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hers.
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The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish, it was
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wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two people together.
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It was adventuring too far, assuming too much, making light of what
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ought to be serious, a trick of what ought to be simple. She was quite
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concerned and ashamed, and resolved to do such things no more.
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"Here have I," said she, "actually talked poor Harriet into being very
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much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him but for
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me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope, if I had
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not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest and humble as I
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used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with persuading her
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not to accept young Martin. There I was quite right. That was well
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done of me; but there I should have stopped, and left the rest to time
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and chance. I was introducing her into good company, and giving her
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the opportunity of pleasing some one worth having; I ought not to have
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attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace is cut up for some time.
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I have been but half a friend to her; and if she were _not_ to feel
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this disappointment so very much, I am sure I have not an idea of any
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body else who would be at all desirable for her;--William Coxe--Oh! no,
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I could not endure William Coxe--a pert young lawyer."
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She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed a
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more serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been, and might
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be, and must be. The distressing explanation she had to make to
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Harriet, and all that poor Harriet would be suffering, with the
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awkwardness of future meetings, the difficulties of continuing or
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discontinuing the acquaintance, of subduing feelings, concealing
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resentment, and avoiding eclat, were enough to occupy her in most
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unmirthful reflections some time longer, and she went to bed at last
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with nothing settled but the conviction of her having blundered most
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dreadfully.
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To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma's, though under temporary
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gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail to bring return of
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spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning are in happy analogy,
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and of powerful operation; and if the distress be not poignant enough
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to keep the eyes unclosed, they will be sure to open to sensations of
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softened pain and brighter hope.
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Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had gone
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to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her, and to
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depend on getting tolerably out of it.
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It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really in love
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with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking to
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disappoint him--that Harriet's nature should not be of that superior
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sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive--and that
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there could be no necessity for any body's knowing what had passed
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except the three principals, and especially for her father's being
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given a moment's uneasiness about it.
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These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal of
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snow on the ground did her further service, for any thing was welcome
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that might justify their all three being quite asunder at present.
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The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day, she
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could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable had
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his daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from either
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exciting or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas. The ground
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covered with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled state between
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frost and thaw, which is of all others the most unfriendly for
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exercise, every morning beginning in rain or snow, and every evening
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setting in to freeze, she was for many days a most honourable prisoner.
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No intercourse with Harriet possible but by note; no church for her on
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Sunday any more than on Christmas Day; and no need to find excuses for
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Mr. Elton's absenting himself.
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It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home; and
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though she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort in some
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society or other, it was very pleasant to have her father so well
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satisfied with his being all alone in his own house, too wise to stir
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out; and to hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could keep
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entirely from them,--
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"Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?"
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These days of confinement would have been, but for her private
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|
perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly suited
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her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance to his
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companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off his
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ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him during
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the rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable and
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obliging, and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all the
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hopes of cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay, there was
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still such an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation with
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Harriet, as made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.
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CHAPTER XVII
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Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The
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weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr.
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Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay
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behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole party set
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off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny of poor
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Isabella;--which poor Isabella, passing her life with those she doated
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on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always innocently
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|
busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.
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The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note from Mr.
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Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note, to say, with
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Mr. Elton's best compliments, "that he was proposing to leave Highbury
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|
the following morning in his way to Bath; where, in compliance with the
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|
pressing entreaties of some friends, he had engaged to spend a few
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|
weeks, and very much regretted the impossibility he was under, from
|
|
various circumstances of weather and business, of taking a personal
|
|
leave of Mr. Woodhouse, of whose friendly civilities he should ever
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|
retain a grateful sense--and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be
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|
happy to attend to them."
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Emma was most agreeably surprized.--Mr. Elton's absence just at this
|
|
time was the very thing to be desired. She admired him for contriving
|
|
it, though not able to give him much credit for the manner in which it
|
|
was announced. Resentment could not have been more plainly spoken than
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|
in a civility to her father, from which she was so pointedly excluded.
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She had not even a share in his opening compliments.--Her name was not
|
|
mentioned;--and there was so striking a change in all this, and such
|
|
an ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful
|
|
acknowledgments, as she thought, at first, could not escape her
|
|
father's suspicion.
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It did, however.--Her father was quite taken up with the surprize of so
|
|
sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get safely
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to the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language. It
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was a very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter for
|
|
thought and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening. Mr.
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Woodhouse talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits to persuade
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them away with all her usual promptitude.
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She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had reason
|
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to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was desirable
|
|
that she should have as much time as possible for getting the better of
|
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her other complaint before the gentleman's return. She went to Mrs.
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Goddard's accordingly the very next day, to undergo the necessary
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|
penance of communication; and a severe one it was.-- She had to destroy
|
|
all the hopes which she had been so industriously feeding--to appear in
|
|
the ungracious character of the one preferred--and acknowledge herself
|
|
grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her ideas on one subject, all
|
|
her observations, all her convictions, all her prophecies for the last
|
|
six weeks.
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The confession completely renewed her first shame--and the sight of
|
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Harriet's tears made her think that she should never be in charity with
|
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herself again.
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Harriet bore the intelligence very well--blaming nobody--and in every
|
|
thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition and lowly opinion
|
|
of herself, as must appear with particular advantage at that moment to
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her friend.
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Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost;
|
|
and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching, seemed on
|
|
Harriet's side, not her own. Harriet did not consider herself as
|
|
having any thing to complain of. The affection of such a man as Mr.
|
|
Elton would have been too great a distinction.-- She never could have
|
|
deserved him--and nobody but so partial and kind a friend as Miss
|
|
Woodhouse would have thought it possible.
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Her tears fell abundantly--but her grief was so truly artless, that no
|
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dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma's eyes--and she
|
|
listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart and
|
|
understanding--really for the time convinced that Harriet was the
|
|
superior creature of the two--and that to resemble her would be more
|
|
for her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or intelligence
|
|
could do.
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It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded and
|
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ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution confirmed of
|
|
being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination all the rest of
|
|
her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her father's claims,
|
|
was to promote Harriet's comfort, and endeavour to prove her own
|
|
affection in some better method than by match-making. She got her to
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Hartfield, and shewed her the most unvarying kindness, striving to
|
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occupy and amuse her, and by books and conversation, to drive Mr. Elton
|
|
from her thoughts.
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Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and she
|
|
could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in
|
|
general, and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr.
|
|
Elton in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet's
|
|
age, and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might
|
|
be made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton's return,
|
|
as to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of
|
|
acquaintance, without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing
|
|
them.
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Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence
|
|
of any body equal to him in person or goodness--and did, in truth,
|
|
prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen; but yet
|
|
it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive against an
|
|
inclination of that sort _unrequited_, that she could not comprehend
|
|
its continuing very long in equal force.
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If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident and
|
|
indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do, she could not
|
|
imagine Harriet's persisting to place her happiness in the sight or the
|
|
recollection of him.
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Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad for
|
|
each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal, or of
|
|
effecting any material change of society. They must encounter each
|
|
other, and make the best of it.
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Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at Mrs.
|
|
Goddard's; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers and great
|
|
girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only that she could
|
|
have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling moderation or
|
|
repellent truth. Where the wound had been given, there must the cure
|
|
be found if anywhere; and Emma felt that, till she saw her in the way
|
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of cure, there could be no true peace for herself.
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CHAPTER XVIII
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Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near,
|
|
Mrs. Weston's fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of
|
|
excuse. For the present, he could not be spared, to his "very great
|
|
mortification and regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of
|
|
coming to Randalls at no distant period."
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|
|
Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed--much more disappointed, in
|
|
fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the young man
|
|
had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper, though for ever
|
|
expecting more good than occurs, does not always pay for its hopes by
|
|
any proportionate depression. It soon flies over the present failure,
|
|
and begins to hope again. For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized
|
|
and sorry; but then he began to perceive that Frank's coming two or
|
|
three months later would be a much better plan; better time of year;
|
|
better weather; and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay
|
|
considerably longer with them than if he had come sooner.
|
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|
|
These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston, of a
|
|
more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition of
|
|
excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband was
|
|
to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.
|
|
|
|
Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really about
|
|
Mr. Frank Churchill's not coming, except as a disappointment at
|
|
Randalls. The acquaintance at present had no charm for her. She
|
|
wanted, rather, to be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it
|
|
was desirable that she should appear, in general, like her usual self,
|
|
she took care to express as much interest in the circumstance, and
|
|
enter as warmly into Mr. and Mrs. Weston's disappointment, as might
|
|
naturally belong to their friendship.
|
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|
|
She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed quite
|
|
as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps rather
|
|
more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away. She then
|
|
proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the advantage of
|
|
such an addition to their confined society in Surry; the pleasure of
|
|
looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire, which the
|
|
sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections on the
|
|
Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a disagreement
|
|
with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement, perceived that she was
|
|
taking the other side of the question from her real opinion, and making
|
|
use of Mrs. Weston's arguments against herself.
|
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|
|
"The Churchills are very likely in fault," said Mr. Knightley, coolly;
|
|
"but I dare say he might come if he would."
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|
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"I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come;
|
|
but his uncle and aunt will not spare him."
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"I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made a
|
|
point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof."
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"How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you
|
|
suppose him such an unnatural creature?"
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"I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting
|
|
that he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care very
|
|
little for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with those who
|
|
have always set him the example of it. It is a great deal more natural
|
|
than one could wish, that a young man, brought up by those who are
|
|
proud, luxurious, and selfish, should be proud, luxurious, and selfish
|
|
too. If Frank Churchill had wanted to see his father, he would have
|
|
contrived it between September and January. A man at his age--what is
|
|
he?--three or four-and-twenty--cannot be without the means of doing as
|
|
much as that. It is impossible."
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|
|
"That's easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always been your
|
|
own master. You are the worst judge in the world, Mr. Knightley, of
|
|
the difficulties of dependence. You do not know what it is to have
|
|
tempers to manage."
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|
|
"It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty
|
|
should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot want
|
|
money--he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary, that he has
|
|
so much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at the idlest
|
|
haunts in the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some watering-place
|
|
or other. A little while ago, he was at Weymouth. This proves that he
|
|
can leave the Churchills."
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|
|
"Yes, sometimes he can."
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"And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while; whenever
|
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there is any temptation of pleasure."
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"It is very unfair to judge of any body's conduct, without an intimate
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knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been in the interior
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of a family, can say what the difficulties of any individual of that
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family may be. We ought to be acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs.
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Churchill's temper, before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew
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can do. He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can
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at others."
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"There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses, and
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that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour and
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resolution. It is Frank Churchill's duty to pay this attention to his
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father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages; but if he
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wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly would say at
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once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill-- 'Every sacrifice of
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mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make to your
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convenience; but I must go and see my father immediately. I know he
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would be hurt by my failing in such a mark of respect to him on the
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present occasion. I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.'-- If he
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would say so to her at once, in the tone of decision becoming a man,
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there would be no opposition made to his going."
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"No," said Emma, laughing; "but perhaps there might be some made to his
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coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent,
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to use!--Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible. But
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you have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly
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opposite to your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such a speech
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as that to the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up, and are to
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provide for him!--Standing up in the middle of the room, I suppose, and
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speaking as loud as he could!--How can you imagine such conduct
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practicable?"
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"Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it.
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He would feel himself in the right; and the declaration--made, of
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course, as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner--would do
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him more good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger with the
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people he depended on, than all that a line of shifts and expedients
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can ever do. Respect would be added to affection. They would feel
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that they could trust him; that the nephew who had done rightly by his
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father, would do rightly by them; for they know, as well as he does, as
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well as all the world must know, that he ought to pay this visit to his
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father; and while meanly exerting their power to delay it, are in their
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hearts not thinking the better of him for submitting to their whims.
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Respect for right conduct is felt by every body. If he would act in
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this sort of manner, on principle, consistently, regularly, their
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little minds would bend to his."
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"I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds; but
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where little minds belong to rich people in authority, I think they
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have a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as unmanageable as
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great ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley,
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were to be transported and placed all at once in Mr. Frank Churchill's
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situation, you would be able to say and do just what you have been
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recommending for him; and it might have a very good effect. The
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Churchills might not have a word to say in return; but then, you would
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have no habits of early obedience and long observance to break through.
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To him who has, it might not be so easy to burst forth at once into
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perfect independence, and set all their claims on his gratitude and
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regard at nought. He may have as strong a sense of what would be
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right, as you can have, without being so equal, under particular
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circumstances, to act up to it."
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"Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce equal
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exertion, it could not be an equal conviction."
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"Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try to
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understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel in directly
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opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been looking up to all his
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life."
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"Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first
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occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against the
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will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by this time,
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of following his duty, instead of consulting expediency. I can allow
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for the fears of the child, but not of the man. As he became rational,
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he ought to have roused himself and shaken off all that was unworthy in
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their authority. He ought to have opposed the first attempt on their
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side to make him slight his father. Had he begun as he ought, there
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would have been no difficulty now."
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"We shall never agree about him," cried Emma; "but that is nothing
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extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being a weak young
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man: I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would not be blind to
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folly, though in his own son; but he is very likely to have a more
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yielding, complying, mild disposition than would suit your notions of
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man's perfection. I dare say he has; and though it may cut him off
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from some advantages, it will secure him many others."
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"Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move, and of
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leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself extremely
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expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fine
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flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods, and persuade
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himself that he has hit upon the very best method in the world of
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preserving peace at home and preventing his father's having any right
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to complain. His letters disgust me."
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"Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else."
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"I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can satisfy a
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woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in a mother's
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place, but without a mother's affection to blind her. It is on her
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account that attention to Randalls is doubly due, and she must doubly
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feel the omission. Had she been a person of consequence herself, he
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would have come I dare say; and it would not have signified whether he
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did or no. Can you think your friend behindhand in these sort of
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considerations? Do you suppose she does not often say all this to
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herself? No, Emma, your amiable young man can be amiable only in
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French, not in English. He may be very 'aimable,' have very good
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manners, and be very agreeable; but he can have no English delicacy
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towards the feelings of other people: nothing really amiable about him."
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"You seem determined to think ill of him."
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"Me!--not at all," replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; "I do not
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want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge his
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merits as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are merely
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personal; that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth,
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plausible manners."
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"Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a treasure
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at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men, well-bred and
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agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all the virtues into the
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bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a _sensation_ his
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coming will produce? There will be but one subject throughout the
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parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest--one object of
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curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill; we shall think and speak
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of nobody else."
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"You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him
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conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only a
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chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts."
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"My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste of
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every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being universally
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agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me, of drawing or
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music; and so on to every body, having that general information on all
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subjects which will enable him to follow the lead, or take the lead,
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just as propriety may require, and to speak extremely well on each;
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that is my idea of him."
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"And mine," said Mr. Knightley warmly, "is, that if he turn out any
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thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing!
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What! at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company--the great
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man--the practised politician, who is to read every body's character,
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and make every body's talents conduce to the display of his own
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superiority; to be dispensing his flatteries around, that he may make
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all appear like fools compared with himself! My dear Emma, your own
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good sense could not endure such a puppy when it came to the point."
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"I will say no more about him," cried Emma, "you turn every thing to
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evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him; and we have no
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chance of agreeing till he is really here."
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"Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced."
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"But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it. My love
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for Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in his favour."
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"He is a person I never think of from one month's end to another," said
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Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma immediately
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talk of something else, though she could not comprehend why he should
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be angry.
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To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be of a
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different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real liberality of
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mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him; for with all the
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high opinion of himself, which she had often laid to his charge, she
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had never before for a moment supposed it could make him unjust to the
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merit of another.
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VOLUME II
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CHAPTER I
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Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma's
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opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could
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|
not think that Harriet's solace or her own sins required more; and she
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|
was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they
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|
returned;--but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded,
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and after speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter,
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and receiving no other answer than a very plaintive-- "Mr. Elton is so
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good to the poor!" she found something else must be done.
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They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates.
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She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers. There was
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always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and Miss Bates
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loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very few
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|
who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in
|
|
that respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of
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their scanty comforts.
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She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart,
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as to her deficiency--but none were equal to counteract the persuasion
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|
of its being very disagreeable,--a waste of time--tiresome women--and
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all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate
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and third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever, and
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therefore she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden
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|
resolution of not passing their door without going in--observing, as
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she proposed it to Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they
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were just now quite safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
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The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied
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the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized
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apartment, which was every thing to them, the visitors were most
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cordially and even gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who
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with her knitting was seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to
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give up her place to Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking
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daughter, almost ready to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks
|
|
for their visit, solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after
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Mr. Woodhouse's health, cheerful communications about her mother's, and
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sweet-cake from the beaufet--"Mrs. Cole had just been there, just
|
|
called in for ten minutes, and had been so good as to sit an hour with
|
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them, and _she_ had taken a piece of cake and been so kind as to say
|
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she liked it very much; and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse and
|
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Miss Smith would do them the favour to eat a piece too."
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The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton.
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There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton
|
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since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must have the
|
|
letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much
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he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he
|
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went, and how full the Master of the Ceremonies' ball had been; and she
|
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went through it very well, with all the interest and all the
|
|
commendation that could be requisite, and always putting forward to
|
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prevent Harriet's being obliged to say a word.
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This she had been prepared for when she entered the house; but meant,
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having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther incommoded by
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any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all the
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Mistresses and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not
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|
been prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was
|
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actually hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last
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abruptly to the Coles, to usher in a letter from her niece.
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"Oh! yes--Mr. Elton, I understand--certainly as to dancing-- Mrs. Cole
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was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was-- Mrs. Cole was so
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kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as she
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came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a
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favourite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how
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to shew her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as
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much as any body can. And so she began inquiring after her directly,
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saying, 'I know you cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is
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|
not her time for writing;' and when I immediately said, 'But indeed we
|
|
have, we had a letter this very morning,' I do not know that I ever saw
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any body more surprized. 'Have you, upon your honour?' said she;
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|
'well, that is quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.'"
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Emma's politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest--
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"Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy. I
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hope she is well?"
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"Thank you. You are so kind!" replied the happily deceived aunt, while
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eagerly hunting for the letter.--"Oh! here it is. I was sure it could
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not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see, without
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being aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very
|
|
lately that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading
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it to Mrs. Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my
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mother, for it is such a pleasure to her--a letter from Jane--that she
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can never hear it often enough; so I knew it could not be far off, and
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here it is, only just under my huswife--and since you are so kind as to
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wish to hear what she says;--but, first of all, I really must, in
|
|
justice to Jane, apologise for her writing so short a letter--only two
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pages you see--hardly two--and in general she fills the whole paper
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and crosses half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so
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well. She often says, when the letter is first opened, 'Well, Hetty,
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now I think you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work'--
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|
don't you, ma'am?--And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to
|
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make it out herself, if she had nobody to do it for her--every word of
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it--I am sure she would pore over it till she had made out every word.
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And, indeed, though my mother's eyes are not so good as they were, she
|
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can see amazingly well still, thank God! with the help of spectacles.
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It is such a blessing! My mother's are really very good indeed. Jane
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often says, when she is here, 'I am sure, grandmama, you must have had
|
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very strong eyes to see as you do--and so much fine work as you have
|
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done too!--I only wish my eyes may last me as well.'"
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All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath;
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and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss
|
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Fairfax's handwriting.
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"You are extremely kind," replied Miss Bates, highly gratified; "you
|
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who are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself. I am sure
|
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there is nobody's praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss
|
|
Woodhouse's. My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know.
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|
Ma'am," addressing her, "do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging
|
|
to say about Jane's handwriting?"
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And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment repeated
|
|
twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it. She was
|
|
pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming very
|
|
rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax's letter, and had almost
|
|
resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss
|
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Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.
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"My mother's deafness is very trifling you see--just nothing at all.
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By only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over,
|
|
she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very
|
|
remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.
|
|
Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at
|
|
all deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at
|
|
my mother's time of life--and it really is full two years, you know,
|
|
since she was here. We never were so long without seeing her before,
|
|
and as I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know how to make enough
|
|
of her now."
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"Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?"
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"Oh yes; next week."
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"Indeed!--that must be a very great pleasure."
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"Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is so
|
|
surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am sure she
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|
will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be to see
|
|
her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel
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|
Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So
|
|
very good of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you
|
|
know. Oh yes, Friday or Saturday next. That is what she writes about.
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|
That is the reason of her writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in
|
|
the common course, we should not have heard from her before next
|
|
Tuesday or Wednesday."
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"Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance of my
|
|
hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day."
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"So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not been
|
|
for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here so soon.
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|
My mother is so delighted!--for she is to be three months with us at
|
|
least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have
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|
the pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the
|
|
Campbells are going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father
|
|
and mother to come over and see her directly. They had not intended to
|
|
go over till the summer, but she is so impatient to see them again--for
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|
till she married, last October, she was never away from them so much as
|
|
a week, which must make it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I
|
|
was going to say, but however different countries, and so she wrote a
|
|
very urgent letter to her mother--or her father, I declare I do not
|
|
know which it was, but we shall see presently in Jane's letter--wrote
|
|
in Mr. Dixon's name as well as her own, to press their coming over
|
|
directly, and they would give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them
|
|
back to their country seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy.
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|
Jane has heard a great deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean-- I
|
|
do not know that she ever heard about it from any body else; but it was
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|
very natural, you know, that he should like to speak of his own place
|
|
while he was paying his addresses--and as Jane used to be very often
|
|
walking out with them--for Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very
|
|
particular about their daughter's not walking out often with only Mr.
|
|
Dixon, for which I do not at all blame them; of course she heard every
|
|
thing he might be telling Miss Campbell about his own home in Ireland;
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|
and I think she wrote us word that he had shewn them some drawings of
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|
the place, views that he had taken himself. He is a most amiable,
|
|
charming young man, I believe. Jane was quite longing to go to
|
|
Ireland, from his account of things."
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|
At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering Emma's
|
|
brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon, and the not
|
|
going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of farther
|
|
discovery,
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|
"You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed to
|
|
come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular friendship
|
|
between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be
|
|
excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell."
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|
"Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always been
|
|
rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her at such a
|
|
distance from us, for months together--not able to come if any thing
|
|
was to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They
|
|
want her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and
|
|
Mrs. Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or
|
|
pressing than their _joint_ invitation, Jane says, as you will hear
|
|
presently; Mr. Dixon does not seem in the least backward in any
|
|
attention. He is a most charming young man. Ever since the service he
|
|
rendered Jane at Weymouth, when they were out in that party on the
|
|
water, and she, by the sudden whirling round of something or other
|
|
among the sails, would have been dashed into the sea at once, and
|
|
actually was all but gone, if he had not, with the greatest presence of
|
|
mind, caught hold of her habit-- (I can never think of it without
|
|
trembling!)--But ever since we had the history of that day, I have been
|
|
so fond of Mr. Dixon!"
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|
"But, in spite of all her friends' urgency, and her own wish of seeing
|
|
Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you and Mrs. Bates?"
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|
"Yes--entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel and
|
|
Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they should
|
|
recommend; and indeed they particularly _wish_ her to try her native
|
|
air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately."
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"I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely. But Mrs.
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Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I understand, has no
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remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means, to be
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compared with Miss Fairfax."
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"Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things--but certainly not.
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There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was
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absolutely plain--but extremely elegant and amiable."
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"Yes, that of course."
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"Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th of
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November, (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been well
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since. A long time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never
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mentioned it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so
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considerate!--But however, she is so far from well, that her kind
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friends the Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air
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that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt that three or four
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months at Highbury will entirely cure her--and it is certainly a great
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deal better that she should come here, than go to Ireland, if she is
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unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we should do."
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"It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world."
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"And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells
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leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following--as you will
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find from Jane's letter. So sudden!--You may guess, dear Miss
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Woodhouse, what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the
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drawback of her illness--but I am afraid we must expect to see her
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grown thin, and looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky
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thing happened to me, as to that. I always make a point of reading
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Jane's letters through to myself first, before I read them aloud to my
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mother, you know, for fear of there being any thing in them to distress
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her. Jane desired me to do it, so I always do: and so I began to-day
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with my usual caution; but no sooner did I come to the mention of her
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being unwell, than I burst out, quite frightened, with 'Bless me! poor
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Jane is ill!'--which my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly,
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and was sadly alarmed at. However, when I read on, I found it was not
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near so bad as I had fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to
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her, that she does not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I
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could be so off my guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call
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in Mr. Perry. The expense shall not be thought of; and though he is so
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liberal, and so fond of Jane that I dare say he would not mean to
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charge any thing for attendance, we could not suffer it to be so, you
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know. He has a wife and family to maintain, and is not to be giving
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away his time. Well, now I have just given you a hint of what Jane
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writes about, we will turn to her letter, and I am sure she tells her
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own story a great deal better than I can tell it for her."
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"I am afraid we must be running away," said Emma, glancing at Harriet,
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and beginning to rise--"My father will be expecting us. I had no
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intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five minutes,
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when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not
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pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so
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pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates
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good morning."
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And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded. She regained
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the street--happy in this, that though much had been forced on her
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against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole substance of
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Jane Fairfax's letter, she had been able to escape the letter itself.
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CHAPTER II
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Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates's youngest
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daughter.
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The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the _______ regiment of infantry, and
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Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure, hope and
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interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy
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remembrance of him dying in action abroad--of his widow sinking under
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consumption and grief soon afterwards--and this girl.
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By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old, on
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losing her mother, she became the property, the charge, the
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consolation, the fondling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed
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every probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being
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taught only what very limited means could command, and growing up with
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no advantages of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what
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nature had given her in a pleasing person, good understanding, and
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warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
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But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave a change
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to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had very highly
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regarded Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young man;
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and farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a
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severe camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were
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claims which he did not learn to overlook, though some years passed
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away from the death of poor Fairfax, before his own return to England
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put any thing in his power. When he did return, he sought out the
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child and took notice of her. He was a married man, with only one
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living child, a girl, about Jane's age: and Jane became their guest,
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paying them long visits and growing a favourite with all; and before
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she was nine years old, his daughter's great fondness for her, and his
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own wish of being a real friend, united to produce an offer from
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Colonel Campbell of undertaking the whole charge of her education. It
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was accepted; and from that period Jane had belonged to Colonel
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Campbell's family, and had lived with them entirely, only visiting her
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grandmother from time to time.
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The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others; the
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very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father making
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independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of
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Colonel Campbell's power; for though his income, by pay and
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|
appointments, was handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all
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his daughter's; but, by giving her an education, he hoped to be
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supplying the means of respectable subsistence hereafter.
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Such was Jane Fairfax's history. She had fallen into good hands, known
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nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given an excellent
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education. Living constantly with right-minded and well-informed
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|
people, her heart and understanding had received every advantage of
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|
discipline and culture; and Colonel Campbell's residence being in
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London, every lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the
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attendance of first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were
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|
equally worthy of all that friendship could do; and at eighteen or
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nineteen she was, as far as such an early age can be qualified for the
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care of children, fully competent to the office of instruction herself;
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but she was too much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor
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|
mother could promote, and the daughter could not endure it. The evil
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|
day was put off. It was easy to decide that she was still too young;
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|
and Jane remained with them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the
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rational pleasures of an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of
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|
home and amusement, with only the drawback of the future, the sobering
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|
suggestions of her own good understanding to remind her that all this
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|
might soon be over.
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The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss Campbell
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|
in particular, was the more honourable to each party from the
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|
circumstance of Jane's decided superiority both in beauty and
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acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen
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|
by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by
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the parents. They continued together with unabated regard however,
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|
till the marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which
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|
so often defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs, giving attraction
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|
to what is moderate rather than to what is superior, engaged the
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affections of Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable, almost as
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|
soon as they were acquainted; and was eligibly and happily settled,
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|
while Jane Fairfax had yet her bread to earn.
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This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be
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yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path
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of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment had
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|
fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty
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should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she
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|
had resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire
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from all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society,
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peace and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.
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The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such a
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resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived, no
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exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and
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for their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this
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|
would be selfishness:--what must be at last, had better be soon.
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Perhaps they began to feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have
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|
resisted the temptation of any delay, and spared her from a taste of
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such enjoyments of ease and leisure as must now be relinquished.
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|
Still, however, affection was glad to catch at any reasonable excuse
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|
for not hurrying on the wretched moment. She had never been quite well
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|
since the time of their daughter's marriage; and till she should have
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completely recovered her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging
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|
in duties, which, so far from being compatible with a weakened frame
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|
and varying spirits, seemed, under the most favourable circumstances,
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|
to require something more than human perfection of body and mind to be
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|
discharged with tolerable comfort.
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With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account to her
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|
aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some truths not
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|
told. It was her own choice to give the time of their absence to
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|
Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with
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|
those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells,
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|
whatever might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double,
|
|
or treble, gave the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that
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|
they depended more on a few months spent in her native air, for the
|
|
recovery of her health, than on any thing else. Certain it was that
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|
she was to come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect
|
|
novelty which had been so long promised it--Mr. Frank Churchill--must
|
|
put up for the present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the
|
|
freshness of a two years' absence.
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Emma was sorry;--to have to pay civilities to a person she did not like
|
|
through three long months!--to be always doing more than she wished,
|
|
and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax might be a
|
|
difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was
|
|
because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she
|
|
wanted to be thought herself; and though the accusation had been
|
|
eagerly refuted at the time, there were moments of self-examination in
|
|
which her conscience could not quite acquit her. But "she could never
|
|
get acquainted with her: she did not know how it was, but there was
|
|
such coldness and reserve--such apparent indifference whether she
|
|
pleased or not--and then, her aunt was such an eternal talker!--and she
|
|
was made such a fuss with by every body!--and it had been always
|
|
imagined that they were to be so intimate--because their ages were the
|
|
same, every body had supposed they must be so fond of each other."
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|
These were her reasons--she had no better.
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|
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It was a dislike so little just--every imputed fault was so magnified
|
|
by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any
|
|
considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and
|
|
now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years'
|
|
interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance and
|
|
manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating.
|
|
Jane Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had herself
|
|
the highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty, just such as
|
|
almost every body would think tall, and nobody could think very tall;
|
|
her figure particularly graceful; her size a most becoming medium,
|
|
between fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health seemed
|
|
to point out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel
|
|
all this; and then, her face--her features--there was more beauty in
|
|
them altogether than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was
|
|
very pleasing beauty. Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and
|
|
eyebrows, had never been denied their praise; but the skin, which she
|
|
had been used to cavil at, as wanting colour, had a clearness and
|
|
delicacy which really needed no fuller bloom. It was a style of
|
|
beauty, of which elegance was the reigning character, and as such, she
|
|
must, in honour, by all her principles, admire it:--elegance, which,
|
|
whether of person or of mind, she saw so little in Highbury. There,
|
|
not to be vulgar, was distinction, and merit.
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|
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|
In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax with
|
|
twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering
|
|
justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no longer.
|
|
When she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her
|
|
beauty; when she considered what all this elegance was destined to,
|
|
what she was going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed
|
|
impossible to feel any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if
|
|
to every well-known particular entitling her to interest, were added
|
|
the highly probable circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which
|
|
she had so naturally started to herself. In that case, nothing could
|
|
be more pitiable or more honourable than the sacrifices she had
|
|
resolved on. Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced
|
|
Mr. Dixon's actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous which
|
|
her imagination had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be
|
|
simple, single, successless love on her side alone. She might have
|
|
been unconsciously sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his
|
|
conversation with her friend; and from the best, the purest of motives,
|
|
might now be denying herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to
|
|
divide herself effectually from him and his connexions by soon
|
|
beginning her career of laborious duty.
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|
|
|
Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings,
|
|
as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury
|
|
afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that
|
|
she could wish to scheme about for her.
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|
|
|
These were charming feelings--but not lasting. Before she had
|
|
committed herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for
|
|
Jane Fairfax, or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and
|
|
errors, than saying to Mr. Knightley, "She certainly is handsome; she
|
|
is better than handsome!" Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with
|
|
her grandmother and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its
|
|
usual state. Former provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome
|
|
as ever; more tiresome, because anxiety for her health was now added to
|
|
admiration of her powers; and they had to listen to the description of
|
|
exactly how little bread and butter she ate for breakfast, and how
|
|
small a slice of mutton for dinner, as well as to see exhibitions of
|
|
new caps and new workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane's
|
|
offences rose again. They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the
|
|
thanks and praise which necessarily followed appeared to her an
|
|
affectation of candour, an air of greatness, meaning only to shew off
|
|
in higher style her own very superior performance. She was, besides,
|
|
which was the worst of all, so cold, so cautious! There was no getting
|
|
at her real opinion. Wrapt up in a cloak of politeness, she seemed
|
|
determined to hazard nothing. She was disgustingly, was suspiciously
|
|
reserved.
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|
|
|
If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more reserved
|
|
on the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing. She seemed
|
|
bent on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon's character, or her own
|
|
value for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It
|
|
was all general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or
|
|
distinguished. It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown
|
|
away. Emma saw its artifice, and returned to her first surmises.
|
|
There probably _was_ something more to conceal than her own preference;
|
|
Mr. Dixon, perhaps, had been very near changing one friend for the
|
|
other, or been fixed only to Miss Campbell, for the sake of the future
|
|
twelve thousand pounds.
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|
|
|
The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank
|
|
Churchill had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that
|
|
they were a little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information
|
|
could Emma procure as to what he truly was. "Was he handsome?"--"She
|
|
believed he was reckoned a very fine young man." "Was he agreeable?"--
|
|
"He was generally thought so." "Did he appear a sensible young man; a
|
|
young man of information?"--"At a watering-place, or in a common London
|
|
acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points. Manners were
|
|
all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer knowledge than
|
|
they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed every body found his
|
|
manners pleasing." Emma could not forgive her.
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|
|
CHAPTER III
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|
|
Emma could not forgive her;--but as neither provocation nor resentment
|
|
were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had
|
|
seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was
|
|
expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with
|
|
Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might
|
|
have done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain
|
|
enough to be very intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her
|
|
unjust to Jane, and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement.
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|
|
|
"A very pleasant evening," he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse had been
|
|
talked into what was necessary, told that he understood, and the papers
|
|
swept away;--"particularly pleasant. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some
|
|
very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state, sir, than
|
|
sitting at one's ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such
|
|
young women; sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I
|
|
am sure Miss Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You
|
|
left nothing undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having
|
|
no instrument at her grandmother's, it must have been a real
|
|
indulgence."
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|
|
|
"I am happy you approved," said Emma, smiling; "but I hope I am not
|
|
often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield."
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|
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|
"No, my dear," said her father instantly; "_that_ I am sure you are
|
|
not. There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are. If any
|
|
thing, you are too attentive. The muffin last night--if it had been
|
|
handed round once, I think it would have been enough."
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|
|
|
"No," said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; "you are not often
|
|
deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension. I
|
|
think you understand me, therefore."
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|
|
|
An arch look expressed--"I understand you well enough;" but she said
|
|
only, "Miss Fairfax is reserved."
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|
|
|
"I always told you she was--a little; but you will soon overcome all
|
|
that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that has its
|
|
foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be
|
|
honoured."
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|
|
|
"You think her diffident. I do not see it."
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|
|
"My dear Emma," said he, moving from his chair into one close by her,
|
|
"you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you had not a pleasant
|
|
evening."
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|
|
"Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions;
|
|
and amused to think how little information I obtained."
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|
|
"I am disappointed," was his only answer.
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|
|
|
"I hope every body had a pleasant evening," said Mr. Woodhouse, in his
|
|
quiet way. "I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much; but then I
|
|
moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not disturb me.
|
|
Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is, though
|
|
she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs.
|
|
Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane
|
|
Fairfax is a very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a very
|
|
well-behaved young lady indeed. She must have found the evening
|
|
agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma."
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|
|
|
"True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax."
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|
|
|
Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for the
|
|
present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question--
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|
|
|
"She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one's eyes
|
|
from. I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my
|
|
heart."
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|
|
|
Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared to
|
|
express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse, whose
|
|
thoughts were on the Bates's, said--
|
|
|
|
"It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined! a
|
|
great pity indeed! and I have often wished--but it is so little one can
|
|
venture to do--small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon-- Now we
|
|
have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or a leg;
|
|
it is very small and delicate--Hartfield pork is not like any other
|
|
pork--but still it is pork--and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure
|
|
of their making it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried,
|
|
without the smallest grease, and not roast it, for no stomach can bear
|
|
roast pork--I think we had better send the leg--do not you think so,
|
|
my dear?"
|
|
|
|
"My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it.
|
|
There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice,
|
|
and the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like."
|
|
|
|
"That's right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before,
|
|
but that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then,
|
|
if it is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled, just as
|
|
Serle boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip,
|
|
and a little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome."
|
|
|
|
"Emma," said Mr. Knightley presently, "I have a piece of news for you.
|
|
You like news--and I heard an article in my way hither that I think
|
|
will interest you."
|
|
|
|
"News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?--why do you smile
|
|
so?--where did you hear it?--at Randalls?"
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|
|
|
He had time only to say,
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"No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls," when the door was
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thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room.
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Full of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to give
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quickest. Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and that
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not another syllable of communication could rest with him.
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"Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse-- I
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come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork! You
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are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to be
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married."
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Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was so
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completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start, and a
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little blush, at the sound.
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"There is my news:--I thought it would interest you," said Mr.
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Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of some part of what
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had passed between them.
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"But where could _you_ hear it?" cried Miss Bates. "Where could you
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possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes since I
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received Mrs. Cole's note--no, it cannot be more than five--or at
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least ten--for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come
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out--I was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork--Jane
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was standing in the passage--were not you, Jane?--for my mother was so
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afraid that we had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would
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go down and see, and Jane said, 'Shall I go down instead? for I think
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you have a little cold, and Patty has been washing the kitchen.'--'Oh!
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my dear,' said I--well, and just then came the note. A Miss Hawkins--
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that's all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley, how
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could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole told
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Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins--"
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"I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just
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read Elton's letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to me directly."
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"Well! that is quite--I suppose there never was a piece of news more
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generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful. My
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mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a thousand
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|
thanks, and says you really quite oppress her."
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"We consider our Hartfield pork," replied Mr. Woodhouse--"indeed it
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certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I
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cannot have a greater pleasure than--"
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"Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good to
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us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth
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themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us.
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We may well say that 'our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.' Well, Mr.
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Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well--"
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"It was short--merely to announce--but cheerful, exulting, of
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course."-- Here was a sly glance at Emma. "He had been so fortunate as
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to--I forget the precise words--one has no business to remember them.
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The information was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a
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Miss Hawkins. By his style, I should imagine it just settled."
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"Mr. Elton going to be married!" said Emma, as soon as she could speak.
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"He will have every body's wishes for his happiness."
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"He is very young to settle," was Mr. Woodhouse's observation. "He had
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better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off as he was. We
|
|
were always glad to see him at Hartfield."
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"A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!" said Miss Bates,
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joyfully; "my mother is so pleased!--she says she cannot bear to have
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the poor old Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed.
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Jane, you have never seen Mr. Elton!--no wonder that you have such a
|
|
curiosity to see him."
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Jane's curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly to
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|
occupy her.
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"No--I have never seen Mr. Elton," she replied, starting on this
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appeal; "is he--is he a tall man?"
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"Who shall answer that question?" cried Emma. "My father would say
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'yes,' Mr. Knightley 'no;' and Miss Bates and I that he is just the
|
|
happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax,
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|
you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in
|
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Highbury, both in person and mind."
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"Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best young
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man--But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he was
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precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,--I dare say, an
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excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother--wanting
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|
her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my
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|
mother is a little deaf, you know--it is not much, but she does not
|
|
hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf.
|
|
He fancied bathing might be good for it--the warm bath--but she says
|
|
it did him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell, you know, is quite
|
|
our angel. And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man, quite worthy
|
|
of him. It is such a happiness when good people get together--and they
|
|
always do. Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are
|
|
the Coles, such very good people; and the Perrys--I suppose there never
|
|
was a happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,"
|
|
turning to Mr. Woodhouse, "I think there are few places with such
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|
society as Highbury. I always say, we are quite blessed in our
|
|
neighbours.--My dear sir, if there is one thing my mother loves better
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|
than another, it is pork--a roast loin of pork--"
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"As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been acquainted
|
|
with her," said Emma, "nothing I suppose can be known. One feels that
|
|
it cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone only four
|
|
weeks."
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Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings,
|
|
Emma said,
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|
|
"You are silent, Miss Fairfax--but I hope you mean to take an interest
|
|
in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much of late on
|
|
these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on Miss
|
|
Campbell's account--we shall not excuse your being indifferent about
|
|
Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins."
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|
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"When I have seen Mr. Elton," replied Jane, "I dare say I shall be
|
|
interested--but I believe it requires _that_ with me. And as it is
|
|
some months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be a little
|
|
worn off."
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|
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"Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss
|
|
Woodhouse," said Miss Bates, "four weeks yesterday.--A Miss
|
|
Hawkins!--Well, I had always rather fancied it would be some young lady
|
|
hereabouts; not that I ever--Mrs. Cole once whispered to me--but I
|
|
immediately said, 'No, Mr. Elton is a most worthy young man--but'--In
|
|
short, I do not think I am particularly quick at those sort of
|
|
discoveries. I do not pretend to it. What is before me, I see. At
|
|
the same time, nobody could wonder if Mr. Elton should have
|
|
aspired--Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so good-humouredly. She
|
|
knows I would not offend for the world. How does Miss Smith do? She
|
|
seems quite recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs. John Knightley
|
|
lately? Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you know I always
|
|
fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in person--tall, and
|
|
with that sort of look--and not very talkative."
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"Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all."
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|
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|
"Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand.
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|
One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say, is
|
|
not, strictly speaking, handsome?"
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|
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|
"Handsome! Oh! no--far from it--certainly plain. I told you he was
|
|
plain."
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|
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|
"My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain,
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|
and that you yourself--"
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|
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|
"Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard, I
|
|
always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed the
|
|
general opinion, when I called him plain."
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|
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|
"Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away. The weather
|
|
does not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You are too
|
|
obliging, my dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This
|
|
has been a most agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round
|
|
by Mrs. Cole's; but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had
|
|
better go home directly--I would not have you out in a shower!--We
|
|
think she is the better for Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed.
|
|
I shall not attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard, for I really do not think
|
|
she cares for any thing but _boiled_ pork: when we dress the leg it
|
|
will be another thing. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr.
|
|
Knightley is coming too. Well, that is so very!--I am sure if Jane is
|
|
tired, you will be so kind as to give her your arm.--Mr. Elton, and
|
|
Miss Hawkins!--Good morning to you."
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|
Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him while
|
|
he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry--and
|
|
to marry strangers too--and the other half she could give to her own
|
|
view of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome
|
|
piece of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long;
|
|
but she was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it--and all that she
|
|
could hope was, by giving the first information herself, to save her
|
|
from hearing it abruptly from others. It was now about the time that
|
|
she was likely to call. If she were to meet Miss Bates in her
|
|
way!--and upon its beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that
|
|
the weather would be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard's, and that the
|
|
intelligence would undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
|
|
|
|
The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes,
|
|
when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which
|
|
hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the "Oh!
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!" which instantly burst
|
|
forth, had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow
|
|
was given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than
|
|
in listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had
|
|
to tell. "She had set out from Mrs. Goddard's half an hour ago--she
|
|
had been afraid it would rain--she had been afraid it would pour down
|
|
every moment--but she thought she might get to Hartfield first--she had
|
|
hurried on as fast as possible; but then, as she was passing by the
|
|
house where a young woman was making up a gown for her, she thought she
|
|
would just step in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem
|
|
to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain,
|
|
and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as she
|
|
could, and took shelter at Ford's."--Ford's was the principal
|
|
woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher's shop united; the shop
|
|
first in size and fashion in the place.--"And so, there she had set,
|
|
without an idea of any thing in the world, full ten minutes,
|
|
perhaps--when, all of a sudden, who should come in--to be sure it was
|
|
so very odd!--but they always dealt at Ford's--who should come in, but
|
|
Elizabeth Martin and her brother!-- Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I
|
|
thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to do. I was
|
|
sitting near the door--Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he
|
|
was busy with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away
|
|
directly, and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther
|
|
end of the shop; and I kept sitting near the door!--Oh! dear; I was so
|
|
miserable! I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could
|
|
not go away you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself
|
|
anywhere in the world but there.--Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse--well, at
|
|
last, I fancy, he looked round and saw me; for instead of going on with
|
|
her buyings, they began whispering to one another. I am sure they were
|
|
talking of me; and I could not help thinking that he was persuading her
|
|
to speak to me--(do you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)--for presently
|
|
she came forward--came quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and
|
|
seemed ready to shake hands, if I would. She did not do any of it in
|
|
the same way that she used; I could see she was altered; but, however,
|
|
she seemed to _try_ to be very friendly, and we shook hands, and stood
|
|
talking some time; but I know no more what I said--I was in such a
|
|
tremble!--I remember she said she was sorry we never met now; which I
|
|
thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss Woodhouse, I was absolutely
|
|
miserable! By that time, it was beginning to hold up, and I was
|
|
determined that nothing should stop me from getting away--and
|
|
then--only think!-- I found he was coming up towards me too--slowly you
|
|
know, and as if he did not quite know what to do; and so he came and
|
|
spoke, and I answered--and I stood for a minute, feeling dreadfully,
|
|
you know, one can't tell how; and then I took courage, and said it did
|
|
not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got three
|
|
yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was going
|
|
to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole's
|
|
stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain.
|
|
Oh! dear, I thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I
|
|
was very much obliged to him: you know I could not do less; and then
|
|
he went back to Elizabeth, and I came round by the stables--I believe I
|
|
did--but I hardly knew where I was, or any thing about it. Oh! Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, I would rather done any thing than have it happen: and yet,
|
|
you know, there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him behave so
|
|
pleasantly and so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do
|
|
talk to me and make me comfortable again."
|
|
|
|
Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in
|
|
her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly
|
|
comfortable herself. The young man's conduct, and his sister's, seemed
|
|
the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As
|
|
Harriet described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded
|
|
affection and genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had
|
|
believed them to be well-meaning, worthy people before; and what
|
|
difference did this make in the evils of the connexion? It was folly
|
|
to be disturbed by it. Of course, he must be sorry to lose her--they
|
|
must be all sorry. Ambition, as well as love, had probably been
|
|
mortified. They might all have hoped to rise by Harriet's
|
|
acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of Harriet's
|
|
description?--So easily pleased--so little discerning;--what signified
|
|
her praise?
|
|
|
|
She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable, by
|
|
considering all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite unworthy of
|
|
being dwelt on,
|
|
|
|
"It might be distressing, for the moment," said she; "but you seem to
|
|
have behaved extremely well; and it is over--and may never--can never,
|
|
as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not think about
|
|
it."
|
|
|
|
Harriet said, "very true," and she "would not think about it;" but
|
|
still she talked of it--still she could talk of nothing else; and Emma,
|
|
at last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was obliged to
|
|
hurry on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender
|
|
caution; hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed
|
|
or only amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet--such a
|
|
conclusion of Mr. Elton's importance with her!
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton's rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not
|
|
feel the first intelligence as she might have done the day before, or
|
|
an hour before, its interest soon increased; and before their first
|
|
conversation was over, she had talked herself into all the sensations
|
|
of curiosity, wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this
|
|
fortunate Miss Hawkins, which could conduce to place the Martins under
|
|
proper subordination in her fancy.
|
|
|
|
Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting. It
|
|
had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining
|
|
any influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could not
|
|
get at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted either
|
|
the courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of
|
|
the brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard's; and a
|
|
twelvemonth might pass without their being thrown together again, with
|
|
any necessity, or even any power of speech.
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
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|
|
Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting
|
|
situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of
|
|
being kindly spoken of.
|
|
|
|
A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins's name was first mentioned in
|
|
Highbury, before she was, by some means or other, discovered to have
|
|
every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome, elegant,
|
|
highly accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself
|
|
arrived to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of
|
|
her merits, there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her
|
|
Christian name, and say whose music she principally played.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected and
|
|
mortified--disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series of what
|
|
appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the right
|
|
lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He
|
|
had gone away deeply offended--he came back engaged to another--and to
|
|
another as superior, of course, to the first, as under such
|
|
circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost. He came back
|
|
gay and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing for Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, and defying Miss Smith.
|
|
|
|
The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages
|
|
of perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent
|
|
fortune, of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of
|
|
some dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had
|
|
not thrown himself away--he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or
|
|
thereabouts; and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity--the
|
|
first hour of introduction had been so very soon followed by
|
|
distinguishing notice; the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole of
|
|
the rise and progress of the affair was so glorious--the steps so
|
|
quick, from the accidental rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green's, and
|
|
the party at Mrs. Brown's--smiles and blushes rising in importance--
|
|
with consciousness and agitation richly scattered--the lady had been so
|
|
easily impressed--so sweetly disposed--had in short, to use a most
|
|
intelligible phrase, been so very ready to have him, that vanity and
|
|
prudence were equally contented.
|
|
|
|
He had caught both substance and shadow--both fortune and affection,
|
|
and was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself and
|
|
his own concerns--expecting to be congratulated--ready to be laughed
|
|
at--and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young
|
|
ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more
|
|
cautiously gallant.
|
|
|
|
The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves to
|
|
please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for; and
|
|
when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation, which
|
|
a certain glance of Mrs. Cole's did not seem to contradict, that when
|
|
he next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
|
|
|
|
During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just
|
|
enough to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her the
|
|
impression of his not being improved by the mixture of pique and
|
|
pretension, now spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very
|
|
much to wonder that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his
|
|
sight was so inseparably connected with some very disagreeable
|
|
feelings, that, except in a moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a
|
|
source of profitable humiliation to her own mind, she would have been
|
|
thankful to be assured of never seeing him again. She wished him very
|
|
well; but he gave her pain, and his welfare twenty miles off would
|
|
administer most satisfaction.
|
|
|
|
The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must
|
|
certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be
|
|
prevented--many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A _Mrs._ _Elton_ would
|
|
be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink
|
|
without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility
|
|
again.
|
|
|
|
Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good
|
|
enough for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury--
|
|
handsome enough--to look plain, probably, by Harriet's side. As to
|
|
connexion, there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his
|
|
own vaunted claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On
|
|
that article, truth seemed attainable. _What_ she was, must be
|
|
uncertain; but _who_ she was, might be found out; and setting aside the
|
|
10,000 l., it did not appear that she was at all Harriet's superior.
|
|
She brought no name, no blood, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the
|
|
youngest of the two daughters of a Bristol--merchant, of course, he
|
|
must be called; but, as the whole of the profits of his mercantile life
|
|
appeared so very moderate, it was not unfair to guess the dignity of
|
|
his line of trade had been very moderate also. Part of every winter
|
|
she had been used to spend in Bath; but Bristol was her home, the very
|
|
heart of Bristol; for though the father and mother had died some years
|
|
ago, an uncle remained--in the law line--nothing more distinctly
|
|
honourable was hazarded of him, than that he was in the law line; and
|
|
with him the daughter had lived. Emma guessed him to be the drudge of
|
|
some attorney, and too stupid to rise. And all the grandeur of the
|
|
connexion seemed dependent on the elder sister, who was _very_ _well_
|
|
_married_, to a gentleman in a _great_ _way_, near Bristol, who kept
|
|
two carriages! That was the wind-up of the history; that was the glory
|
|
of Miss Hawkins.
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Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all! She had
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talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be talked out
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of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of
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Harriet's mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by
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another; he certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a
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Robert Martin would have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared,
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would cure her. Harriet was one of those, who, having once begun,
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would be always in love. And now, poor girl! she was considerably
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worse from this reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was always having a
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glimpse of him somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but two or
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three times every day Harriet was sure _just_ to meet with him, or
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_just_ to miss him, _just_ to hear his voice, or see his shoulder,
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_just_ to have something occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the
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favouring warmth of surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover,
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perpetually hearing about him; for, excepting when at Hartfield, she
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was always among those who saw no fault in Mr. Elton, and found nothing
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so interesting as the discussion of his concerns; and every report,
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therefore, every guess--all that had already occurred, all that might
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occur in the arrangement of his affairs, comprehending income,
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servants, and furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her
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regard was receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her
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regrets kept alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of
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Miss Hawkins's happiness, and continual observation of, how much he
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seemed attached!--his air as he walked by the house--the very sitting
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of his hat, being all in proof of how much he was in love!
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Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain to her
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friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of Harriet's mind,
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Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr. Elton
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predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful
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as a check to the other. Mr. Elton's engagement had been the cure of
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the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the
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knowledge of that engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth
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Martin's calling at Mrs. Goddard's a few days afterwards. Harriet had
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not been at home; but a note had been prepared and left for her,
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written in the very style to touch; a small mixture of reproach, with a
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great deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had
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been much occupied by it, continually pondering over what could be done
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in return, and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr.
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Elton, in person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the
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Martins were forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for
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Bath again, Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned,
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judged it best for her to return Elizabeth Martin's visit.
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How that visit was to be acknowledged--what would be necessary--and
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what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful consideration.
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Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to come, would
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be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of the
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acquaintance!--
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After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than
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Harriet's returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had
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understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal
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acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the
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Abbey Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again so
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soon, as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous
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recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what degree
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of intimacy was chosen for the future.
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She could think of nothing better: and though there was something in
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it which her own heart could not approve--something of ingratitude,
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merely glossed over--it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?
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CHAPTER V
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Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her
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friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard's, her evil stars had led her to
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the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to _The Rev.
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Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath_, was to be seen under the operation of
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being lifted into the butcher's cart, which was to convey it to where
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the coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk
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and the direction, was consequently a blank.
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She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to be
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put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led between
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espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every thing which
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had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to
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revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed
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her to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which
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determined her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of
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an hour. She went on herself, to give that portion of time to an old
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servant who was married, and settled in Donwell.
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The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again;
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and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay, and
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unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily down the
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gravel walk--a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with
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her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
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Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account. She was
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feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her enough to
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understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was creating.
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She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her
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doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace
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had been talked almost all the time--till just at last, when Mrs.
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Martin's saying, all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was
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grown, had brought on a more interesting subject, and a warmer manner.
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In that very room she had been measured last September, with her two
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friends. There were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the
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wainscot by the window. _He_ had done it. They all seemed to remember
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the day, the hour, the party, the occasion--to feel the same
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consciousness, the same regrets--to be ready to return to the same good
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understanding; and they were just growing again like themselves,
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(Harriet, as Emma must suspect, as ready as the best of them to be
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cordial and happy,) when the carriage reappeared, and all was over.
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The style of the visit, and the shortness of it, were then felt to be
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decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given to those with whom she had
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thankfully passed six weeks not six months ago!--Emma could not but
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picture it all, and feel how justly they might resent, how naturally
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Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She would have given a
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great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had the Martins in a
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higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a _little_ higher
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should have been enough: but as it was, how could she have done
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otherwise?--Impossible!--She could not repent. They must be separated;
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but there was a great deal of pain in the process--so much to herself
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at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a little consolation,
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and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to procure it. Her mind
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was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The refreshment of
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Randalls was absolutely necessary.
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It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard that
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neither "master nor mistress was at home;" they had both been out some
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time; the man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
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"This is too bad," cried Emma, as they turned away. "And now we shall
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just miss them; too provoking!--I do not know when I have been so
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disappointed." And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her
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murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both--such being
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the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the
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carriage stopt; she looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who
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were standing to speak to her. There was instant pleasure in the sight
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of them, and still greater pleasure was conveyed in sound--for Mr.
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Weston immediately accosted her with,
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"How d'ye do?--how d'ye do?--We have been sitting with your father--
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glad to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow--I had a letter this
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morning--we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty--he is at
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Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be
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so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I
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was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have
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just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall
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enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly as we could
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wish."
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There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the
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influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston's, confirmed as it all was
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by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter, but
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not less to the purpose. To know that _she_ thought his coming certain
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was enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she rejoice
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in their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted
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spirits. The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was
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coming; and in the rapidity of half a moment's thought, she hoped Mr.
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Elton would now be talked of no more.
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Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which
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allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at his
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command, as well as the route and the method of his journey; and she
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listened, and smiled, and congratulated.
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"I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield," said he, at the conclusion.
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Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech, from his
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wife.
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"We had better move on, Mr. Weston," said she, "we are detaining the
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girls."
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"Well, well, I am ready;"--and turning again to Emma, "but you must not
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be expecting such a _very_ fine young man; you have only had _my_
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account you know; I dare say he is really nothing extraordinary:"--though
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his own sparkling eyes at the moment were speaking a very
|
|
different conviction.
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Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer in a
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manner that appropriated nothing.
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"Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o'clock," was Mrs.
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Weston's parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety, and meant only
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|
for her.
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"Four o'clock!--depend upon it he will be here by three," was Mr.
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|
Weston's quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting.
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Emma's spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore a
|
|
different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as
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|
before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least
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|
must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw
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|
something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.
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"Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?"--was a
|
|
question, however, which did not augur much.
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But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once, and Emma
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|
was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come in time.
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The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston's faithful
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|
pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve o'clock, that
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|
she was to think of her at four.
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"My dear, dear anxious friend,"--said she, in mental soliloquy, while
|
|
walking downstairs from her own room, "always overcareful for every
|
|
body's comfort but your own; I see you now in all your little fidgets,
|
|
going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is right."
|
|
The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. "'Tis twelve;
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|
I shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this time
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|
to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the
|
|
possibility of their all calling here. I am sure they will bring him
|
|
soon."
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She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with her
|
|
father--Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only a few
|
|
minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of
|
|
Frank's being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the
|
|
midst of his very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared,
|
|
to have her share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
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|
The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest, was
|
|
actually before her--he was presented to her, and she did not think too
|
|
much had been said in his praise; he was a _very_ good looking young
|
|
man; height, air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his
|
|
countenance had a great deal of the spirit and liveliness of his
|
|
father's; he looked quick and sensible. She felt immediately that she
|
|
should like him; and there was a well-bred ease of manner, and a
|
|
readiness to talk, which convinced her that he came intending to be
|
|
acquainted with her, and that acquainted they soon must be.
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|
He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased with the
|
|
eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan, and travel
|
|
earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.
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"I told you yesterday," cried Mr. Weston with exultation, "I told you
|
|
all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered what I
|
|
used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one cannot help
|
|
getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming in
|
|
upon one's friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal
|
|
more than any little exertion it needs."
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"It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it," said the young
|
|
man, "though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far;
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|
but in coming _home_ I felt I might do any thing."
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The word _home_ made his father look on him with fresh complacency.
|
|
Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable; the
|
|
conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much pleased
|
|
with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house, would hardly
|
|
allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to
|
|
Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself
|
|
to have always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but
|
|
one's _own_ country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it.
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|
That he should never have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling
|
|
before, passed suspiciously through Emma's brain; but still, if it were
|
|
a falsehood, it was a pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner
|
|
had no air of study or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as
|
|
if in a state of no common enjoyment.
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|
Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening
|
|
acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,--"Was she a
|
|
horsewoman?--Pleasant rides?--Pleasant walks?--Had they a large
|
|
neighbourhood?--Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?--There were
|
|
several very pretty houses in and about it.--Balls--had they
|
|
balls?--Was it a musical society?"
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But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance
|
|
proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity, while
|
|
their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing his
|
|
mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise, so
|
|
much warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she secured
|
|
to his father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an
|
|
additional proof of his knowing how to please--and of his certainly
|
|
thinking it worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a
|
|
word of praise beyond what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs.
|
|
Weston; but, undoubtedly he could know very little of the matter. He
|
|
understood what would be welcome; he could be sure of little else.
|
|
"His father's marriage," he said, "had been the wisest measure, every
|
|
friend must rejoice in it; and the family from whom he had received
|
|
such a blessing must be ever considered as having conferred the highest
|
|
obligation on him."
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|
He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor's merits,
|
|
without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it
|
|
was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse's
|
|
character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor's. And at last, as if
|
|
resolved to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its
|
|
object, he wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of
|
|
her person.
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"Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for," said he; "but I
|
|
confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected more than a
|
|
very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know that
|
|
I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston."
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"You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,"
|
|
said Emma; "were you to guess her to be _eighteen_, I should listen
|
|
with pleasure; but _she_ would be ready to quarrel with you for using
|
|
such words. Don't let her imagine that you have spoken of her as a
|
|
pretty young woman."
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"I hope I should know better," he replied; "no, depend upon it, (with a
|
|
gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should understand whom I
|
|
might praise without any danger of being thought extravagant in my
|
|
terms."
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|
|
Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected from
|
|
their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession of her
|
|
mind, had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were to be
|
|
considered as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must
|
|
see more of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they
|
|
were agreeable.
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|
She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about. His
|
|
quick eye she detected again and again glancing towards them with a
|
|
happy expression; and even, when he might have determined not to look,
|
|
she was confident that he was often listening.
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|
Her own father's perfect exemption from any thought of the kind, the
|
|
entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration or suspicion,
|
|
was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was not farther from
|
|
approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.-- Though always objecting
|
|
to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand from
|
|
the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of
|
|
any two persons' understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till
|
|
it were proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He
|
|
could now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without
|
|
a glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest, give way to
|
|
all his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr.
|
|
Frank Churchill's accommodation on his journey, through the sad evils
|
|
of sleeping two nights on the road, and express very genuine unmixed
|
|
anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped catching cold--which,
|
|
however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of himself till
|
|
after another night.
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|
|
A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.--"He must be going.
|
|
He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands
|
|
for Mrs. Weston at Ford's, but he need not hurry any body else." His
|
|
son, too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,
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|
"As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the opportunity
|
|
of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other, and therefore
|
|
may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being acquainted with a
|
|
neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or near
|
|
Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty,
|
|
I suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not the
|
|
proper name--I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any
|
|
family of that name?"
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|
"To be sure we do," cried his father; "Mrs. Bates--we passed her
|
|
house--I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted
|
|
with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine girl
|
|
she is. Call upon her, by all means."
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|
"There is no necessity for my calling this morning," said the young
|
|
man; "another day would do as well; but there was that degree of
|
|
acquaintance at Weymouth which--"
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|
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"Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done
|
|
cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank;
|
|
any want of attention to her _here_ should be carefully avoided. You
|
|
saw her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body she
|
|
mixed with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely
|
|
enough to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight."
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|
The son looked convinced.
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|
|
"I have heard her speak of the acquaintance," said Emma; "she is a very
|
|
elegant young woman."
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|
|
He agreed to it, but with so quiet a "Yes," as inclined her almost to
|
|
doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct sort
|
|
of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could be thought
|
|
only ordinarily gifted with it.
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|
|
"If you were never particularly struck by her manners before," said
|
|
she, "I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage; see her
|
|
and hear her--no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all, for she has
|
|
an aunt who never holds her tongue."
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|
|
"You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?" said Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation; "then give
|
|
me leave to assure you that you will find her a very agreeable young
|
|
lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt, very
|
|
worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely
|
|
glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to
|
|
shew you the way."
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|
|
|
"My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me."
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|
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|
"But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown,
|
|
quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many
|
|
houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk,
|
|
unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you
|
|
had best cross the street."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could,
|
|
and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, "My good friend,
|
|
this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he sees
|
|
it, and as to Mrs. Bates's, he may get there from the Crown in a hop,
|
|
step, and jump."
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They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one, and a
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graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave. Emma
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remained very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance, and
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could now engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day,
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with full confidence in their comfort.
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CHAPTER VI
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The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs.
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Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He
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had been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home,
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till her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their
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walk, immediately fixed on Highbury.--"He did not doubt there being
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very pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should
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always chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking
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Highbury, would be his constant attraction."-- Highbury, with Mrs.
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Weston, stood for Hartfield; and she trusted to its bearing the same
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construction with him. They walked thither directly.
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Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in for
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half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome, knew
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nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to her,
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therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in
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arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in
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company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him
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was to depend. If he were deficient there, nothing should make amends
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for it. But on seeing them together, she became perfectly satisfied.
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It was not merely in fine words or hyperbolical compliment that he paid
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his duty; nothing could be more proper or pleasing than his whole
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manner to her--nothing could more agreeably denote his wish of
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considering her as a friend and securing her affection. And there was
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time enough for Emma to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit
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included all the rest of the morning. They were all three walking
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about together for an hour or two--first round the shrubberies of
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Hartfield, and afterwards in Highbury. He was delighted with every
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thing; admired Hartfield sufficiently for Mr. Woodhouse's ear; and when
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their going farther was resolved on, confessed his wish to be made
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acquainted with the whole village, and found matter of commendation and
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interest much oftener than Emma could have supposed.
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Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings. He
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begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long, and
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which had been the home of his father's father; and on recollecting
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that an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest
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of her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in
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some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they
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shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must
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be very like a merit to those he was with.
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Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn, it
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could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily
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absenting himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making a
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parade of insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had
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not done him justice.
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Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house, though
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the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of post-horses
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were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood than from any
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run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be detained by
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any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history of
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the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for a
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ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly
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populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;--but such
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brilliant days had long passed away, and now the highest purpose for
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which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist club established
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among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place. He was
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immediately interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him; and
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instead of passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two superior
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sashed windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its
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capabilities, and lament that its original purpose should have ceased.
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He saw no fault in the room, he would acknowledge none which they
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suggested. No, it was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It
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would hold the very number for comfort. They ought to have balls there
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at least every fortnight through the winter. Why had not Miss
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Woodhouse revived the former good old days of the room?--She who could
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do any thing in Highbury! The want of proper families in the place,
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and the conviction that none beyond the place and its immediate
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environs could be tempted to attend, were mentioned; but he was not
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satisfied. He could not be persuaded that so many good-looking houses
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as he saw around him, could not furnish numbers enough for such a
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meeting; and even when particulars were given and families described,
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he was still unwilling to admit that the inconvenience of such a
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mixture would be any thing, or that there would be the smallest
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difficulty in every body's returning into their proper place the next
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morning. He argued like a young man very much bent on dancing; and
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Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of the Weston prevail
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so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills. He seemed to have
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all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social inclinations of
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his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of Enscombe. Of pride,
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indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his indifference to a
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confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of mind. He could
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be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap. It was but an
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effusion of lively spirits.
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At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown; and
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being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged, Emma
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recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he had
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paid it.
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"Yes, oh! yes"--he replied; "I was just going to mention it. A very
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successful visit:--I saw all the three ladies; and felt very much
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obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had
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taken me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it
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was, I was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten
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minutes would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was
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proper; and I had told my father I should certainly be at home before
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him--but there was no getting away, no pause; and, to my utter
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astonishment, I found, when he (finding me nowhere else) joined me
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there at last, that I had been actually sitting with them very nearly
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three-quarters of an hour. The good lady had not given me the
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possibility of escape before."
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"And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?"
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"Ill, very ill--that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look
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ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it?
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Ladies can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally
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so pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.-- A
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most deplorable want of complexion."
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Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss
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Fairfax's complexion. "It was certainly never brilliant, but she would
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not allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a softness
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and delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character
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of her face." He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he
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had heard many people say the same--but yet he must confess, that to
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him nothing could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health.
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Where features were indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them
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all; and where they were good, the effect was--fortunately he need not
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attempt to describe what the effect was.
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"Well," said Emma, "there is no disputing about taste.--At least you
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admire her except her complexion."
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He shook his head and laughed.--"I cannot separate Miss Fairfax and her
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complexion."
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"Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same
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society?"
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At this moment they were approaching Ford's, and he hastily exclaimed,
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"Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day of
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their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself, he
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says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford's. If
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it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove
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myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I
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must buy something at Ford's. It will be taking out my freedom.-- I
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dare say they sell gloves."
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"Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism. You
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will be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came,
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because you were Mr. Weston's son--but lay out half a guinea at Ford's,
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and your popularity will stand upon your own virtues."
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They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of "Men's Beavers"
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and "York Tan" were bringing down and displaying on the counter, he
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said--"But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking to me,
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you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my _amor_
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_patriae_. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of
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public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in
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private life."
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"I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax and her
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party at Weymouth."
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"And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a
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very unfair one. It is always the lady's right to decide on the degree
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of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.-- I
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shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow."
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"Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself. But
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her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed, she is so very
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reserved, so very unwilling to give the least information about any
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body, that I really think you may say what you like of your
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acquaintance with her."
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"May I, indeed?--Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me so
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well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a
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little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.
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Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,
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warm-hearted woman. I like them all."
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"You know Miss Fairfax's situation in life, I conclude; what she is
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destined to be?"
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"Yes--(rather hesitatingly)--I believe I do."
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"You get upon delicate subjects, Emma," said Mrs. Weston smiling;
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"remember that I am here.--Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows what to say
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when you speak of Miss Fairfax's situation in life. I will move a
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|
little farther off."
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"I certainly do forget to think of _her_," said Emma, "as having ever
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been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend."
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He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.
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When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again, "Did
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you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?" said Frank
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Churchill.
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"Ever hear her!" repeated Emma. "You forget how much she belongs to
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Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we both
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|
began. She plays charmingly."
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"You think so, do you?--I wanted the opinion of some one who could
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really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is, with
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considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.-- I am
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excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right of
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|
judging of any body's performance.--I have been used to hear her's
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|
admired; and I remember one proof of her being thought to play well:--a
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man, a very musical man, and in love with another woman--engaged to
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her--on the point of marriage--would yet never ask that other woman to
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|
sit down to the instrument, if the lady in question could sit down
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|
instead--never seemed to like to hear one if he could hear the other.
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That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was some proof."
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"Proof indeed!" said Emma, highly amused.--"Mr. Dixon is very musical,
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|
is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you,
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|
than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year."
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"Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought it a
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|
very strong proof."
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"Certainly--very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal stronger
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|
than, if _I_ had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all agreeable
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|
to me. I could not excuse a man's having more music than love--more
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|
ear than eye--a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my
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|
feelings. How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?"
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"It was her very particular friend, you know."
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"Poor comfort!" said Emma, laughing. "One would rather have a stranger
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preferred than one's very particular friend--with a stranger it might
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|
not recur again--but the misery of having a very particular friend
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|
always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!-- Poor
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|
Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland."
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"You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell; but she
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really did not seem to feel it."
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"So much the better--or so much the worse:--I do not know which. But
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|
be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her--quickness of friendship, or
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|
dulness of feeling--there was one person, I think, who must have felt
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it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and
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|
dangerous distinction."
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"As to that--I do not--"
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"Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax's
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|
sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no human
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|
being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she
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|
was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses."
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"There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all--"
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|
he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, "however, it is
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|
impossible for me to say on what terms they really were--how it might
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|
all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was smoothness
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|
outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must be
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|
a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct
|
|
herself in critical situations, than I can be."
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"I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children and
|
|
women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should be
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|
intimate,--that we should have taken to each other whenever she visited
|
|
her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a
|
|
little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to
|
|
take disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always
|
|
was, by her aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her
|
|
reserve--I never could attach myself to any one so completely reserved."
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"It is a most repulsive quality, indeed," said he. "Oftentimes very
|
|
convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety in reserve,
|
|
but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person."
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"Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction
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|
may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend, or an
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|
agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of
|
|
conquering any body's reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss
|
|
Fairfax and me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think
|
|
ill of her--not the least--except that such extreme and perpetual
|
|
cautiousness of word and manner, such a dread of giving a distinct idea
|
|
about any body, is apt to suggest suspicions of there being something
|
|
to conceal."
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He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long, and
|
|
thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him,
|
|
that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting. He
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|
was not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world in
|
|
some of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore
|
|
better than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate--his
|
|
feelings warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner of
|
|
considering Mr. Elton's house, which, as well as the church, he would
|
|
go and look at, and would not join them in finding much fault with.
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No, he could not believe it a bad house; not such a house as a man was
|
|
to be pitied for having. If it were to be shared with the woman he
|
|
loved, he could not think any man to be pitied for having that house.
|
|
There must be ample room in it for every real comfort. The man must be
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|
a blockhead who wanted more.
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Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking
|
|
about. Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking
|
|
how many advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he
|
|
could be no judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small
|
|
one. But Emma, in her own mind, determined that he _did_ know what he
|
|
was talking about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to
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settle early in life, and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not
|
|
be aware of the inroads on domestic peace to be occasioned by no
|
|
housekeeper's room, or a bad butler's pantry, but no doubt he did
|
|
perfectly feel that Enscombe could not make him happy, and that
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whenever he were attached, he would willingly give up much of wealth to
|
|
be allowed an early establishment.
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CHAPTER VII
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Emma's very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the
|
|
following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to
|
|
have his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at
|
|
breakfast, and he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to
|
|
return to dinner, but with no more important view that appeared than
|
|
having his hair cut. There was certainly no harm in his travelling
|
|
sixteen miles twice over on such an errand; but there was an air of
|
|
foppery and nonsense in it which she could not approve. It did not
|
|
accord with the rationality of plan, the moderation in expense, or even
|
|
the unselfish warmth of heart, which she had believed herself to
|
|
discern in him yesterday. Vanity, extravagance, love of change,
|
|
restlessness of temper, which must be doing something, good or bad;
|
|
heedlessness as to the pleasure of his father and Mrs. Weston,
|
|
indifferent as to how his conduct might appear in general; he became
|
|
liable to all these charges. His father only called him a coxcomb, and
|
|
thought it a very good story; but that Mrs. Weston did not like it, was
|
|
clear enough, by her passing it over as quickly as possible, and making
|
|
no other comment than that "all young people would have their little
|
|
whims."
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|
|
|
With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit
|
|
hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston was
|
|
very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he made
|
|
himself--how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether. He
|
|
appeared to have a very open temper--certainly a very cheerful and
|
|
lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions, a great
|
|
deal decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard, was fond
|
|
of talking of him--said he would be the best man in the world if he
|
|
were left to himself; and though there was no being attached to the
|
|
aunt, he acknowledged her kindness with gratitude, and seemed to mean
|
|
always to speak of her with respect. This was all very promising; and,
|
|
but for such an unfortunate fancy for having his hair cut, there was
|
|
nothing to denote him unworthy of the distinguished honour which her
|
|
imagination had given him; the honour, if not of being really in love
|
|
with her, of being at least very near it, and saved only by her own
|
|
indifference--(for still her resolution held of never marrying)--the
|
|
honour, in short, of being marked out for her by all their joint
|
|
acquaintance.
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|
|
|
Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must have
|
|
some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired her
|
|
extremely--thought her very beautiful and very charming; and with so
|
|
much to be said for him altogether, she found she must not judge him
|
|
harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, "all young people would have their
|
|
little whims."
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|
|
There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so
|
|
leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes
|
|
of Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances were
|
|
made for the little excesses of such a handsome young man--one who
|
|
smiled so often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit among them
|
|
not to be softened, from its power of censure, by bows or smiles--Mr.
|
|
Knightley. The circumstance was told him at Hartfield; for the moment,
|
|
he was silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately afterwards say to
|
|
himself, over a newspaper he held in his hand, "Hum! just the trifling,
|
|
silly fellow I took him for." She had half a mind to resent; but an
|
|
instant's observation convinced her that it was really said only to
|
|
relieve his own feelings, and not meant to provoke; and therefore she
|
|
let it pass.
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|
|
|
Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings, Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Weston's visit this morning was in another respect particularly
|
|
opportune. Something occurred while they were at Hartfield, to make
|
|
Emma want their advice; and, which was still more lucky, she wanted
|
|
exactly the advice they gave.
|
|
|
|
This was the occurrence:--The Coles had been settled some years in
|
|
Highbury, and were very good sort of people--friendly, liberal, and
|
|
unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin, in
|
|
trade, and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into the
|
|
country, they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly, keeping
|
|
little company, and that little unexpensively; but the last year or two
|
|
had brought them a considerable increase of means--the house in town
|
|
had yielded greater profits, and fortune in general had smiled on them.
|
|
With their wealth, their views increased; their want of a larger house,
|
|
their inclination for more company. They added to their house, to
|
|
their number of servants, to their expenses of every sort; and by this
|
|
time were, in fortune and style of living, second only to the family at
|
|
Hartfield. Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared
|
|
every body for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly
|
|
among the single men, had already taken place. The regular and best
|
|
families Emma could hardly suppose they would presume to invite--
|
|
neither Donwell, nor Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should tempt
|
|
_her_ to go, if they did; and she regretted that her father's known
|
|
habits would be giving her refusal less meaning than she could wish.
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The Coles were very respectable in their way, but they ought to be
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taught that it was not for them to arrange the terms on which the
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superior families would visit them. This lesson, she very much feared,
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they would receive only from herself; she had little hope of Mr.
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Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.
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But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many weeks
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before it appeared, that when the insult came at last, it found her
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very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls had received their
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invitation, and none had come for her father and herself; and Mrs.
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Weston's accounting for it with "I suppose they will not take the
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liberty with you; they know you do not dine out," was not quite
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sufficient. She felt that she should like to have had the power of
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refusal; and afterwards, as the idea of the party to be assembled
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there, consisting precisely of those whose society was dearest to her,
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occurred again and again, she did not know that she might not have been
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tempted to accept. Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the
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Bateses. They had been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury
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the day before, and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her
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absence. Might not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of
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his. The bare possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her
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spirits; and her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the
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omission to be intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.
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It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were at
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Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her
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first remark, on reading it, was that "of course it must be declined,"
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she so very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do,
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that their advice for her going was most prompt and successful.
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She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely without
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inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves so
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properly--there was so much real attention in the manner of it--so
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much consideration for her father. "They would have solicited the
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honour earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen
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from London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught
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of air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the
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honour of his company." Upon the whole, she was very persuadable; and
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it being briefly settled among themselves how it might be done without
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neglecting his comfort--how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates,
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might be depended on for bearing him company-- Mr. Woodhouse was to be
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talked into an acquiescence of his daughter's going out to dinner on a
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day now near at hand, and spending the whole evening away from him. As
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for _his_ going, Emma did not wish him to think it possible, the hours
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would be too late, and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well
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resigned.
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"I am not fond of dinner-visiting," said he--"I never was. No more is
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Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry Mr. and Mrs. Cole
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should have done it. I think it would be much better if they would
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come in one afternoon next summer, and take their tea with us--take us
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in their afternoon walk; which they might do, as our hours are so
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|
reasonable, and yet get home without being out in the damp of the
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evening. The dews of a summer evening are what I would not expose any
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|
body to. However, as they are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine
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with them, and as you will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to
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take care of her, I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be
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what it ought, neither damp, nor cold, nor windy." Then turning to
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Mrs. Weston, with a look of gentle reproach--"Ah! Miss Taylor, if you
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had not married, you would have staid at home with me."
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"Well, sir," cried Mr. Weston, "as I took Miss Taylor away, it is
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incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will step to Mrs.
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Goddard in a moment, if you wish it."
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But the idea of any thing to be done in a _moment_, was increasing, not
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|
lessening, Mr. Woodhouse's agitation. The ladies knew better how to
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|
allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing deliberately
|
|
arranged.
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With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough for talking
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|
as usual. "He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a great
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|
regard for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line, and invite her.
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|
James could take the note. But first of all, there must be an answer
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|
written to Mrs. Cole."
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"You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will
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|
say that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must
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|
decline their obliging invitation; beginning with my _compliments_, of
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|
course. But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you what
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|
is to be done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage
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|
will be wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him. We
|
|
have never been there above once since the new approach was made; but
|
|
still I have no doubt that James will take you very safely. And when
|
|
you get there, you must tell him at what time you would have him come
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|
for you again; and you had better name an early hour. You will not
|
|
like staying late. You will get very tired when tea is over."
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"But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?"
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"Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be a great
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|
many people talking at once. You will not like the noise."
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"But, my dear sir," cried Mr. Weston, "if Emma comes away early, it
|
|
will be breaking up the party."
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"And no great harm if it does," said Mr. Woodhouse. "The sooner every
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|
party breaks up, the better."
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"But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles. Emma's going
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|
away directly after tea might be giving offence. They are good-natured
|
|
people, and think little of their own claims; but still they must feel
|
|
that any body's hurrying away is no great compliment; and Miss
|
|
Woodhouse's doing it would be more thought of than any other person's
|
|
in the room. You would not wish to disappoint and mortify the Coles, I
|
|
am sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people as ever lived, and who have
|
|
been your neighbours these _ten_ years."
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|
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"No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged to you
|
|
for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving them any
|
|
pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells me that Mr.
|
|
Cole never touches malt liquor. You would not think it to look at him,
|
|
but he is bilious--Mr. Cole is very bilious. No, I would not be the
|
|
means of giving them any pain. My dear Emma, we must consider this. I
|
|
am sure, rather than run the risk of hurting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you
|
|
would stay a little longer than you might wish. You will not regard
|
|
being tired. You will be perfectly safe, you know, among your friends."
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|
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"Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have no
|
|
scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account. I am
|
|
only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid of your not
|
|
being exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard. She loves piquet, you
|
|
know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid you will be sitting up by
|
|
yourself, instead of going to bed at your usual time--and the idea of
|
|
that would entirely destroy my comfort. You must promise me not to sit
|
|
up."
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|
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|
He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that,
|
|
if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly; if
|
|
hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid should
|
|
sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see that every
|
|
thing were safe in the house, as usual.
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CHAPTER VIII
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Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father's dinner
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|
waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious
|
|
for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any
|
|
imperfection which could be concealed.
|
|
|
|
He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a very
|
|
good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed of what he had
|
|
done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer, to conceal any
|
|
confusion of face; no reason to wish the money unspent, to improve his
|
|
spirits. He was quite as undaunted and as lively as ever; and, after
|
|
seeing him, Emma thus moralised to herself:--
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|
|
|
"I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things do
|
|
cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent
|
|
way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not always
|
|
folly.--It depends upon the character of those who handle it. Mr.
|
|
Knightley, he is _not_ a trifling, silly young man. If he were, he
|
|
would have done this differently. He would either have gloried in the
|
|
achievement, or been ashamed of it. There would have been either the
|
|
ostentation of a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too weak to defend
|
|
its own vanities.--No, I am perfectly sure that he is not trifling or
|
|
silly."
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|
|
|
With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again, and for a
|
|
longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners, and by
|
|
inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself; of guessing
|
|
how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness into her air;
|
|
and of fancying what the observations of all those might be, who were
|
|
now seeing them together for the first time.
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|
|
|
She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at Mr.
|
|
Cole's; and without being able to forget that among the failings of Mr.
|
|
Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed her more than
|
|
his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.
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|
|
|
Her father's comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as Mrs.
|
|
Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty, before she left
|
|
the house, was to pay her respects to them as they sat together after
|
|
dinner; and while her father was fondly noticing the beauty of her
|
|
dress, to make the two ladies all the amends in her power, by helping
|
|
them to large slices of cake and full glasses of wine, for whatever
|
|
unwilling self-denial his care of their constitution might have obliged
|
|
them to practise during the meal.--She had provided a plentiful dinner
|
|
for them; she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat
|
|
it.
|
|
|
|
She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole's door; and was pleased to
|
|
see that it was Mr. Knightley's; for Mr. Knightley keeping no horses,
|
|
having little spare money and a great deal of health, activity, and
|
|
independence, was too apt, in Emma's opinion, to get about as he could,
|
|
and not use his carriage so often as became the owner of Donwell Abbey.
|
|
She had an opportunity now of speaking her approbation while warm from
|
|
her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.
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|
|
|
"This is coming as you should do," said she; "like a gentleman.-- I am
|
|
quite glad to see you."
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|
|
|
He thanked her, observing, "How lucky that we should arrive at the same
|
|
moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether
|
|
you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.-- You
|
|
might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner."
|
|
|
|
"Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of
|
|
consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know to be
|
|
beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say, but
|
|
with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern; I
|
|
always observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances. _Now_
|
|
you have nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being supposed
|
|
ashamed. You are not striving to look taller than any body else.
|
|
_Now_ I shall really be very happy to walk into the same room with you."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsensical girl!" was his reply, but not at all in anger.
|
|
|
|
Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party as
|
|
with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect which
|
|
could not but please, and given all the consequence she could wish for.
|
|
When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love, the strongest of
|
|
admiration were for her, from both husband and wife; the son approached
|
|
her with a cheerful eagerness which marked her as his peculiar object,
|
|
and at dinner she found him seated by her--and, as she firmly believed,
|
|
not without some dexterity on his side.
|
|
|
|
The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper
|
|
unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of
|
|
naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox's family,
|
|
the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come in the
|
|
evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already, at
|
|
dinner, they were too numerous for any subject of conversation to be
|
|
general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton were talked over, Emma could
|
|
fairly surrender all her attention to the pleasantness of her
|
|
neighbour. The first remote sound to which she felt herself obliged to
|
|
attend, was the name of Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating
|
|
something of her that was expected to be very interesting. She
|
|
listened, and found it well worth listening to. That very dear part of
|
|
Emma, her fancy, received an amusing supply. Mrs. Cole was telling
|
|
that she had been calling on Miss Bates, and as soon as she entered the
|
|
room had been struck by the sight of a pianoforte--a very elegant
|
|
looking instrument--not a grand, but a large-sized square pianoforte;
|
|
and the substance of the story, the end of all the dialogue which
|
|
ensued of surprize, and inquiry, and congratulations on her side, and
|
|
explanations on Miss Bates's, was, that this pianoforte had arrived
|
|
from Broadwood's the day before, to the great astonishment of both aunt
|
|
and niece--entirely unexpected; that at first, by Miss Bates's account,
|
|
Jane herself was quite at a loss, quite bewildered to think who could
|
|
possibly have ordered it--but now, they were both perfectly satisfied
|
|
that it could be from only one quarter;--of course it must be from
|
|
Colonel Campbell.
|
|
|
|
"One can suppose nothing else," added Mrs. Cole, "and I was only
|
|
surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane, it seems,
|
|
had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said about it.
|
|
She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their silence as
|
|
any reason for their not meaning to make the present. They might chuse
|
|
to surprize her."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the
|
|
subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell,
|
|
and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there were
|
|
enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way, and still
|
|
listen to Mrs. Cole.
|
|
|
|
"I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given me
|
|
more satisfaction!--It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax, who
|
|
plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument. It seemed quite
|
|
a shame, especially considering how many houses there are where fine
|
|
instruments are absolutely thrown away. This is like giving ourselves
|
|
a slap, to be sure! and it was but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole, I
|
|
really was ashamed to look at our new grand pianoforte in the
|
|
drawing-room, while I do not know one note from another, and our little
|
|
girls, who are but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of
|
|
it; and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not
|
|
any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest old
|
|
spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.--I was saying this to Mr.
|
|
Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he is so
|
|
particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging himself in
|
|
the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might be so
|
|
obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can; and that
|
|
really is the reason why the instrument was bought--or else I am sure
|
|
we ought to be ashamed of it.--We are in great hopes that Miss
|
|
Woodhouse may be prevailed with to try it this evening."
|
|
|
|
Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing
|
|
more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole's, turned
|
|
to Frank Churchill.
|
|
|
|
"Why do you smile?" said she.
|
|
|
|
"Nay, why do you?"
|
|
|
|
"Me!--I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell's being so
|
|
rich and so liberal.--It is a handsome present."
|
|
|
|
"Very."
|
|
|
|
"I rather wonder that it was never made before."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before."
|
|
|
|
"Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument--which
|
|
must now be shut up in London, untouched by any body."
|
|
|
|
"That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large for Mrs.
|
|
Bates's house."
|
|
|
|
"You may _say_ what you chuse--but your countenance testifies that your
|
|
_thoughts_ on this subject are very much like mine."
|
|
|
|
"I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for
|
|
acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall
|
|
probably suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not
|
|
see what there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person,
|
|
who can be?"
|
|
|
|
"What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?"
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon. She
|
|
must know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument would be;
|
|
and perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize, is more like a
|
|
young woman's scheme than an elderly man's. It is Mrs. Dixon, I dare
|
|
say. I told you that your suspicions would guide mine."
|
|
|
|
"If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend _Mr_. Dixon in
|
|
them."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Dixon.--Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must be
|
|
the joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the other
|
|
day, you know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I had
|
|
entertained before.--I do not mean to reflect upon the good intentions
|
|
of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help suspecting
|
|
either that, after making his proposals to her friend, he had the
|
|
misfortune to fall in love with _her_, or that he became conscious of a
|
|
little attachment on her side. One might guess twenty things without
|
|
guessing exactly the right; but I am sure there must be a particular
|
|
cause for her chusing to come to Highbury instead of going with the
|
|
Campbells to Ireland. Here, she must be leading a life of privation
|
|
and penance; there it would have been all enjoyment. As to the
|
|
pretence of trying her native air, I look upon that as a mere
|
|
excuse.--In the summer it might have passed; but what can any body's
|
|
native air do for them in the months of January, February, and March?
|
|
Good fires and carriages would be much more to the purpose in most
|
|
cases of delicate health, and I dare say in her's. I do not require you
|
|
to adopt all my suspicions, though you make so noble a profession of
|
|
doing it, but I honestly tell you what they are."
|
|
|
|
"And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability. Mr. Dixon's
|
|
preference of her music to her friend's, I can answer for being very
|
|
decided."
|
|
|
|
"And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?-- A water
|
|
party; and by some accident she was falling overboard. He caught her."
|
|
|
|
"He did. I was there--one of the party."
|
|
|
|
"Were you really?--Well!--But you observed nothing of course, for it
|
|
seems to be a new idea to you.--If I had been there, I think I should
|
|
have made some discoveries."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact, that
|
|
Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon
|
|
caught her.--It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent
|
|
shock and alarm was very great and much more durable--indeed I believe
|
|
it was half an hour before any of us were comfortable again--yet that
|
|
was too general a sensation for any thing of peculiar anxiety to be
|
|
observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you might not have
|
|
made discoveries."
|
|
|
|
The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share in
|
|
the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses, and
|
|
obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when the
|
|
table was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed
|
|
exactly right, and occupation and ease were generally restored, Emma
|
|
said,
|
|
|
|
"The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know
|
|
a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it, we
|
|
shall soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon."
|
|
|
|
"And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we must
|
|
conclude it to come from the Campbells."
|
|
|
|
"No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it is
|
|
not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first. She
|
|
would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them. I may not have
|
|
convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced myself that Mr.
|
|
Dixon is a principal in the business."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings
|
|
carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I supposed
|
|
you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw it only as
|
|
paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing in the world.
|
|
But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more probable that
|
|
it should be the tribute of warm female friendship. And now I can see
|
|
it in no other light than as an offering of love."
|
|
|
|
There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction
|
|
seemed real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more, other
|
|
subjects took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away; the
|
|
dessert succeeded, the children came in, and were talked to and admired
|
|
amid the usual rate of conversation; a few clever things said, a few
|
|
downright silly, but by much the larger proportion neither the one nor
|
|
the other--nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repetitions, old
|
|
news, and heavy jokes.
|
|
|
|
The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other
|
|
ladies, in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree
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of her own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her
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dignity and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and
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the artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light,
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cheerful, unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many
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alleviations of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed
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affection. There she sat--and who would have guessed how many tears
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she had been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself
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and seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty, and
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say nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour. Jane
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Fairfax did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she might have
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been glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad to have purchased
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the mortification of having loved--yes, of having loved even Mr. Elton
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in vain--by the surrender of all the dangerous pleasure of knowing
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herself beloved by the husband of her friend.
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In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her.
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She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much in the
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secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity or interest fair,
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and therefore purposely kept at a distance; but by the others, the
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subject was almost immediately introduced, and she saw the blush of
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consciousness with which congratulations were received, the blush of
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guilt which accompanied the name of "my excellent friend Colonel
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Campbell."
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Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested by
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the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her
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perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask and
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to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious of that wish
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of saying as little about it as possible, which she plainly read in the
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fair heroine's countenance.
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They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first of
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the early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the
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handsomest; and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates
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and her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the
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circle, where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her,
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would not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must be
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thinking. She was his object, and every body must perceive it. She
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introduced him to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient moments
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afterwards, heard what each thought of the other. "He had never seen
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so lovely a face, and was delighted with her naivete." And she, "Only
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to be sure it was paying him too great a compliment, but she did think
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there were some looks a little like Mr. Elton." Emma restrained her
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indignation, and only turned from her in silence.
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Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first
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glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech.
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He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room--hated
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sitting long--was always the first to move when he could--that his
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father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left very busy over
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parish business--that as long as he had staid, however, it had been
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pleasant enough, as he had found them in general a set of
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gentlemanlike, sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of Highbury
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altogether--thought it so abundant in agreeable families--that Emma
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began to feel she had been used to despise the place rather too much.
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She questioned him as to the society in Yorkshire--the extent of the
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neighbourhood about Enscombe, and the sort; and could make out from his
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answers that, as far as Enscombe was concerned, there was very little
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going on, that their visitings were among a range of great families,
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none very near; and that even when days were fixed, and invitations
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accepted, it was an even chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health
|
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and spirits for going; that they made a point of visiting no fresh
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person; and that, though he had his separate engagements, it was not
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without difficulty, without considerable address _at_ _times_, that he
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could get away, or introduce an acquaintance for a night.
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She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury, taken at
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its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more retirement
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at home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was very evident.
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He did not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself, that he had
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persuaded his aunt where his uncle could do nothing, and on her
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laughing and noticing it, he owned that he believed (excepting one or
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two points) he could _with_ _time_ persuade her to any thing. One of
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those points on which his influence failed, he then mentioned. He had
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wanted very much to go abroad--had been very eager indeed to be allowed
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to travel--but she would not hear of it. This had happened the year
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before. _Now_, he said, he was beginning to have no longer the same
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wish.
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The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed to be
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good behaviour to his father.
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"I have made a most wretched discovery," said he, after a short
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pause.-- "I have been here a week to-morrow--half my time. I never
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knew days fly so fast. A week to-morrow!--And I have hardly begun to
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enjoy myself. But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!--
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I hate the recollection."
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"Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day, out
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of so few, in having your hair cut."
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"No," said he, smiling, "that is no subject of regret at all. I have
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no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself fit to be
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seen."
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The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself
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obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole.
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When Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored as
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before, she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room at
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Miss Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.
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"What is the matter?" said she.
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He started. "Thank you for rousing me," he replied. "I believe I have
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been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair in so odd a
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way--so very odd a way--that I cannot keep my eyes from her. I never
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|
saw any thing so outree!--Those curls!--This must be a fancy of her
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own. I see nobody else looking like her!-- I must go and ask her
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whether it is an Irish fashion. Shall I?-- Yes, I will--I declare I
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|
will--and you shall see how she takes it;--whether she colours."
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He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss
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Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady, as
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he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly in
|
|
front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.
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Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.
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"This is the luxury of a large party," said she:--"one can get near
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every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing to talk to
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you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans, just like
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yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh. Do you know
|
|
how Miss Bates and her niece came here?"
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"How?--They were invited, were not they?"
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"Oh! yes--but how they were conveyed hither?--the manner of their
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coming?"
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"They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?"
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"Very true.--Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad it
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|
would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night, and
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|
cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I never saw
|
|
her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she was heated, and
|
|
would therefore be particularly liable to take cold. Poor girl! I
|
|
could not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston came into the
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|
room, and I could get at him, I spoke to him about the carriage. You
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|
may guess how readily he came into my wishes; and having his
|
|
approbation, I made my way directly to Miss Bates, to assure her that
|
|
the carriage would be at her service before it took us home; for I
|
|
thought it would be making her comfortable at once. Good soul! she was
|
|
as grateful as possible, you may be sure. 'Nobody was ever so
|
|
fortunate as herself!'--but with many, many thanks--'there was no
|
|
occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley's carriage had brought, and
|
|
was to take them home again.' I was quite surprized;--very glad, I am
|
|
sure; but really quite surprized. Such a very kind attention--and so
|
|
thoughtful an attention!--the sort of thing that so few men would
|
|
think of. And, in short, from knowing his usual ways, I am very much
|
|
inclined to think that it was for their accommodation the carriage was
|
|
used at all. I do suspect he would not have had a pair of horses for
|
|
himself, and that it was only as an excuse for assisting them."
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"Very likely," said Emma--"nothing more likely. I know no man more
|
|
likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing--to do any thing
|
|
really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent. He is not a
|
|
gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this, considering Jane
|
|
Fairfax's ill-health, would appear a case of humanity to him;--and for
|
|
an act of unostentatious kindness, there is nobody whom I would fix on
|
|
more than on Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses to-day--for we
|
|
arrived together; and I laughed at him about it, but he said not a word
|
|
that could betray."
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|
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"Well," said Mrs. Weston, smiling, "you give him credit for more
|
|
simple, disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do; for while
|
|
Miss Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head, and I have
|
|
never been able to get it out again. The more I think of it, the more
|
|
probable it appears. In short, I have made a match between Mr.
|
|
Knightley and Jane Fairfax. See the consequence of keeping you
|
|
company!--What do you say to it?"
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|
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|
"Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!" exclaimed Emma. "Dear Mrs. Weston,
|
|
how could you think of such a thing?--Mr. Knightley!--Mr. Knightley
|
|
must not marry!--You would not have little Henry cut out from
|
|
Donwell?-- Oh! no, no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all
|
|
consent to Mr. Knightley's marrying; and I am sure it is not at all
|
|
likely. I am amazed that you should think of such a thing."
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|
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|
"My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it. I do not
|
|
want the match--I do not want to injure dear little Henry--but the
|
|
idea has been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley really
|
|
wished to marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry's account, a
|
|
boy of six years old, who knows nothing of the matter?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.-- Mr.
|
|
Knightley marry!--No, I have never had such an idea, and I cannot adopt
|
|
it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!"
|
|
|
|
"Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you very well
|
|
know."
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|
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|
"But the imprudence of such a match!"
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|
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|
"I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability."
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|
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|
"I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation than
|
|
what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you, would
|
|
be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great regard for
|
|
the Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax--and is always glad
|
|
to shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston, do not take to
|
|
match-making. You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress of the
|
|
Abbey!--Oh! no, no;--every feeling revolts. For his own sake, I would
|
|
not have him do so mad a thing."
|
|
|
|
"Imprudent, if you please--but not mad. Excepting inequality of
|
|
fortune, and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing
|
|
unsuitable."
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|
|
|
"But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the
|
|
least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?--
|
|
He is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep,
|
|
and his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely fond
|
|
of his brother's children. He has no occasion to marry, either to fill
|
|
up his time or his heart."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really
|
|
loves Jane Fairfax--"
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|
|
|
"Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way of love, I
|
|
am sure he does not. He would do any good to her, or her family; but--"
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Mrs. Weston, laughing, "perhaps the greatest good he could
|
|
do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home."
|
|
|
|
"If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself; a
|
|
very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have Miss
|
|
Bates belonging to him?--To have her haunting the Abbey, and thanking
|
|
him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?-- 'So very
|
|
kind and obliging!--But he always had been such a very kind neighbour!'
|
|
And then fly off, through half a sentence, to her mother's old
|
|
petticoat. 'Not that it was such a very old petticoat either--for
|
|
still it would last a great while--and, indeed, she must thankfully say
|
|
that their petticoats were all very strong.'"
|
|
|
|
"For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against my
|
|
conscience. And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would be
|
|
much disturbed by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him. She
|
|
might talk on; and if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would only
|
|
talk louder, and drown her voice. But the question is not, whether it
|
|
would be a bad connexion for him, but whether he wishes it; and I think
|
|
he does. I have heard him speak, and so must you, so very highly of
|
|
Jane Fairfax! The interest he takes in her--his anxiety about her
|
|
health--his concern that she should have no happier prospect! I have
|
|
heard him express himself so warmly on those points!--Such an admirer
|
|
of her performance on the pianoforte, and of her voice! I have heard
|
|
him say that he could listen to her for ever. Oh! and I had almost
|
|
forgotten one idea that occurred to me--this pianoforte that has been
|
|
sent here by somebody--though we have all been so well satisfied to
|
|
consider it a present from the Campbells, may it not be from Mr.
|
|
Knightley? I cannot help suspecting him. I think he is just the
|
|
person to do it, even without being in love."
|
|
|
|
"Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love. But I do not
|
|
think it is at all a likely thing for him to do. Mr. Knightley does
|
|
nothing mysteriously."
|
|
|
|
"I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly;
|
|
oftener than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common
|
|
course of things, occur to him."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have told
|
|
her so."
|
|
|
|
"There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very
|
|
strong notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly
|
|
silent when Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner."
|
|
|
|
"You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have
|
|
many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment--I
|
|
believe nothing of the pianoforte--and proof only shall convince me
|
|
that Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax."
|
|
|
|
They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather
|
|
gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was the
|
|
most used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room shewed
|
|
them that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;--and at the
|
|
same moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse would do
|
|
them the honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom, in the
|
|
eagerness of her conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been seeing
|
|
nothing, except that he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax, followed Mr.
|
|
Cole, to add his very pressing entreaties; and as, in every respect, it
|
|
suited Emma best to lead, she gave a very proper compliance.
|
|
|
|
She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt more
|
|
than she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste nor spirit
|
|
in the little things which are generally acceptable, and could
|
|
accompany her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song took her
|
|
agreeably by surprize--a second, slightly but correctly taken by Frank
|
|
Churchill. Her pardon was duly begged at the close of the song, and
|
|
every thing usual followed. He was accused of having a delightful
|
|
voice, and a perfect knowledge of music; which was properly denied; and
|
|
that he knew nothing of the matter, and had no voice at all, roundly
|
|
asserted. They sang together once more; and Emma would then resign her
|
|
place to Miss Fairfax, whose performance, both vocal and instrumental,
|
|
she never could attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely
|
|
superior to her own.
|
|
|
|
With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the
|
|
numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again.
|
|
They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth. But
|
|
the sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew away
|
|
half Emma's mind; and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject
|
|
of Mrs. Weston's suspicions, to which the sweet sounds of the united
|
|
voices gave only momentary interruptions. Her objections to Mr.
|
|
Knightley's marrying did not in the least subside. She could see
|
|
nothing but evil in it. It would be a great disappointment to Mr. John
|
|
Knightley; consequently to Isabella. A real injury to the children--a
|
|
most mortifying change, and material loss to them all;--a very great
|
|
deduction from her father's daily comfort--and, as to herself, she
|
|
could not at all endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A
|
|
Mrs. Knightley for them all to give way to!--No--Mr. Knightley must
|
|
never marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
|
|
|
|
Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her.
|
|
They talked at first only of the performance. His admiration was
|
|
certainly very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston, it would not
|
|
have struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however, she began to speak
|
|
of his kindness in conveying the aunt and niece; and though his answer
|
|
was in the spirit of cutting the matter short, she believed it to
|
|
indicate only his disinclination to dwell on any kindness of his own.
|
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|
|
"I often feel concern," said she, "that I dare not make our carriage
|
|
more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish;
|
|
but you know how impossible my father would deem it that James should
|
|
put-to for such a purpose."
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|
|
|
"Quite out of the question, quite out of the question," he replied;--
|
|
"but you must often wish it, I am sure." And he smiled with such
|
|
seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another step.
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|
|
"This present from the Campbells," said she--"this pianoforte is very
|
|
kindly given."
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|
|
"Yes," he replied, and without the smallest apparent embarrassment.--
|
|
"But they would have done better had they given her notice of it.
|
|
Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not enhanced, and the
|
|
inconvenience is often considerable. I should have expected better
|
|
judgment in Colonel Campbell."
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|
|
From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley had
|
|
had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he were entirely
|
|
free from peculiar attachment--whether there were no actual
|
|
preference--remained a little longer doubtful. Towards the end of
|
|
Jane's second song, her voice grew thick.
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|
|
"That will do," said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud--"you
|
|
have sung quite enough for one evening--now be quiet."
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|
|
Another song, however, was soon begged for. "One more;--they would not
|
|
fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for one more."
|
|
And Frank Churchill was heard to say, "I think you could manage this
|
|
without effort; the first part is so very trifling. The strength of
|
|
the song falls on the second."
|
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|
|
Mr. Knightley grew angry.
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|
|
"That fellow," said he, indignantly, "thinks of nothing but shewing off
|
|
his own voice. This must not be." And touching Miss Bates, who at
|
|
that moment passed near--"Miss Bates, are you mad, to let your niece
|
|
sing herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere. They have no
|
|
mercy on her."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even to be
|
|
grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all farther
|
|
singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening, for Miss
|
|
Woodhouse and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers; but
|
|
soon (within five minutes) the proposal of dancing--originating nobody
|
|
exactly knew where--was so effectually promoted by Mr. and Mrs. Cole,
|
|
that every thing was rapidly clearing away, to give proper space. Mrs.
|
|
Weston, capital in her country-dances, was seated, and beginning an
|
|
irresistible waltz; and Frank Churchill, coming up with most becoming
|
|
gallantry to Emma, had secured her hand, and led her up to the top.
|
|
|
|
While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off,
|
|
Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on her
|
|
voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr.
|
|
Knightley. This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he
|
|
were to be very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur
|
|
something. There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to
|
|
Mrs. Cole--he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody
|
|
else, and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.
|
|
|
|
Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe; and
|
|
she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment. Not more than
|
|
five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the suddenness of it
|
|
made it very delightful, and she found herself well matched in a
|
|
partner. They were a couple worth looking at.
|
|
|
|
Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed. It was
|
|
growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home, on her
|
|
mother's account. After some attempts, therefore, to be permitted to
|
|
begin again, they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston, look sorrowful,
|
|
and have done.
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps it is as well," said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma to
|
|
her carriage. "I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid dancing
|
|
would not have agreed with me, after yours."
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CHAPTER IX
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Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit
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afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she
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might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must
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be amply repaid in the splendour of popularity. She must have
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delighted the Coles--worthy people, who deserved to be made happy!--And
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left a name behind her that would not soon die away.
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Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were two
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points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether she had
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not transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying her
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suspicions of Jane Fairfax's feelings to Frank Churchill. It was
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hardly right; but it had been so strong an idea, that it would escape
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her, and his submission to all that she told, was a compliment to her
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penetration, which made it difficult for her to be quite certain that
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she ought to have held her tongue.
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The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax; and
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there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally regret
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the inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did most heartily
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grieve over the idleness of her childhood--and sat down and practised
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vigorously an hour and a half.
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She was then interrupted by Harriet's coming in; and if Harriet's
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praise could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.
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"Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!"
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"Don't class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like her's,
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than a lamp is like sunshine."
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"Oh! dear--I think you play the best of the two. I think you play
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quite as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you.
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Every body last night said how well you played."
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"Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference. The
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truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised,
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but Jane Fairfax's is much beyond it."
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"Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does, or
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that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out. Mr.
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Cole said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a
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great deal about your taste, and that he valued taste much more than
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execution."
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"Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet."
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"Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had any
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taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.-- There is
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no understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play so very well,
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you know, it is no more than she is obliged to do, because she will
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have to teach. The Coxes were wondering last night whether she would
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get into any great family. How did you think the Coxes looked?"
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"Just as they always do--very vulgar."
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"They told me something," said Harriet rather hesitatingly; "but it is
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nothing of any consequence."
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Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful of its
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producing Mr. Elton.
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"They told me--that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday."
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"Oh!"
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"He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him to stay
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to dinner."
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"Oh!"
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"They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox. I do not
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know what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go and stay
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there again next summer."
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"She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox should
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be."
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"She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat by her
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at dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would be very glad to
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marry him."
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"Very likely.--I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar
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girls in Highbury."
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Harriet had business at Ford's.--Emma thought it most prudent to go
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with her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible,
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and in her present state, would be dangerous.
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Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always
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very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins
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and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.--Much could
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not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;--
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Mr. Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at the
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office-door, Mr. Cole's carriage-horses returning from exercise, or a
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stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest objects she
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could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on the butcher
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with his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from shop with her
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full basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone, and a string of
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dawdling children round the baker's little bow-window eyeing the
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gingerbread, she knew she had no reason to complain, and was amused
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enough; quite enough still to stand at the door. A mind lively and at
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ease, can do with seeing nothing, and can see nothing that does not
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answer.
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She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged; two persons
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appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were walking into
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Highbury;--to Hartfield of course. They were stopping, however, in the
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first place at Mrs. Bates's; whose house was a little nearer Randalls
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than Ford's; and had all but knocked, when Emma caught their
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eye.--Immediately they crossed the road and came forward to her; and
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the agreeableness of yesterday's engagement seemed to give fresh
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pleasure to the present meeting. Mrs. Weston informed her that she was
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|
going to call on the Bateses, in order to hear the new instrument.
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"For my companion tells me," said she, "that I absolutely promised Miss
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Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was not aware of
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it myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day, but as he says I
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did, I am going now."
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"And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope," said
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Frank Churchill, "to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield--if
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you are going home."
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Mrs. Weston was disappointed.
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"I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased."
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"Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps--I may be equally in
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the way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me. My aunt
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always sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget her to
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|
death; and Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say the same.
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What am I to do?"
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"I am here on no business of my own," said Emma; "I am only waiting for
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my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we shall go
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|
home. But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear the instrument."
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"Well--if you advise it.--But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell should
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|
have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove to have an
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|
indifferent tone--what shall I say? I shall be no support to Mrs.
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|
Weston. She might do very well by herself. A disagreeable truth would
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|
be palatable through her lips, but I am the wretchedest being in the
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|
world at a civil falsehood."
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"I do not believe any such thing," replied Emma.--"I am persuaded that
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|
you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary; but
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|
there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent. Quite
|
|
otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax's opinion last night."
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"Do come with me," said Mrs. Weston, "if it be not very disagreeable to
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|
you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards.
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|
We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me.
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|
It will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you meant
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|
it."
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He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him,
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|
returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates's door. Emma watched them in,
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|
and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,--trying, with all
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|
the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain
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|
muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon, be
|
|
it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern. At
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|
last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.
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"Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard's, ma'am?" asked Mrs. Ford.--
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|
"Yes--no--yes, to Mrs. Goddard's. Only my pattern gown is at Hartfield.
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|
No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please. But then, Mrs.
|
|
Goddard will want to see it.--And I could take the pattern gown home
|
|
any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly--so it had better go to
|
|
Hartfield--at least the ribbon. You could make it into two parcels,
|
|
Mrs. Ford, could not you?"
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|
"It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble of two
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|
parcels."
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"No more it is."
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"No trouble in the world, ma'am," said the obliging Mrs. Ford.
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"Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one. Then, if you
|
|
please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard's-- I do not know--No, I
|
|
think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well have it sent to Hartfield,
|
|
and take it home with me at night. What do you advise?"
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|
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|
"That you do not give another half-second to the subject. To
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|
Hartfield, if you please, Mrs. Ford."
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"Aye, that will be much best," said Harriet, quite satisfied, "I should
|
|
not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard's."
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|
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|
Voices approached the shop--or rather one voice and two ladies: Mrs.
|
|
Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.
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|
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|
"My dear Miss Woodhouse," said the latter, "I am just run across to
|
|
entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while,
|
|
and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith.
|
|
How do you do, Miss Smith?--Very well I thank you.--And I begged Mrs.
|
|
Weston to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding."
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|
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|
"I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are--"
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|
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|
"Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well;
|
|
and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so
|
|
glad to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.--
|
|
Oh! then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will
|
|
allow me just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother will
|
|
be so very happy to see her--and now we are such a nice party, she
|
|
cannot refuse.--'Aye, pray do,' said Mr. Frank Churchill, 'Miss
|
|
Woodhouse's opinion of the instrument will be worth having.'-- But,
|
|
said I, I shall be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go with
|
|
me.--'Oh,' said he, 'wait half a minute, till I have finished my
|
|
job;'--For, would you believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, in the
|
|
most obliging manner in the world, fastening in the rivet of my
|
|
mother's spectacles.--The rivet came out, you know, this morning.-- So
|
|
very obliging!--For my mother had no use of her spectacles--could not
|
|
put them on. And, by the bye, every body ought to have two pair of
|
|
spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said so. I meant to take them
|
|
over to John Saunders the first thing I did, but something or other
|
|
hindered me all the morning; first one thing, then another, there is no
|
|
saying what, you know. At one time Patty came to say she thought the
|
|
kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I, Patty do not come with
|
|
your bad news to me. Here is the rivet of your mistress's spectacles
|
|
out. Then the baked apples came home, Mrs. Wallis sent them by her
|
|
boy; they are extremely civil and obliging to us, the Wallises,
|
|
always--I have heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be uncivil
|
|
and give a very rude answer, but we have never known any thing but the
|
|
greatest attention from them. And it cannot be for the value of our
|
|
custom now, for what is our consumption of bread, you know? Only three
|
|
of us.--besides dear Jane at present--and she really eats
|
|
nothing--makes such a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened
|
|
if you saw it. I dare not let my mother know how little she eats--so I
|
|
say one thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the
|
|
middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes so
|
|
well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome, for I
|
|
took the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry; I happened to
|
|
meet him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before-- I have so
|
|
often heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple. I believe it is the
|
|
only way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the fruit thoroughly wholesome. We
|
|
have apple-dumplings, however, very often. Patty makes an excellent
|
|
apple-dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and
|
|
these ladies will oblige us."
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|
|
|
Emma would be "very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.," and they did at
|
|
last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss Bates than,
|
|
|
|
"How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see you
|
|
before. I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons from
|
|
town. Jane came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye, the gloves do
|
|
very well--only a little too large about the wrist; but Jane is taking
|
|
them in."
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|
|
|
"What was I talking of?" said she, beginning again when they were all
|
|
in the street.
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|
|
|
Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.
|
|
|
|
"I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.--Oh! my mother's
|
|
spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill! 'Oh!' said he,
|
|
'I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job of this kind
|
|
excessively.'--Which you know shewed him to be so very. . . . Indeed I
|
|
must say that, much as I had heard of him before and much as I had
|
|
expected, he very far exceeds any thing. . . . I do congratulate you,
|
|
Mrs. Weston, most warmly. He seems every thing the fondest parent
|
|
could. . . . 'Oh!' said he, 'I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of
|
|
that sort excessively.' I never shall forget his manner. And when I
|
|
brought out the baked apples from the closet, and hoped our friends
|
|
would be so very obliging as to take some, 'Oh!' said he directly,
|
|
'there is nothing in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the
|
|
finest-looking home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.' That, you
|
|
know, was so very. . . . And I am sure, by his manner, it was no
|
|
compliment. Indeed they are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis
|
|
does them full justice--only we do not have them baked more than twice,
|
|
and Mr. Woodhouse made us promise to have them done three times--but
|
|
Miss Woodhouse will be so good as not to mention it. The apples
|
|
themselves are the very finest sort for baking, beyond a doubt; all
|
|
from Donwell--some of Mr. Knightley's most liberal supply. He sends us
|
|
a sack every year; and certainly there never was such a keeping apple
|
|
anywhere as one of his trees--I believe there is two of them. My
|
|
mother says the orchard was always famous in her younger days. But I
|
|
was really quite shocked the other day--for Mr. Knightley called one
|
|
morning, and Jane was eating these apples, and we talked about them and
|
|
said how much she enjoyed them, and he asked whether we were not got to
|
|
the end of our stock. 'I am sure you must be,' said he, 'and I will
|
|
send you another supply; for I have a great many more than I can ever
|
|
use. William Larkins let me keep a larger quantity than usual this
|
|
year. I will send you some more, before they get good for nothing.' So
|
|
I begged he would not--for really as to ours being gone, I could not
|
|
absolutely say that we had a great many left--it was but half a dozen
|
|
indeed; but they should be all kept for Jane; and I could not at all
|
|
bear that he should be sending us more, so liberal as he had been
|
|
already; and Jane said the same. And when he was gone, she almost
|
|
quarrelled with me--No, I should not say quarrelled, for we never had a
|
|
quarrel in our lives; but she was quite distressed that I had owned the
|
|
apples were so nearly gone; she wished I had made him believe we had a
|
|
great many left. Oh, said I, my dear, I did say as much as I could.
|
|
However, the very same evening William Larkins came over with a large
|
|
basket of apples, the same sort of apples, a bushel at least, and I was
|
|
very much obliged, and went down and spoke to William Larkins and said
|
|
every thing, as you may suppose. William Larkins is such an old
|
|
acquaintance! I am always glad to see him. But, however, I found
|
|
afterwards from Patty, that William said it was all the apples of
|
|
_that_ sort his master had; he had brought them all--and now his master
|
|
had not one left to bake or boil. William did not seem to mind it
|
|
himself, he was so pleased to think his master had sold so many; for
|
|
William, you know, thinks more of his master's profit than any thing;
|
|
but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their being all sent
|
|
away. She could not bear that her master should not be able to have
|
|
another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this, but bid her not
|
|
mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us about it, for Mrs.
|
|
Hodges _would_ be cross sometimes, and as long as so many sacks were
|
|
sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder. And so Patty told me,
|
|
and I was excessively shocked indeed! I would not have Mr. Knightley
|
|
know any thing about it for the world! He would be so very. . . . I
|
|
wanted to keep it from Jane's knowledge; but, unluckily, I had
|
|
mentioned it before I was aware."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors
|
|
walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to,
|
|
pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.
|
|
|
|
"Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning. Pray
|
|
take care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase--rather
|
|
darker and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith, pray take care.
|
|
Miss Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you hit your foot.
|
|
Miss Smith, the step at the turning."
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|
CHAPTER X
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|
|
The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was
|
|
tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment,
|
|
slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near
|
|
her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax,
|
|
standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.
|
|
|
|
Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most
|
|
happy countenance on seeing Emma again.
|
|
|
|
"This is a pleasure," said he, in rather a low voice, "coming at least
|
|
ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me trying to be
|
|
useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed."
|
|
|
|
"What!" said Mrs. Weston, "have not you finished it yet? you would not
|
|
earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate."
|
|
|
|
"I have not been working uninterruptedly," he replied, "I have been
|
|
assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily,
|
|
it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe. You see
|
|
we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind of you to
|
|
be persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be hurrying home."
|
|
|
|
He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently
|
|
employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying to
|
|
make her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was quite
|
|
ready to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not
|
|
immediately ready, Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her
|
|
nerves; she had not yet possessed the instrument long enough to touch
|
|
it without emotion; she must reason herself into the power of
|
|
performance; and Emma could not but pity such feelings, whatever their
|
|
origin, and could not but resolve never to expose them to her neighbour
|
|
again.
|
|
|
|
At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given, the
|
|
powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to. Mrs.
|
|
Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again; Emma joined
|
|
her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every proper
|
|
discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the highest promise.
|
|
|
|
"Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ," said Frank Churchill, with a
|
|
smile at Emma, "the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good deal of
|
|
Colonel Campbell's taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the upper
|
|
notes I am sure is exactly what he and _all_ _that_ _party_ would
|
|
particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his
|
|
friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself. Do not
|
|
you think so?"
|
|
|
|
Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston had
|
|
been speaking to her at the same moment.
|
|
|
|
"It is not fair," said Emma, in a whisper; "mine was a random guess.
|
|
Do not distress her."
|
|
|
|
He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little
|
|
doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,
|
|
|
|
"How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure on
|
|
this occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you, and
|
|
wonder which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument's
|
|
coming to hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business to
|
|
be going forward just at this time?--Do you imagine it to be the
|
|
consequence of an immediate commission from him, or that he may have
|
|
sent only a general direction, an order indefinite as to time, to
|
|
depend upon contingencies and conveniences?"
|
|
|
|
He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,
|
|
|
|
"Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell," said she, in a voice of
|
|
forced calmness, "I can imagine nothing with any confidence. It must
|
|
be all conjecture."
|
|
|
|
"Conjecture--aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes one
|
|
conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall make
|
|
this rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse, when
|
|
hard at work, if one talks at all;--your real workmen, I suppose, hold
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their tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get hold of a
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word--Miss Fairfax said something about conjecturing. There, it is
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done. I have the pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of restoring your
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spectacles, healed for the present."
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He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape a
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little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged Miss
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Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.
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"If you are very kind," said he, "it will be one of the waltzes we
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danced last night;--let me live them over again. You did not enjoy
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them as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe you were
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glad we danced no longer; but I would have given worlds--all the
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worlds one ever has to give--for another half-hour."
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She played.
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"What felicity it is to hear a tune again which _has_ made one happy!--
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If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth."
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She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played
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something else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte,
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and turning to Emma, said,
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"Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?--Cramer.-- And
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here are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter, one
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might expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful
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of Colonel Campbell, was not it?--He knew Miss Fairfax could have no
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music here. I honour that part of the attention particularly; it shews
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it to have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily done;
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nothing incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it."
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Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused;
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and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught the
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remains of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush of
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consciousness, there had been a smile of secret delight, she had less
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scruple in the amusement, and much less compunction with respect to
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her.--This amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax was apparently
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cherishing very reprehensible feelings.
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He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.--
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Emma took the opportunity of whispering,
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"You speak too plain. She must understand you."
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"I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not in the
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least ashamed of my meaning."
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"But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up the idea."
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"I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me. I have
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now a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her. If she
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does wrong, she ought to feel it."
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"She is not entirely without it, I think."
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"I do not see much sign of it. She is playing _Robin_ _Adair_ at this
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moment--_his_ favourite."
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Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window, descried Mr.
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Knightley on horse-back not far off.
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"Mr. Knightley I declare!--I must speak to him if possible, just to
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thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give you all
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cold; but I can go into my mother's room you know. I dare say he will
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come in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful to have you all
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meet so!--Our little room so honoured!"
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She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening the
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casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley's attention, and every
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syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard by the others,
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as if it had passed within the same apartment.
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"How d' ye do?--how d'ye do?--Very well, I thank you. So obliged to
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you for the carriage last night. We were just in time; my mother just
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ready for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will find some friends
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here."
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So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard in
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his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,
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"How is your niece, Miss Bates?--I want to inquire after you all, but
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particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?--I hope she caught no
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cold last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss Fairfax is."
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And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he would hear
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her in any thing else. The listeners were amused; and Mrs. Weston gave
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Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma still shook her head in
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steady scepticism.
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"So obliged to you!--so very much obliged to you for the carriage,"
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resumed Miss Bates.
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He cut her short with,
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"I am going to Kingston. Can I do any thing for you?"
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"Oh! dear, Kingston--are you?--Mrs. Cole was saying the other day she
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wanted something from Kingston."
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"Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for _you_?"
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"No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?-- Miss
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Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the new
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pianoforte. Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in."
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"Well," said he, in a deliberating manner, "for five minutes, perhaps."
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"And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!--Quite
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delightful; so many friends!"
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"No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes. I must get
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on to Kingston as fast as I can."
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"Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you."
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"No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day, and hear
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the pianoforte."
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"Well, I am so sorry!--Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party last
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night; how extremely pleasant.--Did you ever see such dancing?-- Was
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|
not it delightful?--Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I never saw
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any thing equal to it."
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"Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose Miss
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Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing that passes.
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And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss Fairfax should
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not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances very well; and Mrs.
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|
Weston is the very best country-dance player, without exception, in
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|
England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude, they will say
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|
something pretty loud about you and me in return; but I cannot stay to
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hear it."
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"Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence--so
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|
shocked!--Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!"
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"What is the matter now?"
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"To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had a
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great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked!
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|
Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here. You
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|
should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off. He
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|
never can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now,
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|
and it would have been a pity not to have mentioned. . . . Well,
|
|
(returning to the room,) I have not been able to succeed. Mr.
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Knightley cannot stop. He is going to Kingston. He asked me if he
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|
could do any thing. . . ."
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"Yes," said Jane, "we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing."
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"Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door was
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|
open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud. You must
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|
have heard every thing to be sure. 'Can I do any thing for you at
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|
Kingston?' said he; so I just mentioned. . . . Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
must you be going?--You seem but just come--so very obliging of you."
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Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already lasted
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|
long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was perceived to
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|
be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking leave also, could
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|
allow themselves only to walk with the two young ladies to Hartfield
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gates, before they set off for Randalls.
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CHAPTER XI
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It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been
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known of young people passing many, many months successively, without
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being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue
|
|
either to body or mind;--but when a beginning is made--when the
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|
felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly, felt--it
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|
must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.
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Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again;
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|
and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded
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|
to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young
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|
people in schemes on the subject. Frank's was the first idea; and his
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|
the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best judge of
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|
the difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation and
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|
appearance. But still she had inclination enough for shewing people
|
|
again how delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse
|
|
danced--for doing that in which she need not blush to compare herself
|
|
with Jane Fairfax--and even for simple dancing itself, without any of
|
|
the wicked aids of vanity--to assist him first in pacing out the room
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|
they were in to see what it could be made to hold--and then in taking
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|
the dimensions of the other parlour, in the hope of discovering, in
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|
spite of all that Mr. Weston could say of their exactly equal size,
|
|
that it was a little the largest.
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His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole's
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|
should be finished there--that the same party should be collected, and
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|
the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence. Mr.
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|
Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment, and Mrs. Weston
|
|
most willingly undertook to play as long as they could wish to dance;
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|
and the interesting employment had followed, of reckoning up exactly
|
|
who there would be, and portioning out the indispensable division of
|
|
space to every couple.
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|
"You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss
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|
Coxes five," had been repeated many times over. "And there will be the
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|
two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself, besides Mr. Knightley.
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|
Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure. You and Miss Smith, and
|
|
Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five; and for five
|
|
couple there will be plenty of room."
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|
But soon it came to be on one side,
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|
"But will there be good room for five couple?--I really do not think
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|
there will."
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|
On another,
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"And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth while to
|
|
stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks seriously about it.
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|
It will not do to _invite_ five couple. It can be allowable only as
|
|
the thought of the moment."
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|
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|
Somebody said that _Miss_ Gilbert was expected at her brother's, and
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|
must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed _Mrs_. Gilbert
|
|
would have danced the other evening, if she had been asked. A word was
|
|
put in for a second young Cox; and at last, Mr. Weston naming one
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|
family of cousins who must be included, and another of very old
|
|
acquaintance who could not be left out, it became a certainty that the
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|
five couple would be at least ten, and a very interesting speculation
|
|
in what possible manner they could be disposed of.
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|
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|
The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other. "Might not
|
|
they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?" It seemed the best
|
|
scheme; and yet it was not so good but that many of them wanted a
|
|
better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was in distress
|
|
about the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse opposed it earnestly, on the score
|
|
of health. It made him so very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be
|
|
persevered in.
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|
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|
"Oh! no," said he; "it would be the extreme of imprudence. I could not
|
|
bear it for Emma!--Emma is not strong. She would catch a dreadful
|
|
cold. So would poor little Harriet. So you would all. Mrs. Weston,
|
|
you would be quite laid up; do not let them talk of such a wild thing.
|
|
Pray do not let them talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is
|
|
very thoughtless. Do not tell his father, but that young man is not
|
|
quite the thing. He has been opening the doors very often this
|
|
evening, and keeping them open very inconsiderately. He does not think
|
|
of the draught. I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is
|
|
not quite the thing!"
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|
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|
Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance of
|
|
it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door was
|
|
now closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme of dancing
|
|
only in the room they were in resorted to again; and with such
|
|
good-will on Frank Churchill's part, that the space which a quarter of
|
|
an hour before had been deemed barely sufficient for five couple, was
|
|
now endeavoured to be made out quite enough for ten.
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|
"We were too magnificent," said he. "We allowed unnecessary room. Ten
|
|
couple may stand here very well."
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Emma demurred. "It would be a crowd--a sad crowd; and what could be
|
|
worse than dancing without space to turn in?"
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|
"Very true," he gravely replied; "it was very bad." But still he went
|
|
on measuring, and still he ended with,
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|
"I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple."
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|
|
"No, no," said she, "you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful
|
|
to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure than to
|
|
be dancing in a crowd--and a crowd in a little room!"
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|
|
|
"There is no denying it," he replied. "I agree with you exactly. A
|
|
crowd in a little room--Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving
|
|
pictures in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!--Still, however,
|
|
having proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up. It
|
|
would be a disappointment to my father--and altogether--I do not know
|
|
that--I am rather of opinion that ten couple might stand here very
|
|
well."
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|
|
|
Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little
|
|
self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure of
|
|
dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave the rest.
|
|
Had she intended ever to _marry_ him, it might have been worth while to
|
|
pause and consider, and try to understand the value of his preference,
|
|
and the character of his temper; but for all the purposes of their
|
|
acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.
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|
|
|
Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered
|
|
the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance of
|
|
the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.
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|
|
|
"Well, Miss Woodhouse," he almost immediately began, "your inclination
|
|
for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the terrors
|
|
of my father's little rooms. I bring a new proposal on the subject:--a
|
|
thought of my father's, which waits only your approbation to be acted
|
|
upon. May I hope for the honour of your hand for the two first dances
|
|
of this little projected ball, to be given, not at Randalls, but at the
|
|
Crown Inn?"
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|
|
|
"The Crown!"
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|
|
|
"Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you
|
|
cannot, my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him
|
|
there. Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less
|
|
grateful welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston
|
|
sees no objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we
|
|
all feel. Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of the
|
|
Randalls rooms, would have been insufferable!--Dreadful!--I felt how
|
|
right you were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing _any_
|
|
_thing_ to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?--You consent--I
|
|
hope you consent?"
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|
|
|
"It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can answer for
|
|
myself, shall be most happy--It seems the only improvement that could
|
|
be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?"
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|
|
|
She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully
|
|
comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations were
|
|
necessary to make it acceptable.
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|
|
|
"No; he thought it very far from an improvement--a very bad plan--much
|
|
worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp and dangerous;
|
|
never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited. If they must dance, they
|
|
had better dance at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the
|
|
Crown in his life--did not know the people who kept it by sight.--Oh!
|
|
no--a very bad plan. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than
|
|
anywhere."
|
|
|
|
"I was going to observe, sir," said Frank Churchill, "that one of the
|
|
great recommendations of this change would be the very little danger of
|
|
any body's catching cold--so much less danger at the Crown than at
|
|
Randalls! Mr. Perry might have reason to regret the alteration, but
|
|
nobody else could."
|
|
|
|
"Sir," said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, "you are very much mistaken
|
|
if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character. Mr. Perry is
|
|
extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I do not understand
|
|
how the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father's
|
|
house."
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|
|
|
"From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have no
|
|
occasion to open the windows at all--not once the whole evening; and it
|
|
is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold air upon
|
|
heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief."
|
|
|
|
"Open the windows!--but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think of
|
|
opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent! I
|
|
never heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!--I am sure,
|
|
neither your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was) would
|
|
suffer it."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! sir--but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind a
|
|
window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected. I
|
|
have often known it done myself."
|
|
|
|
"Have you indeed, sir?--Bless me! I never could have supposed it. But
|
|
I live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear.
|
|
However, this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come to
|
|
talk it over--but these sort of things require a good deal of
|
|
consideration. One cannot resolve upon them in a hurry. If Mr. and
|
|
Mrs. Weston will be so obliging as to call here one morning, we may
|
|
talk it over, and see what can be done."
|
|
|
|
"But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" interrupted Emma, "there will be plenty of time for talking every
|
|
thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived to be at
|
|
the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses. They will
|
|
be so near their own stable."
|
|
|
|
"So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James ever
|
|
complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can. If I could
|
|
be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired--but is Mrs. Stokes to be
|
|
trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her, even by sight."
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|
|
|
"I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will be
|
|
under Mrs. Weston's care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct the whole."
|
|
|
|
"There, papa!--Now you must be satisfied--Our own dear Mrs. Weston, who
|
|
is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said, so
|
|
many years ago, when I had the measles? 'If _Miss_ _Taylor_ undertakes
|
|
to wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.' How often
|
|
have I heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!"
|
|
|
|
"Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it. Poor
|
|
little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is, you would
|
|
have been very bad, but for Perry's great attention. He came four
|
|
times a day for a week. He said, from the first, it was a very good
|
|
sort--which was our great comfort; but the measles are a dreadful
|
|
complaint. I hope whenever poor Isabella's little ones have the
|
|
measles, she will send for Perry."
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|
|
|
"My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment," said Frank
|
|
Churchill, "examining the capabilities of the house. I left them there
|
|
and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion, and hoping you
|
|
might be persuaded to join them and give your advice on the spot. I
|
|
was desired to say so from both. It would be the greatest pleasure to
|
|
them, if you could allow me to attend you there. They can do nothing
|
|
satisfactorily without you."
|
|
|
|
Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father,
|
|
engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young people
|
|
set off together without delay for the Crown. There were Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation, very busy and
|
|
very happy in their different way; she, in some little distress; and
|
|
he, finding every thing perfect.
|
|
|
|
"Emma," said she, "this paper is worse than I expected. Look! in
|
|
places you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot is more yellow
|
|
and forlorn than any thing I could have imagined."
|
|
|
|
"My dear, you are too particular," said her husband. "What does all
|
|
that signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight. It will be
|
|
as clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any thing of it on
|
|
our club-nights."
|
|
|
|
The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, "Men never know
|
|
when things are dirty or not;" and the gentlemen perhaps thought each
|
|
to himself, "Women will have their little nonsenses and needless cares."
|
|
|
|
One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain.
|
|
It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom's being built,
|
|
suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining, was
|
|
the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would be
|
|
wanted as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted
|
|
unnecessary by their four selves, still was it not too small for any
|
|
comfortable supper? Another room of much better size might be secured
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for the purpose; but it was at the other end of the house, and a long
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awkward passage must be gone through to get at it. This made a
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difficulty. Mrs. Weston was afraid of draughts for the young people in
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that passage; and neither Emma nor the gentlemen could tolerate the
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prospect of being miserably crowded at supper.
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Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches, &c.,
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set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a wretched
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suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper, was
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pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women; and Mrs.
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Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another line of
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expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,
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"I do not think it _is_ so very small. We shall not be many, you know."
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And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps
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through the passage, was calling out,
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"You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear. It is a
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mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from the stairs."
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"I wish," said Mrs. Weston, "one could know which arrangement our
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guests in general would like best. To do what would be most generally
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pleasing must be our object--if one could but tell what that would be."
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"Yes, very true," cried Frank, "very true. You want your neighbours'
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opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the
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chief of them--the Coles, for instance. They are not far off. Shall I
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call upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.-- And I do not
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know whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand the inclinations
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of the rest of the people as any body. I think we do want a larger
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council. Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?"
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"Well--if you please," said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, "if you
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think she will be of any use."
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"You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates," said Emma. "She
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will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing. She
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will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in
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consulting Miss Bates."
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"But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond of
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hearing Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family, you
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know."
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Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed, gave it
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his decided approbation.
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"Aye, do, Frank.--Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter at
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once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know a
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properer person for shewing us how to do away difficulties. Fetch Miss
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Bates. We are growing a little too nice. She is a standing lesson of
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how to be happy. But fetch them both. Invite them both."
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"Both sir! Can the old lady?" . . .
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"The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you a
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great blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece."
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"Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect.
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Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both."
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And away he ran.
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Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving
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aunt, and her elegant niece,--Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered woman
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and a good wife, had examined the passage again, and found the evils of
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it much less than she had supposed before--indeed very trifling; and
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here ended the difficulties of decision. All the rest, in speculation
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at least, was perfectly smooth. All the minor arrangements of table
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and chair, lights and music, tea and supper, made themselves; or were
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left as mere trifles to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and
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Mrs. Stokes.-- Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had
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already written to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his
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fortnight, which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance
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it was to be.
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Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must.
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As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much safer
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character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once general
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and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please; and for another
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half-hour they were all walking to and fro, between the different
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rooms, some suggesting, some attending, and all in happy enjoyment of
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the future. The party did not break up without Emma's being positively
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secured for the two first dances by the hero of the evening, nor
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without her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, "He has asked
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her, my dear. That's right. I knew he would!"
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CHAPTER XII
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One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely
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satisfactory to Emma--its being fixed for a day within the granted term
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of Frank Churchill's stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston's
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confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the
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Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his
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fortnight. But this was not judged feasible. The preparations must
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take their time, nothing could be properly ready till the third week
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|
were entered on, and for a few days they must be planning, proceeding
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and hoping in uncertainty--at the risk--in her opinion, the great
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risk, of its being all in vain.
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Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word. His
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wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was not
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|
opposed. All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one
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solicitude generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain of
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her ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley's provoking
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indifference about it. Either because he did not dance himself, or
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because the plan had been formed without his being consulted, he seemed
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resolved that it should not interest him, determined against its
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exciting any present curiosity, or affording him any future amusement.
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To her voluntary communications Emma could get no more approving reply,
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than,
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"Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this
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trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing to say
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against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.-- Oh! yes,
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I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep as much awake as I
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can; but I would rather be at home, looking over William Larkins's
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week's account; much rather, I confess.-- Pleasure in seeing
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dancing!--not I, indeed--I never look at it-- I do not know who
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|
does.--Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue, must be its own reward.
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Those who are standing by are usually thinking of something very
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different."
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This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry. It was
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|
not in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was so indifferent,
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|
or so indignant; he was not guided by _her_ feelings in reprobating the
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|
ball, for _she_ enjoyed the thought of it to an extraordinary degree.
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|
It made her animated--open hearted--she voluntarily said;--
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"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball.
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What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own,
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|
with _very_ great pleasure."
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It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have
|
|
preferred the society of William Larkins. No!--she was more and more
|
|
convinced that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise. There
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|
was a great deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment on his
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|
side--but no love.
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Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley.
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|
Two days of joyful security were immediately followed by the over-throw
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|
of every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill to urge his
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|
nephew's instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell--far too unwell to
|
|
do without him; she had been in a very suffering state (so said her
|
|
husband) when writing to her nephew two days before, though from her
|
|
usual unwillingness to give pain, and constant habit of never thinking
|
|
of herself, she had not mentioned it; but now she was too ill to
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|
trifle, and must entreat him to set off for Enscombe without delay.
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The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note from Mrs.
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|
Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable. He must be
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|
gone within a few hours, though without feeling any real alarm for his
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|
aunt, to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses; they never
|
|
occurred but for her own convenience.
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Mrs. Weston added, "that he could only allow himself time to hurry to
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|
Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few friends there whom
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|
he could suppose to feel any interest in him; and that he might be
|
|
expected at Hartfield very soon."
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This wretched note was the finale of Emma's breakfast. When once it
|
|
had been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament and exclaim.
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|
The loss of the ball--the loss of the young man--and all that the
|
|
young man might be feeling!--It was too wretched!-- Such a delightful
|
|
evening as it would have been!--Every body so happy! and she and her
|
|
partner the happiest!--"I said it would be so," was the only
|
|
consolation.
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Her father's feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally of
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|
Mrs. Churchill's illness, and wanted to know how she was treated; and
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|
as for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed; but
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|
they would all be safer at home.
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Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared; but if
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|
this reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful look and total
|
|
want of spirits when he did come might redeem him. He felt the going
|
|
away almost too much to speak of it. His dejection was most evident.
|
|
He sat really lost in thought for the first few minutes; and when
|
|
rousing himself, it was only to say,
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|
"Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst."
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"But you will come again," said Emma. "This will not be your only
|
|
visit to Randalls."
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"Ah!--(shaking his head)--the uncertainty of when I may be able to
|
|
return!--I shall try for it with a zeal!--It will be the object of all
|
|
my thoughts and cares!--and if my uncle and aunt go to town this
|
|
spring--but I am afraid--they did not stir last spring-- I am afraid it
|
|
is a custom gone for ever."
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"Our poor ball must be quite given up."
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|
|
|
"Ah! that ball!--why did we wait for any thing?--why not seize the
|
|
pleasure at once?--How often is happiness destroyed by preparation,
|
|
foolish preparation!--You told us it would be so.--Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
|
|
why are you always so right?"
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|
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|
"Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much
|
|
rather have been merry than wise."
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|
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|
"If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father depends
|
|
on it. Do not forget your engagement."
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|
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|
Emma looked graciously.
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|
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|
"Such a fortnight as it has been!" he continued; "every day more
|
|
precious and more delightful than the day before!--every day making me
|
|
less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain at
|
|
Highbury!"
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|
|
|
"As you do us such ample justice now," said Emma, laughing, "I will
|
|
venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first?
|
|
Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do. I am
|
|
sure you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been so
|
|
long in coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury."
|
|
|
|
He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment, Emma
|
|
was convinced that it had been so.
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|
|
|
"And you must be off this very morning?"
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|
|
|
"Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together, and I
|
|
must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment will
|
|
bring him."
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|
|
|
"Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss
|
|
Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates's powerful, argumentative mind might
|
|
have strengthened yours."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I _have_ called there; passing the door, I thought it better. It
|
|
was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was detained
|
|
by Miss Bates's being absent. She was out; and I felt it impossible
|
|
not to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may, that one
|
|
_must_ laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight. It was better
|
|
to pay my visit, then"--
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|
|
|
He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.
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|
|
|
"In short," said he, "perhaps, Miss Woodhouse--I think you can hardly
|
|
be quite without suspicion"--
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|
|
|
He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly knew
|
|
what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something absolutely
|
|
serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself to speak, therefore,
|
|
in the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,
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|
|
|
"You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit,
|
|
then"--
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|
|
|
He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting
|
|
on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner. She heard
|
|
him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had _cause_ to sigh.
|
|
He could not believe her to be encouraging him. A few awkward moments
|
|
passed, and he sat down again; and in a more determined manner said,
|
|
|
|
"It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be given
|
|
to Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm"--
|
|
|
|
He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.-- He was more
|
|
in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say how it might
|
|
have ended, if his father had not made his appearance? Mr. Woodhouse
|
|
soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made him composed.
|
|
|
|
A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial. Mr.
|
|
Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as incapable of
|
|
procrastinating any evil that was inevitable, as of foreseeing any that
|
|
was doubtful, said, "It was time to go;" and the young man, though he
|
|
might and did sigh, could not but agree, to take leave.
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|
|
|
"I shall hear about you all," said he; "that is my chief consolation.
|
|
I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have engaged
|
|
Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as to promise
|
|
it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one is really
|
|
interested in the absent!--she will tell me every thing. In her
|
|
letters I shall be at dear Highbury again."
|
|
|
|
A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest "Good-bye," closed
|
|
the speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill. Short had
|
|
been the notice--short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma felt so
|
|
sorry to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little society from
|
|
his absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry, and feeling it
|
|
too much.
|
|
|
|
It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day since his
|
|
arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given great spirit to the
|
|
last two weeks--indescribable spirit; the idea, the expectation of
|
|
seeing him which every morning had brought, the assurance of his
|
|
attentions, his liveliness, his manners! It had been a very happy
|
|
fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking from it into the common
|
|
course of Hartfield days. To complete every other recommendation, he
|
|
had _almost_ told her that he loved her. What strength, or what
|
|
constancy of affection he might be subject to, was another point; but
|
|
at present she could not doubt his having a decidedly warm admiration,
|
|
a conscious preference of herself; and this persuasion, joined to all
|
|
the rest, made her think that she _must_ be a little in love with him,
|
|
in spite of every previous determination against it.
|
|
|
|
"I certainly must," said she. "This sensation of listlessness,
|
|
weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ
|
|
myself, this feeling of every thing's being dull and insipid about the
|
|
house!-- I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the
|
|
world if I were not--for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is
|
|
always good to others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball,
|
|
if not for Frank Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He may
|
|
spend the evening with his dear William Larkins now if he likes."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could not
|
|
say that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look would
|
|
have contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily, that
|
|
he was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with
|
|
considerable kindness added,
|
|
|
|
"You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really
|
|
out of luck; you are very much out of luck!"
|
|
|
|
It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her honest
|
|
regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet, her composure was
|
|
odious. She had been particularly unwell, however, suffering from
|
|
headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare, that had the ball
|
|
taken place, she did not think Jane could have attended it; and it was
|
|
charity to impute some of her unbecoming indifference to the languor of
|
|
ill-health.
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|
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|
|
CHAPTER XIII
|
|
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|
|
Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas
|
|
only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good
|
|
deal; and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing
|
|
Frank Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than
|
|
ever in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him,
|
|
and quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was, how
|
|
were his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance of his
|
|
coming to Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand, she
|
|
could not admit herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first morning, to
|
|
be less disposed for employment than usual; she was still busy and
|
|
cheerful; and, pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have
|
|
faults; and farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat
|
|
drawing or working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress
|
|
and close of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and
|
|
inventing elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary
|
|
declaration on his side was that she _refused_ _him_. Their affection
|
|
was always to subside into friendship. Every thing tender and charming
|
|
was to mark their parting; but still they were to part. When she
|
|
became sensible of this, it struck her that she could not be very much
|
|
in love; for in spite of her previous and fixed determination never to
|
|
quit her father, never to marry, a strong attachment certainly must
|
|
produce more of a struggle than she could foresee in her own feelings.
|
|
|
|
"I do not find myself making any use of the word _sacrifice_," said
|
|
she.-- "In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is
|
|
there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he is not
|
|
really necessary to my happiness. So much the better. I certainly
|
|
will not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in
|
|
love. I should be sorry to be more."
|
|
|
|
Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.
|
|
|
|
"_He_ is undoubtedly very much in love--every thing denotes it--very
|
|
much in love indeed!--and when he comes again, if his affection
|
|
continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.--It would be most
|
|
inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up. Not that
|
|
I imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto. No, if he
|
|
had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been so
|
|
wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and
|
|
language at parting would have been different.-- Still, however, I must
|
|
be on my guard. This is in the supposition of his attachment
|
|
continuing what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I
|
|
do not look upon him to be quite the sort of man-- I do not altogether
|
|
build upon his steadiness or constancy.-- His feelings are warm, but I
|
|
can imagine them rather changeable.-- Every consideration of the
|
|
subject, in short, makes me thankful that my happiness is not more
|
|
deeply involved.--I shall do very well again after a little while--and
|
|
then, it will be a good thing over; for they say every body is in love
|
|
once in their lives, and I shall have been let off easily."
|
|
|
|
When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and
|
|
she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her at
|
|
first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had
|
|
undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter, giving
|
|
the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the
|
|
affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable, and
|
|
describing every thing exterior and local that could be supposed
|
|
attractive, with spirit and precision. No suspicious flourishes now of
|
|
apology or concern; it was the language of real feeling towards Mrs.
|
|
Weston; and the transition from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast
|
|
between the places in some of the first blessings of social life was
|
|
just enough touched on to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much
|
|
more might have been said but for the restraints of propriety.--The
|
|
charm of her own name was not wanting. _Miss_ _Woodhouse_ appeared
|
|
more than once, and never without a something of pleasing connexion,
|
|
either a compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had
|
|
said; and in the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it
|
|
was by any such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern the
|
|
effect of her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment perhaps
|
|
of all conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant corner were
|
|
these words--"I had not a spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for
|
|
Miss Woodhouse's beautiful little friend. Pray make my excuses and
|
|
adieus to her." This, Emma could not doubt, was all for herself.
|
|
Harriet was remembered only from being _her_ friend. His information
|
|
and prospects as to Enscombe were neither worse nor better than had
|
|
been anticipated; Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he dared not yet,
|
|
even in his own imagination, fix a time for coming to Randalls again.
|
|
|
|
Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the material
|
|
part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up and returned
|
|
to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth, that she
|
|
could still do without the writer, and that he must learn to do without
|
|
her. Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution of refusal only
|
|
grew more interesting by the addition of a scheme for his subsequent
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consolation and happiness. His recollection of Harriet, and the words
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which clothed it, the "beautiful little friend," suggested to her the
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idea of Harriet's succeeding her in his affections. Was it
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impossible?--No.--Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his inferior in
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understanding; but he had been very much struck with the loveliness of
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her face and the warm simplicity of her manner; and all the
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probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in her favour.--For
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Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.
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"I must not dwell upon it," said she.--"I must not think of it. I know
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the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger things have
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happened; and when we cease to care for each other as we do now, it
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will be the means of confirming us in that sort of true disinterested
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friendship which I can already look forward to with pleasure."
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It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet's behalf, though it
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might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil in that
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quarter was at hand. As Frank Churchill's arrival had succeeded Mr.
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Elton's engagement in the conversation of Highbury, as the latest
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interest had entirely borne down the first, so now upon Frank
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Churchill's disappearance, Mr. Elton's concerns were assuming the most
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irresistible form.--His wedding-day was named. He would soon be among
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them again; Mr. Elton and his bride. There was hardly time to talk
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over the first letter from Enscombe before "Mr. Elton and his bride"
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was in every body's mouth, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma
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grew sick at the sound. She had had three weeks of happy exemption
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from Mr. Elton; and Harriet's mind, she had been willing to hope, had
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been lately gaining strength. With Mr. Weston's ball in view at least,
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there had been a great deal of insensibility to other things; but it
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was now too evident that she had not attained such a state of composure
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as could stand against the actual approach--new carriage, bell-ringing,
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and all.
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Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the
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reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma could
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give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her, that Harriet
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had a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience; but it was heavy
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work to be for ever convincing without producing any effect, for ever
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agreed to, without being able to make their opinions the same. Harriet
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listened submissively, and said "it was very true--it was just as Miss
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Woodhouse described--it was not worth while to think about them--and
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she would not think about them any longer" but no change of subject
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could avail, and the next half-hour saw her as anxious and restless
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about the Eltons as before. At last Emma attacked her on another
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ground.
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"Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about Mr.
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Elton's marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can make _me_.
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You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I fell into.
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It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it, I assure
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you.--Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you--and it will
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be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine me in danger of
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forgetting it."
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Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words of eager
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exclamation. Emma continued,
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"I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less, talk
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less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather, I
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would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important than
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my comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration of what is
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your duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour to avoid the
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suspicions of others, to save your health and credit, and restore your
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tranquillity. These are the motives which I have been pressing on you.
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They are very important--and sorry I am that you cannot feel them
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sufficiently to act upon them. My being saved from pain is a very
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secondary consideration. I want you to save yourself from greater
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pain. Perhaps I may sometimes have felt that Harriet would not forget
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what was due--or rather what would be kind by me."
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This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest. The idea of
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wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse, whom she really
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loved extremely, made her wretched for a while, and when the violence
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of grief was comforted away, still remained powerful enough to prompt
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to what was right and support her in it very tolerably.
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"You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life-- Want
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gratitude to you!--Nobody is equal to you!--I care for nobody as I do
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for you!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!"
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Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look and
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manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet so
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well, nor valued her affection so highly before.
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"There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart," said she afterwards
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to herself. "There is nothing to be compared to it. Warmth and
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tenderness of heart, with an affectionate, open manner, will beat all
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the clearness of head in the world, for attraction, I am sure it will.
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It is tenderness of heart which makes my dear father so generally
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beloved--which gives Isabella all her popularity.-- I have it not--but
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I know how to prize and respect it.--Harriet is my superior in all the
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charm and all the felicity it gives. Dear Harriet!--I would not change
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you for the clearest-headed, longest-sighted, best-judging female
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breathing. Oh! the coldness of a Jane Fairfax!--Harriet is worth a
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hundred such--And for a wife--a sensible man's wife--it is invaluable.
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I mention no names; but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!"
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CHAPTER XIV
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Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be
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interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and
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it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid, to
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settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or
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not pretty at all.
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Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety, to
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make her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects; and she
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made a point of Harriet's going with her, that the worst of the
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business might be gone through as soon as possible.
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She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room to
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which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago, to
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lace up her boot, without _recollecting_. A thousand vexatious
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thoughts would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders;
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and it was not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be
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recollecting too; but she behaved very well, and was only rather pale
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and silent. The visit was of course short; and there was so much
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embarrassment and occupation of mind to shorten it, that Emma would not
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allow herself entirely to form an opinion of the lady, and on no
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account to give one, beyond the nothing-meaning terms of being
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"elegantly dressed, and very pleasing."
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She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find
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fault, but she suspected that there was no elegance;--ease, but not
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elegance.-- She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a
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bride, there was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face
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not unpretty; but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner, were
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elegant. Emma thought at least it would turn out so.
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As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear--but no, she would not
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permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners. It was
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an awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits, and a
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man had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it. The woman
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was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes, and the
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privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own good sense to
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depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly unlucky poor Mr.
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Elton was in being in the same room at once with the woman he had just
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married, the woman he had wanted to marry, and the woman whom he had
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been expected to marry, she must allow him to have the right to look as
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little wise, and to be as much affectedly, and as little really easy as
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could be.
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"Well, Miss Woodhouse," said Harriet, when they had quitted the house,
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and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin; "Well, Miss
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Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?-- Is not she
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very charming?"
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There was a little hesitation in Emma's answer.
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"Oh! yes--very--a very pleasing young woman."
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"I think her beautiful, quite beautiful."
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"Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown."
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"I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love."
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"Oh! no--there is nothing to surprize one at all.--A pretty fortune;
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and she came in his way."
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"I dare say," returned Harriet, sighing again, "I dare say she was very
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much attached to him."
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"Perhaps she might; but it is not every man's fate to marry the woman
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who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home, and thought
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this the best offer she was likely to have."
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"Yes," said Harriet earnestly, "and well she might, nobody could ever
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have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now,
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Miss Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again. He is
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just as superior as ever;--but being married, you know, it is quite a
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different thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need not be afraid; I
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can sit and admire him now without any great misery. To know that he
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has not thrown himself away, is such a comfort!-- She does seem a
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charming young woman, just what he deserves. Happy creature! He
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called her 'Augusta.' How delightful!"
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When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then see
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more and judge better. From Harriet's happening not to be at
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Hartfield, and her father's being present to engage Mr. Elton, she had
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a quarter of an hour of the lady's conversation to herself, and could
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composedly attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite convinced
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her that Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well satisfied with
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herself, and thinking much of her own importance; that she meant to
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shine and be very superior, but with manners which had been formed in a
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bad school, pert and familiar; that all her notions were drawn from one
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set of people, and one style of living; that if not foolish she was
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ignorant, and that her society would certainly do Mr. Elton no good.
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Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined
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herself, she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss
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Hawkins, it might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been
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the best of her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the
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pride of the alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride
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of him.
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The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, "My brother
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Mr. Suckling's seat;"--a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The
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grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the house was
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modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably impressed by
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the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she could see or
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imagine. "Very like Maple Grove indeed!--She was quite struck by the
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|
likeness!--That room was the very shape and size of the morning-room at
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Maple Grove; her sister's favourite room."-- Mr. Elton was appealed
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to.--"Was not it astonishingly like?-- She could really almost fancy
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herself at Maple Grove."
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"And the staircase--You know, as I came in, I observed how very like
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the staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house. I
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really could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it is
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very delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so extremely
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|
partial to as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy months there!
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(with a little sigh of sentiment). A charming place, undoubtedly.
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Every body who sees it is struck by its beauty; but to me, it has been
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quite a home. Whenever you are transplanted, like me, Miss Woodhouse,
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|
you will understand how very delightful it is to meet with any thing at
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all like what one has left behind. I always say this is quite one of
|
|
the evils of matrimony."
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Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient
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for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.
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"So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house--the
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grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly like.
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The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here, and stand
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very much in the same way--just across the lawn; and I had a glimpse of
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a fine large tree, with a bench round it, which put me so exactly in
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|
mind! My brother and sister will be enchanted with this place. People
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who have extensive grounds themselves are always pleased with any thing
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in the same style."
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Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea that
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|
people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little for the
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extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth while to
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|
attack an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said in reply,
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"When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think
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|
you have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties."
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"Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England, you
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|
know. Surry is the garden of England."
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"Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction. Many
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|
counties, I believe, are called the garden of England, as well as
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|
Surry."
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"No, I fancy not," replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile." I
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|
never heard any county but Surry called so."
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Emma was silenced.
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"My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring, or
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|
summer at farthest," continued Mrs. Elton; "and that will be our time
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|
for exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore a great deal,
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|
I dare say. They will have their barouche-landau, of course, which
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|
holds four perfectly; and therefore, without saying any thing of _our_
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|
carriage, we should be able to explore the different beauties extremely
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|
well. They would hardly come in their chaise, I think, at that season
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|
of the year. Indeed, when the time draws on, I shall decidedly
|
|
recommend their bringing the barouche-landau; it will be so very much
|
|
preferable. When people come into a beautiful country of this sort,
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|
you know, Miss Woodhouse, one naturally wishes them to see as much as
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|
possible; and Mr. Suckling is extremely fond of exploring. We explored
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|
to King's-Weston twice last summer, in that way, most delightfully,
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|
just after their first having the barouche-landau. You have many
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parties of that kind here, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse, every summer?"
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"No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very
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|
striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of; and
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|
we are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed to stay at
|
|
home than engage in schemes of pleasure."
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"Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort. Nobody
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|
can be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite a proverb for it at
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|
Maple Grove. Many a time has Selina said, when she has been going to
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|
Bristol, 'I really cannot get this girl to move from the house. I
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|
absolutely must go in by myself, though I hate being stuck up in the
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barouche-landau without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, with her
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|
own good-will, would never stir beyond the park paling.' Many a time
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|
has she said so; and yet I am no advocate for entire seclusion. I
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|
think, on the contrary, when people shut themselves up entirely from
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|
society, it is a very bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to
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|
mix in the world in a proper degree, without living in it either too
|
|
much or too little. I perfectly understand your situation, however,
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|
Miss Woodhouse--(looking towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father's state
|
|
of health must be a great drawback. Why does not he try Bath?--Indeed
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|
he should. Let me recommend Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt
|
|
of its doing Mr. Woodhouse good."
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"My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving any
|
|
benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown to you,
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|
does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be useful now."
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"Ah! that's a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, where the
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|
waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief they give. In my
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|
Bath life, I have seen such instances of it! And it is so cheerful a
|
|
place, that it could not fail of being of use to Mr. Woodhouse's
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|
spirits, which, I understand, are sometimes much depressed. And as to
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its recommendations to _you_, I fancy I need not take much pains to
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|
dwell on them. The advantages of Bath to the young are pretty
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|
generally understood. It would be a charming introduction for you, who
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have lived so secluded a life; and I could immediately secure you some
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of the best society in the place. A line from me would bring you a
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|
little host of acquaintance; and my particular friend, Mrs. Partridge,
|
|
the lady I have always resided with when in Bath, would be most happy
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|
to shew you any attentions, and would be the very person for you to go
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|
into public with."
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It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite. The idea of
|
|
her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called an
|
|
_introduction_--of her going into public under the auspices of a friend
|
|
of Mrs. Elton's--probably some vulgar, dashing widow, who, with the
|
|
help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!-- The dignity of Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!
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She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could
|
|
have given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; "but their going to
|
|
Bath was quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly convinced
|
|
that the place might suit her better than her father." And then, to
|
|
prevent farther outrage and indignation, changed the subject directly.
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"I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these
|
|
occasions, a lady's character generally precedes her; and Highbury has
|
|
long known that you are a superior performer."
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"Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea. A superior
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|
performer!--very far from it, I assure you. Consider from how partial
|
|
a quarter your information came. I am doatingly fond of
|
|
music--passionately fond;--and my friends say I am not entirely devoid
|
|
of taste; but as to any thing else, upon my honour my performance is
|
|
_mediocre_ to the last degree. You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play
|
|
delightfully. I assure you it has been the greatest satisfaction,
|
|
comfort, and delight to me, to hear what a musical society I am got
|
|
into. I absolutely cannot do without music. It is a necessary of life
|
|
to me; and having always been used to a very musical society, both at
|
|
Maple Grove and in Bath, it would have been a most serious sacrifice.
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|
I honestly said as much to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future
|
|
home, and expressing his fears lest the retirement of it should be
|
|
disagreeable; and the inferiority of the house too--knowing what I had
|
|
been accustomed to--of course he was not wholly without apprehension.
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|
When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that _the_
|
|
_world_ I could give up--parties, balls, plays--for I had no fear of
|
|
retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself, the world
|
|
was not necessary to _me_. I could do very well without it. To those
|
|
who had no resources it was a different thing; but my resources made me
|
|
quite independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms than I had been used
|
|
to, I really could not give it a thought. I hoped I was perfectly
|
|
equal to any sacrifice of that description. Certainly I had been
|
|
accustomed to every luxury at Maple Grove; but I did assure him that
|
|
two carriages were not necessary to my happiness, nor were spacious
|
|
apartments. 'But,' said I, 'to be quite honest, I do not think I can
|
|
live without something of a musical society. I condition for nothing
|
|
else; but without music, life would be a blank to me.'"
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|
"We cannot suppose," said Emma, smiling, "that Mr. Elton would hesitate
|
|
to assure you of there being a _very_ musical society in Highbury; and
|
|
I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than may be
|
|
pardoned, in consideration of the motive."
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"No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted to
|
|
find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet little
|
|
concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I must establish a
|
|
musical club, and have regular weekly meetings at your house, or ours.
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|
Will not it be a good plan? If _we_ exert ourselves, I think we shall
|
|
not be long in want of allies. Something of that nature would be
|
|
particularly desirable for _me_, as an inducement to keep me in
|
|
practice; for married women, you know--there is a sad story against
|
|
them, in general. They are but too apt to give up music."
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"But you, who are so extremely fond of it--there can be no danger,
|
|
surely?"
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"I should hope not; but really when I look around among my
|
|
acquaintance, I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music--never
|
|
touches the instrument--though she played sweetly. And the same may be
|
|
said of Mrs. Jeffereys--Clara Partridge, that was--and of the two
|
|
Milmans, now Mrs. Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can
|
|
enumerate. Upon my word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used
|
|
to be quite angry with Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend
|
|
that a married woman has many things to call her attention. I believe
|
|
I was half an hour this morning shut up with my housekeeper."
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"But every thing of that kind," said Emma, "will soon be in so regular
|
|
a train--"
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"Well," said Mrs. Elton, laughing, "we shall see."
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Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music, had nothing
|
|
more to say; and, after a moment's pause, Mrs. Elton chose another
|
|
subject.
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|
|
"We have been calling at Randalls," said she, "and found them both at
|
|
home; and very pleasant people they seem to be. I like them extremely.
|
|
Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature--quite a first-rate favourite
|
|
with me already, I assure you. And _she_ appears so truly good--there
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is something so motherly and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon
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one directly. She was your governess, I think?"
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Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton hardly
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waited for the affirmative before she went on.
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"Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her so very
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lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman."
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"Mrs. Weston's manners," said Emma, "were always particularly good.
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Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest
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model for any young woman."
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"And who do you think came in while we were there?"
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Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance--and
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how could she possibly guess?
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"Knightley!" continued Mrs. Elton; "Knightley himself!--Was not it
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lucky?--for, not being within when he called the other day, I had never
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seen him before; and of course, as so particular a friend of Mr. E.'s,
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I had a great curiosity. 'My friend Knightley' had been so often
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mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him; and I must do my
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caro sposo the justice to say that he need not be ashamed of his
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friend. Knightley is quite the gentleman. I like him very much.
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Decidedly, I think, a very gentleman-like man."
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Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma could
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breathe.
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"Insufferable woman!" was her immediate exclamation. "Worse than I had
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supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!--I could not have
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believed it. Knightley!--never seen him in her life before, and call
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him Knightley!--and discover that he is a gentleman! A little upstart,
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vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her _caro_ _sposo_, and her
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resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and underbred finery.
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Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt
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whether he will return the compliment, and discover her to be a lady.
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I could not have believed it! And to propose that she and I should
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unite to form a musical club! One would fancy we were bosom friends!
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And Mrs. Weston!-- Astonished that the person who had brought me up
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should be a gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal.
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Much beyond my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison. Oh!
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what would Frank Churchill say to her, if he were here? How angry and
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how diverted he would be! Ah! there I am--thinking of him directly.
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Always the first person to be thought of! How I catch myself out!
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Frank Churchill comes as regularly into my mind!"--
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All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time her
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father had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons' departure,
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and was ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable of attending.
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"Well, my dear," he deliberately began, "considering we never saw her
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before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say she
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was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick. A
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little quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear. But I
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believe I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks like
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you and poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging,
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pretty-behaved young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife.
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Though I think he had better not have married. I made the best excuses
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I could for not having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton on this
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happy occasion; I said that I hoped I _should_ in the course of the
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summer. But I ought to have gone before. Not to wait upon a bride is
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very remiss. Ah! it shews what a sad invalid I am! But I do not like
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the corner into Vicarage Lane."
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"I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you."
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"Yes: but a young lady--a bride--I ought to have paid my respects to
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her if possible. It was being very deficient."
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"But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore why
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should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a _bride_? It ought
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to be no recommendation to _you_. It is encouraging people to marry if
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you make so much of them."
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"No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would always
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wish to pay every proper attention to a lady--and a bride, especially,
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is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to _her_. A bride, you
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know, my dear, is always the first in company, let the others be who
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they may."
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"Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know what
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is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your sanction
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to such vanity-baits for poor young ladies."
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"My dear, you do not understand me. This is a matter of mere common
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politeness and good-breeding, and has nothing to do with any
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encouragement to people to marry."
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Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not
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understand _her_. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton's offences, and
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long, very long, did they occupy her.
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CHAPTER XV
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Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill
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opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such
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as Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview, such she
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appeared whenever they met again,--self-important, presuming, familiar,
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ignorant, and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a little
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accomplishment, but so little judgment that she thought herself coming
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with superior knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve a country
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neighbourhood; and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a place in
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society as Mrs. Elton's consequence only could surpass.
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There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently
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from his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud. He had
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the air of congratulating himself on having brought such a woman to
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Highbury, as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal; and the greater part
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of her new acquaintance, disposed to commend, or not in the habit of
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judging, following the lead of Miss Bates's good-will, or taking it for
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granted that the bride must be as clever and as agreeable as she
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professed herself, were very well satisfied; so that Mrs. Elton's
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praise passed from one mouth to another as it ought to do, unimpeded by
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Miss Woodhouse, who readily continued her first contribution and talked
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with a good grace of her being "very pleasant and very elegantly
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dressed."
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In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared at
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first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.--Offended, probably, by the
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little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with, she drew
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back in her turn and gradually became much more cold and distant; and
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though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will which produced it was
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necessarily increasing Emma's dislike. Her manners, too--and Mr.
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Elton's, were unpleasant towards Harriet. They were sneering and
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negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work Harriet's cure; but the
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sensations which could prompt such behaviour sunk them both very
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much.--It was not to be doubted that poor Harriet's attachment had been
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an offering to conjugal unreserve, and her own share in the story,
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under a colouring the least favourable to her and the most soothing to
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him, had in all likelihood been given also. She was, of course, the
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object of their joint dislike.-- When they had nothing else to say, it
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must be always easy to begin abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity
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which they dared not shew in open disrespect to her, found a broader
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vent in contemptuous treatment of Harriet.
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Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first. Not
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merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be supposed to
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recommend the other, but from the very first; and she was not satisfied
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with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration--but without
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solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting to assist and
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befriend her.--Before Emma had forfeited her confidence, and about the
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third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton's knight-errantry
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on the subject.--
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"Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.--I quite rave
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about Jane Fairfax.--A sweet, interesting creature. So mild and
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|
ladylike--and with such talents!--I assure you I think she has very
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|
extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she plays
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extremely well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly on that
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|
point. Oh! she is absolutely charming! You will laugh at my
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|
warmth--but, upon my word, I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.-- And
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her situation is so calculated to affect one!--Miss Woodhouse, we must
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exert ourselves and endeavour to do something for her. We must bring
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her forward. Such talent as hers must not be suffered to remain
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unknown.--I dare say you have heard those charming lines of the poet,
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'Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
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'And waste its fragrance on the desert air.'
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We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax."
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"I cannot think there is any danger of it," was Emma's calm answer--
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"and when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax's situation and
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|
understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I
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|
have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown."
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"Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement, such
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obscurity, so thrown away.--Whatever advantages she may have enjoyed
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|
with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think she feels
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it. I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent. One can see
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|
that she feels the want of encouragement. I like her the better for
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|
it. I must confess it is a recommendation to me. I am a great
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|
advocate for timidity--and I am sure one does not often meet with
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it.--But in those who are at all inferior, it is extremely
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prepossessing. Oh! I assure you, Jane Fairfax is a very delightful
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|
character, and interests me more than I can express."
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"You appear to feel a great deal--but I am not aware how you or any of
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Miss Fairfax's acquaintance here, any of those who have known her
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longer than yourself, can shew her any other attention than"--
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"My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare to
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act. You and I need not be afraid. If _we_ set the example, many will
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follow it as far as they can; though all have not our situations. _We_
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|
have carriages to fetch and convey her home, and _we_ live in a style
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|
which could not make the addition of Jane Fairfax, at any time, the
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|
least inconvenient.--I should be extremely displeased if Wright were to
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|
send us up such a dinner, as could make me regret having asked _more_
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|
than Jane Fairfax to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of
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|
thing. It is not likely that I _should_, considering what I have been
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|
used to. My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite
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|
the other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense.
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Maple Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be--for we
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|
do not at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling, in
|
|
income.--However, my resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.--
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|
I shall certainly have her very often at my house, shall introduce her
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|
wherever I can, shall have musical parties to draw out her talents, and
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|
shall be constantly on the watch for an eligible situation. My
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|
acquaintance is so very extensive, that I have little doubt of hearing
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|
of something to suit her shortly.--I shall introduce her, of course,
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very particularly to my brother and sister when they come to us. I am
|
|
sure they will like her extremely; and when she gets a little
|
|
acquainted with them, her fears will completely wear off, for there
|
|
really is nothing in the manners of either but what is highly
|
|
conciliating.--I shall have her very often indeed while they are with
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|
me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a seat for her in the
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barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties."
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"Poor Jane Fairfax!"--thought Emma.--"You have not deserved this. You
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|
may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment
|
|
beyond what you can have merited!--The kindness and protection of Mrs.
|
|
Elton!--'Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.' Heavens! Let me not suppose
|
|
that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!-- But upon my honour,
|
|
there seems no limits to the licentiousness of that woman's tongue!"
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|
|
Emma had not to listen to such paradings again--to any so exclusively
|
|
addressed to herself--so disgustingly decorated with a "dear Miss
|
|
Woodhouse." The change on Mrs. Elton's side soon afterwards appeared,
|
|
and she was left in peace--neither forced to be the very particular
|
|
friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton's guidance, the very active
|
|
patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a general
|
|
way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.
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|
She looked on with some amusement.--Miss Bates's gratitude for Mrs.
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|
Elton's attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless
|
|
simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies--the most
|
|
amiable, affable, delightful woman--just as accomplished and
|
|
condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered. Emma's only
|
|
surprize was that Jane Fairfax should accept those attentions and
|
|
tolerate Mrs. Elton as she seemed to do. She heard of her walking with
|
|
the Eltons, sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons!
|
|
This was astonishing!--She could not have believed it possible that the
|
|
taste or the pride of Miss Fairfax could endure such society and
|
|
friendship as the Vicarage had to offer.
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|
"She is a riddle, quite a riddle!" said she.--"To chuse to remain here
|
|
month after month, under privations of every sort! And now to chuse
|
|
the mortification of Mrs. Elton's notice and the penury of her
|
|
conversation, rather than return to the superior companions who have
|
|
always loved her with such real, generous affection."
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|
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|
Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells
|
|
were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells had
|
|
promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer, and fresh
|
|
invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss
|
|
Bates--it all came from her--Mrs. Dixon had written most pressingly.
|
|
Would Jane but go, means were to be found, servants sent, friends
|
|
contrived--no travelling difficulty allowed to exist; but still she had
|
|
declined it!
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|
|
|
"She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing
|
|
this invitation," was Emma's conclusion. "She must be under some sort
|
|
of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself. There is
|
|
great fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.-- She is _not_
|
|
to be with the _Dixons_. The decree is issued by somebody. But why
|
|
must she consent to be with the Eltons?--Here is quite a separate
|
|
puzzle."
|
|
|
|
Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject, before
|
|
the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston ventured this
|
|
apology for Jane.
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|
|
"We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage, my
|
|
dear Emma--but it is better than being always at home. Her aunt is a
|
|
good creature, but, as a constant companion, must be very tiresome. We
|
|
must consider what Miss Fairfax quits, before we condemn her taste for
|
|
what she goes to."
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|
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|
"You are right, Mrs. Weston," said Mr. Knightley warmly, "Miss Fairfax
|
|
is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton.
|
|
Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have chosen
|
|
her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives attentions
|
|
from Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her."
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|
|
|
Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance; and she
|
|
was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush, she presently
|
|
replied,
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|
|
"Such attentions as Mrs. Elton's, I should have imagined, would rather
|
|
disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton's invitations I should
|
|
have imagined any thing but inviting."
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|
"I should not wonder," said Mrs. Weston, "if Miss Fairfax were to have
|
|
been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt's eagerness in
|
|
accepting Mrs. Elton's civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may very
|
|
likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater
|
|
appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated, in
|
|
spite of the very natural wish of a little change."
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|
|
Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few
|
|
minutes silence, he said,
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|
|
"Another thing must be taken into consideration too--Mrs. Elton does
|
|
not talk _to_ Miss Fairfax as she speaks _of_ her. We all know the
|
|
difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest spoken
|
|
amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond common
|
|
civility in our personal intercourse with each other--a something more
|
|
early implanted. We cannot give any body the disagreeable hints that
|
|
we may have been very full of the hour before. We feel things
|
|
differently. And besides the operation of this, as a general
|
|
principle, you may be sure that Miss Fairfax awes Mrs. Elton by her
|
|
superiority both of mind and manner; and that, face to face, Mrs. Elton
|
|
treats her with all the respect which she has a claim to. Such a woman
|
|
as Jane Fairfax probably never fell in Mrs. Elton's way before--and no
|
|
degree of vanity can prevent her acknowledging her own comparative
|
|
littleness in action, if not in consciousness."
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|
|
|
"I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax," said Emma. Little Henry
|
|
was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy made her
|
|
irresolute what else to say.
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|
"Yes," he replied, "any body may know how highly I think of her."
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|
|
|
"And yet," said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look, but soon
|
|
stopping--it was better, however, to know the worst at once--she
|
|
hurried on--"And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself how
|
|
highly it is. The extent of your admiration may take you by surprize
|
|
some day or other."
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|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick
|
|
leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together, or
|
|
some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,
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|
"Oh! are you there?--But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole gave
|
|
me a hint of it six weeks ago."
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|
|
|
He stopped.--Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did not
|
|
herself know what to think. In a moment he went on--
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|
|
"That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax, I dare
|
|
say, would not have me if I were to ask her--and I am very sure I shall
|
|
never ask her."
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|
|
Emma returned her friend's pressure with interest; and was pleased
|
|
enough to exclaim,
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|
|
|
"You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you."
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|
|
He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful--and in a manner which
|
|
shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,
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|
|
"So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?"
|
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|
"No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making,
|
|
for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said just
|
|
now, meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course, without
|
|
any idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not the
|
|
smallest wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body. You
|
|
would not come in and sit with us in this comfortable way, if you were
|
|
married."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was,
|
|
"No, Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will ever
|
|
take me by surprize.--I never had a thought of her in that way, I
|
|
assure you." And soon afterwards, "Jane Fairfax is a very charming
|
|
young woman--but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault.
|
|
She has not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife."
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|
|
Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault. "Well," said
|
|
she, "and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?"
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|
|
"Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken;
|
|
he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser or
|
|
wittier than his neighbours."
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|
|
|
"In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser and
|
|
wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles--what
|
|
she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them, deep
|
|
enough in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley--what can she
|
|
do for Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane Fairfax
|
|
accepts her civilities and consents to be with her. Mrs. Weston, your
|
|
argument weighs most with me. I can much more readily enter into the
|
|
temptation of getting away from Miss Bates, than I can believe in the
|
|
triumph of Miss Fairfax's mind over Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in
|
|
Mrs. Elton's acknowledging herself the inferior in thought, word, or
|
|
deed; or in her being under any restraint beyond her own scanty rule of
|
|
good-breeding. I cannot imagine that she will not be continually
|
|
insulting her visitor with praise, encouragement, and offers of
|
|
service; that she will not be continually detailing her magnificent
|
|
intentions, from the procuring her a permanent situation to the
|
|
including her in those delightful exploring parties which are to take
|
|
place in the barouche-landau."
|
|
|
|
"Jane Fairfax has feeling," said Mr. Knightley--"I do not accuse her of
|
|
want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect, are strong--and her
|
|
temper excellent in its power of forbearance, patience, self-control;
|
|
but it wants openness. She is reserved, more reserved, I think, than
|
|
she used to be--And I love an open temper. No--till Cole alluded to my
|
|
supposed attachment, it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax
|
|
and conversed with her, with admiration and pleasure always--but with
|
|
no thought beyond."
|
|
|
|
"Well, Mrs. Weston," said Emma triumphantly when he left them, "what do
|
|
you say now to Mr. Knightley's marrying Jane Fairfax?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied by the
|
|
idea of _not_ being in love with her, that I should not wonder if it
|
|
were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me."
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CHAPTER XVI
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Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was
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disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and
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evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed
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in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending they were
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never to have a disengaged day.
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"I see how it is," said she. "I see what a life I am to lead among
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you. Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated. We really seem
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quite the fashion. If this is living in the country, it is nothing
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very formidable. From Monday next to Saturday, I assure you we have
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not a disengaged day!--A woman with fewer resources than I have, need
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not have been at a loss."
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No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties
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perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for
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dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two drawing rooms, at
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the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being no ice in the Highbury
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card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard and others, were a
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good deal behind-hand in knowledge of the world, but she would soon
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shew them how every thing ought to be arranged. In the course of the
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spring she must return their civilities by one very superior party--in
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which her card-tables should be set out with their separate candles and
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unbroken packs in the true style--and more waiters engaged for the
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evening than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round the
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refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.
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Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner at
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Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others, or she
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should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable of pitiful
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resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had talked about it
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for ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness, and only made the
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usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom of the table himself,
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with the usual regular difficulty of deciding who should do it for him.
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The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the
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Eltons, it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of
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course--and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet
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must be asked to make the eighth:--but this invitation was not given
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with equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly
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pleased by Harriet's begging to be allowed to decline it. "She would
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rather not be in his company more than she could help. She was not yet
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quite able to see him and his charming happy wife together, without
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feeling uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse would not be displeased, she
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would rather stay at home." It was precisely what Emma would have
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wished, had she deemed it possible enough for wishing. She was
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delighted with the fortitude of her little friend--for fortitude she
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knew it was in her to give up being in company and stay at home; and
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she could now invite the very person whom she really wanted to make the
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eighth, Jane Fairfax.-- Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston
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and Mr. Knightley, she was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax
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than she had often been.--Mr. Knightley's words dwelt with her. He had
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said that Jane Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody
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else paid her.
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"This is very true," said she, "at least as far as relates to me, which
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was all that was meant--and it is very shameful.--Of the same age--and
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always knowing her--I ought to have been more her friend.-- She will
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never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I will shew her
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greater attention than I have done."
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Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all
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happy.-- The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet
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over. A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little
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Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of some
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weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them, and
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staying one whole day at Hartfield--which one day would be the very day
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of this party.--His professional engagements did not allow of his being
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put off, but both father and daughter were disturbed by its happening
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so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight persons at dinner together as the
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utmost that his nerves could bear--and here would be a ninth--and Emma
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apprehended that it would be a ninth very much out of humour at not
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being able to come even to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without
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falling in with a dinner-party.
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She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself, by
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representing that though he certainly would make them nine, yet he
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always said so little, that the increase of noise would be very
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immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself, to
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have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed to her
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instead of his brother.
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The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma. John
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Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town and
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must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them in the
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evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite at ease;
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and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys and the
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philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate, removed the
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chief of even Emma's vexation.
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The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John
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Knightley seemed early to devote himself to the business of being
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agreeable. Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they
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waited for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton, as
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elegant as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in silence--
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wanting only to observe enough for Isabella's information--but Miss
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Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could talk to
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her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning from a walk
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with his little boys, when it had been just beginning to rain. It was
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natural to have some civil hopes on the subject, and he said,
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"I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I am
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sure you must have been wet.--We scarcely got home in time. I hope you
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turned directly."
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"I went only to the post-office," said she, "and reached home before
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the rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch the letters
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when I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something to get me out. A
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walk before breakfast does me good."
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"Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine."
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"No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out."
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Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,
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"That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six
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yards from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and
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Henry and John had seen more drops than they could count long before.
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The post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives. When you
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have lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are never worth
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going through the rain for."
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There was a little blush, and then this answer,
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"I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of every
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dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply growing
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older should make me indifferent about letters."
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"Indifferent! Oh! no--I never conceived you could become indifferent.
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Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very
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positive curse."
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"You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters of
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friendship."
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"I have often thought them the worst of the two," replied he coolly.
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"Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does."
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"Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well--I
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am very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as any
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body. I can easily believe that letters are very little to you, much
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less than to me, but it is not your being ten years older than myself
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which makes the difference, it is not age, but situation. You have
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every body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably, never shall
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again; and therefore till I have outlived all my affections, a
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post-office, I think, must always have power to draw me out, in worse
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weather than to-day."
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"When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of
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years," said John Knightley, "I meant to imply the change of situation
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which time usually brings. I consider one as including the other.
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Time will generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within
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the daily circle--but that is not the change I had in view for you. As
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an old friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years
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hence you may have as many concentrated objects as I have."
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It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant
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"thank you" seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip,
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a tear in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh. Her
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attention was now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being, according to his
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custom on such occasions, making the circle of his guests, and paying
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his particular compliments to the ladies, was ending with her--and with
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all his mildest urbanity, said,
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"I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this morning
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in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.-- Young
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ladies are delicate plants. They should take care of their health and
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their complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?"
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"Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind
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solicitude about me."
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"My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.-- I
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hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some of my very
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old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a better neighbour.
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You do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure. My daughter and I
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are both highly sensible of your goodness, and have the greatest
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satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield."
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The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel that he
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had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.
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By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton, and her
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remonstrances now opened upon Jane.
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"My dear Jane, what is this I hear?--Going to the post-office in the
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rain!--This must not be, I assure you.--You sad girl, how could you do
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such a thing?--It is a sign I was not there to take care of you."
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Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.
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"Oh! do not tell _me_. You really are a very sad girl, and do not know
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how to take care of yourself.--To the post-office indeed! Mrs. Weston,
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did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively exert our
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authority."
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"My advice," said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, "I certainly do
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feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.--
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Liable as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought to be
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particularly careful, especially at this time of year. The spring I
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always think requires more than common care. Better wait an hour or
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two, or even half a day for your letters, than run the risk of bringing
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on your cough again. Now do not you feel that you had? Yes, I am sure
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you are much too reasonable. You look as if you would not do such a
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thing again."
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"Oh! she _shall_ _not_ do such a thing again," eagerly rejoined Mrs.
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Elton. "We will not allow her to do such a thing again:"--and nodding
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significantly--"there must be some arrangement made, there must indeed.
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I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches our letters every morning
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(one of our men, I forget his name) shall inquire for yours too and
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bring them to you. That will obviate all difficulties you know; and
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from _us_ I really think, my dear Jane, you can have no scruple to
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accept such an accommodation."
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"You are extremely kind," said Jane; "but I cannot give up my early
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walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can, I must walk
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somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon my word, I have
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scarcely ever had a bad morning before."
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"My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined, that is
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(laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine any thing
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without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston,
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you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves. But I do flatter
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myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely worn out. If I
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meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore, consider that point as
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settled."
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"Excuse me," said Jane earnestly, "I cannot by any means consent to
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such an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant. If the
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errand were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it always is
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when I am not here, by my grandmama's."
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"Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!--And it is a kindness to
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employ our men."
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Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead of
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answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.
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"The post-office is a wonderful establishment!" said she.-- "The
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regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it has to do,
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and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!"
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"It is certainly very well regulated."
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"So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom that a
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letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing about the
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kingdom, is even carried wrong--and not one in a million, I suppose,
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actually lost! And when one considers the variety of hands, and of bad
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hands too, that are to be deciphered, it increases the wonder."
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"The clerks grow expert from habit.--They must begin with some
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quickness of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you want
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any farther explanation," continued he, smiling, "they are paid for it.
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That is the key to a great deal of capacity. The public pays and must
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be served well."
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The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual
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observations made.
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"I have heard it asserted," said John Knightley, "that the same sort of
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handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the same master
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teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason, I should imagine
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the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females, for boys have
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very little teaching after an early age, and scramble into any hand
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they can get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write very much alike. I
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have not always known their writing apart."
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"Yes," said his brother hesitatingly, "there is a likeness. I know
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what you mean--but Emma's hand is the strongest."
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"Isabella and Emma both write beautifully," said Mr. Woodhouse; "and
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always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston"--with half a sigh and half a
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smile at her.
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"I never saw any gentleman's handwriting"--Emma began, looking also at
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Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was attending
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to some one else--and the pause gave her time to reflect, "Now, how am
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I going to introduce him?--Am I unequal to speaking his name at once
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before all these people? Is it necessary for me to use any roundabout
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phrase?--Your Yorkshire friend--your correspondent in Yorkshire;--that
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would be the way, I suppose, if I were very bad.--No, I can pronounce
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his name without the smallest distress. I certainly get better and
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better.--Now for it."
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Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again--"Mr. Frank Churchill
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writes one of the best gentleman's hands I ever saw."
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"I do not admire it," said Mr. Knightley. "It is too small--wants
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strength. It is like a woman's writing."
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This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him against
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the base aspersion. "No, it by no means wanted strength--it was not a
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large hand, but very clear and certainly strong. Had not Mrs. Weston
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any letter about her to produce?" No, she had heard from him very
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lately, but having answered the letter, had put it away.
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"If we were in the other room," said Emma, "if I had my writing-desk, I
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am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.-- Do not you
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remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you one day?"
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"He chose to say he was employed"--
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"Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner to convince
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Mr. Knightley."
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"Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill," said Mr.
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Knightley dryly, "writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will,
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of course, put forth his best."
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Dinner was on table.--Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to, was
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ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request to be
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allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying--
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"Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way."
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Jane's solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma.
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She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know whether
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the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected that it
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_had_; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered but in
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full expectation of hearing from some one very dear, and that it had
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not been in vain. She thought there was an air of greater happiness
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than usual--a glow both of complexion and spirits.
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She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition and the
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expense of the Irish mails;--it was at her tongue's end--but she
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abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word that should
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hurt Jane Fairfax's feelings; and they followed the other ladies out of
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the room, arm in arm, with an appearance of good-will highly becoming
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to the beauty and grace of each.
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CHAPTER XVII
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When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found
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it hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;--with
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so much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross
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Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to
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be almost always either talking together or silent together. Mrs.
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Elton left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a little time,
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she soon began again; and though much that passed between them was in a
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half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton's side, there was no avoiding a
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knowledge of their principal subjects: The post-office--catching
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cold--fetching letters--and friendship, were long under discussion; and
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to them succeeded one, which must be at least equally unpleasant to
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Jane--inquiries whether she had yet heard of any situation likely to
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suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton's meditated activity.
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"Here is April come!" said she, "I get quite anxious about you. June
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will soon be here."
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"But I have never fixed on June or any other month--merely looked
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forward to the summer in general."
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"But have you really heard of nothing?"
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"I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet."
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"Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware of the
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difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing."
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"I not aware!" said Jane, shaking her head; "dear Mrs. Elton, who can
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have thought of it as I have done?"
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"But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not know
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how many candidates there always are for the _first_ situations. I saw
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a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove. A cousin
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of Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity of applications;
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every body was anxious to be in her family, for she moves in the first
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circle. Wax-candles in the schoolroom! You may imagine how desirable!
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Of all houses in the kingdom Mrs. Bragge's is the one I would most wish
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to see you in."
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"Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer," said
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Jane. "I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will want
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it;--afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself. But I
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would not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries at
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present."
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"Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving me
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trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly be
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more interested about you than I am. I shall write to Mrs. Partridge
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in a day or two, and shall give her a strict charge to be on the
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look-out for any thing eligible."
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"Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject to her;
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till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving any body
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trouble."
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"But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April, and June,
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or say even July, is very near, with such business to accomplish before
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us. Your inexperience really amuses me! A situation such as you
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deserve, and your friends would require for you, is no everyday
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occurrence, is not obtained at a moment's notice; indeed, indeed, we
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must begin inquiring directly."
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"Excuse me, ma'am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no
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inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends.
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When I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid of
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being long unemployed. There are places in town, offices, where
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inquiry would soon produce something--Offices for the sale--not quite
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of human flesh--but of human intellect."
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"Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling at
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the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather a friend
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to the abolition."
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"I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade," replied Jane;
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"governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view; widely
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different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on; but as to
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the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where it lies. But I
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only mean to say that there are advertising offices, and that by
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applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon meeting with
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something that would do."
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"Something that would do!" repeated Mrs. Elton. "Aye, _that_ may suit
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your humble ideas of yourself;--I know what a modest creature you are;
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but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up with any
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thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation, in a family
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not moving in a certain circle, or able to command the elegancies of
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life."
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"You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent; it
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would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications, I
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think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison.
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A gentleman's family is all that I should condition for."
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"I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I shall
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be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will be quite
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on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right to move in the
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first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would entitle you to name
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your own terms, have as many rooms as you like, and mix in the family
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as much as you chose;--that is--I do not know--if you knew the harp,
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you might do all that, I am very sure; but you sing as well as
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play;--yes, I really believe you might, even without the harp,
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stipulate for what you chose;--and you must and shall be delightfully,
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honourably and comfortably settled before the Campbells or I have any
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rest."
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"You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort of such a
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situation together," said Jane, "they are pretty sure to be equal;
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however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing to be attempted at
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present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you, Mrs. Elton, I am
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obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am quite serious in wishing
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nothing to be done till the summer. For two or three months longer I
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shall remain where I am, and as I am."
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"And I am quite serious too, I assure you," replied Mrs. Elton gaily,
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"in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends to
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watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us."
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In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing till
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Mr. Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change of
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object, and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
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"Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!--Only think of his
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gallantry in coming away before the other men!--what a dear creature he
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is;--I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint,
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old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease;
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modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish
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you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure you
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I began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous. I fancy I
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am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown. How do you like
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it?--Selina's choice--handsome, I think, but I do not know whether it
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is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest dislike to the idea of being
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over-trimmed--quite a horror of finery. I must put on a few ornaments
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now, because it is expected of me. A bride, you know, must appear like
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a bride, but my natural taste is all for simplicity; a simple style of
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dress is so infinitely preferable to finery. But I am quite in the
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minority, I believe; few people seem to value simplicity of
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dress,--show and finery are every thing. I have some notion of putting
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such a trimming as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it
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will look well?"
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The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room when Mr.
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Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned to a late
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dinner, and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over. He had been
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too much expected by the best judges, for surprize--but there was
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great joy. Mr. Woodhouse was almost as glad to see him now, as he
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would have been sorry to see him before. John Knightley only was in
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mute astonishment.--That a man who might have spent his evening quietly
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at home after a day of business in London, should set off again, and
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walk half a mile to another man's house, for the sake of being in mixed
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company till bed-time, of finishing his day in the efforts of civility
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and the noise of numbers, was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A
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man who had been in motion since eight o'clock in the morning, and
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might now have been still, who had been long talking, and might have
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been silent, who had been in more than one crowd, and might have been
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alone!--Such a man, to quit the tranquillity and independence of his
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own fireside, and on the evening of a cold sleety April day rush out
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again into the world!--Could he by a touch of his finger have instantly
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taken back his wife, there would have been a motive; but his coming
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would probably prolong rather than break up the party. John Knightley
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looked at him with amazement, then shrugged his shoulders, and said, "I
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could not have believed it even of _him_."
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Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation he was
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exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all the right of being
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principal talker, which a day spent anywhere from home confers, was
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making himself agreeable among the rest; and having satisfied the
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inquiries of his wife as to his dinner, convincing her that none of all
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her careful directions to the servants had been forgotten, and spread
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abroad what public news he had heard, was proceeding to a family
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communication, which, though principally addressed to Mrs. Weston, he
|
|
had not the smallest doubt of being highly interesting to every body in
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the room. He gave her a letter, it was from Frank, and to herself; he
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had met with it in his way, and had taken the liberty of opening it.
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"Read it, read it," said he, "it will give you pleasure; only a few
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lines--will not take you long; read it to Emma."
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The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling and talking
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to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued, but very audible
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to every body.
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"Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do you
|
|
say to it?--I always told you he would be here again soon, did not
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|
I?--Anne, my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would not
|
|
believe me?--In town next week, you see--at the latest, I dare say; for
|
|
_she_ is as impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is to be
|
|
done; most likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday. As to her
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|
illness, all nothing of course. But it is an excellent thing to have
|
|
Frank among us again, so near as town. They will stay a good while
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|
when they do come, and he will be half his time with us. This is
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precisely what I wanted. Well, pretty good news, is not it? Have you
|
|
finished it? Has Emma read it all? Put it up, put it up; we will have
|
|
a good talk about it some other time, but it will not do now. I shall
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|
only just mention the circumstance to the others in a common way."
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Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion. Her looks
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|
and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy, she knew she
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|
was happy, and knew she ought to be happy. Her congratulations were
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warm and open; but Emma could not speak so fluently. _She_ was a
|
|
little occupied in weighing her own feelings, and trying to understand
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|
the degree of her agitation, which she rather thought was considerable.
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Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative
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|
to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say,
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|
and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial
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|
communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.
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It was well that he took every body's joy for granted, or he might not
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have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley particularly
|
|
delighted. They were the first entitled, after Mrs. Weston and Emma,
|
|
to be made happy;--from them he would have proceeded to Miss Fairfax,
|
|
but she was so deep in conversation with John Knightley, that it would
|
|
have been too positive an interruption; and finding himself close to
|
|
Mrs. Elton, and her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the
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subject with her.
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CHAPTER XVIII
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"I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,"
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said Mr. Weston.
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Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended
|
|
her by such a hope, smiled most graciously.
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"You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume," he
|
|
continued--"and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my
|
|
name."
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"Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance. I am sure Mr.
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|
Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we shall both have great
|
|
pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage."
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"You are very obliging.--Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.-- He
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is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it in a
|
|
letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning, and seeing my
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son's hand, presumed to open it--though it was not directed to me--it
|
|
was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent, I assure you.
|
|
I hardly ever get a letter."
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"And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr.
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|
Weston--(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.--A most
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|
dangerous precedent indeed!--I beg you will not let your neighbours
|
|
follow your example.--Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect, we
|
|
married women must begin to exert ourselves!--Oh! Mr. Weston, I could
|
|
not have believed it of you!"
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"Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself, Mrs.
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|
Elton.--This letter tells us--it is a short letter--written in a hurry,
|
|
merely to give us notice--it tells us that they are all coming up to
|
|
town directly, on Mrs. Churchill's account--she has not been well the
|
|
whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her--so they are all to
|
|
move southward without loss of time."
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"Indeed!--from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?"
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"Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London. a
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|
considerable journey."
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|
"Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther than
|
|
from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston, to
|
|
people of large fortune?--You would be amazed to hear how my brother,
|
|
Mr. Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me--but
|
|
twice in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with
|
|
four horses."
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|
"The evil of the distance from Enscombe," said Mr. Weston, "is, that
|
|
Mrs. Churchill, _as_ _we_ _understand_, has not been able to leave the
|
|
sofa for a week together. In Frank's last letter she complained, he
|
|
said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having
|
|
both his arm and his uncle's! This, you know, speaks a great degree of
|
|
weakness--but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she means to
|
|
sleep only two nights on the road.--So Frank writes word. Certainly,
|
|
delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You
|
|
must grant me that."
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|
|
|
"No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I always take the part of my
|
|
own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice--You will find me a
|
|
formidable antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women--and
|
|
I assure you, if you knew how Selina feels with respect to sleeping at
|
|
an inn, you would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill's making incredible
|
|
exertions to avoid it. Selina says it is quite horror to her--and I
|
|
believe I have caught a little of her nicety. She always travels with
|
|
her own sheets; an excellent precaution. Does Mrs. Churchill do the
|
|
same?"
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|
|
|
"Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other fine
|
|
lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady in the
|
|
land for"--
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|
|
Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,
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|
|
|
"Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady, I assure
|
|
you. Do not run away with such an idea."
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|
|
|
"Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is as
|
|
thorough a fine lady as any body ever beheld."
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|
|
|
Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly.
|
|
It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister was
|
|
_not_ a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence of
|
|
it;--and she was considering in what way she had best retract, when Mr.
|
|
Weston went on.
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|
|
|
"Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect--but
|
|
this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank, and
|
|
therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of health
|
|
now; but _that_ indeed, by her own account, she has always been. I
|
|
would not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much faith
|
|
in Mrs. Churchill's illness."
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|
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|
"If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?--To Bath, or to
|
|
Clifton?" "She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too cold
|
|
for her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe. She
|
|
has now been a longer time stationary there, than she ever was before,
|
|
and she begins to want change. It is a retired place. A fine place,
|
|
but very retired."
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|
|
|
"Aye--like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired
|
|
from the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round
|
|
it! You seem shut out from every thing--in the most complete
|
|
retirement.-- And Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits
|
|
like Selina to enjoy that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not
|
|
have resources enough in herself to be qualified for a country life. I
|
|
always say a woman cannot have too many resources--and I feel very
|
|
thankful that I have so many myself as to be quite independent of
|
|
society."
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|
|
|
"Frank was here in February for a fortnight."
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|
|
|
"So I remember to have heard. He will find an _addition_ to the
|
|
society of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume to
|
|
call myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard of there
|
|
being such a creature in the world."
|
|
|
|
This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by, and Mr.
|
|
Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,
|
|
|
|
"My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a thing
|
|
possible. Not heard of you!--I believe Mrs. Weston's letters lately
|
|
have been full of very little else than Mrs. Elton."
|
|
|
|
He had done his duty and could return to his son.
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|
|
|
"When Frank left us," continued he, "it was quite uncertain when we
|
|
might see him again, which makes this day's news doubly welcome. It
|
|
has been completely unexpected. That is, _I_ always had a strong
|
|
persuasion he would be here again soon, I was sure something favourable
|
|
would turn up--but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both
|
|
dreadfully desponding. 'How could he contrive to come? And how could
|
|
it be supposed that his uncle and aunt would spare him again?' and so
|
|
forth--I always felt that something would happen in our favour; and so
|
|
it has, you see. I have observed, Mrs. Elton, in the course of my
|
|
life, that if things are going untowardly one month, they are sure to
|
|
mend the next."
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|
|
|
"Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used to say
|
|
to a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship, when,
|
|
because things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all the
|
|
rapidity which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair, and
|
|
exclaim that he was sure at this rate it would be _May_ before Hymen's
|
|
saffron robe would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have been at to
|
|
dispel those gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views! The
|
|
carriage--we had disappointments about the carriage;--one morning, I
|
|
remember, he came to me quite in despair."
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|
|
|
She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly
|
|
seized the opportunity of going on.
|
|
|
|
"You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill
|
|
is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place than
|
|
Enscombe--in short, to spend in London; so that we have the agreeable
|
|
prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring--precisely the
|
|
season of the year which one should have chosen for it: days almost at
|
|
the longest; weather genial and pleasant, always inviting one out, and
|
|
never too hot for exercise. When he was here before, we made the best
|
|
of it; but there was a good deal of wet, damp, cheerless weather; there
|
|
always is in February, you know, and we could not do half that we
|
|
intended. Now will be the time. This will be complete enjoyment; and
|
|
I do not know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the
|
|
sort of constant expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or
|
|
to-morrow, and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than
|
|
having him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the
|
|
state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you will be
|
|
pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy. He is
|
|
generally thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy. Mrs.
|
|
Weston's partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose,
|
|
most gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him."
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|
|
|
"And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my opinion
|
|
will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much in praise of Mr.
|
|
Frank Churchill.--At the same time it is fair to observe, that I am one
|
|
of those who always judge for themselves, and are by no means
|
|
implicitly guided by others. I give you notice that as I find your
|
|
son, so I shall judge of him.--I am no flatterer."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Weston was musing.
|
|
|
|
"I hope," said he presently, "I have not been severe upon poor Mrs.
|
|
Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice; but
|
|
there are some traits in her character which make it difficult for me
|
|
to speak of her with the forbearance I could wish. You cannot be
|
|
ignorant, Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family, nor of the
|
|
treatment I have met with; and, between ourselves, the whole blame of
|
|
it is to be laid to her. She was the instigator. Frank's mother would
|
|
never have been slighted as she was but for her. Mr. Churchill has
|
|
pride; but his pride is nothing to his wife's: his is a quiet,
|
|
indolent, gentlemanlike sort of pride that would harm nobody, and only
|
|
make himself a little helpless and tiresome; but her pride is arrogance
|
|
and insolence! And what inclines one less to bear, she has no fair
|
|
pretence of family or blood. She was nobody when he married her,
|
|
barely the daughter of a gentleman; but ever since her being turned
|
|
into a Churchill she has out-Churchill'd them all in high and mighty
|
|
claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is an upstart."
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|
|
|
"Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite a
|
|
horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust to
|
|
people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood who
|
|
are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs they give
|
|
themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me think of them
|
|
directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately settled there, and
|
|
encumbered with many low connexions, but giving themselves immense
|
|
airs, and expecting to be on a footing with the old established
|
|
families. A year and a half is the very utmost that they can have
|
|
lived at West Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows. They
|
|
came from Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much, you know,
|
|
Mr. Weston. One has not great hopes from Birmingham. I always say
|
|
there is something direful in the sound: but nothing more is
|
|
positively known of the Tupmans, though a good many things I assure you
|
|
are suspected; and yet by their manners they evidently think themselves
|
|
equal even to my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their
|
|
nearest neighbours. It is infinitely too bad. Mr. Suckling, who has
|
|
been eleven years a resident at Maple Grove, and whose father had it
|
|
before him--I believe, at least--I am almost sure that old Mr. Suckling
|
|
had completed the purchase before his death."
|
|
|
|
They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston, having
|
|
said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of walking away.
|
|
|
|
After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers,
|
|
and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed
|
|
little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice, which
|
|
nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself in a worry of
|
|
spirits which would have made her prefer being silent.
|
|
|
|
Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother. He was to
|
|
leave them early the next day; and he soon began with--
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|
|
|
"Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about the
|
|
boys; but you have your sister's letter, and every thing is down at
|
|
full length there we may be sure. My charge would be much more concise
|
|
than her's, and probably not much in the same spirit; all that I have
|
|
to recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them, and do not physic
|
|
them."
|
|
|
|
"I rather hope to satisfy you both," said Emma, "for I shall do all in
|
|
my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and
|
|
happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic."
|
|
|
|
"And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again."
|
|
|
|
"That is very likely. You think so, do not you?"
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|
|
|
"I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father--or even
|
|
may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements continue
|
|
to increase as much as they have done lately."
|
|
|
|
"Increase!"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made a
|
|
great difference in your way of life."
|
|
|
|
"Difference! No indeed I am not."
|
|
|
|
"There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company
|
|
than you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come down for
|
|
only one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!-- When did it
|
|
happen before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood is increasing,
|
|
and you mix more with it. A little while ago, every letter to Isabella
|
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brought an account of fresh gaieties; dinners at Mr. Cole's, or balls
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at the Crown. The difference which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in
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your goings-on, is very great."
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"Yes," said his brother quickly, "it is Randalls that does it all."
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"Very well--and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less
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influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma,
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that Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are, I
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only beg you to send them home."
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"No," cried Mr. Knightley, "that need not be the consequence. Let them
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be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure."
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"Upon my word," exclaimed Emma, "you amuse me! I should like to know
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how many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being
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of the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure
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to attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine--what
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have they been? Dining once with the Coles--and having a ball talked
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of, which never took place. I can understand you--(nodding at Mr. John
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Knightley)--your good fortune in meeting with so many of your friends
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at once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed. But you,
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(turning to Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom I am ever
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two hours from Hartfield, why you should foresee such a series of
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dissipation for me, I cannot imagine. And as to my dear little boys, I
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must say, that if Aunt Emma has not time for them, I do not think they
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would fare much better with Uncle Knightley, who is absent from home
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about five hours where she is absent one--and who, when he is at home,
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is either reading to himself or settling his accounts."
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Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded without
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difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton's beginning to talk to him.
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VOLUME III
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CHAPTER I
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A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the
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nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She
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was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at all
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apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment had
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really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;--
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but if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love of
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the two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment which
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he had taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation of
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two months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils
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before her:--caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She
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did not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would
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be incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
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She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration.
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That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present
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acquaintance! and yet, she could not help rather anticipating
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something decisive. She felt as if the spring would not pass without
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bringing a crisis, an event, a something to alter her present composed
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and tranquil state.
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It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had
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foreseen, before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank
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Churchill's feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so
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soon as had been imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards.
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He rode down for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he
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came from Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise
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all her quick observation, and speedily determine how he was
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influenced, and how she must act. They met with the utmost
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friendliness. There could be no doubt of his great pleasure in seeing
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her. But she had an almost instant doubt of his caring for her as he
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had done, of his feeling the same tenderness in the same degree. She
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watched him well. It was a clear thing he was less in love than he had
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been. Absence, with the conviction probably of her indifference, had
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produced this very natural and very desirable effect.
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He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed
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delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories: and
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he was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that she read
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his comparative difference. He was not calm; his spirits were
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evidently fluttered; there was restlessness about him. Lively as he
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was, it seemed a liveliness that did not satisfy himself; but what
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decided her belief on the subject, was his staying only a quarter of an
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hour, and hurrying away to make other calls in Highbury. "He had seen
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a group of old acquaintance in the street as he passed--he had not
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stopped, he would not stop for more than a word--but he had the vanity
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to think they would be disappointed if he did not call, and much as he
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wished to stay longer at Hartfield, he must hurry off." She had no
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doubt as to his being less in love--but neither his agitated spirits,
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nor his hurrying away, seemed like a perfect cure; and she was rather
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inclined to think it implied a dread of her returning power, and a
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discreet resolution of not trusting himself with her long.
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This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days.
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He was often hoping, intending to come--but was always prevented. His
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aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account at
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Randall's. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come, it was
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to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill's removal to London had been of no
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service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder. That she was
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really ill was very certain; he had declared himself convinced of it,
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at Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could not doubt, when he
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looked back, that she was in a weaker state of health than she had been
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half a year ago. He did not believe it to proceed from any thing that
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care and medicine might not remove, or at least that she might not have
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many years of existence before her; but he could not be prevailed on,
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by all his father's doubts, to say that her complaints were merely
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imaginary, or that she was as strong as ever.
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It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could not
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endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation and
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suffering; and by the ten days' end, her nephew's letter to Randalls
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communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove immediately
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to Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended to the medical skill
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of an eminent person there, and had otherwise a fancy for the place. A
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ready-furnished house in a favourite spot was engaged, and much benefit
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expected from the change.
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Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement,
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and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two months
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before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends--for the
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house was taken for May and June. She was told that now he wrote with
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the greatest confidence of being often with them, almost as often as he
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could even wish.
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Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was
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considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered. She
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hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.
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Mr. Weston's own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted.
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It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would
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be really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles to
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a young man?--An hour's ride. He would be always coming over. The
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difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough to make
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the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing him never.
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Sixteen miles--nay, eighteen--it must be full eighteen to
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Manchester-street--was a serious obstacle. Were he ever able to get
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away, the day would be spent in coming and returning. There was no
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comfort in having him in London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but
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Richmond was the very distance for easy intercourse. Better than
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nearer!
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One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this
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removal,--the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before,
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but it had been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now,
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however, it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and
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very soon after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines
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from Frank, to say that his aunt felt already much better for the
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change, and that he had no doubt of being able to join them for
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twenty-four hours at any given time, induced them to name as early a
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day as possible.
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Mr. Weston's ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows stood
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between the young people of Highbury and happiness.
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Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil to
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him. May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates was
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engaged to spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice, and he
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sanguinely hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear little John
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would have any thing the matter with them, while dear Emma were gone.
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CHAPTER II
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No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached,
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the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank
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Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls
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before dinner, and every thing was safe.
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No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma. The room at
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the Crown was to witness it;--but it would be better than a common
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meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very earnest in his
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entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible after themselves,
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for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the propriety and comfort
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of the rooms before any other persons came, that she could not refuse
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him, and must therefore spend some quiet interval in the young man's
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company. She was to convey Harriet, and they drove to the Crown in
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good time, the Randalls party just sufficiently before them.
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Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though he did not
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say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have a delightful evening.
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They all walked about together, to see that every thing was as it
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should be; and within a few minutes were joined by the contents of
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another carriage, which Emma could not hear the sound of at first,
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without great surprize. "So unreasonably early!" she was going to
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exclaim; but she presently found that it was a family of old friends,
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who were coming, like herself, by particular desire, to help Mr.
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Weston's judgment; and they were so very closely followed by another
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carriage of cousins, who had been entreated to come early with the same
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distinguishing earnestness, on the same errand, that it seemed as if
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half the company might soon be collected together for the purpose of
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preparatory inspection.
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Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which Mr.
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Weston depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and intimate of a
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man who had so many intimates and confidantes, was not the very first
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distinction in the scale of vanity. She liked his open manners, but a
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little less of open-heartedness would have made him a higher
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character.--General benevolence, but not general friendship, made a man
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what he ought to be.-- She could fancy such a man. The whole party
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walked about, and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing
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else to do, formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe in
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their various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though
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_May_, a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.
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Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston's fault that the number of privy
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councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped at Mrs. Bates's door
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to offer the use of their carriage, but the aunt and niece were to be
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brought by the Eltons.
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Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness,
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which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going to
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the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,--impatient
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to begin, or afraid of being always near her.
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Mrs. Elton was spoken of. "I think she must be here soon," said he.
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"I have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much of
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her. It cannot be long, I think, before she comes."
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A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately; but coming back,
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said,
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"I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen
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either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward."
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Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties
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passed.
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"But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!" said Mr. Weston, looking about. "We
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thought you were to bring them."
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The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma
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longed to know what Frank's first opinion of Mrs. Elton might be; how
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he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress, and her smiles of
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graciousness. He was immediately qualifying himself to form an
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opinion, by giving her very proper attention, after the introduction
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had passed.
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In a few minutes the carriage returned.--Somebody talked of rain.-- "I
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will see that there are umbrellas, sir," said Frank to his father:
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"Miss Bates must not be forgotten:" and away he went. Mr. Weston was
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following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her opinion
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of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young man himself,
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though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out of hearing.
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"A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told
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you I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am
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extremely pleased with him.--You may believe me. I never compliment.
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I think him a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely
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what I like and approve--so truly the gentleman, without the least
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conceit or puppyism. You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies--
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quite a horror of them. They were never tolerated at Maple Grove.
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Neither Mr. Suckling nor me had ever any patience with them; and we
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used sometimes to say very cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost
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to a fault, bore with them much better."
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While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston's attention was chained; but
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when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were ladies
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just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must hurry away.
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Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. "I have no doubt of its being our
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carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are so
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extremely expeditious!--I believe we drive faster than any body.-- What
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a pleasure it is to send one's carriage for a friend!-- I understand
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you were so kind as to offer, but another time it will be quite
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unnecessary. You may be very sure I shall always take care of _them_."
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Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen, walked into
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the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much her duty as Mrs.
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Weston's to receive them. Her gestures and movements might be
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understood by any one who looked on like Emma; but her words, every
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body's words, were soon lost under the incessant flow of Miss Bates,
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who came in talking, and had not finished her speech under many minutes
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after her being admitted into the circle at the fire. As the door
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opened she was heard,
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"So very obliging of you!--No rain at all. Nothing to signify. I do
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not care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares--
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Well!--(as soon as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant
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indeed!--This is admirable!--Excellently contrived, upon my word.
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Nothing wanting. Could not have imagined it.--So well lighted up!--
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Jane, Jane, look!--did you ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston, you
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must really have had Aladdin's lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes would not know
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her own room again. I saw her as I came in; she was standing in the
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entrance. 'Oh! Mrs. Stokes,' said I--but I had not time for more."
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She was now met by Mrs. Weston.-- "Very well, I thank you, ma'am. I
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hope you are quite well. Very happy to hear it. So afraid you might
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have a headache!--seeing you pass by so often, and knowing how much
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trouble you must have. Delighted to hear it indeed. Ah! dear Mrs.
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Elton, so obliged to you for the carriage!--excellent time. Jane and I
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quite ready. Did not keep the horses a moment. Most comfortable
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carriage.-- Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you, Mrs. Weston,
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on that score. Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note, or we
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should have been.-- But two such offers in one day!--Never were such
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neighbours. I said to my mother, 'Upon my word, ma'am--.' Thank you,
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my mother is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse's. I made her take
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her shawl--for the evenings are not warm--her large new shawl-- Mrs.
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Dixon's wedding-present.--So kind of her to think of my mother! Bought
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at Weymouth, you know--Mr. Dixon's choice. There were three others,
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Jane says, which they hesitated about some time. Colonel Campbell
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rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you did not wet
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your feet?--It was but a drop or two, but I am so afraid:--but Mr.
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Frank Churchill was so extremely--and there was a mat to step upon--I
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shall never forget his extreme politeness.--Oh! Mr. Frank Churchill, I
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must tell you my mother's spectacles have never been in fault since;
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the rivet never came out again. My mother often talks of your
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good-nature. Does not she, Jane?--Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank
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Churchill?-- Ah! here's Miss Woodhouse.--Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do
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you do?-- Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite in
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fairy-land!-- Such a transformation!--Must not compliment, I know
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(eyeing Emma most complacently)--that would be rude--but upon my word,
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Miss Woodhouse, you do look--how do you like Jane's hair?--You are a
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judge.-- She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her
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hair!-- No hairdresser from London I think could.--Ah! Dr. Hughes I
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declare--and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes
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for a moment.--How do you do? How do you do?--Very well, I thank you.
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This is delightful, is not it?--Where's dear Mr. Richard?-- Oh! there
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he is. Don't disturb him. Much better employed talking to the young
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ladies. How do you do, Mr. Richard?--I saw you the other day as you
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rode through the town--Mrs. Otway, I protest!--and good Mr. Otway, and
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Miss Otway and Miss Caroline.--Such a host of friends!--and Mr. George
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and Mr. Arthur!--How do you do? How do you all do?--Quite well, I am
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much obliged to you. Never better.-- Don't I hear another
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carriage?--Who can this be?--very likely the worthy Coles.--Upon my
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word, this is charming to be standing about among such friends! And
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such a noble fire!--I am quite roasted. No coffee, I thank you, for
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me--never take coffee.--A little tea if you please, sir, by and
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bye,--no hurry--Oh! here it comes. Every thing so good!"
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Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss
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Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the
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discourse of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little
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way behind her.--He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too,
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she could not determine. After a good many compliments to Jane on her
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dress and look, compliments very quietly and properly taken, Mrs. Elton
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was evidently wanting to be complimented herself--and it was, "How do
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you like my gown?--How do you like my trimming?-- How has Wright done
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my hair?"--with many other relative questions, all answered with
|
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patient politeness. Mrs. Elton then said, "Nobody can think less of
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dress in general than I do--but upon such an occasion as this, when
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every body's eyes are so much upon me, and in compliment to the
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Westons--who I have no doubt are giving this ball chiefly to do me
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honour--I would not wish to be inferior to others. And I see very few
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pearls in the room except mine.-- So Frank Churchill is a capital
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dancer, I understand.--We shall see if our styles suit.--A fine young
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man certainly is Frank Churchill. I like him very well."
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At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could not
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but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want to hear
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more;--and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while, till
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another suspension brought Mrs. Elton's tones again distinctly
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forward.--Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
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"Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?-- I was
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|
this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be impatient for
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tidings of us."
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"Jane!"--repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and
|
|
displeasure.-- "That is easy--but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it,
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I suppose."
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"How do you like Mrs. Elton?" said Emma in a whisper.
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"Not at all."
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"You are ungrateful."
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"Ungrateful!--What do you mean?" Then changing from a frown to a
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smile--"No, do not tell me--I do not want to know what you mean.--
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Where is my father?--When are we to begin dancing?"
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Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour. He
|
|
walked off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both Mr.
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and Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity, which
|
|
must be laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston that
|
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Mrs. Elton must be asked to begin the ball; that she would expect it;
|
|
which interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma that
|
|
distinction.--Emma heard the sad truth with fortitude.
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"And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?" said Mr. Weston.
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"She will think Frank ought to ask her."
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Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise; and
|
|
boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most
|
|
perfect approbation of--and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was
|
|
wanting _him_ to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business
|
|
was to help to persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.-- Mr.
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|
Weston and Mrs. Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss
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Woodhouse followed. Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton,
|
|
though she had always considered the ball as peculiarly for her. It
|
|
was almost enough to make her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had
|
|
undoubtedly the advantage, at this time, in vanity completely
|
|
gratified; for though she had intended to begin with Frank Churchill,
|
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she could not lose by the change. Mr. Weston might be his son's
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superior.-- In spite of this little rub, however, Emma was smiling with
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enjoyment, delighted to see the respectable length of the set as it was
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forming, and to feel that she had so many hours of unusual festivity
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before her.-- She was more disturbed by Mr. Knightley's not dancing
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than by any thing else.--There he was, among the standers-by, where he
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ought not to be; he ought to be dancing,--not classing himself with the
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husbands, and fathers, and whist-players, who were pretending to feel
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an interest in the dance till their rubbers were made up,--so young as
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he looked!-- He could not have appeared to greater advantage perhaps
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anywhere, than where he had placed himself. His tall, firm, upright
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figure, among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of the elderly
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men, was such as Emma felt must draw every body's eyes; and, excepting
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her own partner, there was not one among the whole row of young men who
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could be compared with him.--He moved a few steps nearer, and those few
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steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike a manner, with what
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natural grace, he must have danced, would he but take the
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trouble.--Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him to smile; but in
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general he was looking grave. She wished he could love a ballroom
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better, and could like Frank Churchill better.-- He seemed often
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observing her. She must not flatter herself that he thought of her
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dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour, she did not feel
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afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between her and her partner.
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They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends, than lovers. That Frank
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Churchill thought less of her than he had done, was indubitable.
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The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant
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attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body seemed
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happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball, which is seldom
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bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be, was repeatedly given in
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the very beginning of the existence of this. Of very important, very
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recordable events, it was not more productive than such meetings
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usually are. There was one, however, which Emma thought something
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of.--The two last dances before supper were begun, and Harriet had no
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partner;--the only young lady sitting down;--and so equal had been
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hitherto the number of dancers, that how there could be any one
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disengaged was the wonder!--But Emma's wonder lessened soon afterwards,
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on seeing Mr. Elton sauntering about. He would not ask Harriet to
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dance if it were possible to be avoided: she was sure he would not--and
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she was expecting him every moment to escape into the card-room.
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Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room
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where the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about in
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front of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution of
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maintaining it. He did not omit being sometimes directly before Miss
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Smith, or speaking to those who were close to her.-- Emma saw it. She
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was not yet dancing; she was working her way up from the bottom, and
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had therefore leisure to look around, and by only turning her head a
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little she saw it all. When she was half-way up the set, the whole
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group were exactly behind her, and she would no longer allow her eyes
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to watch; but Mr. Elton was so near, that she heard every syllable of a
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dialogue which just then took place between him and Mrs. Weston; and
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she perceived that his wife, who was standing immediately above her,
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was not only listening also, but even encouraging him by significant
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|
glances.--The kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to
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join him and say, "Do not you dance, Mr. Elton?" to which his prompt
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reply was, "Most readily, Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me."
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"Me!--oh! no--I would get you a better partner than myself. I am no
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dancer."
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"If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance," said he, "I shall have great
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pleasure, I am sure--for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old
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married man, and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very
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|
great pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs.
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Gilbert."
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"Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady
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disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing--Miss Smith."
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"Miss Smith!--oh!--I had not observed.--You are extremely obliging--
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and if I were not an old married man.--But my dancing days are over,
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Mrs. Weston. You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most
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happy to do, at your command--but my dancing days are over."
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Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what surprize and
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|
mortification she must be returning to her seat. This was Mr. Elton!
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the amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.-- She looked round for a
|
|
moment; he had joined Mr. Knightley at a little distance, and was
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arranging himself for settled conversation, while smiles of high glee
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passed between him and his wife.
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She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared her
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face might be as hot.
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In another moment a happier sight caught her;--Mr. Knightley leading
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Harriet to the set!--Never had she been more surprized, seldom more
|
|
delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure and gratitude,
|
|
both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be thanking him; and though
|
|
too distant for speech, her countenance said much, as soon as she could
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|
catch his eye again.
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His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it, extremely good;
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|
and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky, if it had not been for
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|
the cruel state of things before, and for the very complete enjoyment
|
|
and very high sense of the distinction which her happy features
|
|
announced. It was not thrown away on her, she bounded higher than
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|
ever, flew farther down the middle, and was in a continual course of
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|
smiles.
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Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted) very
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|
foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife,
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|
though growing very like her;--_she_ spoke some of her feelings, by
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|
observing audibly to her partner,
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"Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!--Very goodnatured,
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|
I declare."
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Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be heard
|
|
from that moment, without interruption, till her being seated at table
|
|
and taking up her spoon.
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|
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"Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?--Here is your tippet. Mrs.
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|
Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid there
|
|
will be draughts in the passage, though every thing has been done--One
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|
door nailed up--Quantities of matting--My dear Jane, indeed you must.
|
|
Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging! How well you put it on!--so
|
|
gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!-- Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I
|
|
said I should, to help grandmama to bed, and got back again, and nobody
|
|
missed me.--I set off without saying a word, just as I told you.
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|
Grandmama was quite well, had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a
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|
vast deal of chat, and backgammon.--Tea was made downstairs, biscuits
|
|
and baked apples and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some
|
|
of her throws: and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were
|
|
amused, and who were your partners. 'Oh!' said I, 'I shall not
|
|
forestall Jane; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love
|
|
to tell you all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr.
|
|
Elton, I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.'
|
|
My dear sir, you are too obliging.--Is there nobody you would not
|
|
rather?--I am not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word,
|
|
Jane on one arm, and me on the other!--Stop, stop, let us stand a
|
|
little back, Mrs. Elton is going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant she
|
|
looks!--Beautiful lace!--Now we all follow in her train. Quite the
|
|
queen of the evening!--Well, here we are at the passage. Two steps,
|
|
Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no, there is but one. Well, I
|
|
was persuaded there were two. How very odd! I was convinced there
|
|
were two, and there is but one. I never saw any thing equal to the
|
|
comfort and style--Candles everywhere.--I was telling you of your
|
|
grandmama, Jane,--There was a little disappointment.-- The baked apples
|
|
and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know; but there was a
|
|
delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at
|
|
first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the asparagus quite boiled
|
|
enough, sent it all out again. Now there is nothing grandmama loves
|
|
better than sweetbread and asparagus--so she was rather disappointed,
|
|
but we agreed we would not speak of it to any body, for fear of its
|
|
getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be so very much
|
|
concerned!--Well, this is brilliant! I am all amazement! could not
|
|
have supposed any thing!--Such elegance and profusion!--I have seen
|
|
nothing like it since-- Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit?
|
|
Anywhere, so that Jane is not in a draught. Where _I_ sit is of no
|
|
consequence. Oh! do you recommend this side?--Well, I am sure, Mr.
|
|
Churchill--only it seems too good--but just as you please. What you
|
|
direct in this house cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever
|
|
recollect half the dishes for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me! I
|
|
should not be helped so soon, but it smells most excellent, and I
|
|
cannot help beginning."
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|
Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till after supper;
|
|
but, when they were all in the ballroom again, her eyes invited him
|
|
irresistibly to come to her and be thanked. He was warm in his
|
|
reprobation of Mr. Elton's conduct; it had been unpardonable rudeness;
|
|
and Mrs. Elton's looks also received the due share of censure.
|
|
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|
"They aimed at wounding more than Harriet," said he. "Emma, why is it
|
|
that they are your enemies?"
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|
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|
He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving no answer, added,
|
|
"_She_ ought not to be angry with you, I suspect, whatever he may
|
|
be.--To that surmise, you say nothing, of course; but confess, Emma,
|
|
that you did want him to marry Harriet."
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|
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|
"I did," replied Emma, "and they cannot forgive me."
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|
|
|
He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it, and he
|
|
only said,
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|
|
|
"I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections."
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|
|
|
"Can you trust me with such flatterers?--Does my vain spirit ever tell
|
|
me I am wrong?"
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|
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|
"Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.--If one leads you
|
|
wrong, I am sure the other tells you of it."
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|
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|
"I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton. There
|
|
is a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I did not:
|
|
and I was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet. It was
|
|
through a series of strange blunders!"
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|
|
|
"And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the
|
|
justice to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has
|
|
chosen for himself.--Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which
|
|
Mrs. Elton is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless
|
|
girl--infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such
|
|
a woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I
|
|
expected."
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|
|
|
Emma was extremely gratified.--They were interrupted by the bustle of
|
|
Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.
|
|
|
|
"Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all
|
|
doing?-- Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is
|
|
lazy! Every body is asleep!"
|
|
|
|
"I am ready," said Emma, "whenever I am wanted."
|
|
|
|
"Whom are you going to dance with?" asked Mr. Knightley.
|
|
|
|
She hesitated a moment, and then replied, "With you, if you will ask
|
|
me."
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|
|
|
"Will you?" said he, offering his hand.
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|
|
|
"Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we are
|
|
not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper."
|
|
|
|
"Brother and sister! no, indeed."
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|
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|
CHAPTER III
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|
This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable
|
|
pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which
|
|
she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.--She was extremely
|
|
glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting the
|
|
Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so much
|
|
alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour, was
|
|
peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for a few
|
|
minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been the
|
|
occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked forward
|
|
to another happy result--the cure of Harriet's infatuation.-- From
|
|
Harriet's manner of speaking of the circumstance before they quitted
|
|
the ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes were
|
|
suddenly opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not the
|
|
superior creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma
|
|
could harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by
|
|
injurious courtesy. She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons
|
|
for supplying all the discipline of pointed neglect that could be
|
|
farther requisite.--Harriet rational, Frank Churchill not too much in
|
|
love, and Mr. Knightley not wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy
|
|
a summer must be before her!
|
|
|
|
She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that
|
|
he could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping at Hartfield, as he
|
|
was to be at home by the middle of the day. She did not regret it.
|
|
|
|
Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them
|
|
all to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened
|
|
up for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their
|
|
grandpapa, when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons
|
|
entered whom she had never less expected to see together--Frank
|
|
Churchill, with Harriet leaning on his arm--actually Harriet!--A moment
|
|
sufficed to convince her that something extraordinary had happened.
|
|
Harriet looked white and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.--
|
|
The iron gates and the front-door were not twenty yards asunder;--they
|
|
were all three soon in the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking into a
|
|
chair fainted away.
|
|
|
|
A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered,
|
|
and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting, but the
|
|
suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma acquainted
|
|
with the whole.
|
|
|
|
Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at Mrs.
|
|
Goddard's, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together, and
|
|
taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public enough
|
|
for safety, had led them into alarm.--About half a mile beyond
|
|
Highbury, making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms on each side,
|
|
it became for a considerable stretch very retired; and when the young
|
|
ladies had advanced some way into it, they had suddenly perceived at a
|
|
small distance before them, on a broader patch of greensward by the
|
|
side, a party of gipsies. A child on the watch, came towards them to
|
|
beg; and Miss Bickerton, excessively frightened, gave a great scream,
|
|
and calling on Harriet to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a
|
|
slight hedge at the top, and made the best of her way by a short cut
|
|
back to Highbury. But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered
|
|
very much from cramp after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the
|
|
bank brought on such a return of it as made her absolutely powerless--
|
|
and in this state, and exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged to
|
|
remain.
|
|
|
|
How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been more
|
|
courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack could
|
|
not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a dozen
|
|
children, headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous, and
|
|
impertinent in look, though not absolutely in word.--More and more
|
|
frightened, she immediately promised them money, and taking out her
|
|
purse, gave them a shilling, and begged them not to want more, or to
|
|
use her ill.--She was then able to walk, though but slowly, and was
|
|
moving away--but her terror and her purse were too tempting, and she
|
|
was followed, or rather surrounded, by the whole gang, demanding more.
|
|
|
|
In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling and
|
|
conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate chance his
|
|
leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him to her assistance
|
|
at this critical moment. The pleasantness of the morning had induced
|
|
him to walk forward, and leave his horses to meet him by another road,
|
|
a mile or two beyond Highbury--and happening to have borrowed a pair
|
|
of scissors the night before of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to
|
|
restore them, he had been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a
|
|
few minutes: he was therefore later than he had intended; and being on
|
|
foot, was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them. The
|
|
terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet was then
|
|
their own portion. He had left them completely frightened; and Harriet
|
|
eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak, had just strength
|
|
enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits were quite overcome. It
|
|
was his idea to bring her to Hartfield: he had thought of no other
|
|
place.
|
|
|
|
This was the amount of the whole story,--of his communication and of
|
|
Harriet's as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.-- He
|
|
dared not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays left
|
|
him not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give assurance of
|
|
her safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there being such a set of
|
|
people in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley, he set off, with all the
|
|
grateful blessings that she could utter for her friend and herself.
|
|
|
|
Such an adventure as this,--a fine young man and a lovely young woman
|
|
thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting certain
|
|
ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain. So Emma thought,
|
|
at least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian, could even a
|
|
mathematician have seen what she did, have witnessed their appearance
|
|
together, and heard their history of it, without feeling that
|
|
circumstances had been at work to make them peculiarly interesting to
|
|
each other?--How much more must an imaginist, like herself, be on fire
|
|
with speculation and foresight!--especially with such a groundwork of
|
|
anticipation as her mind had already made.
|
|
|
|
It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever
|
|
occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory; no
|
|
rencontre, no alarm of the kind;--and now it had happened to the very
|
|
person, and at the very hour, when the other very person was chancing
|
|
to pass by to rescue her!--It certainly was very extraordinary!--And
|
|
knowing, as she did, the favourable state of mind of each at this
|
|
period, it struck her the more. He was wishing to get the better of
|
|
his attachment to herself, she just recovering from her mania for Mr.
|
|
Elton. It seemed as if every thing united to promise the most
|
|
interesting consequences. It was not possible that the occurrence
|
|
should not be strongly recommending each to the other.
|
|
|
|
In the few minutes' conversation which she had yet had with him, while
|
|
Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror, her
|
|
naivete, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a
|
|
sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet's own
|
|
account had been given, he had expressed his indignation at the
|
|
abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms. Every thing
|
|
was to take its natural course, however, neither impelled nor assisted.
|
|
She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint. No, she had had enough of
|
|
interference. There could be no harm in a scheme, a mere passive
|
|
scheme. It was no more than a wish. Beyond it she would on no account
|
|
proceed.
|
|
|
|
Emma's first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge of
|
|
what had passed,--aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion: but
|
|
she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half an hour
|
|
it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event to engage those
|
|
who talk most, the young and the low; and all the youth and servants in
|
|
the place were soon in the happiness of frightful news. The last
|
|
night's ball seemed lost in the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled
|
|
as he sat, and, as Emma had foreseen, would scarcely be satisfied
|
|
without their promising never to go beyond the shrubbery again. It was
|
|
some comfort to him that many inquiries after himself and Miss
|
|
Woodhouse (for his neighbours knew that he loved to be inquired after),
|
|
as well as Miss Smith, were coming in during the rest of the day; and
|
|
he had the pleasure of returning for answer, that they were all very
|
|
indifferent--which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly
|
|
well, and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with.
|
|
She had an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such a
|
|
man, for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not
|
|
invent illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.
|
|
|
|
The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took
|
|
themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have
|
|
walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole history
|
|
dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma and her
|
|
nephews:--in her imagination it maintained its ground, and Henry and
|
|
John were still asking every day for the story of Harriet and the
|
|
gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right if she varied in the
|
|
slightest particular from the original recital.
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER IV
|
|
|
|
|
|
A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one
|
|
morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down
|
|
and hesitating, thus began:
|
|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse--if you are at leisure--I have something that I should
|
|
like to tell you--a sort of confession to make--and then, you know, it
|
|
will be over."
|
|
|
|
Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak. There was a
|
|
seriousness in Harriet's manner which prepared her, quite as much as
|
|
her words, for something more than ordinary.
|
|
|
|
"It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish," she continued, "to have
|
|
no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily quite an altered
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creature in _one_ _respect_, it is very fit that you should have the
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satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say more than is
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necessary--I am too much ashamed of having given way as I have done,
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and I dare say you understand me."
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"Yes," said Emma, "I hope I do."
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"How I could so long a time be fancying myself! . . ." cried Harriet,
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warmly. "It seems like madness! I can see nothing at all
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extraordinary in him now.--I do not care whether I meet him or
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not--except that of the two I had rather not see him--and indeed I
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would go any distance round to avoid him--but I do not envy his wife in
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the least; I neither admire her nor envy her, as I have done: she is
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very charming, I dare say, and all that, but I think her very
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ill-tempered and disagreeable--I shall never forget her look the other
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night!--However, I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, I wish her no evil.--No,
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let them be ever so happy together, it will not give me another
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moment's pang: and to convince you that I have been speaking truth, I
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am now going to destroy--what I ought to have destroyed long ago--what
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I ought never to have kept-- I know that very well (blushing as she
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spoke).--However, now I will destroy it all--and it is my particular
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wish to do it in your presence, that you may see how rational I am
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grown. Cannot you guess what this parcel holds?" said she, with a
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conscious look.
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"Not the least in the world.--Did he ever give you any thing?"
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"No--I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have valued
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very much."
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She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words _Most_
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_precious_ _treasures_ on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited.
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Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience. Within
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abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box, which
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Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton; but,
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excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.
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"Now," said Harriet, "you _must_ recollect."
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"No, indeed I do not."
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"Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget what
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passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very last
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times we ever met in it!--It was but a very few days before I had my
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sore throat--just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came-- I think the
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very evening.--Do not you remember his cutting his finger with your new
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penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?-- But, as you had none
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about you, and knew I had, you desired me to supply him; and so I took
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mine out and cut him a piece; but it was a great deal too large, and he
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cut it smaller, and kept playing some time with what was left, before
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he gave it back to me. And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help
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making a treasure of it--so I put it by never to be used, and looked
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at it now and then as a great treat."
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"My dearest Harriet!" cried Emma, putting her hand before her face, and
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jumping up, "you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear.
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Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving this
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relic--I knew nothing of that till this moment--but the cutting the
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finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none about
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me!--Oh! my sins, my sins!--And I had plenty all the while in my
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pocket!--One of my senseless tricks!--I deserve to be under a continual
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blush all the rest of my life.--Well--(sitting down again)--go
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on--what else?"
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"And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never suspected
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it, you did it so naturally."
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"And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!"
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said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided
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between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself, "Lord
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bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton a
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piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about! I
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never was equal to this."
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"Here," resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, "here is something
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still more valuable, I mean that _has_ _been_ more valuable, because
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this is what did really once belong to him, which the court-plaister
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never did."
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Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end of
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an old pencil,--the part without any lead.
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"This was really his," said Harriet.--"Do not you remember one
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morning?--no, I dare say you do not. But one morning--I forget exactly
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|
the day--but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before _that_
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_evening_, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book; it was
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about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him something about
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brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down; but when he took out
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his pencil, there was so little lead that he soon cut it all away, and
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it would not do, so you lent him another, and this was left upon the
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table as good for nothing. But I kept my eye on it; and, as soon as I
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dared, caught it up, and never parted with it again from that moment."
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"I do remember it," cried Emma; "I perfectly remember it.-- Talking
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about spruce-beer.--Oh! yes--Mr. Knightley and I both saying we liked
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it, and Mr. Elton's seeming resolved to learn to like it too. I
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|
perfectly remember it.--Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here, was
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|
not he? I have an idea he was standing just here."
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"Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.--It is very odd, but I cannot
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recollect.--Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, much about where I
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am now."--
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"Well, go on."
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"Oh! that's all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say--except
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that I am now going to throw them both behind the fire, and I wish you
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to see me do it."
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"My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness in
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treasuring up these things?"
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"Yes, simpleton as I was!--but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish I
|
|
could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong of me,
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|
you know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married. I knew it
|
|
was--but had not resolution enough to part with them."
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"But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?--I have not
|
|
a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister might
|
|
be useful."
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"I shall be happier to burn it," replied Harriet. "It has a
|
|
disagreeable look to me. I must get rid of every thing.-- There it
|
|
goes, and there is an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton."
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"And when," thought Emma, "will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?"
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She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was
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|
already made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had
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|
_told_ no fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet's.--About a
|
|
fortnight after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation, and
|
|
quite undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment, which
|
|
made the information she received more valuable. She merely said, in
|
|
the course of some trivial chat, "Well, Harriet, whenever you marry I
|
|
would advise you to do so and so"--and thought no more of it, till
|
|
after a minute's silence she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone,
|
|
"I shall never marry."
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Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a
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|
moment's debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,
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"Never marry!--This is a new resolution."
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"It is one that I shall never change, however."
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After another short hesitation, "I hope it does not proceed from--I
|
|
hope it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?"
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"Mr. Elton indeed!" cried Harriet indignantly.--"Oh! no"--and Emma
|
|
could just catch the words, "so superior to Mr. Elton!"
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|
She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed no
|
|
farther?--should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?--
|
|
Perhaps Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did; or perhaps if
|
|
she were totally silent, it might only drive Harriet into asking her to
|
|
hear too much; and against any thing like such an unreserve as had
|
|
been, such an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances, she
|
|
was perfectly resolved.-- She believed it would be wiser for her to say
|
|
and know at once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing
|
|
was always best. She had previously determined how far she would
|
|
proceed, on any application of the sort; and it would be safer for
|
|
both, to have the judicious law of her own brain laid down with
|
|
speed.-- She was decided, and thus spoke--
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"Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning. Your
|
|
resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying, results from
|
|
an idea that the person whom you might prefer, would be too greatly
|
|
your superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?"
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|
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"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to
|
|
suppose-- Indeed I am not so mad.--But it is a pleasure to me to admire
|
|
him at a distance--and to think of his infinite superiority to all the
|
|
rest of the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which
|
|
are so proper, in me especially."
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|
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|
"I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered
|
|
you was enough to warm your heart."
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|
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|
"Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!-- The very
|
|
recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time--when I saw him
|
|
coming--his noble look--and my wretchedness before. Such a change! In
|
|
one moment such a change! From perfect misery to perfect happiness!"
|
|
|
|
"It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.-- Yes,
|
|
honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.-- But that it
|
|
will be a fortunate preference is more that I can promise. I do not
|
|
advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage
|
|
for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will
|
|
be wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do
|
|
not let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you.
|
|
Be observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your
|
|
sensations. I give you this caution now, because I shall never speak
|
|
to you again on the subject. I am determined against all interference.
|
|
Henceforward I know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our
|
|
lips. We were very wrong before; we will be cautious now.--He is your
|
|
superior, no doubt, and there do seem objections and obstacles of a
|
|
very serious nature; but yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken
|
|
place, there have been matches of greater disparity. But take care of
|
|
yourself. I would not have you too sanguine; though, however it may
|
|
end, be assured your raising your thoughts to _him_, is a mark of good
|
|
taste which I shall always know how to value."
|
|
|
|
Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude. Emma was
|
|
very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her
|
|
friend. Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind--and it
|
|
must be saving her from the danger of degradation.
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CHAPTER V
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In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon
|
|
Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The
|
|
Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use
|
|
to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her
|
|
grandmother's; and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was
|
|
again delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was
|
|
likely to remain there full two months longer, provided at least she
|
|
were able to defeat Mrs. Elton's activity in her service, and save
|
|
herself from being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had
|
|
certainly taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing
|
|
to dislike him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in
|
|
his pursuit of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable.
|
|
Every thing declared it; his own attentions, his father's hints, his
|
|
mother-in-law's guarded silence; it was all in unison; words, conduct,
|
|
discretion, and indiscretion, told the same story. But while so many
|
|
were devoting him to Emma, and Emma herself making him over to Harriet,
|
|
Mr. Knightley began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with
|
|
Jane Fairfax. He could not understand it; but there were symptoms of
|
|
intelligence between them--he thought so at least--symptoms of
|
|
admiration on his side, which, having once observed, he could not
|
|
persuade himself to think entirely void of meaning, however he might
|
|
wish to escape any of Emma's errors of imagination. _She_ was not
|
|
present when the suspicion first arose. He was dining with the
|
|
Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons'; and he had seen a look, more
|
|
than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from the admirer of Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was again in their
|
|
company, he could not help remembering what he had seen; nor could he
|
|
avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and his fire at
|
|
twilight,
|
|
|
|
"Myself creating what I saw,"
|
|
|
|
brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of
|
|
private liking, of private understanding even, between Frank Churchill
|
|
and Jane.
|
|
|
|
He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did, to spend
|
|
his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he
|
|
joined them; and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party, who,
|
|
like themselves, judged it wisest to take their exercise early, as the
|
|
weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, Miss Bates
|
|
and her niece, who had accidentally met. They all united; and, on
|
|
reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it was exactly the sort of
|
|
visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in
|
|
and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately;
|
|
and after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons
|
|
listened to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse's
|
|
most obliging invitation.
|
|
|
|
As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on
|
|
horseback. The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
|
|
|
|
"By the bye," said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently, "what
|
|
became of Mr. Perry's plan of setting up his carriage?"
|
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|
|
Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, "I did not know that he ever
|
|
had any such plan."
|
|
|
|
"Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago."
|
|
|
|
"Me! impossible!"
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|
|
|
"Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as what
|
|
was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody, and was
|
|
extremely happy about it. It was owing to _her_ persuasion, as she
|
|
thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm. You
|
|
must remember it now?"
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|
|
|
"Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment."
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|
|
|
"Never! really, never!--Bless me! how could it be?--Then I must have
|
|
dreamt it--but I was completely persuaded--Miss Smith, you walk as if
|
|
you were tired. You will not be sorry to find yourself at home."
|
|
|
|
"What is this?--What is this?" cried Mr. Weston, "about Perry and a
|
|
carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank? I am glad he
|
|
can afford it. You had it from himself, had you?"
|
|
|
|
"No, sir," replied his son, laughing, "I seem to have had it from
|
|
nobody.--Very odd!--I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston's having
|
|
mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago, with
|
|
all these particulars--but as she declares she never heard a syllable
|
|
of it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am a great
|
|
dreamer. I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away--and when I
|
|
have gone through my particular friends, then I begin dreaming of Mr.
|
|
and Mrs. Perry."
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|
|
|
"It is odd though," observed his father, "that you should have had such
|
|
a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you
|
|
should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry's setting up his carriage!
|
|
and his wife's persuading him to it, out of care for his health--just
|
|
what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other; only a little
|
|
premature. What an air of probability sometimes runs through a dream!
|
|
And at others, what a heap of absurdities it is! Well, Frank, your
|
|
dream certainly shews that Highbury is in your thoughts when you are
|
|
absent. Emma, you are a great dreamer, I think?"
|
|
|
|
Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests to
|
|
prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach of
|
|
Mr. Weston's hint.
|
|
|
|
"Why, to own the truth," cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain
|
|
to be heard the last two minutes, "if I must speak on this subject,
|
|
there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have--I do not mean
|
|
to say that he did not dream it--I am sure I have sometimes the oddest
|
|
dreams in the world--but if I am questioned about it, I must
|
|
acknowledge that there was such an idea last spring; for Mrs. Perry
|
|
herself mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew of it as well as
|
|
ourselves--but it was quite a secret, known to nobody else, and only
|
|
thought of about three days. Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he
|
|
should have a carriage, and came to my mother in great spirits one
|
|
morning because she thought she had prevailed. Jane, don't you
|
|
remember grandmama's telling us of it when we got home? I forget where
|
|
we had been walking to--very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was
|
|
to Randalls. Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my
|
|
mother--indeed I do not know who is not--and she had mentioned it to
|
|
her in confidence; she had no objection to her telling us, of course,
|
|
but it was not to go beyond: and, from that day to this, I never
|
|
mentioned it to a soul that I know of. At the same time, I will not
|
|
positively answer for my having never dropt a hint, because I know I do
|
|
sometimes pop out a thing before I am aware. I am a talker, you know;
|
|
I am rather a talker; and now and then I have let a thing escape me
|
|
which I should not. I am not like Jane; I wish I were. I will answer
|
|
for it _she_ never betrayed the least thing in the world. Where is
|
|
she?--Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember Mrs. Perry's coming.--
|
|
Extraordinary dream, indeed!"
|
|
|
|
They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley's eyes had preceded Miss
|
|
Bates's in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill's face, where he
|
|
thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away, he had
|
|
involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind, and too busy
|
|
with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two other gentlemen
|
|
waited at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley suspected in Frank
|
|
Churchill the determination of catching her eye--he seemed watching
|
|
her intently--in vain, however, if it were so-- Jane passed between
|
|
them into the hall, and looked at neither.
|
|
|
|
There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must be
|
|
borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round
|
|
the large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield,
|
|
and which none but Emma could have had power to place there and
|
|
persuade her father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke, on
|
|
which two of his daily meals had, for forty years been crowded. Tea
|
|
passed pleasantly, and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Woodhouse," said Frank Churchill, after examining a table behind
|
|
him, which he could reach as he sat, "have your nephews taken away
|
|
their alphabets--their box of letters? It used to stand here. Where
|
|
is it? This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought to be
|
|
treated rather as winter than summer. We had great amusement with
|
|
those letters one morning. I want to puzzle you again."
|
|
|
|
Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table was
|
|
quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much
|
|
disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming
|
|
words for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled. The
|
|
quietness of the game made it particularly eligible for Mr. Woodhouse,
|
|
who had often been distressed by the more animated sort, which Mr.
|
|
Weston had occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily occupied in
|
|
lamenting, with tender melancholy, over the departure of the "poor
|
|
little boys," or in fondly pointing out, as he took up any stray letter
|
|
near him, how beautifully Emma had written it.
|
|
|
|
Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave a slight
|
|
glance round the table, and applied herself to it. Frank was next to
|
|
Emma, Jane opposite to them--and Mr. Knightley so placed as to see them
|
|
all; and it was his object to see as much as he could, with as little
|
|
apparent observation. The word was discovered, and with a faint smile
|
|
pushed away. If meant to be immediately mixed with the others, and
|
|
buried from sight, she should have looked on the table instead of
|
|
looking just across, for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after
|
|
every fresh word, and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell
|
|
to work. She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help.
|
|
The word was _blunder_; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it, there
|
|
was a blush on Jane's cheek which gave it a meaning not otherwise
|
|
ostensible. Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream; but how it
|
|
could all be, was beyond his comprehension. How the delicacy, the
|
|
discretion of his favourite could have been so lain asleep! He feared
|
|
there must be some decided involvement. Disingenuousness and double
|
|
dealing seemed to meet him at every turn. These letters were but the
|
|
vehicle for gallantry and trick. It was a child's play, chosen to
|
|
conceal a deeper game on Frank Churchill's part.
|
|
|
|
With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great alarm
|
|
and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions. He saw a
|
|
short word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look sly and
|
|
demure. He saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found it highly
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entertaining, though it was something which she judged it proper to
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appear to censure; for she said, "Nonsense! for shame!" He heard Frank
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Churchill next say, with a glance towards Jane, "I will give it to
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her--shall I?"--and as clearly heard Emma opposing it with eager
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laughing warmth. "No, no, you must not; you shall not, indeed."
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It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love
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without feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance,
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directly handed over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular
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degree of sedate civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley's
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excessive curiosity to know what this word might be, made him seize
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every possible moment for darting his eye towards it, and it was not
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long before he saw it to be _Dixon_. Jane Fairfax's perception seemed
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to accompany his; her comprehension was certainly more equal to the
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covert meaning, the superior intelligence, of those five letters so
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arranged. She was evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing herself
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watched, blushed more deeply than he had ever perceived her, and saying
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only, "I did not know that proper names were allowed," pushed away the
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letters with even an angry spirit, and looked resolved to be engaged by
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no other word that could be offered. Her face was averted from those
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who had made the attack, and turned towards her aunt.
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"Aye, very true, my dear," cried the latter, though Jane had not spoken
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a word--"I was just going to say the same thing. It is time for us to
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be going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama will be
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looking for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging. We really must
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wish you good night."
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Jane's alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt had
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preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit the table;
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but so many were also moving, that she could not get away; and Mr.
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Knightley thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously pushed
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towards her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined. She was
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afterwards looking for her shawl--Frank Churchill was looking also--it
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was growing dusk, and the room was in confusion; and how they parted,
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Mr. Knightley could not tell.
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He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full of what
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he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist his
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observations, he must--yes, he certainly must, as a friend--an anxious
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friend--give Emma some hint, ask her some question. He could not see
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her in a situation of such danger, without trying to preserve her. It
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was his duty.
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"Pray, Emma," said he, "may I ask in what lay the great amusement, the
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poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw
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the word, and am curious to know how it could be so very entertaining
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to the one, and so very distressing to the other."
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Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the true
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explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed, she
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was really ashamed of having ever imparted them.
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"Oh!" she cried in evident embarrassment, "it all meant nothing; a mere
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joke among ourselves."
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"The joke," he replied gravely, "seemed confined to you and Mr.
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Churchill."
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He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would rather
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busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little while in
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doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference--fruitless
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interference. Emma's confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy, seemed
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to declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak. He owed it to
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her, to risk any thing that might be involved in an unwelcome
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interference, rather than her welfare; to encounter any thing, rather
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than the remembrance of neglect in such a cause.
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"My dear Emma," said he at last, with earnest kindness, "do you think
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you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between the
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gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?"
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"Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.--
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Why do you make a doubt of it?"
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"Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her, or
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that she admired him?"
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"Never, never!" she cried with a most open eagerness--"Never, for the
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twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me. And how
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could it possibly come into your head?"
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"I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between
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them--certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be
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public."
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"Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you can
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vouchsafe to let your imagination wander--but it will not do--very
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sorry to check you in your first essay--but indeed it will not do.
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There is no admiration between them, I do assure you; and the
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appearances which have caught you, have arisen from some peculiar
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|
circumstances--feelings rather of a totally different nature--it is
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impossible exactly to explain:--there is a good deal of nonsense in
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it--but the part which is capable of being communicated, which is
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sense, is, that they are as far from any attachment or admiration for
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one another, as any two beings in the world can be. That is, I
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_presume_ it to be so on her side, and I can _answer_ for its being so
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on his. I will answer for the gentleman's indifference."
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She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction which
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silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would have
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prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars of his
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suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows of a
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|
circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did not meet
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hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings were too much
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irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated into an absolute
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|
fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse's tender habits required almost
|
|
every evening throughout the year, he soon afterwards took a hasty
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leave, and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
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CHAPTER VI
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After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs.
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Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification
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of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such
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|
importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores at
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|
present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again
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|
restricted to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings'
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|
coming had been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill,
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|
whose health seemed every day to supply a different report, and the
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|
situation of Mrs. Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might
|
|
eventually be as much increased by the arrival of a child, as that of
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|
all her neighbours was by the approach of it.
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Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great
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|
deal of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations
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|
must all wait, and every projected party be still only talked of. So
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|
she thought at first;--but a little consideration convinced her that
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|
every thing need not be put off. Why should not they explore to Box
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|
Hill though the Sucklings did not come? They could go there again with
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|
them in the autumn. It was settled that they should go to Box Hill.
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|
That there was to be such a party had been long generally known: it
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|
had even given the idea of another. Emma had never been to Box Hill;
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|
she wished to see what every body found so well worth seeing, and she
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|
and Mr. Weston had agreed to chuse some fine morning and drive thither.
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|
Two or three more of the chosen only were to be admitted to join them,
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|
and it was to be done in a quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely
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|
superior to the bustle and preparation, the regular eating and
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|
drinking, and picnic parade of the Eltons and the Sucklings.
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This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could not but
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|
feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing from Mr.
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|
Weston that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her brother and
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|
sister had failed her, that the two parties should unite, and go
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|
together; and that as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded to it, so it
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|
was to be, if she had no objection. Now, as her objection was nothing
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|
but her very great dislike of Mrs. Elton, of which Mr. Weston must
|
|
already be perfectly aware, it was not worth bringing forward
|
|
again:--it could not be done without a reproof to him, which would be
|
|
giving pain to his wife; and she found herself therefore obliged to
|
|
consent to an arrangement which she would have done a great deal to
|
|
avoid; an arrangement which would probably expose her even to the
|
|
degradation of being said to be of Mrs. Elton's party! Every feeling
|
|
was offended; and the forbearance of her outward submission left a
|
|
heavy arrear due of secret severity in her reflections on the
|
|
unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston's temper.
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|
"I am glad you approve of what I have done," said he very comfortably.
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|
"But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing without
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|
numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party secures its
|
|
own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all. One could
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|
not leave her out."
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Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.
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It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton was
|
|
growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston as to
|
|
pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw every thing
|
|
into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be only a few days,
|
|
before the horse were useable; but no preparations could be ventured
|
|
on, and it was all melancholy stagnation. Mrs. Elton's resources were
|
|
inadequate to such an attack.
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|
"Is not this most vexatious, Knightley?" she cried.--"And such weather
|
|
for exploring!--These delays and disappointments are quite odious.
|
|
What are we to do?--The year will wear away at this rate, and nothing
|
|
done. Before this time last year I assure you we had had a delightful
|
|
exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston."
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|
"You had better explore to Donwell," replied Mr. Knightley. "That may
|
|
be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries. They are
|
|
ripening fast."
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|
If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so,
|
|
for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the "Oh! I should
|
|
like it of all things," was not plainer in words than manner. Donwell
|
|
was famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for the
|
|
invitation: but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have been
|
|
enough to tempt the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere. She
|
|
promised him again and again to come--much oftener than he doubted--and
|
|
was extremely gratified by such a proof of intimacy, such a
|
|
distinguishing compliment as she chose to consider it.
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|
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|
"You may depend upon me," said she. "I certainly will come. Name your
|
|
day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring Jane Fairfax?"
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"I cannot name a day," said he, "till I have spoken to some others whom
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|
I would wish to meet you."
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|
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|
"Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.--I am Lady
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|
Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends with me."
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|
"I hope you will bring Elton," said he: "but I will not trouble you to
|
|
give any other invitations."
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|
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|
"Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider--you need not be
|
|
afraid of delegating power to _me_. I am no young lady on her
|
|
preferment. Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is
|
|
my party. Leave it all to me. I will invite your guests."
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|
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|
"No,"--he calmly replied,--"there is but one married woman in the world
|
|
whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell, and
|
|
that one is--"
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|
|
|
"--Mrs. Weston, I suppose," interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.
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|
|
|
"No--Mrs. Knightley;--and till she is in being, I will manage such
|
|
matters myself."
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|
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|
"Ah! you are an odd creature!" she cried, satisfied to have no one
|
|
preferred to herself.--"You are a humourist, and may say what you like.
|
|
Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me--Jane and her
|
|
aunt.--The rest I leave to you. I have no objections at all to meeting
|
|
the Hartfield family. Don't scruple. I know you are attached to them."
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|
|
|
"You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call on
|
|
Miss Bates in my way home."
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|
|
|
"That's quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:--but as you like. It
|
|
is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing.
|
|
I shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets hanging
|
|
on my arm. Here,--probably this basket with pink ribbon. Nothing can
|
|
be more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another. There is to
|
|
be no form or parade--a sort of gipsy party. We are to walk about your
|
|
gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves, and sit under
|
|
trees;--and whatever else you may like to provide, it is to be all out
|
|
of doors--a table spread in the shade, you know. Every thing as
|
|
natural and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?"
|
|
|
|
"Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have the
|
|
table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity of
|
|
gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think is
|
|
best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating
|
|
strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house."
|
|
|
|
"Well--as you please; only don't have a great set out. And, by the
|
|
bye, can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?--
|
|
Pray be sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or
|
|
to inspect anything--"
|
|
|
|
"I have not the least wish for it, I thank you."
|
|
|
|
"Well--but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper is
|
|
extremely clever."
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|
|
|
"I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever, and
|
|
would spurn any body's assistance."
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|
|
|
"I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come on
|
|
donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me--and my caro sposo walking by. I
|
|
really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country life I
|
|
conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have ever so
|
|
many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut up at
|
|
home;--and very long walks, you know--in summer there is dust, and in
|
|
winter there is dirt."
|
|
|
|
"You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane
|
|
is never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on a donkey,
|
|
however, if you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole's. I would wish
|
|
every thing to be as much to your taste as possible."
|
|
|
|
"That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend.
|
|
Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the
|
|
warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.-- Yes,
|
|
believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention to me in
|
|
the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing to please
|
|
me."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade. He
|
|
wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party;
|
|
and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors to eat
|
|
would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the
|
|
specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two spent at
|
|
Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.
|
|
|
|
He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid him
|
|
for his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been at Donwell
|
|
for two years. "Some very fine morning, he, and Emma, and Harriet,
|
|
could go very well; and he could sit still with Mrs. Weston, while the
|
|
dear girls walked about the gardens. He did not suppose they could be
|
|
damp now, in the middle of the day. He should like to see the old
|
|
house again exceedingly, and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Elton, and any other of his neighbours.--He could not see any objection
|
|
at all to his, and Emma's, and Harriet's going there some very fine
|
|
morning. He thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite
|
|
them--very kind and sensible--much cleverer than dining out.--He was
|
|
not fond of dining out."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body's most ready concurrence.
|
|
The invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if,
|
|
like Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular
|
|
compliment to themselves.--Emma and Harriet professed very high
|
|
expectations of pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked, promised to
|
|
get Frank over to join them, if possible; a proof of approbation and
|
|
gratitude which could have been dispensed with.-- Mr. Knightley was
|
|
then obliged to say that he should be glad to see him; and Mr. Weston
|
|
engaged to lose no time in writing, and spare no arguments to induce
|
|
him to come.
|
|
|
|
In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party to
|
|
Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell was
|
|
settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,--the weather appearing
|
|
exactly right.
|
|
|
|
Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was
|
|
safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down, to partake of
|
|
this al-fresco party; and in one of the most comfortable rooms in the
|
|
Abbey, especially prepared for him by a fire all the morning, he was
|
|
happily placed, quite at his ease, ready to talk with pleasure of what
|
|
had been achieved, and advise every body to come and sit down, and not
|
|
to heat themselves.-- Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on
|
|
purpose to be tired, and sit all the time with him, remained, when all
|
|
the others were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and
|
|
sympathiser.
|
|
|
|
It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she
|
|
was satisfied of her father's comfort, she was glad to leave him, and
|
|
look around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with more
|
|
particular observation, more exact understanding of a house and grounds
|
|
which must ever be so interesting to her and all her family.
|
|
|
|
She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance with
|
|
the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant, as she viewed
|
|
the respectable size and style of the building, its suitable, becoming,
|
|
characteristic situation, low and sheltered--its ample gardens
|
|
stretching down to meadows washed by a stream, of which the Abbey, with
|
|
all the old neglect of prospect, had scarcely a sight--and its
|
|
abundance of timber in rows and avenues, which neither fashion nor
|
|
extravagance had rooted up.--The house was larger than Hartfield, and
|
|
totally unlike it, covering a good deal of ground, rambling and
|
|
irregular, with many comfortable, and one or two handsome rooms.--It
|
|
was just what it ought to be, and it looked what it was--and Emma felt
|
|
an increasing respect for it, as the residence of a family of such true
|
|
gentility, untainted in blood and understanding.--Some faults of temper
|
|
John Knightley had; but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably.
|
|
She had given them neither men, nor names, nor places, that could raise
|
|
a blush. These were pleasant feelings, and she walked about and
|
|
indulged them till it was necessary to do as the others did, and
|
|
collect round the strawberry-beds.--The whole party were assembled,
|
|
excepting Frank Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond;
|
|
and Mrs. Elton, in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet and
|
|
her basket, was very ready to lead the way in gathering, accepting, or
|
|
talking--strawberries, and only strawberries, could now be thought or
|
|
spoken of.--"The best fruit in England--every body's favourite--always
|
|
wholesome.--These the finest beds and finest sorts.--Delightful to
|
|
gather for one's self--the only way of really enjoying them.--Morning
|
|
decidedly the best time--never tired--every sort good--hautboy
|
|
infinitely superior--no comparison--the others hardly
|
|
eatable--hautboys very scarce--Chili preferred--white wood finest
|
|
flavour of all--price of strawberries in London--abundance about
|
|
Bristol--Maple Grove--cultivation--beds when to be renewed--gardeners
|
|
thinking exactly different--no general rule--gardeners never to be put
|
|
out of their way--delicious fruit--only too rich to be eaten much
|
|
of--inferior to cherries--currants more refreshing--only objection to
|
|
gathering strawberries the stooping--glaring sun--tired to death--could
|
|
bear it no longer--must go and sit in the shade."
|
|
|
|
Such, for half an hour, was the conversation--interrupted only once by
|
|
Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her son-in-law, to
|
|
inquire if he were come--and she was a little uneasy.-- She had some
|
|
fears of his horse.
|
|
|
|
Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged to
|
|
overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.-- A
|
|
situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton had
|
|
received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures. It was not
|
|
with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge, but in felicity and
|
|
splendour it fell short only of them: it was with a cousin of Mrs.
|
|
Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling, a lady known at Maple Grove.
|
|
Delightful, charming, superior, first circles, spheres, lines, ranks,
|
|
every thing--and Mrs. Elton was wild to have the offer closed with
|
|
immediately.--On her side, all was warmth, energy, and triumph--and she
|
|
positively refused to take her friend's negative, though Miss Fairfax
|
|
continued to assure her that she would not at present engage in any
|
|
thing, repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge
|
|
before.-- Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an
|
|
acquiescence by the morrow's post.--How Jane could bear it at all, was
|
|
astonishing to Emma.--She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly--and
|
|
at last, with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a
|
|
removal.-- "Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them
|
|
the gardens--all the gardens?--She wished to see the whole
|
|
extent."--The pertinacity of her friend seemed more than she could bear.
|
|
|
|
It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a
|
|
scattered, dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly
|
|
followed one another to the delicious shade of a broad short avenue of
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limes, which stretching beyond the garden at an equal distance from the
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river, seemed the finish of the pleasure grounds.-- It led to nothing;
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nothing but a view at the end over a low stone wall with high pillars,
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which seemed intended, in their erection, to give the appearance of an
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approach to the house, which never had been there. Disputable,
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however, as might be the taste of such a termination, it was in itself
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a charming walk, and the view which closed it extremely pretty.--The
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considerable slope, at nearly the foot of which the Abbey stood,
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gradually acquired a steeper form beyond its grounds; and at half a
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|
mile distant was a bank of considerable abruptness and grandeur, well
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clothed with wood;--and at the bottom of this bank, favourably placed
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and sheltered, rose the Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the
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river making a close and handsome curve around it.
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It was a sweet view--sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure,
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English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright, without
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being oppressive.
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In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled; and
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towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley and Harriet
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distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and
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Harriet!--It was an odd tete-a-tete; but she was glad to see it.--There
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had been a time when he would have scorned her as a companion, and
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turned from her with little ceremony. Now they seemed in pleasant
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conversation. There had been a time also when Emma would have been
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sorry to see Harriet in a spot so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm;
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but now she feared it not. It might be safely viewed with all its
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appendages of prosperity and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading
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flocks, orchard in blossom, and light column of smoke ascending.--She
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joined them at the wall, and found them more engaged in talking than in
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looking around. He was giving Harriet information as to modes of
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agriculture, etc. and Emma received a smile which seemed to say,
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"These are my own concerns. I have a right to talk on such subjects,
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without being suspected of introducing Robert Martin."--She did not
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suspect him. It was too old a story.--Robert Martin had probably
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ceased to think of Harriet.--They took a few turns together along the
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walk.--The shade was most refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest
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part of the day.
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The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;--and
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they were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did not come.
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Mrs. Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would not own
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himself uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could not be cured of
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wishing that he would part with his black mare. He had expressed
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|
himself as to coming, with more than common certainty. "His aunt was
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so much better, that he had not a doubt of getting over to them."--Mrs.
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Churchill's state, however, as many were ready to remind her, was
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|
liable to such sudden variation as might disappoint her nephew in the
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|
most reasonable dependence--and Mrs. Weston was at last persuaded to
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believe, or to say, that it must be by some attack of Mrs. Churchill
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that he was prevented coming.-- Emma looked at Harriet while the point
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|
was under consideration; she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.
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The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more to see
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what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds; perhaps get as
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|
far as the clover, which was to be begun cutting on the morrow, or, at
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|
any rate, have the pleasure of being hot, and growing cool again.--Mr.
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Woodhouse, who had already taken his little round in the highest part
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|
of the gardens, where no damps from the river were imagined even by
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|
him, stirred no more; and his daughter resolved to remain with him,
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|
that Mrs. Weston might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise
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and variety which her spirits seemed to need.
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Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse's
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entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals,
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shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets, had been
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|
prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning; and the
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|
kindness had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been exceedingly
|
|
well amused. Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him, and now he
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|
would shew them all to Emma;--fortunate in having no other resemblance
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|
to a child, than in a total want of taste for what he saw, for he was
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slow, constant, and methodical.--Before this second looking over was
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|
begun, however, Emma walked into the hall for the sake of a few
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|
moments' free observation of the entrance and ground-plot of the
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|
house--and was hardly there, when Jane Fairfax appeared, coming quickly
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|
in from the garden, and with a look of escape.-- Little expecting to
|
|
meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there was a start at first; but Miss
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|
Woodhouse was the very person she was in quest of.
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"Will you be so kind," said she, "when I am missed, as to say that I am
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|
gone home?--I am going this moment.--My aunt is not aware how late it
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|
is, nor how long we have been absent--but I am sure we shall be wanted,
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|
and I am determined to go directly.--I have said nothing about it to
|
|
any body. It would only be giving trouble and distress. Some are gone
|
|
to the ponds, and some to the lime walk. Till they all come in I shall
|
|
not be missed; and when they do, will you have the goodness to say that
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|
I am gone?"
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"Certainly, if you wish it;--but you are not going to walk to Highbury
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alone?"
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"Yes--what should hurt me?--I walk fast. I shall be at home in twenty
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|
minutes."
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"But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone. Let my
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|
father's servant go with you.--Let me order the carriage. It can be
|
|
round in five minutes."
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"Thank you, thank you--but on no account.--I would rather walk.-- And
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|
for _me_ to be afraid of walking alone!--I, who may so soon have to
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|
guard others!"
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|
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She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied, "That
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|
can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now. I must order
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|
the carriage. The heat even would be danger.--You are fatigued
|
|
already."
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|
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"I am,"--she answered--"I am fatigued; but it is not the sort of
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|
fatigue--quick walking will refresh me.--Miss Woodhouse, we all know at
|
|
times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess, are
|
|
exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let me
|
|
have my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary."
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|
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|
Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering into
|
|
her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately, and watched
|
|
her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting look was
|
|
grateful--and her parting words, "Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of
|
|
being sometimes alone!"--seemed to burst from an overcharged heart, and
|
|
to describe somewhat of the continual endurance to be practised by her,
|
|
even towards some of those who loved her best.
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|
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|
"Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!" said Emma, as she turned back into
|
|
the hall again. "I do pity you. And the more sensibility you betray
|
|
of their just horrors, the more I shall like you."
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|
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|
Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only
|
|
accomplished some views of St. Mark's Place, Venice, when Frank
|
|
Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him, she had
|
|
forgotten to think of him--but she was very glad to see him. Mrs.
|
|
Weston would be at ease. The black mare was blameless; _they_ were
|
|
right who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause. He had been detained
|
|
by a temporary increase of illness in her; a nervous seizure, which had
|
|
lasted some hours--and he had quite given up every thought of coming,
|
|
till very late;--and had he known how hot a ride he should have, and
|
|
how late, with all his hurry, he must be, he believed he should not
|
|
have come at all. The heat was excessive; he had never suffered any
|
|
thing like it--almost wished he had staid at home--nothing killed him
|
|
like heat--he could bear any degree of cold, etc., but heat was
|
|
intolerable--and he sat down, at the greatest possible distance from
|
|
the slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse's fire, looking very deplorable.
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|
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|
"You will soon be cooler, if you sit still," said Emma.
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|
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|
"As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very ill be
|
|
spared--but such a point had been made of my coming! You will all be
|
|
going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up. I met _one_ as I
|
|
came--Madness in such weather!--absolute madness!"
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|
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|
Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill's
|
|
state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being out of
|
|
humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot. Such might
|
|
be his constitution; and as she knew that eating and drinking were
|
|
often the cure of such incidental complaints, she recommended his
|
|
taking some refreshment; he would find abundance of every thing in the
|
|
dining-room--and she humanely pointed out the door.
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|
|
|
"No--he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make him
|
|
hotter." In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour; and
|
|
muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned all
|
|
her attention to her father, saying in secret--
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|
|
|
"I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a man
|
|
who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet's sweet easy
|
|
temper will not mind it."
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|
|
|
He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came
|
|
back all the better--grown quite cool--and, with good manners, like
|
|
himself--able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest in their
|
|
employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he should be so late.
|
|
He was not in his best spirits, but seemed trying to improve them; and,
|
|
at last, made himself talk nonsense very agreeably. They were looking
|
|
over views in Swisserland.
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|
|
|
"As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad," said he. "I shall
|
|
never be easy till I have seen some of these places. You will have my
|
|
sketches, some time or other, to look at--or my tour to read--or my
|
|
poem. I shall do something to expose myself."
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|
|
|
"That may be--but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will never go to
|
|
Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow you to leave
|
|
England."
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|
|
|
"They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed for
|
|
her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad. I
|
|
assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning, that I
|
|
shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired of doing nothing.
|
|
I want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse, whatever your
|
|
penetrating eyes may fancy--I am sick of England-- and would leave it
|
|
to-morrow, if I could."
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|
|
|
"You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent a few
|
|
hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?"
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|
|
|
"_I_ sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken. I do
|
|
not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am thwarted
|
|
in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all a fortunate
|
|
person."
|
|
|
|
"You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came. Go
|
|
and eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well. Another
|
|
slice of cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water, will make you
|
|
nearly on a par with the rest of us."
|
|
|
|
"No--I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure."
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|
|
|
"We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;--you will join us. It is not
|
|
Swisserland, but it will be something for a young man so much in want
|
|
of a change. You will stay, and go with us?"
|
|
|
|
"No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening."
|
|
|
|
"But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning."
|
|
|
|
"No--It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross."
|
|
|
|
"Then pray stay at Richmond."
|
|
|
|
"But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think of
|
|
you all there without me."
|
|
|
|
"These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself. Chuse your
|
|
own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more."
|
|
|
|
The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected.
|
|
With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill; others
|
|
took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress and
|
|
disturbance on Miss Fairfax's disappearance being explained. That it
|
|
was time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with a short
|
|
final arrangement for the next day's scheme, they parted. Frank
|
|
Churchill's little inclination to exclude himself increased so much,
|
|
that his last words to Emma were,
|
|
|
|
"Well;--if _you_ wish me to stay and join the party, I will."
|
|
|
|
She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from
|
|
Richmond was to take him back before the following evening.
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|
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|
CHAPTER VII
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|
They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward
|
|
circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in
|
|
favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating
|
|
safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every body was in good
|
|
time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece, with
|
|
the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs. Weston remained with Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when they got there.
|
|
Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and every body
|
|
had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general amount
|
|
of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of
|
|
spirits, a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated
|
|
too much into parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took
|
|
charge of Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank
|
|
Churchill. And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise
|
|
better. It seemed at first an accidental division, but it never
|
|
materially varied. Mr. and Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness
|
|
to mix, and be as agreeable as they could; but during the two whole
|
|
hours that were spent on the hill, there seemed a principle of
|
|
separation, between the other parties, too strong for any fine
|
|
prospects, or any cold collation, or any cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
|
|
|
|
At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank
|
|
Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing--looked
|
|
without seeing--admired without intelligence--listened without knowing
|
|
what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that Harriet
|
|
should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.
|
|
|
|
When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better,
|
|
for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first
|
|
object. Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to
|
|
her. To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he
|
|
cared for--and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered,
|
|
was gay and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement, the
|
|
admission to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first and most
|
|
animating period of their acquaintance; but which now, in her own
|
|
estimation, meant nothing, though in the judgment of most people
|
|
looking on it must have had such an appearance as no English word but
|
|
flirtation could very well describe. "Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss
|
|
Woodhouse flirted together excessively." They were laying themselves
|
|
open to that very phrase--and to having it sent off in a letter to
|
|
Maple Grove by one lady, to Ireland by another. Not that Emma was gay
|
|
and thoughtless from any real felicity; it was rather because she felt
|
|
less happy than she had expected. She laughed because she was
|
|
disappointed; and though she liked him for his attentions, and thought
|
|
them all, whether in friendship, admiration, or playfulness, extremely
|
|
judicious, they were not winning back her heart. She still intended
|
|
him for her friend.
|
|
|
|
"How much I am obliged to you," said he, "for telling me to come
|
|
to-day!-- If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all
|
|
the happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about, except that
|
|
you were too late for the best strawberries. I was a kinder friend
|
|
than you deserved. But you were humble. You begged hard to be
|
|
commanded to come."
|
|
|
|
"Don't say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me."
|
|
|
|
"It is hotter to-day."
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|
|
|
"Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day."
|
|
|
|
"You are comfortable because you are under command."
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|
|
|
"Your command?--Yes."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had,
|
|
somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your own
|
|
management; but to-day you are got back again--and as I cannot be
|
|
always with you, it is best to believe your temper under your own
|
|
command rather than mine."
|
|
|
|
"It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without a
|
|
motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can be always
|
|
with me. You are always with me."
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|
|
|
"Dating from three o'clock yesterday. My perpetual influence could not
|
|
begin earlier, or you would not have been so much out of humour before."
|
|
|
|
"Three o'clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen you
|
|
first in February."
|
|
|
|
"Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)--
|
|
nobody speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be talking
|
|
nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people."
|
|
|
|
"I say nothing of which I am ashamed," replied he, with lively
|
|
impudence. "I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill
|
|
hear me if they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side,
|
|
and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February." And then
|
|
whispering-- "Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do
|
|
to rouse them? Any nonsense will serve. They _shall_ talk. Ladies
|
|
and gentlemen, I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is,
|
|
presides) to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking
|
|
of?"
|
|
|
|
Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great
|
|
deal; Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse's presiding; Mr.
|
|
Knightley's answer was the most distinct.
|
|
|
|
"Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are all
|
|
thinking of?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no, no"--cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could-- "Upon
|
|
no account in the world. It is the very last thing I would stand the
|
|
brunt of just now. Let me hear any thing rather than what you are all
|
|
thinking of. I will not say quite all. There are one or two, perhaps,
|
|
(glancing at Mr. Weston and Harriet,) whose thoughts I might not be
|
|
afraid of knowing."
|
|
|
|
"It is a sort of thing," cried Mrs. Elton emphatically, "which _I_
|
|
should not have thought myself privileged to inquire into. Though,
|
|
perhaps, as the _Chaperon_ of the party-- _I_ never was in any
|
|
circle--exploring parties--young ladies--married women--"
|
|
|
|
Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured, in reply,
|
|
|
|
"Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed--quite unheard of--
|
|
but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke. Every
|
|
body knows what is due to _you_."
|
|
|
|
"It will not do," whispered Frank to Emma; "they are most of them
|
|
affronted. I will attack them with more address. Ladies and
|
|
gentlemen--I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she waives her
|
|
right of knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of, and only
|
|
requires something very entertaining from each of you, in a general
|
|
way. Here are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she is pleased to
|
|
say, am very entertaining already,) and she only demands from each of
|
|
you either one thing very clever, be it prose or verse, original or
|
|
repeated--or two things moderately clever--or three things very dull
|
|
indeed, and she engages to laugh heartily at them all."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! very well," exclaimed Miss Bates, "then I need not be uneasy.
|
|
'Three things very dull indeed.' That will just do for me, you know.
|
|
I shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open my
|
|
mouth, shan't I? (looking round with the most good-humoured dependence
|
|
on every body's assent)--Do not you all think I shall?"
|
|
|
|
Emma could not resist.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! ma'am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me--but you will be
|
|
limited as to number--only three at once."
|
|
|
|
Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not
|
|
immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could not
|
|
anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!--well--to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr.
|
|
Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make myself very
|
|
disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing to an old friend."
|
|
|
|
"I like your plan," cried Mr. Weston. "Agreed, agreed. I will do my
|
|
best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?"
|
|
|
|
"Low, I am afraid, sir, very low," answered his son;--"but we shall be
|
|
indulgent--especially to any one who leads the way."
|
|
|
|
"No, no," said Emma, "it will not reckon low. A conundrum of Mr.
|
|
Weston's shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir, pray let
|
|
me hear it."
|
|
|
|
"I doubt its being very clever myself," said Mr. Weston. "It is too
|
|
much a matter of fact, but here it is.--What two letters of the
|
|
alphabet are there, that express perfection?"
|
|
|
|
"What two letters!--express perfection! I am sure I do not know."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will never
|
|
guess.--I will tell you.--M. and A.--Em-ma.--Do you understand?"
|
|
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Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very
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indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh at and
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enjoy in it--and so did Frank and Harriet.--It did not seem to touch
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the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid about it, and
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Mr. Knightley gravely said,
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"This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston
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has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every body
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else. _Perfection_ should not have come quite so soon."
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"Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused," said Mrs. Elton; "_I_
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really cannot attempt--I am not at all fond of the sort of thing. I
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had an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not at
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all pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!-- You
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know who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things are very
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well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire; but quite out of
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place, in my opinion, when one is exploring about the country in
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summer. Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I am not one of those who have
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witty things at every body's service. I do not pretend to be a wit. I
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have a great deal of vivacity in my own way, but I really must be
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allowed to judge when to speak and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if
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you please, Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself.
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We have nothing clever to say--not one of us.
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"Yes, yes, pray pass _me_," added her husband, with a sort of sneering
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consciousness; "_I_ have nothing to say that can entertain Miss
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Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man--quite good
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for nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?"
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"With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long on one
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spot. Come, Jane, take my other arm."
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Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off. "Happy
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couple!" said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out of
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hearing:--"How well they suit one another!--Very lucky--marrying as
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they did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!--They
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only knew each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly
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|
lucky!--for as to any real knowledge of a person's disposition that
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Bath, or any public place, can give--it is all nothing; there can be no
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knowledge. It is only by seeing women in their own homes, among their
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own set, just as they always are, that you can form any just judgment.
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Short of that, it is all guess and luck--and will generally be
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ill-luck. How many a man has committed himself on a short acquaintance,
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and rued it all the rest of his life!"
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Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her own
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confederates, spoke now.
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"Such things do occur, undoubtedly."--She was stopped by a cough.
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Frank Churchill turned towards her to listen.
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"You were speaking," said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.
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"I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate
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circumstances do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot
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|
imagine them to be very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may
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arise--but there is generally time to recover from it afterwards. I
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|
would be understood to mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute
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characters, (whose happiness must be always at the mercy of chance,)
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|
who will suffer an unfortunate acquaintance to be an inconvenience, an
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|
oppression for ever."
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He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon
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|
afterwards said, in a lively tone,
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"Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever I
|
|
marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you? (turning
|
|
to Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?--I am sure I should like any
|
|
body fixed on by you. You provide for the family, you know, (with a
|
|
smile at his father). Find some body for me. I am in no hurry. Adopt
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her, educate her."
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"And make her like myself."
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"By all means, if you can."
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"Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming
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wife."
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"She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing
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|
else. I shall go abroad for a couple of years--and when I return, I
|
|
shall come to you for my wife. Remember."
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Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch
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|
every favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature
|
|
described? Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that
|
|
he wished. He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment;
|
|
who could say? Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.
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"Now, ma'am," said Jane to her aunt, "shall we join Mrs. Elton?"
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"If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready. I was
|
|
ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well. We shall
|
|
soon overtake her. There she is--no, that's somebody else. That's one
|
|
of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.-- Well, I
|
|
declare--"
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|
They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley. Mr.
|
|
Weston, his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young man's
|
|
spirits now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew tired at
|
|
last of flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather walking
|
|
quietly about with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, and
|
|
quite unattended to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful views
|
|
beneath her. The appearance of the servants looking out for them to
|
|
give notice of the carriages was a joyful sight; and even the bustle of
|
|
collecting and preparing to depart, and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to
|
|
have _her_ carriage first, were gladly endured, in the prospect of the
|
|
quiet drive home which was to close the very questionable enjoyments of
|
|
this day of pleasure. Such another scheme, composed of so many
|
|
ill-assorted people, she hoped never to be betrayed into again.
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|
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|
While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side.
|
|
He looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,
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|
|
|
"Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do: a
|
|
privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still use
|
|
it. I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance. How could
|
|
you be so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so insolent in
|
|
your wit to a woman of her character, age, and situation?-- Emma, I had
|
|
not thought it possible."
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|
|
|
Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.
|
|
|
|
"Nay, how could I help saying what I did?--Nobody could have helped it.
|
|
It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me."
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|
|
|
"I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked of
|
|
it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it--with what
|
|
candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her honouring your
|
|
forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions, as she was for
|
|
ever receiving from yourself and your father, when her society must be
|
|
so irksome."
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|
|
|
"Oh!" cried Emma, "I know there is not a better creature in the world:
|
|
but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are most
|
|
unfortunately blended in her."
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|
|
|
"They are blended," said he, "I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous,
|
|
I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous over
|
|
the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every harmless
|
|
absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you for any
|
|
liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation--but, Emma,
|
|
consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor; she has
|
|
sunk from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live to old age,
|
|
must probably sink more. Her situation should secure your compassion.
|
|
It was badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known from an infant,
|
|
whom she had seen grow up from a period when her notice was an honour,
|
|
to have you now, in thoughtless spirits, and the pride of the moment,
|
|
laugh at her, humble her--and before her niece, too--and before others,
|
|
many of whom (certainly _some_,) would be entirely guided by _your_
|
|
treatment of her.--This is not pleasant to you, Emma--and it is very
|
|
far from pleasant to me; but I must, I will,--I will tell you truths
|
|
while I can; satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful
|
|
counsel, and trusting that you will some time or other do me greater
|
|
justice than you can do now."
|
|
|
|
While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage; it was
|
|
ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in. He had
|
|
misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted, and her
|
|
tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger against herself,
|
|
mortification, and deep concern. She had not been able to speak; and,
|
|
on entering the carriage, sunk back for a moment overcome--then
|
|
reproaching herself for having taken no leave, making no
|
|
acknowledgment, parting in apparent sullenness, she looked out with
|
|
voice and hand eager to shew a difference; but it was just too late.
|
|
He had turned away, and the horses were in motion. She continued to
|
|
look back, but in vain; and soon, with what appeared unusual speed,
|
|
they were half way down the hill, and every thing left far behind. She
|
|
was vexed beyond what could have been expressed--almost beyond what she
|
|
could conceal. Never had she felt so agitated, mortified, grieved, at
|
|
any circumstance in her life. She was most forcibly struck. The truth
|
|
of this representation there was no denying. She felt it at her heart.
|
|
How could she have been so brutal, so cruel to Miss Bates! How could
|
|
she have exposed herself to such ill opinion in any one she valued!
|
|
And how suffer him to leave her without saying one word of gratitude,
|
|
of concurrence, of common kindness!
|
|
|
|
Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed but to
|
|
feel it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it was not
|
|
necessary to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not in spirits
|
|
herself, fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma felt the tears
|
|
running down her cheeks almost all the way home, without being at any
|
|
trouble to check them, extraordinary as they were.
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER VIII
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|
The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma's thoughts all the
|
|
evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she
|
|
could not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different
|
|
ways, might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was
|
|
a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational
|
|
satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection, than
|
|
any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with her
|
|
father, was felicity to it. _There_, indeed, lay real pleasure, for
|
|
there she was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four to his
|
|
comfort; and feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree of his fond
|
|
affection and confiding esteem, she could not, in her general conduct,
|
|
be open to any severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she was not
|
|
without a heart. She hoped no one could have said to her, "How could
|
|
you be so unfeeling to your father?-- I must, I will tell you truths
|
|
while I can." Miss Bates should never again--no, never! If attention,
|
|
in future, could do away the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She
|
|
had been often remiss, her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps,
|
|
more in thought than fact; scornful, ungracious. But it should be so
|
|
no more. In the warmth of true contrition, she would call upon her the
|
|
very next morning, and it should be the beginning, on her side, of a
|
|
regular, equal, kindly intercourse.
|
|
|
|
She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early, that
|
|
nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought, that she
|
|
might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might come in while
|
|
she were paying her visit. She had no objection. She would not be
|
|
ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly and truly hers.
|
|
Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she saw him not.
|
|
|
|
"The ladies were all at home." She had never rejoiced at the sound
|
|
before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs,
|
|
with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation, or of
|
|
deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.
|
|
|
|
There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking.
|
|
She heard Miss Bates's voice, something was to be done in a hurry; the
|
|
maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased to wait
|
|
a moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and niece seemed
|
|
both escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had a distinct glimpse
|
|
of, looking extremely ill; and, before the door had shut them out, she
|
|
heard Miss Bates saying, "Well, my dear, I shall _say_ you are laid
|
|
down upon the bed, and I am sure you are ill enough."
|
|
|
|
Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she did
|
|
not quite understand what was going on.
|
|
|
|
"I am afraid Jane is not very well," said she, "but I do not know; they
|
|
_tell_ me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently,
|
|
Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone.
|
|
I am very little able--Have you a chair, ma'am? Do you sit where you
|
|
like? I am sure she will be here presently."
|
|
|
|
Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment's fear of Miss Bates
|
|
keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came--"Very happy and
|
|
obliged"--but Emma's conscience told her that there was not the same
|
|
cheerful volubility as before--less ease of look and manner. A very
|
|
friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead the way to a
|
|
return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!--I suppose you have heard--and
|
|
are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy, indeed, in
|
|
me--(twinkling away a tear or two)--but it will be very trying for us
|
|
to part with her, after having had her so long, and she has a dreadful
|
|
headache just now, writing all the morning:--such long letters, you
|
|
know, to be written to Colonel Campbell, and Mrs. Dixon. 'My dear,'
|
|
said I, 'you will blind yourself'--for tears were in her eyes
|
|
perpetually. One cannot wonder, one cannot wonder. It is a great
|
|
change; and though she is amazingly fortunate--such a situation, I
|
|
suppose, as no young woman before ever met with on first going out--do
|
|
not think us ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good
|
|
fortune--(again dispersing her tears)--but, poor dear soul! if you were
|
|
to see what a headache she has. When one is in great pain, you know
|
|
one cannot feel any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as
|
|
possible. To look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy
|
|
she is to have secured such a situation. You will excuse her not
|
|
coming to you--she is not able--she is gone into her own room--I want
|
|
her to lie down upon the bed. 'My dear,' said I, 'I shall say you are
|
|
laid down upon the bed:' but, however, she is not; she is walking
|
|
about the room. But, now that she has written her letters, she says
|
|
she shall soon be well. She will be extremely sorry to miss seeing
|
|
you, Miss Woodhouse, but your kindness will excuse her. You were kept
|
|
waiting at the door--I was quite ashamed--but somehow there was a
|
|
little bustle--for it so happened that we had not heard the knock, and
|
|
till you were on the stairs, we did not know any body was coming. 'It
|
|
is only Mrs. Cole,' said I, 'depend upon it. Nobody else would come so
|
|
early.' 'Well,' said she, 'it must be borne some time or other, and it
|
|
may as well be now.' But then Patty came in, and said it was you.
|
|
'Oh!' said I, 'it is Miss Woodhouse: I am sure you will like to see
|
|
her.'-- 'I can see nobody,' said she; and up she got, and would go
|
|
away; and that was what made us keep you waiting--and extremely sorry
|
|
and ashamed we were. 'If you must go, my dear,' said I, 'you must, and
|
|
I will say you are laid down upon the bed.'"
|
|
|
|
Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing
|
|
kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted
|
|
as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing
|
|
but pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle
|
|
sensations of the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very
|
|
naturally resolve on seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend, when
|
|
she might not bear to see herself. She spoke as she felt, with earnest
|
|
regret and solicitude--sincerely wishing that the circumstances which
|
|
she collected from Miss Bates to be now actually determined on, might
|
|
be as much for Miss Fairfax's advantage and comfort as possible. "It
|
|
must be a severe trial to them all. She had understood it was to be
|
|
delayed till Colonel Campbell's return."
|
|
|
|
"So very kind!" replied Miss Bates. "But you are always kind."
|
|
|
|
There was no bearing such an "always;" and to break through her
|
|
dreadful gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of--
|
|
|
|
"Where--may I ask?--is Miss Fairfax going?"
|
|
|
|
"To a Mrs. Smallridge--charming woman--most superior--to have the
|
|
charge of her three little girls--delightful children. Impossible that
|
|
any situation could be more replete with comfort; if we except,
|
|
perhaps, Mrs. Suckling's own family, and Mrs. Bragge's; but Mrs.
|
|
Smallridge is intimate with both, and in the very same
|
|
neighbourhood:--lives only four miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be
|
|
only four miles from Maple Grove."
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes--"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend. She
|
|
would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, 'No;' for when
|
|
Jane first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday, the very
|
|
morning we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it, she was quite
|
|
decided against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mention;
|
|
exactly as you say, she had made up her mind to close with nothing till
|
|
Colonel Campbell's return, and nothing should induce her to enter into
|
|
any engagement at present--and so she told Mrs. Elton over and over
|
|
again--and I am sure I had no more idea that she would change her
|
|
mind!--but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw
|
|
farther than I did. It is not every body that would have stood out in
|
|
such a kind way as she did, and refuse to take Jane's answer; but she
|
|
positively declared she would _not_ write any such denial yesterday, as
|
|
Jane wished her; she would wait--and, sure enough, yesterday evening it
|
|
was all settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had
|
|
not the least idea!--Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once,
|
|
that upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge's situation,
|
|
she had come to the resolution of accepting it.--I did not know a word
|
|
of it till it was all settled."
|
|
|
|
"You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so,
|
|
upon the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley. 'You
|
|
_must_ _all_ spend your evening with us,' said she--'I positively must
|
|
have you _all_ come.'"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?"
|
|
|
|
"No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I
|
|
thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let
|
|
him off, he did not;--but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there,
|
|
and a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know, Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body seemed
|
|
rather fagged after the morning's party. Even pleasure, you know, is
|
|
fatiguing--and I cannot say that any of them seemed very much to have
|
|
enjoyed it. However, _I_ shall always think it a very pleasant party,
|
|
and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends who included me in it."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been
|
|
making up her mind the whole day?"
|
|
|
|
"I dare say she had."
|
|
|
|
"Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all her
|
|
friends--but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation that is
|
|
possible--I mean, as to the character and manners of the family."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing in
|
|
the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings and
|
|
Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment, so liberal
|
|
and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton's acquaintance. Mrs. Smallridge, a most
|
|
delightful woman!--A style of living almost equal to Maple Grove--and
|
|
as to the children, except the little Sucklings and little Bragges,
|
|
there are not such elegant sweet children anywhere. Jane will be
|
|
treated with such regard and kindness!-- It will be nothing but
|
|
pleasure, a life of pleasure.--And her salary!-- I really cannot
|
|
venture to name her salary to you, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, used as
|
|
you are to great sums, would hardly believe that so much could be given
|
|
to a young person like Jane."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! madam," cried Emma, "if other children are at all like what I
|
|
remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount of
|
|
what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions, dearly
|
|
earned."
|
|
|
|
"You are so noble in your ideas!"
|
|
|
|
"And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?"
|
|
|
|
"Very soon, very soon, indeed; that's the worst of it. Within a
|
|
fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor mother does
|
|
not know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of her thoughts,
|
|
and say, Come ma'am, do not let us think about it any more."
|
|
|
|
"Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel and
|
|
Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself before
|
|
their return?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such a
|
|
situation as she cannot feel herself justified in declining. I was so
|
|
astonished when she first told me what she had been saying to Mrs.
|
|
Elton, and when Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating me
|
|
upon it! It was before tea--stay--no, it could not be before tea,
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because we were just going to cards--and yet it was before tea, because
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I remember thinking--Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it; something
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happened before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the
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room before tea, old John Abdy's son wanted to speak with him. Poor
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old John, I have a great regard for him; he was clerk to my poor father
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twenty-seven years; and now, poor old man, he is bed-ridden, and very
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poorly with the rheumatic gout in his joints-- I must go and see him
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to-day; and so will Jane, I am sure, if she gets out at all. And poor
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John's son came to talk to Mr. Elton about relief from the parish; he
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is very well to do himself, you know, being head man at the Crown,
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ostler, and every thing of that sort, but still he cannot keep his
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father without some help; and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us
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what John ostler had been telling him, and then it came out about the
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chaise having been sent to Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to
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Richmond. That was what happened before tea. It was after tea that
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Jane spoke to Mrs. Elton."
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Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly new this
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circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it possible that she
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could be ignorant of any of the particulars of Mr. Frank Churchill's
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going, she proceeded to give them all, it was of no consequence.
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What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the
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accumulation of the ostler's own knowledge, and the knowledge of the
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servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over from Richmond
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soon after the return of the party from Box Hill--which messenger,
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however, had been no more than was expected; and that Mr. Churchill had
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sent his nephew a few lines, containing, upon the whole, a tolerable
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account of Mrs. Churchill, and only wishing him not to delay coming
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back beyond the next morning early; but that Mr. Frank Churchill having
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resolved to go home directly, without waiting at all, and his horse
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seeming to have got a cold, Tom had been sent off immediately for the
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Crown chaise, and the ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy
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going a good pace, and driving very steady.
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There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest, and it
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caught Emma's attention only as it united with the subject which
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already engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill's
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importance in the world, and Jane Fairfax's, struck her; one was every
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thing, the other nothing--and she sat musing on the difference of
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woman's destiny, and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed,
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till roused by Miss Bates's saying,
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"Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to
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become of that?--Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just
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now.-- 'You must go,' said she. 'You and I must part. You will have
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no business here.--Let it stay, however,' said she; 'give it houseroom
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till Colonel Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him; he
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will settle for me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.'-- And
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to this day, I do believe, she knows not whether it was his present or
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his daughter's."
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Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance of
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all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing,
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that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been long
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enough; and, with a repetition of every thing that she could venture to
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say of the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.
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CHAPTER IX
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Emma's pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted;
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but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr.
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Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting
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with her father.--Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner
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decidedly graver than usual, said,
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"I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare,
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and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London, to
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spend a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to send or
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say, besides the 'love,' which nobody carries?"
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"Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?"
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"Yes--rather--I have been thinking of it some little time."
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Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself. Time,
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however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be friends
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again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going--her father
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began his inquiries.
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"Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?--And how did you find my
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worthy old friend and her daughter?--I dare say they must have been
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very much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been to call on
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Mrs. and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before. She is
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always so attentive to them!"
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Emma's colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a smile,
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and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr. Knightley.--
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It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in her favour,
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as if his eyes received the truth from her's, and all that had passed
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of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.-- He looked
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at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified--and in
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another moment still more so, by a little movement of more than common
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friendliness on his part.--He took her hand;--whether she had not
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herself made the first motion, she could not say--she might, perhaps,
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have rather offered it--but he took her hand, pressed it, and certainly
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was on the point of carrying it to his lips--when, from some fancy or
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other, he suddenly let it go.--Why he should feel such a scruple, why
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he should change his mind when it was all but done, she could not
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perceive.--He would have judged better, she thought, if he had not
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stopped.--The intention, however, was indubitable; and whether it was
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|
that his manners had in general so little gallantry, or however else it
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happened, but she thought nothing became him more.-- It was with him,
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of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.-- She could not but recall the
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attempt with great satisfaction. It spoke such perfect amity.--He left
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them immediately afterwards--gone in a moment. He always moved with
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the alertness of a mind which could neither be undecided nor dilatory,
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but now he seemed more sudden than usual in his disappearance.
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Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished she
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had left her ten minutes earlier;--it would have been a great pleasure
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to talk over Jane Fairfax's situation with Mr. Knightley.-- Neither
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would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square, for she
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|
knew how much his visit would be enjoyed--but it might have happened at
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a better time--and to have had longer notice of it, would have been
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pleasanter.--They parted thorough friends, however; she could not be
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deceived as to the meaning of his countenance, and his unfinished
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gallantry;--it was all done to assure her that she had fully recovered
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his good opinion.--He had been sitting with them half an hour, she
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|
found. It was a pity that she had not come back earlier!
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In the hope of diverting her father's thoughts from the
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disagreeableness of Mr. Knightley's going to London; and going so
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suddenly; and going on horseback, which she knew would be all very bad;
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Emma communicated her news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence on the
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|
effect was justified; it supplied a very useful check,--interested,
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|
without disturbing him. He had long made up his mind to Jane Fairfax's
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going out as governess, and could talk of it cheerfully, but Mr.
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Knightley's going to London had been an unexpected blow.
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"I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so comfortably
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settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable, and I dare say
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her acquaintance are just what they ought to be. I hope it is a dry
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|
situation, and that her health will be taken good care of. It ought to
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be a first object, as I am sure poor Miss Taylor's always was with me.
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|
You know, my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor
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|
was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect, and not
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|
be induced to go away after it has been her home so long."
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The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every thing else
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|
into the background. An express arrived at Randalls to announce the
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|
death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew had had no particular
|
|
reason to hasten back on her account, she had not lived above
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|
six-and-thirty hours after his return. A sudden seizure of a different
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nature from any thing foreboded by her general state, had carried her
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|
off after a short struggle. The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.
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It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a degree of
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gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed, solicitude for the
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surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time, curiosity to know where
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she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us, that when lovely woman stoops
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to folly, she has nothing to do but to die; and when she stoops to be
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|
disagreeable, it is equally to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame.
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|
Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was
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|
now spoken of with compassionate allowances. In one point she was
|
|
fully justified. She had never been admitted before to be seriously
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|
ill. The event acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the
|
|
selfishness of imaginary complaints.
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"Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal:
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|
more than any body had ever supposed--and continual pain would try the
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|
temper. It was a sad event--a great shock--with all her faults, what
|
|
would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill's loss would be
|
|
dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it."-- Even Mr.
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|
Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said, "Ah! poor woman,
|
|
who would have thought it!" and resolved, that his mourning should be
|
|
as handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing and moralising over
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|
her broad hems with a commiseration and good sense, true and steady.
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|
How it would affect Frank was among the earliest thoughts of both. It
|
|
was also a very early speculation with Emma. The character of Mrs.
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|
Churchill, the grief of her husband--her mind glanced over them both
|
|
with awe and compassion--and then rested with lightened feelings on how
|
|
Frank might be affected by the event, how benefited, how freed. She
|
|
saw in a moment all the possible good. Now, an attachment to Harriet
|
|
Smith would have nothing to encounter. Mr. Churchill, independent of
|
|
his wife, was feared by nobody; an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded
|
|
into any thing by his nephew. All that remained to be wished was, that
|
|
the nephew should form the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the
|
|
cause, Emma could feel no certainty of its being already formed.
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|
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|
Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great
|
|
self-command. What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed
|
|
nothing. Emma was gratified, to observe such a proof in her of
|
|
strengthened character, and refrained from any allusion that might
|
|
endanger its maintenance. They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill's
|
|
death with mutual forbearance.
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|
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|
Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating all
|
|
that was immediately important of their state and plans. Mr. Churchill
|
|
was better than could be expected; and their first removal, on the
|
|
departure of the funeral for Yorkshire, was to be to the house of a
|
|
very old friend in Windsor, to whom Mr. Churchill had been promising a
|
|
visit the last ten years. At present, there was nothing to be done for
|
|
Harriet; good wishes for the future were all that could yet be possible
|
|
on Emma's side.
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|
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|
It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose
|
|
prospects were closing, while Harriet's opened, and whose engagements
|
|
now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her
|
|
kindness--and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had
|
|
scarcely a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person,
|
|
whom she had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on
|
|
whom she would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy.
|
|
She wanted to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society,
|
|
and testify respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her
|
|
to spend a day at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The
|
|
invitation was refused, and by a verbal message. "Miss Fairfax was not
|
|
well enough to write;" and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same
|
|
morning, it appeared that she was so much indisposed as to have been
|
|
visited, though against her own consent, by himself, and that she was
|
|
suffering under severe headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree,
|
|
which made him doubt the possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge's
|
|
at the time proposed. Her health seemed for the moment completely
|
|
deranged--appetite quite gone--and though there were no absolutely
|
|
alarming symptoms, nothing touching the pulmonary complaint, which was
|
|
the standing apprehension of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about
|
|
her. He thought she had undertaken more than she was equal to, and
|
|
that she felt it so herself, though she would not own it. Her spirits
|
|
seemed overcome. Her present home, he could not but observe, was
|
|
unfavourable to a nervous disorder:--confined always to one room;--he
|
|
could have wished it otherwise--and her good aunt, though his very old
|
|
friend, he must acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid
|
|
of that description. Her care and attention could not be questioned;
|
|
they were, in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss
|
|
Fairfax derived more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the
|
|
warmest concern; grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager
|
|
to discover some way of being useful. To take her--be it only an hour
|
|
or two--from her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet
|
|
rational conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and
|
|
the following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling
|
|
language she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage
|
|
at any hour that Jane would name--mentioning that she had Mr. Perry's
|
|
decided opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The
|
|
answer was only in this short note:
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|
|
|
"Miss Fairfax's compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any
|
|
exercise."
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|
|
|
Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was
|
|
impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed
|
|
indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best
|
|
counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the
|
|
answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates's,
|
|
in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her--but it would not
|
|
do;--Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing
|
|
with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest
|
|
service--and every thing that message could do was tried--but all in
|
|
vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was quite
|
|
unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her
|
|
worse.--Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers;
|
|
but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear
|
|
that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in.
|
|
"Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any
|
|
body--any body at all-- Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied--and
|
|
Mrs. Cole had made such a point--and Mrs. Perry had said so much--but,
|
|
except them, Jane would really see nobody."
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|
|
|
Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys,
|
|
and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could
|
|
she feel any right of preference herself--she submitted, therefore,
|
|
and only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece's appetite and
|
|
diet, which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss
|
|
Bates was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat
|
|
any thing:-- Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing
|
|
they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was
|
|
distasteful.
|
|
|
|
Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an
|
|
examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality
|
|
was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In
|
|
half an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from
|
|
Miss Bates, but "dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being
|
|
sent back; it was a thing she could not take--and, moreover, she
|
|
insisted on her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing."
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|
|
|
When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering
|
|
about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of
|
|
the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any
|
|
exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage,
|
|
she could have no doubt--putting every thing together--that Jane was
|
|
resolved to receive no kindness from _her_. She was sorry, very sorry.
|
|
Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable
|
|
from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and
|
|
inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little
|
|
credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend:
|
|
but she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good,
|
|
and of being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been
|
|
privy to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have
|
|
seen into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any
|
|
thing to reprove.
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|
CHAPTER X
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|
One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill's decease, Emma was
|
|
called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who "could not stay five minutes, and
|
|
wanted particularly to speak with her."-- He met her at the
|
|
parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of
|
|
his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,
|
|
|
|
"Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?--Do, if it be
|
|
possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you."
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|
|
|
"Is she unwell?"
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|
|
|
"No, no, not at all--only a little agitated. She would have ordered
|
|
the carriage, and come to you, but she must see you _alone_, and that
|
|
you know--(nodding towards her father)--Humph!--Can you come?"
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|
|
"Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse
|
|
what you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?-- Is she
|
|
really not ill?"
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|
|
"Depend upon me--but ask no more questions. You will know it all in
|
|
time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!"
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|
To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something
|
|
really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was
|
|
well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her
|
|
father, that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon
|
|
out of the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.
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|
|
"Now,"--said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--"now
|
|
Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened."
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|
|
"No, no,"--he gravely replied.--"Don't ask me. I promised my wife to
|
|
leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do
|
|
not be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon."
|
|
|
|
"Break it to me," cried Emma, standing still with terror.-- "Good
|
|
God!--Mr. Weston, tell me at once.--Something has happened in Brunswick
|
|
Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what
|
|
it is."
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|
|
|
"No, indeed you are mistaken."--
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|
|
"Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.--Consider how many of my dearest
|
|
friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?-- I charge
|
|
you by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment."
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word, Emma."--
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|
"Your word!--why not your honour!--why not say upon your honour, that
|
|
it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!--What can be to
|
|
be _broke_ to me, that does not relate to one of that family?"
|
|
|
|
"Upon my honour," said he very seriously, "it does not. It is not in
|
|
the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of
|
|
Knightley."
|
|
|
|
Emma's courage returned, and she walked on.
|
|
|
|
"I was wrong," he continued, "in talking of its being _broke_ to you.
|
|
I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern
|
|
you--it concerns only myself,--that is, we hope.--Humph!--In short, my
|
|
dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don't say
|
|
that it is not a disagreeable business--but things might be much
|
|
worse.--If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls."
|
|
|
|
Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She
|
|
asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and
|
|
that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money
|
|
concern--something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the
|
|
circumstances of the family,--something which the late event at
|
|
Richmond had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen
|
|
natural children, perhaps--and poor Frank cut off!-- This, though very
|
|
undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little
|
|
more than an animating curiosity.
|
|
|
|
"Who is that gentleman on horseback?" said she, as they proceeded--
|
|
speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret, than with any
|
|
other view.
|
|
|
|
"I do not know.--One of the Otways.--Not Frank;--it is not Frank, I
|
|
assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this
|
|
time."
|
|
|
|
"Has your son been with you, then?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes--did not you know?--Well, well, never mind."
|
|
|
|
For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded
|
|
and demure,
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did."
|
|
|
|
They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--"Well, my dear," said
|
|
he, as they entered the room--"I have brought her, and now I hope you
|
|
will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in
|
|
delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me."-- And Emma distinctly
|
|
heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,--"I have
|
|
been as good as my word. She has not the least idea."
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|
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Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation,
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that Emma's uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she
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eagerly said,
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"What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I
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find, has occurred;--do let me know directly what it is. I have been
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walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense. Do
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not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your
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distress, whatever it may be."
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"Have you indeed no idea?" said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice.
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"Cannot you, my dear Emma--cannot you form a guess as to what you are
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to hear?"
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"So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess."
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"You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;"
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(resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) "He has
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been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is
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impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on
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a subject,--to announce an attachment--"
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She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of
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Harriet.
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"More than an attachment, indeed," resumed Mrs. Weston; "an
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engagement--a positive engagement.--What will you say, Emma--what will
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any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax
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are engaged;--nay, that they have been long engaged!"
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Emma even jumped with surprize;--and, horror-struck, exclaimed,
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"Jane Fairfax!--Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?"
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"You may well be amazed," returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her
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eyes, and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to
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recover-- "You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been
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a solemn engagement between them ever since October--formed at
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Weymouth, and kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it
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but themselves--neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.-- It is
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so wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet
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almost incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.-- I thought I
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knew him."
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Emma scarcely heard what was said.--Her mind was divided between two
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ideas--her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and
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poor Harriet;--and for some time she could only exclaim, and require
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confirmation, repeated confirmation.
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"Well," said she at last, trying to recover herself; "this is a
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circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at
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all comprehend it. What!--engaged to her all the winter--before
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either of them came to Highbury?"
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"Engaged since October,--secretly engaged.--It has hurt me, Emma, very
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much. It has hurt his father equally. _Some_ _part_ of his conduct we
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cannot excuse."
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Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, "I will not pretend _not_ to
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understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured
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that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are
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apprehensive of."
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Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma's countenance was as
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steady as her words.
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"That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my
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present perfect indifference," she continued, "I will farther tell you,
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that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I
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did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him--nay,
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was attached--and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder.
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Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past,
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for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may
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believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth."
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Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find
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utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good
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than any thing else in the world could do.
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"Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself," said she. "On
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this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you
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might be attached to each other--and we were persuaded that it was
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so.-- Imagine what we have been feeling on your account."
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"I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful
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wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit _him_, Mrs. Weston;
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and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he
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to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners so
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_very_ disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as he
|
|
certainly did--to distinguish any one young woman with persevering
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attention, as he certainly did--while he really belonged to
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another?--How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?-- How
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could he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?--very
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|
wrong, very wrong indeed."
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"From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--"
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"And how could _she_ bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness!
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to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman,
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before her face, and not resent it.--That is a degree of placidity,
|
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which I can neither comprehend nor respect."
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"There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly.
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He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a
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|
quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow the
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|
full use even of the time he could stay--but that there had been
|
|
misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed,
|
|
seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very
|
|
possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct."
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"Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston--it is too calm a censure. Much, much
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|
beyond impropriety!--It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him
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|
in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!-- None of that upright
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|
integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain
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|
of trick and littleness, which a man should display in every
|
|
transaction of his life."
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"Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong
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|
in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having
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|
many, very many, good qualities; and--"
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"Good God!" cried Emma, not attending to her.--"Mrs. Smallridge, too!
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|
Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean
|
|
by such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself--to
|
|
suffer her even to think of such a measure!"
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|
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|
"He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit
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|
him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him--or
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|
at least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.-- Till
|
|
yesterday, I know he said he was in the dark as to her plans. They
|
|
burst on him, I do not know how, but by some letter or message--and it
|
|
was the discovery of what she was doing, of this very project of hers,
|
|
which determined him to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle,
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|
throw himself on his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the
|
|
miserable state of concealment that had been carrying on so long."
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Emma began to listen better.
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"I am to hear from him soon," continued Mrs. Weston. "He told me at
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|
parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which
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|
seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let
|
|
us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations.
|
|
It may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to
|
|
be understood. Don't let us be severe, don't let us be in a hurry to
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|
condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am
|
|
satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious
|
|
for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must
|
|
both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and
|
|
concealment."
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|
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"_His_ sufferings," replied Emma dryly, "do not appear to have done him
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|
much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?"
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|
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|
"Most favourably for his nephew--gave his consent with scarcely a
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|
difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that
|
|
family! While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not
|
|
have been a hope, a chance, a possibility;--but scarcely are her
|
|
remains at rest in the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to
|
|
act exactly opposite to what she would have required. What a blessing
|
|
it is, when undue influence does not survive the grave!-- He gave his
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|
consent with very little persuasion."
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"Ah!" thought Emma, "he would have done as much for Harriet."
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|
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|
"This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this
|
|
morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates's, I fancy, some
|
|
time--and then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to
|
|
his uncle, to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I
|
|
tell you, he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.-- He was very
|
|
much agitated--very much, indeed--to a degree that made him appear
|
|
quite a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him
|
|
before.--In addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of
|
|
finding her so very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of--
|
|
and there was every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal."
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|
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|
"And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on with
|
|
such perfect secresy?--The Campbells, the Dixons, did none of them know
|
|
of the engagement?"
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|
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|
Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.
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|
"None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no being
|
|
in the world but their two selves."
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|
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|
"Well," said Emma, "I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled to the
|
|
idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always think it a very
|
|
abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been but a system of
|
|
hypocrisy and deceit,--espionage, and treachery?-- To come among us
|
|
with professions of openness and simplicity; and such a league in
|
|
secret to judge us all!--Here have we been, the whole winter and
|
|
spring, completely duped, fancying ourselves all on an equal footing of
|
|
truth and honour, with two people in the midst of us who may have been
|
|
carrying round, comparing and sitting in judgment on sentiments and
|
|
words that were never meant for both to hear.--They must take the
|
|
consequence, if they have heard each other spoken of in a way not
|
|
perfectly agreeable!"
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|
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|
"I am quite easy on that head," replied Mrs. Weston. "I am very sure
|
|
that I never said any thing of either to the other, which both might
|
|
not have heard."
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|
|
|
"You are in luck.--Your only blunder was confined to my ear, when you
|
|
imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady."
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|
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|
"True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss
|
|
Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her; and
|
|
as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe."
|
|
|
|
At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the
|
|
window, evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited
|
|
him in; and, while he was coming round, added, "Now, dearest Emma, let
|
|
me intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his heart at
|
|
ease, and incline him to be satisfied with the match. Let us make the
|
|
best of it--and, indeed, almost every thing may be fairly said in her
|
|
favour. It is not a connexion to gratify; but if Mr. Churchill does
|
|
not feel that, why should we? and it may be a very fortunate
|
|
circumstance for him, for Frank, I mean, that he should have attached
|
|
himself to a girl of such steadiness of character and good judgment as
|
|
I have always given her credit for--and still am disposed to give her
|
|
credit for, in spite of this one great deviation from the strict rule
|
|
of right. And how much may be said in her situation for even that
|
|
error!"
|
|
|
|
"Much, indeed!" cried Emma feelingly. "If a woman can ever be excused
|
|
for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation like Jane
|
|
Fairfax's.--Of such, one may almost say, that 'the world is not
|
|
their's, nor the world's law.'"
|
|
|
|
She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance,
|
|
exclaiming,
|
|
|
|
"A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word! This was
|
|
a device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity, and exercise my talent
|
|
of guessing. But you really frightened me. I thought you had lost
|
|
half your property, at least. And here, instead of its being a matter
|
|
of condolence, it turns out to be one of congratulation.--I
|
|
congratulate you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of
|
|
having one of the most lovely and accomplished young women in England
|
|
for your daughter."
|
|
|
|
A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was as
|
|
right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits
|
|
was immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness: he
|
|
shook her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered on the
|
|
subject in a manner to prove, that he now only wanted time and
|
|
persuasion to think the engagement no very bad thing. His companions
|
|
suggested only what could palliate imprudence, or smooth objections;
|
|
and by the time they had talked it all over together, and he had talked
|
|
it all over again with Emma, in their walk back to Hartfield, he was
|
|
become perfectly reconciled, and not far from thinking it the very best
|
|
thing that Frank could possibly have done.
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|
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|
CHAPTER XI
|
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"Harriet, poor Harriet!"--Those were the words; in them lay the
|
|
tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted
|
|
the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved
|
|
very ill by herself--very ill in many ways,--but it was not so much
|
|
_his_ behaviour as her _own_, which made her so angry with him. It was
|
|
the scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet's account, that gave
|
|
the deepest hue to his offence.--Poor Harriet! to be a second time the
|
|
dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken
|
|
prophetically, when he once said, "Emma, you have been no friend to
|
|
Harriet Smith."--She was afraid she had done her nothing but
|
|
disservice.--It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this
|
|
instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of
|
|
the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise
|
|
never have entered Harriet's imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged
|
|
her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever
|
|
given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty of
|
|
having encouraged what she might have repressed. She might have
|
|
prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments. Her
|
|
influence would have been enough. And now she was very conscious that
|
|
she ought to have prevented them.--She felt that she had been risking
|
|
her friend's happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common sense
|
|
would have directed her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow
|
|
herself to think of him, and that there were five hundred chances to
|
|
one against his ever caring for her.--"But, with common sense," she
|
|
added, "I am afraid I have had little to do."
|
|
|
|
She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been angry
|
|
with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.-- As for Jane
|
|
Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present
|
|
solicitude on her account. Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need
|
|
no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health
|
|
having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.--Her
|
|
days of insignificance and evil were over.--She would soon be well, and
|
|
happy, and prosperous.-- Emma could now imagine why her own attentions
|
|
had been slighted. This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No
|
|
doubt it had been from jealousy.--In Jane's eyes she had been a rival;
|
|
and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be
|
|
repulsed. An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the
|
|
rack, and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison.
|
|
She understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself
|
|
from the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged
|
|
that Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her
|
|
desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge! There was
|
|
little sympathy to be spared for any body else. Emma was sadly fearful
|
|
that this second disappointment would be more severe than the first.
|
|
Considering the very superior claims of the object, it ought; and
|
|
judging by its apparently stronger effect on Harriet's mind, producing
|
|
reserve and self-command, it would.-- She must communicate the painful
|
|
truth, however, and as soon as possible. An injunction of secresy had
|
|
been among Mr. Weston's parting words. "For the present, the whole
|
|
affair was to be completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point
|
|
of it, as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost;
|
|
and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum."-- Emma had
|
|
promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her superior duty.
|
|
|
|
In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost
|
|
ridiculous, that she should have the very same distressing and delicate
|
|
office to perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through
|
|
by herself. The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to
|
|
her, she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat
|
|
quick on hearing Harriet's footstep and voice; so, she supposed, had
|
|
poor Mrs. Weston felt when _she_ was approaching Randalls. Could the
|
|
event of the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!-- But of that,
|
|
unfortunately, there could be no chance.
|
|
|
|
"Well, Miss Woodhouse!" cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room--
|
|
"is not this the oddest news that ever was?"
|
|
|
|
"What news do you mean?" replied Emma, unable to guess, by look or
|
|
voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.
|
|
|
|
"About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange? Oh!--you
|
|
need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has told me
|
|
himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be a great secret;
|
|
and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning it to any body but
|
|
you, but he said you knew it."
|
|
|
|
"What did Mr. Weston tell you?"--said Emma, still perplexed.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill
|
|
are to be married, and that they have been privately engaged to one
|
|
another this long while. How very odd!"
|
|
|
|
It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet's behaviour was so extremely odd, that
|
|
Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared
|
|
absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation, or
|
|
disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked at
|
|
her, quite unable to speak.
|
|
|
|
"Had you any idea," cried Harriet, "of his being in love with
|
|
her?--You, perhaps, might.--You (blushing as she spoke) who can see
|
|
into every body's heart; but nobody else--"
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word," said Emma, "I begin to doubt my having any such talent.
|
|
Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached to
|
|
another woman at the very time that I was--tacitly, if not openly--
|
|
encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?--I never had the
|
|
slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank
|
|
Churchill's having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be very
|
|
sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly."
|
|
|
|
"Me!" cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. "Why should you
|
|
caution me?--You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill."
|
|
|
|
"I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject," replied
|
|
Emma, smiling; "but you do not mean to deny that there was a time--and
|
|
not very distant either--when you gave me reason to understand that you
|
|
did care about him?"
|
|
|
|
"Him!--never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake
|
|
me?" turning away distressed.
|
|
|
|
"Harriet!" cried Emma, after a moment's pause--"What do you mean?--
|
|
Good Heaven! what do you mean?--Mistake you!--Am I to suppose then?--"
|
|
|
|
She could not speak another word.--Her voice was lost; and she sat
|
|
down, waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.
|
|
|
|
Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned from
|
|
her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak, it was
|
|
in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma's.
|
|
|
|
"I should not have thought it possible," she began, "that you could
|
|
have misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him--but
|
|
considering how infinitely superior he is to every body else, I should
|
|
not have thought it possible that I could be supposed to mean any other
|
|
person. Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not know who would ever
|
|
look at him in the company of the other. I hope I have a better taste
|
|
than to think of Mr. Frank Churchill, who is like nobody by his side.
|
|
And that you should have been so mistaken, is amazing!--I am sure, but
|
|
for believing that you entirely approved and meant to encourage me in
|
|
my attachment, I should have considered it at first too great a
|
|
presumption almost, to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not
|
|
told me that more wonderful things had happened; that there had been
|
|
matches of greater disparity (those were your very words);-- I should
|
|
not have dared to give way to--I should not have thought it
|
|
possible--But if _you_, who had been always acquainted with him--"
|
|
|
|
"Harriet!" cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely--"Let us
|
|
understand each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake.
|
|
Are you speaking of--Mr. Knightley?"
|
|
|
|
"To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else--and so
|
|
I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear as
|
|
possible."
|
|
|
|
"Not quite," returned Emma, with forced calmness, "for all that you
|
|
then said, appeared to me to relate to a different person. I could
|
|
almost assert that you had _named_ Mr. Frank Churchill. I am sure the
|
|
service Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you, in protecting you from
|
|
the gipsies, was spoken of."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!"
|
|
|
|
"My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I said on
|
|
the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at your attachment;
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that considering the service he had rendered you, it was extremely
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natural:--and you agreed to it, expressing yourself very warmly as to
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your sense of that service, and mentioning even what your sensations
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had been in seeing him come forward to your rescue.--The impression of
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it is strong on my memory."
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"Oh, dear," cried Harriet, "now I recollect what you mean; but I was
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thinking of something very different at the time. It was not the
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gipsies--it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with some
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elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance--of Mr.
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Knightley's coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton would not
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stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room.
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That was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence and
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generosity; that was the service which made me begin to feel how
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superior he was to every other being upon earth."
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"Good God!" cried Emma, "this has been a most unfortunate--most
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deplorable mistake!--What is to be done?"
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"You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me? At
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least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been, if the
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other had been the person; and now--it _is_ possible--"
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She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.
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"I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse," she resumed, "that you should feel a
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great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body. You must
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think one five hundred million times more above me than the other. But
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I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing--that if--strange as it may
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appear--. But you know they were your own words, that _more_ wonderful
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things had happened, matches of _greater_ disparity had taken place
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than between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore, it seems as if
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such a thing even as this, may have occurred before--and if I should
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be so fortunate, beyond expression, as to--if Mr. Knightley should
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really--if _he_ does not mind the disparity, I hope, dear Miss
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Woodhouse, you will not set yourself against it, and try to put
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difficulties in the way. But you are too good for that, I am sure."
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Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round to look
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at her in consternation, and hastily said,
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"Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley's returning your affection?"
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"Yes," replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully--"I must say that I
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have."
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Emma's eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating,
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in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient
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for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers, once
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opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched--she
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admitted--she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it so much worse
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that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley, than with Frank
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Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased by Harriet's
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having some hope of a return? It darted through her, with the speed of
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an arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but herself!
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Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the same
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few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had never blessed
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her before. How improperly had she been acting by Harriet! How
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inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational, how unfeeling had been
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her conduct! What blindness, what madness, had led her on! It struck
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her with dreadful force, and she was ready to give it every bad name in
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the world. Some portion of respect for herself, however, in spite of
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all these demerits--some concern for her own appearance, and a strong
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sense of justice by Harriet--(there would be no need of _compassion_ to
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the girl who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley--but justice
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|
required that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,) gave
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Emma the resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness, with even
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apparent kindness.--For her own advantage indeed, it was fit that the
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utmost extent of Harriet's hopes should be enquired into; and Harriet
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had done nothing to forfeit the regard and interest which had been so
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voluntarily formed and maintained--or to deserve to be slighted by the
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person, whose counsels had never led her right.-- Rousing from
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reflection, therefore, and subduing her emotion, she turned to Harriet
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again, and, in a more inviting accent, renewed the conversation; for as
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to the subject which had first introduced it, the wonderful story of
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Jane Fairfax, that was quite sunk and lost.-- Neither of them thought
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but of Mr. Knightley and themselves.
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Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad
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to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge,
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and such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation, to
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give the history of her hopes with great, though trembling
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|
delight.--Emma's tremblings as she asked, and as she listened, were
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better concealed than Harriet's, but they were not less. Her voice was
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|
not unsteady; but her mind was in all the perturbation that such a
|
|
development of self, such a burst of threatening evil, such a confusion
|
|
of sudden and perplexing emotions, must create.-- She listened with
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much inward suffering, but with great outward patience, to Harriet's
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detail.--Methodical, or well arranged, or very well delivered, it could
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|
not be expected to be; but it contained, when separated from all the
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feebleness and tautology of the narration, a substance to sink her
|
|
spirit--especially with the corroborating circumstances, which her own
|
|
memory brought in favour of Mr. Knightley's most improved opinion of
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Harriet.
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Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since
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|
those two decisive dances.--Emma knew that he had, on that occasion,
|
|
found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening, or at
|
|
least from the time of Miss Woodhouse's encouraging her to think of
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|
him, Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking to her much more
|
|
than he had been used to do, and of his having indeed quite a different
|
|
manner towards her; a manner of kindness and sweetness!--Latterly she
|
|
had been more and more aware of it. When they had been all walking
|
|
together, he had so often come and walked by her, and talked so very
|
|
delightfully!--He seemed to want to be acquainted with her. Emma knew
|
|
it to have been very much the case. She had often observed the change,
|
|
to almost the same extent.-- Harriet repeated expressions of
|
|
approbation and praise from him--and Emma felt them to be in the
|
|
closest agreement with what she had known of his opinion of Harriet.
|
|
He praised her for being without art or affectation, for having simple,
|
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honest, generous, feelings.-- She knew that he saw such recommendations
|
|
in Harriet; he had dwelt on them to her more than once.--Much that
|
|
lived in Harriet's memory, many little particulars of the notice she
|
|
had received from him, a look, a speech, a removal from one chair to
|
|
another, a compliment implied, a preference inferred, had been
|
|
unnoticed, because unsuspected, by Emma. Circumstances that might
|
|
swell to half an hour's relation, and contained multiplied proofs to
|
|
her who had seen them, had passed undiscerned by her who now heard
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|
them; but the two latest occurrences to be mentioned, the two of
|
|
strongest promise to Harriet, were not without some degree of witness
|
|
from Emma herself.--The first, was his walking with her apart from the
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|
others, in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they had been walking some
|
|
time before Emma came, and he had taken pains (as she was convinced) to
|
|
draw her from the rest to himself--and at first, he had talked to her
|
|
in a more particular way than he had ever done before, in a very
|
|
particular way indeed!--(Harriet could not recall it without a blush.)
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|
He seemed to be almost asking her, whether her affections were
|
|
engaged.-- But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared likely to join
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|
them, he changed the subject, and began talking about farming:-- The
|
|
second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half an hour before
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|
Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of his being at
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|
Hartfield--though, when he first came in, he had said that he could not
|
|
stay five minutes--and his having told her, during their conversation,
|
|
that though he must go to London, it was very much against his
|
|
inclination that he left home at all, which was much more (as Emma
|
|
felt) than he had acknowledged to _her_. The superior degree of
|
|
confidence towards Harriet, which this one article marked, gave her
|
|
severe pain.
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|
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|
On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did, after a
|
|
little reflection, venture the following question. "Might he not?--Is
|
|
not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought, into the state of
|
|
your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin--he might have Mr.
|
|
Martin's interest in view? But Harriet rejected the suspicion with
|
|
spirit.
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|
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|
"Mr. Martin! No indeed!--There was not a hint of Mr. Martin. I hope I
|
|
know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be suspected of it."
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|
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|
When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear Miss
|
|
Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.
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|
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|
"I never should have presumed to think of it at first," said she, "but
|
|
for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let his behaviour
|
|
be the rule of mine--and so I have. But now I seem to feel that I may
|
|
deserve him; and that if he does chuse me, it will not be any thing so
|
|
very wonderful."
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|
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|
The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter
|
|
feelings, made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma's side, to enable
|
|
her to say on reply,
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|
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|
"Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is the
|
|
last man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman the idea
|
|
of his feeling for her more than he really does."
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|
|
|
Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so
|
|
satisfactory; and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which
|
|
at that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her
|
|
father's footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too
|
|
much agitated to encounter him. "She could not compose herself-- Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse would be alarmed--she had better go;"--with most ready
|
|
encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through
|
|
another door--and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous
|
|
burst of Emma's feelings: "Oh God! that I had never seen her!"
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|
|
|
The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough for her
|
|
thoughts.--She was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had
|
|
rushed on her within the last few hours. Every moment had brought a
|
|
fresh surprize; and every surprize must be matter of humiliation to
|
|
her.--How to understand it all! How to understand the deceptions she
|
|
had been thus practising on herself, and living under!--The blunders,
|
|
the blindness of her own head and heart!--she sat still, she walked
|
|
about, she tried her own room, she tried the shrubbery--in every place,
|
|
every posture, she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she
|
|
had been imposed on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had
|
|
been imposing on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she was
|
|
wretched, and should probably find this day but the beginning of
|
|
wretchedness.
|
|
|
|
To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the first
|
|
endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her father's
|
|
claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary absence of mind.
|
|
|
|
How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling
|
|
declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence
|
|
begun?-- When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which
|
|
Frank Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?--She looked
|
|
back; she compared the two--compared them, as they had always stood in
|
|
her estimation, from the time of the latter's becoming known to her--
|
|
and as they must at any time have been compared by her, had it--oh!
|
|
had it, by any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute the
|
|
comparison.--She saw that there never had been a time when she did not
|
|
consider Mr. Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when his regard
|
|
for her had not been infinitely the most dear. She saw, that in
|
|
persuading herself, in fancying, in acting to the contrary, she had
|
|
been entirely under a delusion, totally ignorant of her own heart--and,
|
|
in short, that she had never really cared for Frank Churchill at all!
|
|
|
|
This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection. This was
|
|
the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry, which she
|
|
reached; and without being long in reaching it.-- She was most
|
|
sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed
|
|
to her--her affection for Mr. Knightley.-- Every other part of her mind
|
|
was disgusting.
|
|
|
|
With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of
|
|
every body's feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange
|
|
every body's destiny. She was proved to have been universally
|
|
mistaken; and she had not quite done nothing--for she had done
|
|
mischief. She had brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too
|
|
much feared, on Mr. Knightley.--Were this most unequal of all
|
|
connexions to take place, on her must rest all the reproach of having
|
|
given it a beginning; for his attachment, she must believe to be
|
|
produced only by a consciousness of Harriet's;--and even were this not
|
|
the case, he would never have known Harriet at all but for her folly.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--It was a union to distance every
|
|
wonder of the kind.--The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax
|
|
became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison, exciting no
|
|
surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing to be said or
|
|
thought.--Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--Such an elevation on her
|
|
side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible to Emma to think how
|
|
it must sink him in the general opinion, to foresee the smiles, the
|
|
sneers, the merriment it would prompt at his expense; the mortification
|
|
and disdain of his brother, the thousand inconveniences to
|
|
himself.--Could it be?--No; it was impossible. And yet it was far,
|
|
very far, from impossible.--Was it a new circumstance for a man of
|
|
first-rate abilities to be captivated by very inferior powers? Was it
|
|
new for one, perhaps too busy to seek, to be the prize of a girl who
|
|
would seek him?--Was it new for any thing in this world to be unequal,
|
|
inconsistent, incongruous--or for chance and circumstance (as second
|
|
causes) to direct the human fate?
|
|
|
|
Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where she
|
|
ought, and where he had told her she ought!--Had she not, with a folly
|
|
which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying the
|
|
unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy and respectable
|
|
in the line of life to which she ought to belong--all would have been
|
|
safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.
|
|
|
|
How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise her thoughts
|
|
to Mr. Knightley!--How she could dare to fancy herself the chosen of
|
|
such a man till actually assured of it!-- But Harriet was less humble,
|
|
had fewer scruples than formerly.-- Her inferiority, whether of mind or
|
|
situation, seemed little felt.-- She had seemed more sensible of Mr.
|
|
Elton's being to stoop in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr.
|
|
Knightley's.-- Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at
|
|
pains to give Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?--Who but
|
|
herself had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible,
|
|
and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?-- If
|
|
Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.
|
|
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|
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|
CHAPTER XII
|
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|
|
Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known
|
|
how much of her happiness depended on being _first_ with Mr. Knightley,
|
|
first in interest and affection.--Satisfied that it was so, and feeling
|
|
it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the
|
|
dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had
|
|
been.--Long, very long, she felt she had been first; for, having no
|
|
female connexions of his own, there had been only Isabella whose claims
|
|
could be compared with hers, and she had always known exactly how far
|
|
he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had herself been first with him
|
|
for many years past. She had not deserved it; she had often been
|
|
negligent or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing
|
|
him, insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he
|
|
would not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own--but
|
|
still, from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of
|
|
mind, he had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an
|
|
endeavour to improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no
|
|
other creature had at all shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew
|
|
she was dear to him; might she not say, very dear?-- When the
|
|
suggestions of hope, however, which must follow here, presented
|
|
themselves, she could not presume to indulge them. Harriet Smith might
|
|
think herself not unworthy of being peculiarly, exclusively,
|
|
passionately loved by Mr. Knightley. _She_ could not. She could not
|
|
flatter herself with any idea of blindness in his attachment to _her_.
|
|
She had received a very recent proof of its impartiality.-- How shocked
|
|
had he been by her behaviour to Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly
|
|
had he expressed himself to her on the subject!--Not too strongly for
|
|
the offence--but far, far too strongly to issue from any feeling softer
|
|
than upright justice and clear-sighted goodwill.-- She had no hope,
|
|
nothing to deserve the name of hope, that he could have that sort of
|
|
affection for herself which was now in question; but there was a hope
|
|
(at times a slight one, at times much stronger,) that Harriet might
|
|
have deceived herself, and be overrating his regard for _her_.--Wish it
|
|
she must, for his sake--be the consequence nothing to herself, but his
|
|
remaining single all his life. Could she be secure of that, indeed, of
|
|
his never marrying at all, she believed she should be perfectly
|
|
satisfied.--Let him but continue the same Mr. Knightley to her and her
|
|
father, the same Mr. Knightley to all the world; let Donwell and
|
|
Hartfield lose none of their precious intercourse of friendship and
|
|
confidence, and her peace would be fully secured.--Marriage, in fact,
|
|
would not do for her. It would be incompatible with what she owed to
|
|
her father, and with what she felt for him. Nothing should separate
|
|
her from her father. She would not marry, even if she were asked by
|
|
Mr. Knightley.
|
|
|
|
It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed; and she
|
|
hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at least be
|
|
able to ascertain what the chances for it were.--She should see them
|
|
henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly as she had
|
|
hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching, she did not know
|
|
how to admit that she could be blinded here.-- He was expected back
|
|
every day. The power of observation would be soon given--frightfully
|
|
soon it appeared when her thoughts were in one course. In the
|
|
meanwhile, she resolved against seeing Harriet.-- It would do neither
|
|
of them good, it would do the subject no good, to be talking of it
|
|
farther.--She was resolved not to be convinced, as long as she could
|
|
doubt, and yet had no authority for opposing Harriet's confidence. To
|
|
talk would be only to irritate.--She wrote to her, therefore, kindly,
|
|
but decisively, to beg that she would not, at present, come to
|
|
Hartfield; acknowledging it to be her conviction, that all farther
|
|
confidential discussion of _one_ topic had better be avoided; and
|
|
hoping, that if a few days were allowed to pass before they met again,
|
|
except in the company of others--she objected only to a
|
|
tete-a-tete--they might be able to act as if they had forgotten the
|
|
conversation of yesterday.--Harriet submitted, and approved, and was
|
|
grateful.
|
|
|
|
This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma's
|
|
thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them,
|
|
sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours--Mrs. Weston, who had
|
|
been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her
|
|
way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself, to
|
|
relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates's, and gone through his
|
|
share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having then
|
|
induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned with
|
|
much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction, than a
|
|
quarter of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates's parlour, with all the
|
|
encumbrance of awkward feelings, could have afforded.
|
|
|
|
A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while her
|
|
friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit in a good
|
|
deal of agitation herself; and in the first place had wished not to go
|
|
at all at present, to be allowed merely to write to Miss Fairfax
|
|
instead, and to defer this ceremonious call till a little time had
|
|
passed, and Mr. Churchill could be reconciled to the engagement's
|
|
becoming known; as, considering every thing, she thought such a visit
|
|
could not be paid without leading to reports:--but Mr. Weston had
|
|
thought differently; he was extremely anxious to shew his approbation
|
|
to Miss Fairfax and her family, and did not conceive that any suspicion
|
|
could be excited by it; or if it were, that it would be of any
|
|
consequence; for "such things," he observed, "always got about." Emma
|
|
smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston had very good reason for saying so.
|
|
They had gone, in short--and very great had been the evident distress
|
|
and confusion of the lady. She had hardly been able to speak a word,
|
|
and every look and action had shewn how deeply she was suffering from
|
|
consciousness. The quiet, heart-felt satisfaction of the old lady, and
|
|
the rapturous delight of her daughter--who proved even too joyous to
|
|
talk as usual, had been a gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene.
|
|
They were both so truly respectable in their happiness, so
|
|
disinterested in every sensation; thought so much of Jane; so much of
|
|
every body, and so little of themselves, that every kindly feeling was
|
|
at work for them. Miss Fairfax's recent illness had offered a fair
|
|
plea for Mrs. Weston to invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and
|
|
declined at first, but, on being pressed had yielded; and, in the
|
|
course of their drive, Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement,
|
|
overcome so much of her embarrassment, as to bring her to converse on
|
|
the important subject. Apologies for her seemingly ungracious silence
|
|
in their first reception, and the warmest expressions of the gratitude
|
|
she was always feeling towards herself and Mr. Weston, must necessarily
|
|
open the cause; but when these effusions were put by, they had talked a
|
|
good deal of the present and of the future state of the engagement.
|
|
Mrs. Weston was convinced that such conversation must be the greatest
|
|
relief to her companion, pent up within her own mind as every thing had
|
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so long been, and was very much pleased with all that she had said on
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the subject.
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"On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment of so
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many months," continued Mrs. Weston, "she was energetic. This was one
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of her expressions. 'I will not say, that since I entered into the
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engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I can say, that I
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have never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:'--and the
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quivering lip, Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation that I felt
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at my heart."
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"Poor girl!" said Emma. "She thinks herself wrong, then, for having
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consented to a private engagement?"
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"Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed to
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blame herself. 'The consequence,' said she, 'has been a state of
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perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the
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punishment that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct.
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Pain is no expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting
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contrary to all my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every
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thing has taken, and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my
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conscience tells me ought not to be.' 'Do not imagine, madam,' she
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continued, 'that I was taught wrong. Do not let any reflection fall on
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the principles or the care of the friends who brought me up. The error
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has been all my own; and I do assure you that, with all the excuse that
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present circumstances may appear to give, I shall yet dread making the
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story known to Colonel Campbell.'"
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"Poor girl!" said Emma again. "She loves him then excessively, I
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suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could be led
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to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered her
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judgment."
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"Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him."
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"I am afraid," returned Emma, sighing, "that I must often have
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contributed to make her unhappy."
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"On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she probably
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had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding to the
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misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before. One natural
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consequence of the evil she had involved herself in," she said, "was
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that of making her _unreasonable_. The consciousness of having done
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amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes, and made her captious
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and irritable to a degree that must have been--that had been--hard for
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him to bear. 'I did not make the allowances,' said she, 'which I ought
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to have done, for his temper and spirits--his delightful spirits, and
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that gaiety, that playfulness of disposition, which, under any other
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circumstances, would, I am sure, have been as constantly bewitching to
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me, as they were at first.' She then began to speak of you, and of the
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great kindness you had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush
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which shewed me how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had an
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opportunity, to thank you--I could not thank you too much--for every
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wish and every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had
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never received any proper acknowledgment from herself."
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"If I did not know her to be happy now," said Emma, seriously, "which,
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in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous conscience, she
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must be, I could not bear these thanks;--for, oh! Mrs. Weston, if
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there were an account drawn up of the evil and the good I have done
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Miss Fairfax!--Well (checking herself, and trying to be more lively),
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this is all to be forgotten. You are very kind to bring me these
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interesting particulars. They shew her to the greatest advantage. I
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am sure she is very good--I hope she will be very happy. It is fit
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that the fortune should be on his side, for I think the merit will be
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all on hers."
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Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston. She
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thought well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more, she
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loved him very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest. She
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talked with a great deal of reason, and at least equal affection--but
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she had too much to urge for Emma's attention; it was soon gone to
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Brunswick Square or to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen; and
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when Mrs. Weston ended with, "We have not yet had the letter we are so
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anxious for, you know, but I hope it will soon come," she was obliged
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to pause before she answered, and at last obliged to answer at random,
|
|
before she could at all recollect what letter it was which they were so
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anxious for.
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"Are you well, my Emma?" was Mrs. Weston's parting question.
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"Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me
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intelligence of the letter as soon as possible."
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Mrs. Weston's communications furnished Emma with more food for
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unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion, and her
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sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly regretted
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|
not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed for the
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envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure, the cause.
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|
Had she followed Mr. Knightley's known wishes, in paying that attention
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to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she tried to know her
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|
better; had she done her part towards intimacy; had she endeavoured to
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|
find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith; she must, in all
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|
probability, have been spared from every pain which pressed on her
|
|
now.--Birth, abilities, and education, had been equally marking one as
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|
an associate for her, to be received with gratitude; and the
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|
other--what was she?--Supposing even that they had never become
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|
intimate friends; that she had never been admitted into Miss Fairfax's
|
|
confidence on this important matter--which was most probable--still,
|
|
in knowing her as she ought, and as she might, she must have been
|
|
preserved from the abominable suspicions of an improper attachment to
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|
Mr. Dixon, which she had not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured
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|
herself, but had so unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly
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|
feared had been made a subject of material distress to the delicacy of
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Jane's feelings, by the levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill's.
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|
Of all the sources of evil surrounding the former, since her coming to
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Highbury, she was persuaded that she must herself have been the worst.
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|
She must have been a perpetual enemy. They never could have been all
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|
three together, without her having stabbed Jane Fairfax's peace in a
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|
thousand instances; and on Box Hill, perhaps, it had been the agony of
|
|
a mind that would bear no more.
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|
The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield.
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|
The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in,
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|
and nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the
|
|
wind was despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made such
|
|
cruel sights the longer visible.
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The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably
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|
comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter's side, and
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|
by exertions which had never cost her half so much before. It reminded
|
|
her of their first forlorn tete-a-tete, on the evening of Mrs. Weston's
|
|
wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked in then, soon after tea, and
|
|
dissipated every melancholy fancy. Alas! such delightful proofs of
|
|
Hartfield's attraction, as those sort of visits conveyed, might shortly
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|
be over. The picture which she had then drawn of the privations of the
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|
approaching winter, had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them,
|
|
no pleasures had been lost.--But her present forebodings she feared
|
|
would experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her
|
|
now, was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled--
|
|
that might not be even partially brightened. If all took place that
|
|
might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must be
|
|
comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the
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|
spirits only of ruined happiness.
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The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer than
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|
herself; and Mrs. Weston's heart and time would be occupied by it.
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|
They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure, her husband
|
|
also.--Frank Churchill would return among them no more; and Miss
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|
Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease to belong to
|
|
Highbury. They would be married, and settled either at or near
|
|
Enscombe. All that were good would be withdrawn; and if to these
|
|
losses, the loss of Donwell were to be added, what would remain of
|
|
cheerful or of rational society within their reach? Mr. Knightley to
|
|
be no longer coming there for his evening comfort!-- No longer walking
|
|
in at all hours, as if ever willing to change his own home for
|
|
their's!--How was it to be endured? And if he were to be lost to them
|
|
for Harriet's sake; if he were to be thought of hereafter, as finding
|
|
in Harriet's society all that he wanted; if Harriet were to be the
|
|
chosen, the first, the dearest, the friend, the wife to whom he looked
|
|
for all the best blessings of existence; what could be increasing
|
|
Emma's wretchedness but the reflection never far distant from her mind,
|
|
that it had been all her own work?
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|
When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain from
|
|
a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room for a few
|
|
seconds--and the only source whence any thing like consolation or
|
|
composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own better
|
|
conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and gaiety might
|
|
be the following and every future winter of her life to the past, it
|
|
would yet find her more rational, more acquainted with herself, and
|
|
leave her less to regret when it were gone.
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CHAPTER XIII
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The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and the
|
|
same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at
|
|
Hartfield--but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a
|
|
softer quarter; the clouds were carried off; the sun appeared; it was
|
|
summer again. With all the eagerness which such a transition gives,
|
|
Emma resolved to be out of doors as soon as possible. Never had the
|
|
exquisite sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and
|
|
brilliant after a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for
|
|
the serenity they might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry's coming
|
|
in soon after dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she
|
|
lost no time ill hurrying into the shrubbery.--There, with spirits
|
|
freshened, and thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns,
|
|
when she saw Mr. Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming
|
|
towards her.--It was the first intimation of his being returned from
|
|
London. She had been thinking of him the moment before, as
|
|
unquestionably sixteen miles distant.--There was time only for the
|
|
quickest arrangement of mind. She must be collected and calm. In half
|
|
a minute they were together. The "How d'ye do's" were quiet and
|
|
constrained on each side. She asked after their mutual friends; they
|
|
were all well.--When had he left them?--Only that morning. He must
|
|
have had a wet ride.--Yes.--He meant to walk with her, she found. "He
|
|
had just looked into the dining-room, and as he was not wanted there,
|
|
preferred being out of doors."--She thought he neither looked nor spoke
|
|
cheerfully; and the first possible cause for it, suggested by her
|
|
fears, was, that he had perhaps been communicating his plans to his
|
|
brother, and was pained by the manner in which they had been received.
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|
|
|
They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often looking
|
|
at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it suited her to
|
|
give. And this belief produced another dread. Perhaps he wanted to
|
|
speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet; he might be watching for
|
|
encouragement to begin.--She did not, could not, feel equal to lead the
|
|
way to any such subject. He must do it all himself. Yet she could not
|
|
bear this silence. With him it was most unnatural. She
|
|
considered--resolved--and, trying to smile, began--
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|
|
|
"You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather
|
|
surprize you."
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|
|
|
"Have I?" said he quietly, and looking at her; "of what nature?"
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|
|
|
"Oh! the best nature in the world--a wedding."
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|
|
|
After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more,
|
|
he replied,
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|
|
|
"If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard that
|
|
already."
|
|
|
|
"How is it possible?" cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks towards
|
|
him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he might have called
|
|
at Mrs. Goddard's in his way.
|
|
|
|
"I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and
|
|
at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened."
|
|
|
|
Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little more
|
|
composure,
|
|
|
|
"_You_ probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have
|
|
had your suspicions.--I have not forgotten that you once tried to give
|
|
me a caution.--I wish I had attended to it--but--(with a sinking voice
|
|
and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness."
|
|
|
|
For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious of
|
|
having excited any particular interest, till she found her arm drawn
|
|
within his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying,
|
|
in a tone of great sensibility, speaking low,
|
|
|
|
"Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.--Your own excellent
|
|
sense--your exertions for your father's sake--I know you will not allow
|
|
yourself--." Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more broken
|
|
and subdued accent, "The feelings of the warmest
|
|
friendship--Indignation--Abominable scoundrel!"-- And in a louder,
|
|
steadier tone, he concluded with, "He will soon be gone. They will
|
|
soon be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for _her_. She deserves a better
|
|
fate."
|
|
|
|
Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the flutter
|
|
of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,
|
|
|
|
"You are very kind--but you are mistaken--and I must set you right.-- I
|
|
am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what was
|
|
going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always be ashamed
|
|
of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many things which
|
|
may well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I have no other
|
|
reason to regret that I was not in the secret earlier."
|
|
|
|
"Emma!" cried he, looking eagerly at her, "are you, indeed?"--but
|
|
checking himself--"No, no, I understand you--forgive me--I am pleased
|
|
that you can say even so much.--He is no object of regret, indeed! and
|
|
it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes the
|
|
acknowledgment of more than your reason.--Fortunate that your
|
|
affections were not farther entangled!--I could never, I confess, from
|
|
your manners, assure myself as to the degree of what you felt-- I could
|
|
only be certain that there was a preference--and a preference which I
|
|
never believed him to deserve.--He is a disgrace to the name of
|
|
man.--And is he to be rewarded with that sweet young woman?-- Jane,
|
|
Jane, you will be a miserable creature."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Knightley," said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused--
|
|
"I am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in
|
|
your error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression,
|
|
I have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have
|
|
been at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might be
|
|
natural for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.-- But I
|
|
never have."
|
|
|
|
He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he would
|
|
not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled to his
|
|
clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower herself
|
|
in his opinion. She went on, however.
|
|
|
|
"I have very little to say for my own conduct.--I was tempted by his
|
|
attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.-- An old story,
|
|
probably--a common case--and no more than has happened to hundreds of
|
|
my sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable in one who sets
|
|
up as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances assisted the
|
|
temptation. He was the son of Mr. Weston--he was continually here--I
|
|
always found him very pleasant--and, in short, for (with a sigh) let me
|
|
swell out the causes ever so ingeniously, they all centre in this at
|
|
last--my vanity was flattered, and I allowed his attentions. Latterly,
|
|
however--for some time, indeed--I have had no idea of their meaning
|
|
any thing.--I thought them a habit, a trick, nothing that called for
|
|
seriousness on my side. He has imposed on me, but he has not injured
|
|
me. I have never been attached to him. And now I can tolerably
|
|
comprehend his behaviour. He never wished to attach me. It was merely
|
|
a blind to conceal his real situation with another.--It was his object
|
|
to blind all about him; and no one, I am sure, could be more
|
|
effectually blinded than myself--except that I was _not_ blinded--that
|
|
it was my good fortune--that, in short, I was somehow or other safe
|
|
from him."
|
|
|
|
She had hoped for an answer here--for a few words to say that her
|
|
conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far as
|
|
she could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably in his usual
|
|
tone, he said,
|
|
|
|
"I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.--I can suppose,
|
|
however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with him has
|
|
been but trifling.--And even if I have not underrated him hitherto, he
|
|
may yet turn out well.--With such a woman he has a chance.--I have no
|
|
motive for wishing him ill--and for her sake, whose happiness will be
|
|
involved in his good character and conduct, I shall certainly wish him
|
|
well."
|
|
|
|
"I have no doubt of their being happy together," said Emma; "I believe
|
|
them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached."
|
|
|
|
"He is a most fortunate man!" returned Mr. Knightley, with energy. "So
|
|
early in life--at three-and-twenty--a period when, if a man chuses a
|
|
wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty to have drawn such
|
|
a prize! What years of felicity that man, in all human calculation,
|
|
has before him!--Assured of the love of such a woman--the disinterested
|
|
love, for Jane Fairfax's character vouches for her disinterestedness;
|
|
every thing in his favour,--equality of situation--I mean, as far as
|
|
regards society, and all the habits and manners that are important;
|
|
equality in every point but one--and that one, since the purity of her
|
|
heart is not to be doubted, such as must increase his felicity, for it
|
|
will be his to bestow the only advantages she wants.--A man would
|
|
always wish to give a woman a better home than the one he takes her
|
|
from; and he who can do it, where there is no doubt of _her_ regard,
|
|
must, I think, be the happiest of mortals.--Frank Churchill is, indeed,
|
|
the favourite of fortune. Every thing turns out for his good.--He
|
|
meets with a young woman at a watering-place, gains her affection,
|
|
cannot even weary her by negligent treatment--and had he and all his
|
|
family sought round the world for a perfect wife for him, they could
|
|
not have found her superior.--His aunt is in the way.--His aunt
|
|
dies.--He has only to speak.--His friends are eager to promote his
|
|
happiness.-- He had used every body ill--and they are all delighted to
|
|
forgive him.-- He is a fortunate man indeed!"
|
|
|
|
"You speak as if you envied him."
|
|
|
|
"And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy."
|
|
|
|
Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence of
|
|
Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject, if
|
|
possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something totally
|
|
different--the children in Brunswick Square; and she only waited for
|
|
breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her, by saying,
|
|
|
|
"You will not ask me what is the point of envy.--You are determined, I
|
|
see, to have no curiosity.--You are wise--but _I_ cannot be wise.
|
|
Emma, I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it
|
|
unsaid the next moment."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! then, don't speak it, don't speak it," she eagerly cried. "Take a
|
|
little time, consider, do not commit yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you," said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not
|
|
another syllable followed.
|
|
|
|
Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in
|
|
her--perhaps to consult her;--cost her what it would, she would
|
|
listen. She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it; she
|
|
might give just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him his own
|
|
independence, relieve him from that state of indecision, which must be
|
|
more intolerable than any alternative to such a mind as his.--They had
|
|
reached the house.
|
|
|
|
"You are going in, I suppose?" said he.
|
|
|
|
"No,"--replied Emma--quite confirmed by the depressed manner in which
|
|
he still spoke--"I should like to take another turn. Mr. Perry is not
|
|
gone." And, after proceeding a few steps, she added-- "I stopped you
|
|
ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid, gave you
|
|
pain.--But if you have any wish to speak openly to me as a friend, or
|
|
to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have in contemplation--as a
|
|
friend, indeed, you may command me.--I will hear whatever you like. I
|
|
will tell you exactly what I think."
|
|
|
|
"As a friend!"--repeated Mr. Knightley.--"Emma, that I fear is a
|
|
word--No, I have no wish--Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?-- I have
|
|
gone too far already for concealment.--Emma, I accept your offer--
|
|
Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to you as a
|
|
friend.--Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?"
|
|
|
|
He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression
|
|
of his eyes overpowered her.
|
|
|
|
"My dearest Emma," said he, "for dearest you will always be, whatever
|
|
the event of this hour's conversation, my dearest, most beloved
|
|
Emma--tell me at once. Say 'No,' if it is to be said."-- She could
|
|
really say nothing.--"You are silent," he cried, with great animation;
|
|
"absolutely silent! at present I ask no more."
|
|
|
|
Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment. The
|
|
dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps the most
|
|
prominent feeling.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot make speeches, Emma:" he soon resumed; and in a tone of such
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sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably
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convincing.--"If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it
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more. But you know what I am.--You hear nothing but truth from me.--I
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have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other
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woman in England would have borne it.-- Bear with the truths I would
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tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The
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manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I
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have been a very indifferent lover.-- But you understand me.--Yes, you
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see, you understand my feelings--and will return them if you can. At
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present, I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice."
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While he spoke, Emma's mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful
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velocity of thought, had been able--and yet without losing a word--to
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catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that
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Harriet's hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as
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complete a delusion as any of her own--that Harriet was nothing; that
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she was every thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to
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Harriet had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and
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that her agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement, had
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been all received as discouragement from herself.--And not only was
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there time for these convictions, with all their glow of attendant
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happiness; there was time also to rejoice that Harriet's secret had not
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escaped her, and to resolve that it need not, and should not.--It was
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all the service she could now render her poor friend; for as to any of
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that heroism of sentiment which might have prompted her to entreat him
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to transfer his affection from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the
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most worthy of the two--or even the more simple sublimity of resolving
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to refuse him at once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive,
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because he could not marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for
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Harriet, with pain and with contrition; but no flight of generosity run
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mad, opposing all that could be probable or reasonable, entered her
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brain. She had led her friend astray, and it would be a reproach to
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her for ever; but her judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as
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strong as it had ever been before, in reprobating any such alliance for
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him, as most unequal and degrading. Her way was clear, though not
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quite smooth.--She spoke then, on being so entreated.-- What did she
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say?--Just what she ought, of course. A lady always does.-- She said
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enough to shew there need not be despair--and to invite him to say more
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himself. He _had_ despaired at one period; he had received such an
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injunction to caution and silence, as for the time crushed every
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hope;--she had begun by refusing to hear him.--The change had perhaps
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been somewhat sudden;--her proposal of taking another turn, her
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renewing the conversation which she had just put an end to, might be a
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little extraordinary!--She felt its inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley
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was so obliging as to put up with it, and seek no farther explanation.
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Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human
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disclosure; seldom can it happen that something is not a little
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disguised, or a little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the
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conduct is mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very
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material.-- Mr. Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting
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heart than she possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
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He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had
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followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had
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come, in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill's engagement,
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with no selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she
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allowed him an opening, to soothe or to counsel her.--The rest had been
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the work of the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard, on his
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feelings. The delightful assurance of her total indifference towards
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Frank Churchill, of her having a heart completely disengaged from him,
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had given birth to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection
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himself;--but it had been no present hope--he had only, in the
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momentary conquest of eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that
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she did not forbid his attempt to attach her.--The superior hopes which
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gradually opened were so much the more enchanting.-- The affection,
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|
which he had been asking to be allowed to create, if he could, was
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already his!--Within half an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly
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distressed state of mind, to something so like perfect happiness, that
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it could bear no other name.
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_Her_ change was equal.--This one half-hour had given to each the same
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precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same
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degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.--On his side, there had
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|
been a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival, or even the
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|
expectation, of Frank Churchill.--He had been in love with Emma, and
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|
jealous of Frank Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment
|
|
having probably enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy
|
|
of Frank Churchill that had taken him from the country.--The Box Hill
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party had decided him on going away. He would save himself from
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|
witnessing again such permitted, encouraged attentions.--He had gone to
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|
learn to be indifferent.-- But he had gone to a wrong place. There was
|
|
too much domestic happiness in his brother's house; woman wore too
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|
amiable a form in it; Isabella was too much like Emma--differing only
|
|
in those striking inferiorities, which always brought the other in
|
|
brilliancy before him, for much to have been done, even had his time
|
|
been longer.--He had stayed on, however, vigorously, day after
|
|
day--till this very morning's post had conveyed the history of Jane
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|
Fairfax.--Then, with the gladness which must be felt, nay, which he did
|
|
not scruple to feel, having never believed Frank Churchill to be at all
|
|
deserving Emma, was there so much fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety
|
|
for her, that he could stay no longer. He had ridden home through the
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|
rain; and had walked up directly after dinner, to see how this sweetest
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|
and best of all creatures, faultless in spite of all her faults, bore
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the discovery.
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He had found her agitated and low.--Frank Churchill was a villain.-- He
|
|
heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill's
|
|
character was not desperate.--She was his own Emma, by hand and word,
|
|
when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought of
|
|
Frank Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of
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fellow.
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CHAPTER XIV
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What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from
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what she had brought out!--she had then been only daring to hope for a
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little respite of suffering;--she was now in an exquisite flutter of
|
|
happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be
|
|
greater when the flutter should have passed away.
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They sat down to tea--the same party round the same table--how often
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|
it had been collected!--and how often had her eyes fallen on the same
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|
shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful effect of the
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|
western sun!--But never in such a state of spirits, never in any thing
|
|
like it; and it was with difficulty that she could summon enough of her
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|
usual self to be the attentive lady of the house, or even the attentive
|
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daughter.
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Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him in
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|
the breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so
|
|
anxiously hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.--Could he
|
|
have seen the heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs; but
|
|
without the most distant imagination of the impending evil, without the
|
|
slightest perception of any thing extraordinary in the looks or ways of
|
|
either, he repeated to them very comfortably all the articles of news
|
|
he had received from Mr. Perry, and talked on with much
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|
self-contentment, totally unsuspicious of what they could have told him
|
|
in return.
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As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma's fever continued;
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|
but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised and
|
|
subdued--and in the course of the sleepless night, which was the tax
|
|
for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious points to
|
|
consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness must have some
|
|
alloy. Her father--and Harriet. She could not be alone without
|
|
feeling the full weight of their separate claims; and how to guard the
|
|
comfort of both to the utmost, was the question. With respect to her
|
|
father, it was a question soon answered. She hardly knew yet what Mr.
|
|
Knightley would ask; but a very short parley with her own heart
|
|
produced the most solemn resolution of never quitting her father.--She
|
|
even wept over the idea of it, as a sin of thought. While he lived, it
|
|
must be only an engagement; but she flattered herself, that if divested
|
|
of the danger of drawing her away, it might become an increase of
|
|
comfort to him.-- How to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult
|
|
decision;--how to spare her from any unnecessary pain; how to make her
|
|
any possible atonement; how to appear least her enemy?-- On these
|
|
subjects, her perplexity and distress were very great--and her mind
|
|
had to pass again and again through every bitter reproach and sorrowful
|
|
regret that had ever surrounded it.-- She could only resolve at last,
|
|
that she would still avoid a meeting with her, and communicate all that
|
|
need be told by letter; that it would be inexpressibly desirable to
|
|
have her removed just now for a time from Highbury, and--indulging in
|
|
one scheme more--nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get
|
|
an invitation for her to Brunswick Square.--Isabella had been pleased
|
|
with Harriet; and a few weeks spent in London must give her some
|
|
amusement.-- She did not think it in Harriet's nature to escape being
|
|
benefited by novelty and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the
|
|
children.-- At any rate, it would be a proof of attention and kindness
|
|
in herself, from whom every thing was due; a separation for the
|
|
present; an averting of the evil day, when they must all be together
|
|
again.
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She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment which
|
|
left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley, in walking
|
|
up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon; and half
|
|
an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again with him,
|
|
literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate her in a
|
|
proper share of the happiness of the evening before.
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He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have the
|
|
slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter was
|
|
brought her from Randalls--a very thick letter;--she guessed what it
|
|
must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.-- She was now
|
|
in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted no explanations,
|
|
she wanted only to have her thoughts to herself--and as for
|
|
understanding any thing he wrote, she was sure she was incapable of
|
|
it.--It must be waded through, however. She opened the packet; it was
|
|
too surely so;--a note from Mrs. Weston to herself, ushered in the
|
|
letter from Frank to Mrs. Weston.
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"I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding to you the
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|
enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will do it, and have
|
|
scarcely a doubt of its happy effect.--I think we shall never
|
|
materially disagree about the writer again; but I will not delay you by
|
|
a long preface.--We are quite well.--This letter has been the cure of
|
|
all the little nervousness I have been feeling lately.--I did not quite
|
|
like your looks on Tuesday, but it was an ungenial morning; and though
|
|
you will never own being affected by weather, I think every body feels
|
|
a north-east wind.--I felt for your dear father very much in the storm
|
|
of Tuesday afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of
|
|
hearing last night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.
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|
"Yours ever,
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"A. W."
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[To Mrs. Weston.]
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WINDSOR-JULY.
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MY DEAR MADAM,
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"If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be expected;
|
|
but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and
|
|
indulgence.--You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of
|
|
even all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.--
|
|
But I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent. My
|
|
courage rises while I write. It is very difficult for the prosperous
|
|
to be humble. I have already met with such success in two applications
|
|
for pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking myself too sure of
|
|
yours, and of those among your friends who have had any ground of
|
|
offence.--You must all endeavour to comprehend the exact nature of my
|
|
situation when I first arrived at Randalls; you must consider me as
|
|
having a secret which was to be kept at all hazards. This was the
|
|
fact. My right to place myself in a situation requiring such
|
|
concealment, is another question. I shall not discuss it here. For my
|
|
temptation to _think_ it a right, I refer every caviller to a brick
|
|
house, sashed windows below, and casements above, in Highbury. I dared
|
|
not address her openly; my difficulties in the then state of Enscombe
|
|
must be too well known to require definition; and I was fortunate
|
|
enough to prevail, before we parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most
|
|
upright female mind in the creation to stoop in charity to a secret
|
|
engagement.--Had she refused, I should have gone mad.--But you will be
|
|
ready to say, what was your hope in doing this?--What did you look
|
|
forward to?--To any thing, every thing--to time, chance, circumstance,
|
|
slow effects, sudden bursts, perseverance and weariness, health and
|
|
sickness. Every possibility of good was before me, and the first of
|
|
blessings secured, in obtaining her promises of faith and
|
|
correspondence. If you need farther explanation, I have the honour, my
|
|
dear madam, of being your husband's son, and the advantage of
|
|
inheriting a disposition to hope for good, which no inheritance of
|
|
houses or lands can ever equal the value of.--See me, then, under these
|
|
circumstances, arriving on my first visit to Randalls;--and here I am
|
|
conscious of wrong, for that visit might have been sooner paid. You
|
|
will look back and see that I did not come till Miss Fairfax was in
|
|
Highbury; and as _you_ were the person slighted, you will forgive me
|
|
instantly; but I must work on my father's compassion, by reminding him,
|
|
that so long as I absented myself from his house, so long I lost the
|
|
blessing of knowing you. My behaviour, during the very happy fortnight
|
|
which I spent with you, did not, I hope, lay me open to reprehension,
|
|
excepting on one point. And now I come to the principal, the only
|
|
important part of my conduct while belonging to you, which excites my
|
|
own anxiety, or requires very solicitous explanation. With the
|
|
greatest respect, and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss
|
|
Woodhouse; my father perhaps will think I ought to add, with the
|
|
deepest humiliation.-- A few words which dropped from him yesterday
|
|
spoke his opinion, and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.--My
|
|
behaviour to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.--
|
|
In order to assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led on to
|
|
make more than an allowable use of the sort of intimacy into which we
|
|
were immediately thrown.--I cannot deny that Miss Woodhouse was my
|
|
ostensible object--but I am sure you will believe the declaration, that
|
|
had I not been convinced of her indifference, I would not have been
|
|
induced by any selfish views to go on.-- Amiable and delightful as Miss
|
|
Woodhouse is, she never gave me the idea of a young woman likely to be
|
|
attached; and that she was perfectly free from any tendency to being
|
|
attached to me, was as much my conviction as my wish.--She received my
|
|
attentions with an easy, friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which
|
|
exactly suited me. We seemed to understand each other. From our
|
|
relative situation, those attentions were her due, and were felt to be
|
|
so.--Whether Miss Woodhouse began really to understand me before the
|
|
expiration of that fortnight, I cannot say;--when I called to take
|
|
leave of her, I remember that I was within a moment of confessing the
|
|
truth, and I then fancied she was not without suspicion; but I have no
|
|
doubt of her having since detected me, at least in some degree.-- She
|
|
may not have surmised the whole, but her quickness must have penetrated
|
|
a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find, whenever the subject
|
|
becomes freed from its present restraints, that it did not take her
|
|
wholly by surprize. She frequently gave me hints of it. I remember
|
|
her telling me at the ball, that I owed Mrs. Elton gratitude for her
|
|
attentions to Miss Fairfax.-- I hope this history of my conduct towards
|
|
her will be admitted by you and my father as great extenuation of what
|
|
you saw amiss. While you considered me as having sinned against Emma
|
|
Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and
|
|
procure for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes of
|
|
that said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly
|
|
affection, as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as
|
|
myself.-- Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight,
|
|
you have now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was
|
|
to get my body thither as often as might be, and with the least
|
|
suspicion. If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right
|
|
account.-- Of the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only
|
|
necessary to say, that its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss
|
|
F--, who would never have allowed me to send it, had any choice been
|
|
given her.-- The delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement,
|
|
my dear madam, is much beyond my power of doing justice to. You will
|
|
soon, I earnestly hope, know her thoroughly yourself.-- No description
|
|
can describe her. She must tell you herself what she is--yet not by
|
|
word, for never was there a human creature who would so designedly
|
|
suppress her own merit.--Since I began this letter, which will be
|
|
longer than I foresaw, I have heard from her.-- She gives a good
|
|
account of her own health; but as she never complains, I dare not
|
|
depend. I want to have your opinion of her looks. I know you will
|
|
soon call on her; she is living in dread of the visit. Perhaps it is
|
|
paid already. Let me hear from you without delay; I am impatient for a
|
|
thousand particulars. Remember how few minutes I was at Randalls, and
|
|
in how bewildered, how mad a state: and I am not much better yet; still
|
|
insane either from happiness or misery. When I think of the kindness
|
|
and favour I have met with, of her excellence and patience, and my
|
|
uncle's generosity, I am mad with joy: but when I recollect all the
|
|
uneasiness I occasioned her, and how little I deserve to be forgiven, I
|
|
am mad with anger. If I could but see her again!--But I must not
|
|
propose it yet. My uncle has been too good for me to encroach.--I must
|
|
still add to this long letter. You have not heard all that you ought
|
|
to hear. I could not give any connected detail yesterday; but the
|
|
suddenness, and, in one light, the unseasonableness with which the
|
|
affair burst out, needs explanation; for though the event of the 26th
|
|
ult., as you will conclude, immediately opened to me the happiest
|
|
prospects, I should not have presumed on such early measures, but from
|
|
the very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to lose.
|
|
I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she would have
|
|
felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and refinement.--
|
|
But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered into with
|
|
that woman--Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off abruptly,
|
|
to recollect and compose myself.--I have been walking over the country,
|
|
and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of my letter what
|
|
it ought to be.--It is, in fact, a most mortifying retrospect for me.
|
|
I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that my manners to Miss
|
|
W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly blameable. _She_
|
|
disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.--My plea of
|
|
concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.--She was displeased;
|
|
I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand occasions,
|
|
unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even cold. But
|
|
she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and subdued my
|
|
spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have escaped
|
|
the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.--We quarrelled.-- Do you
|
|
remember the morning spent at Donwell?--_There_ every little
|
|
dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late;
|
|
I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her, but she
|
|
would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me, which I then
|
|
thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing in it but a
|
|
very natural and consistent degree of discretion. While I, to blind
|
|
the world to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable
|
|
particularity to another woman, was she to be consenting the next to a
|
|
proposal which might have made every previous caution useless?--Had we
|
|
been met walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must
|
|
have been suspected.-- I was mad enough, however, to resent.--I doubted
|
|
her affection. I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when,
|
|
provoked by such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect of
|
|
her, and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been
|
|
impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her resentment
|
|
in a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.-- In short, my dear
|
|
madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side, abominable on mine; and
|
|
I returned the same evening to Richmond, though I might have staid with
|
|
you till the next morning, merely because I would be as angry with her
|
|
as possible. Even then, I was not such a fool as not to mean to be
|
|
reconciled in time; but I was the injured person, injured by her
|
|
coldness, and I went away determined that she should make the first
|
|
advances.--I shall always congratulate myself that you were not of the
|
|
Box Hill party. Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly
|
|
suppose you would ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon
|
|
her appears in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she
|
|
found I was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of
|
|
that officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her,
|
|
by the bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred. I must not
|
|
quarrel with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended
|
|
towards myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly protest against the
|
|
share of it which that woman has known.-- 'Jane,' indeed!--You will
|
|
observe that I have not yet indulged myself in calling her by that
|
|
name, even to you. Think, then, what I must have endured in hearing it
|
|
bandied between the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless
|
|
repetition, and all the insolence of imaginary superiority. Have
|
|
patience with me, I shall soon have done.-- She closed with this offer,
|
|
resolving to break with me entirely, and wrote the next day to tell me
|
|
that we never were to meet again.-- _She_ _felt_ _the_ _engagement_
|
|
_to_ _be_ _a_ _source_ _of_ _repentance_ _and_ _misery_ _to_ _each_:
|
|
_she_ _dissolved_ _it_.--This letter reached me on the very morning of
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my poor aunt's death. I answered it within an hour; but from the
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confusion of my mind, and the multiplicity of business falling on me at
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once, my answer, instead of being sent with all the many other letters
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of that day, was locked up in my writing-desk; and I, trusting that I
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had written enough, though but a few lines, to satisfy her, remained
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without any uneasiness.--I was rather disappointed that I did not hear
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from her again speedily; but I made excuses for her, and was too busy,
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and--may I add?-- too cheerful in my views to be captious.--We removed
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to Windsor; and two days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my
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own letters all returned!--and a few lines at the same time by the
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post, stating her extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply
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to her last; and adding, that as silence on such a point could not be
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misconstrued, and as it must be equally desirable to both to have every
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subordinate arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me,
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by a safe conveyance, all my letters, and requested, that if I could
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not directly command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a
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week, I would forward them after that period to her at--: in short,
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the full direction to Mr. Smallridge's, near Bristol, stared me in the
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face. I knew the name, the place, I knew all about it, and instantly
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saw what she had been doing. It was perfectly accordant with that
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resolution of character which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy
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she had maintained, as to any such design in her former letter, was
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equally descriptive of its anxious delicacy. For the world would not
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she have seemed to threaten me.--Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I
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had actually detected my own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the
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post.-- What was to be done?--One thing only.--I must speak to my
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uncle. Without his sanction I could not hope to be listened to
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again.-- I spoke; circumstances were in my favour; the late event had
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softened away his pride, and he was, earlier than I could have
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anticipated, wholly reconciled and complying; and could say at last,
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poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I might find as much
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happiness in the marriage state as he had done.--I felt that it would
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be of a different sort.--Are you disposed to pity me for what I must
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have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my suspense while all
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was at stake?--No; do not pity me till I reached Highbury, and saw how
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ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her wan, sick looks.--I
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reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my knowledge of their
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late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance of finding her
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alone.--I was not disappointed; and at last I was not disappointed
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either in the object of my journey. A great deal of very reasonable,
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very just displeasure I had to persuade away. But it is done; we are
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reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever, and no moment's uneasiness
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can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I will release
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you; but I could not conclude before. A thousand and a thousand thanks
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for all the kindness you have ever shewn me, and ten thousand for the
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attentions your heart will dictate towards her.--If you think me in a
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way to be happier than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.--Miss W.
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calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.--In one
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respect, my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe
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myself,
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Your obliged and affectionate Son,
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F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
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CHAPTER XV
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This letter must make its way to Emma's feelings. She was obliged, in
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spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the
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justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own
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name, it was irresistible; every line relating to herself was
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interesting, and almost every line agreeable; and when this charm
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ceased, the subject could still maintain itself, by the natural return
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of her former regard for the writer, and the very strong attraction
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which any picture of love must have for her at that moment. She never
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stopt till she had gone through the whole; and though it was impossible
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not to feel that he had been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than she
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had supposed--and he had suffered, and was very sorry--and he was so
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grateful to Mrs. Weston, and so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she
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was so happy herself, that there was no being severe; and could he have
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entered the room, she must have shaken hands with him as heartily as
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ever.
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She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again,
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she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston's wishing it
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to be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley, had
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seen so much to blame in his conduct.
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"I shall be very glad to look it over," said he; "but it seems long. I
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will take it home with me at night."
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But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening, and she
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must return it by him.
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"I would rather be talking to you," he replied; "but as it seems a
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matter of justice, it shall be done."
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He began--stopping, however, almost directly to say, "Had I been
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offered the sight of one of this gentleman's letters to his
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mother-in-law a few months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with
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such indifference."
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He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then, with a
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smile, observed, "Humph! a fine complimentary opening: But it is his
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way. One man's style must not be the rule of another's. We will not
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be severe."
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"It will be natural for me," he added shortly afterwards, "to speak my
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opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you.
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It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it--"
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"Not at all. I should wish it."
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Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.
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"He trifles here," said he, "as to the temptation. He knows he is
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wrong, and has nothing rational to urge.--Bad.--He ought not to have
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formed the engagement.--'His father's disposition:'--he is unjust,
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however, to his father. Mr. Weston's sanguine temper was a blessing on
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all his upright and honourable exertions; but Mr. Weston earned every
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present comfort before he endeavoured to gain it.--Very true; he did
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not come till Miss Fairfax was here."
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"And I have not forgotten," said Emma, "how sure you were that he might
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have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely--but
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you were perfectly right."
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"I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:--but yet, I think--
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had _you_ not been in the case--I should still have distrusted him."
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When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole of it
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aloud--all that related to her, with a smile; a look; a shake of the
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head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation; or merely of love, as
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the subject required; concluding, however, seriously, and, after steady
|
|
reflection, thus--
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"Very bad--though it might have been worse.--Playing a most dangerous
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game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.-- No judge of
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his own manners by you.--Always deceived in fact by his own wishes, and
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regardless of little besides his own convenience.-- Fancying you to
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have fathomed his secret. Natural enough!--his own mind full of
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intrigue, that he should suspect it in others.--Mystery; Finesse--how
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they pervert the understanding! My Emma, does not every thing serve to
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prove more and more the beauty of truth and sincerity in all our
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dealings with each other?"
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Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet's
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account, which she could not give any sincere explanation of.
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"You had better go on," said she.
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He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, "the pianoforte! Ah!
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That was the act of a very, very young man, one too young to consider
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whether the inconvenience of it might not very much exceed the
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|
pleasure. A boyish scheme, indeed!--I cannot comprehend a man's
|
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wishing to give a woman any proof of affection which he knows she would
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rather dispense with; and he did know that she would have prevented the
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instrument's coming if she could."
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After this, he made some progress without any pause. Frank Churchill's
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confession of having behaved shamefully was the first thing to call for
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more than a word in passing.
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"I perfectly agree with you, sir,"--was then his remark. "You did
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behave very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line." And having gone
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through what immediately followed of the basis of their disagreement,
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and his persisting to act in direct opposition to Jane Fairfax's sense
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of right, he made a fuller pause to say, "This is very bad.--He had
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induced her to place herself, for his sake, in a situation of extreme
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difficulty and uneasiness, and it should have been his first object to
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prevent her from suffering unnecessarily.--She must have had much more
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|
to contend with, in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He
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|
should have respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such;
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but hers were all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and
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|
remember that she had done a wrong thing in consenting to the
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engagement, to bear that she should have been in such a state of
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|
punishment."
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Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party, and grew
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|
uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper! She was
|
|
deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look. It was all read,
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|
however, steadily, attentively, and without the smallest remark; and,
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excepting one momentary glance at her, instantly withdrawn, in the fear
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of giving pain--no remembrance of Box Hill seemed to exist.
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"There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends, the
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Eltons," was his next observation.--"His feelings are natural.-- What!
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actually resolve to break with him entirely!--She felt the engagement
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|
to be a source of repentance and misery to each--she dissolved
|
|
it.--What a view this gives of her sense of his behaviour!--Well, he
|
|
must be a most extraordinary--"
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"Nay, nay, read on.--You will find how very much he suffers."
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"I hope he does," replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the
|
|
letter. "'Smallridge!'--What does this mean? What is all this?"
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"She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge's children--a
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|
dear friend of Mrs. Elton's--a neighbour of Maple Grove; and, by the
|
|
bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?"
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"Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read--not even of
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|
Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done. What a
|
|
letter the man writes!"
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"I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him."
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"Well, there _is_ feeling here.--He does seem to have suffered in
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|
finding her ill.--Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of
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|
her. 'Dearer, much dearer than ever.' I hope he may long continue to
|
|
feel all the value of such a reconciliation.--He is a very liberal
|
|
thanker, with his thousands and tens of thousands.--'Happier than I
|
|
deserve.' Come, he knows himself there. 'Miss Woodhouse calls me the
|
|
child of good fortune.'--Those were Miss Woodhouse's words, were
|
|
they?-- And a fine ending--and there is the letter. The child of good
|
|
fortune! That was your name for him, was it?"
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|
|
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"You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am; but still
|
|
you must, at least I hope you must, think the better of him for it. I
|
|
hope it does him some service with you."
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|
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"Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of
|
|
inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his opinion
|
|
in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves: but still as he
|
|
is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax, and will soon, it
|
|
may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly with her, I am
|
|
very ready to believe his character will improve, and acquire from hers
|
|
the steadiness and delicacy of principle that it wants. And now, let
|
|
me talk to you of something else. I have another person's interest at
|
|
present so much at heart, that I cannot think any longer about Frank
|
|
Churchill. Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been
|
|
hard at work on one subject."
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|
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|
The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike
|
|
English, such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love
|
|
with, how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the
|
|
happiness of her father. Emma's answer was ready at the first word.
|
|
"While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be
|
|
impossible for her. She could never quit him." Part only of this
|
|
answer, however, was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her
|
|
father, Mr. Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the
|
|
inadmissibility of any other change, he could not agree to. He had
|
|
been thinking it over most deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped
|
|
to induce Mr. Woodhouse to remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to
|
|
believe it feasible, but his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not
|
|
suffer him to deceive himself long; and now he confessed his
|
|
persuasion, that such a transplantation would be a risk of her father's
|
|
comfort, perhaps even of his life, which must not be hazarded. Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse taken from Hartfield!--No, he felt that it ought not to be
|
|
attempted. But the plan which had arisen on the sacrifice of this, he
|
|
trusted his dearest Emma would not find in any respect objectionable;
|
|
it was, that he should be received at Hartfield; that so long as her
|
|
father's happiness in other words his life--required Hartfield to
|
|
continue her home, it should be his likewise.
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|
|
|
Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own passing
|
|
thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it; but such
|
|
an alternative as this had not occurred to her. She was sensible of
|
|
all the affection it evinced. She felt that, in quitting Donwell, he
|
|
must be sacrificing a great deal of independence of hours and habits;
|
|
that in living constantly with her father, and in no house of his own,
|
|
there would be much, very much, to be borne with. She promised to
|
|
think of it, and advised him to think of it more; but he was fully
|
|
convinced, that no reflection could alter his wishes or his opinion on
|
|
the subject. He had given it, he could assure her, very long and calm
|
|
consideration; he had been walking away from William Larkins the whole
|
|
morning, to have his thoughts to himself.
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|
|
|
"Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for," cried Emma. "I am sure
|
|
William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent before you
|
|
ask mine."
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|
|
|
She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised,
|
|
moreover, to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good
|
|
scheme.
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|
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|
It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view in
|
|
which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never struck
|
|
with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights as
|
|
heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded. Think she
|
|
must of the possible difference to the poor little boy; and yet she
|
|
only gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it, and found amusement
|
|
in detecting the real cause of that violent dislike of Mr. Knightley's
|
|
marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else, which at the time she had
|
|
wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of the sister and the aunt.
|
|
|
|
This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at
|
|
Hartfield--the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became.
|
|
His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase, their
|
|
mutual good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion for herself
|
|
in the periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!-- Such a
|
|
partner in all those duties and cares to which time must be giving
|
|
increase of melancholy!
|
|
|
|
She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every blessing
|
|
of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings of her friend,
|
|
who must now be even excluded from Hartfield. The delightful family
|
|
party which Emma was securing for herself, poor Harriet must, in mere
|
|
charitable caution, be kept at a distance from. She would be a loser
|
|
in every way. Emma could not deplore her future absence as any
|
|
deduction from her own enjoyment. In such a party, Harriet would be
|
|
rather a dead weight than otherwise; but for the poor girl herself, it
|
|
seemed a peculiarly cruel necessity that was to be placing her in such
|
|
a state of unmerited punishment.
|
|
|
|
In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is,
|
|
supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early. Mr.
|
|
Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;--not like
|
|
Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling, so truly
|
|
considerate for every body, would never deserve to be less worshipped
|
|
than now; and it really was too much to hope even of Harriet, that she
|
|
could be in love with more than _three_ men in one year.
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CHAPTER XVI
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It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as
|
|
herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by
|
|
letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!
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|
|
|
Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed, without
|
|
reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied there
|
|
was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in her
|
|
style, which increased the desirableness of their being separate.-- It
|
|
might be only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an angel only
|
|
could have been quite without resentment under such a stroke.
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|
|
|
She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella's invitation; and she was
|
|
fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it, without
|
|
resorting to invention.--There was a tooth amiss. Harriet really
|
|
wished, and had wished some time, to consult a dentist. Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley was delighted to be of use; any thing of ill health was a
|
|
recommendation to her--and though not so fond of a dentist as of a Mr.
|
|
Wingfield, she was quite eager to have Harriet under her care.--When it
|
|
was thus settled on her sister's side, Emma proposed it to her friend,
|
|
and found her very persuadable.-- Harriet was to go; she was invited
|
|
for at least a fortnight; she was to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse's
|
|
carriage.--It was all arranged, it was all completed, and Harriet was
|
|
safe in Brunswick Square.
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|
|
|
Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley's visits; now she could
|
|
talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by that sense
|
|
of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful, which had haunted
|
|
her when remembering how disappointed a heart was near her, how much
|
|
might at that moment, and at a little distance, be enduring by the
|
|
feelings which she had led astray herself.
|
|
|
|
The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard's, or in London, made perhaps
|
|
an unreasonable difference in Emma's sensations; but she could not
|
|
think of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment,
|
|
which must be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.
|
|
|
|
She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place
|
|
in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication
|
|
before her, one which _she_ only could be competent to make--the
|
|
confession of her engagement to her father; but she would have nothing
|
|
to do with it at present.--She had resolved to defer the disclosure
|
|
till Mrs. Weston were safe and well. No additional agitation should be
|
|
thrown at this period among those she loved--and the evil should not
|
|
act on herself by anticipation before the appointed time.--A fortnight,
|
|
at least, of leisure and peace of mind, to crown every warmer, but more
|
|
agitating, delight, should be hers.
|
|
|
|
She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half an
|
|
hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.-- She ought
|
|
to go--and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of their present
|
|
situations increasing every other motive of goodwill. It would be a
|
|
_secret_ satisfaction; but the consciousness of a similarity of
|
|
prospect would certainly add to the interest with which she should
|
|
attend to any thing Jane might communicate.
|
|
|
|
She went--she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had not
|
|
been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane
|
|
had been in such distress as had filled her with compassion, though all
|
|
the worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.-- The fear of being
|
|
still unwelcome, determined her, though assured of their being at home,
|
|
to wait in the passage, and send up her name.-- She heard Patty
|
|
announcing it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor Miss Bates had
|
|
before made so happily intelligible.--No; she heard nothing but the
|
|
instant reply of, "Beg her to walk up;"--and a moment afterwards she
|
|
was met on the stairs by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward, as if no
|
|
other reception of her were felt sufficient.-- Emma had never seen her
|
|
look so well, so lovely, so engaging. There was consciousness,
|
|
animation, and warmth; there was every thing which her countenance or
|
|
manner could ever have wanted.-- She came forward with an offered hand;
|
|
and said, in a low, but very feeling tone,
|
|
|
|
"This is most kind, indeed!--Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible for me to
|
|
express--I hope you will believe--Excuse me for being so entirely
|
|
without words."
|
|
|
|
Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words, if the
|
|
sound of Mrs. Elton's voice from the sitting-room had not checked her,
|
|
and made it expedient to compress all her friendly and all her
|
|
congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest shake of the hand.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which
|
|
accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have wished Mrs.
|
|
Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience with every
|
|
body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness, she hoped
|
|
the rencontre would do them no harm.
|
|
|
|
She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton's thoughts, and
|
|
understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits; it was being in
|
|
Miss Fairfax's confidence, and fancying herself acquainted with what
|
|
was still a secret to other people. Emma saw symptoms of it
|
|
immediately in the expression of her face; and while paying her own
|
|
compliments to Mrs. Bates, and appearing to attend to the good old
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lady's replies, she saw her with a sort of anxious parade of mystery
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fold up a letter which she had apparently been reading aloud to Miss
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Fairfax, and return it into the purple and gold reticule by her side,
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saying, with significant nods,
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"We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall not
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want opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the essential
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already. I only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits our
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apology, and is not offended. You see how delightfully she writes.
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Oh! she is a sweet creature! You would have doated on her, had you
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gone.--But not a word more. Let us be discreet--quite on our good
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behaviour.--Hush!--You remember those lines-- I forget the poem at this
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moment:
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"For when a lady's in the case,
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"You know all other things give place."
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Now I say, my dear, in _our_ case, for _lady_, read----mum! a word to
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the wise.--I am in a fine flow of spirits, an't I? But I want to set
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your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.--_My_ representation, you see, has
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quite appeased her."
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And again, on Emma's merely turning her head to look at Mrs. Bates's
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knitting, she added, in a half whisper,
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"I mentioned no _names_, you will observe.--Oh! no; cautious as a
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minister of state. I managed it extremely well."
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Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every
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possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony
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of the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed
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with,
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"Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is
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charmingly recovered?--Do not you think her cure does Perry the highest
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credit?--(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.) Upon my
|
|
word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!-- Oh! if you
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|
had seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!"-- And when Mrs.
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Bates was saying something to Emma, whispered farther, "We do not say a
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|
word of any _assistance_ that Perry might have; not a word of a certain
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young physician from Windsor.--Oh! no; Perry shall have all the credit."
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"I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse," she
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|
shortly afterwards began, "since the party to Box Hill. Very pleasant
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|
party. But yet I think there was something wanting. Things did not
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|
seem--that is, there seemed a little cloud upon the spirits of
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|
some.--So it appeared to me at least, but I might be mistaken.
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However, I think it answered so far as to tempt one to go again. What
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say you both to our collecting the same party, and exploring to Box
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|
Hill again, while the fine weather lasts?-- It must be the same party,
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|
you know, quite the same party, not _one_ exception."
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Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being
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|
diverted by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting,
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|
she supposed, from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say
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|
every thing.
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|
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"Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.--It is
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|
impossible to say--Yes, indeed, I quite understand--dearest Jane's
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|
prospects--that is, I do not mean.--But she is charmingly recovered.--
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|
How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad.--Quite out of my power.-- Such a
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|
happy little circle as you find us here.--Yes, indeed.-- Charming young
|
|
man!--that is--so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!--such
|
|
attention to Jane!"--And from her great, her more than commonly
|
|
thankful delight towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed that
|
|
there had been a little show of resentment towards Jane, from the
|
|
vicarage quarter, which was now graciously overcome.-- After a few
|
|
whispers, indeed, which placed it beyond a guess, Mrs. Elton, speaking
|
|
louder, said,
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|
"Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long, that
|
|
anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise; but, the truth
|
|
is, that I am waiting for my lord and master. He promised to join me
|
|
here, and pay his respects to you."
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|
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|
"What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?-- That
|
|
will be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like morning
|
|
visits, and Mr. Elton's time is so engaged."
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|
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|
"Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.--He really is engaged from morning to
|
|
night.--There is no end of people's coming to him, on some pretence or
|
|
other.--The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens, are always
|
|
wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing without
|
|
him.--'Upon my word, Mr. E.,' I often say, 'rather you than I.-- I do
|
|
not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument, if I had
|
|
half so many applicants.'--Bad enough as it is, for I absolutely
|
|
neglect them both to an unpardonable degree.--I believe I have not
|
|
played a bar this fortnight.--However, he is coming, I assure you:
|
|
yes, indeed, on purpose to wait on you all." And putting up her hand
|
|
to screen her words from Emma--"A congratulatory visit, you know.--Oh!
|
|
yes, quite indispensable."
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|
|
Miss Bates looked about her, so happily!--
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|
"He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself from
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|
Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep
|
|
consultation.--Mr. E. is Knightley's right hand."
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|
Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, "Is Mr. Elton
|
|
gone on foot to Donwell?--He will have a hot walk."
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|
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|
"Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and
|
|
Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who
|
|
lead.--I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way."
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|
"Have not you mistaken the day?" said Emma. "I am almost certain that
|
|
the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.--Mr. Knightley was at
|
|
Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday."
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|
|
|
"Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day," was the abrupt answer, which
|
|
denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton's side.-- "I do
|
|
believe," she continued, "this is the most troublesome parish that ever
|
|
was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove."
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|
"Your parish there was small," said Jane.
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|
|
|
"Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject
|
|
talked of."
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|
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|
"But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard
|
|
you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge;
|
|
the only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children."
|
|
|
|
"Ah! you clever creature, that's very true. What a thinking brain you
|
|
have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if
|
|
we could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would
|
|
produce perfection.--Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that
|
|
_some_ people may not think _you_ perfection already.--But hush!--not
|
|
a word, if you please."
|
|
|
|
It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words,
|
|
not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.
|
|
The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very
|
|
evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her
|
|
sparkling vivacity.
|
|
|
|
"Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an
|
|
encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!-- But
|
|
you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with. You knew I
|
|
should not stir till my lord and master appeared.-- Here have I been
|
|
sitting this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal
|
|
obedience--for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?"
|
|
|
|
Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.
|
|
His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent
|
|
object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and
|
|
the walk he had had for nothing.
|
|
|
|
"When I got to Donwell," said he, "Knightley could not be found. Very
|
|
odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and
|
|
the message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one."
|
|
|
|
"Donwell!" cried his wife.--"My dear Mr. E., you have not been to
|
|
Donwell!--You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown."
|
|
|
|
"No, no, that's to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley
|
|
to-day on that very account.--Such a dreadful broiling morning!-- I
|
|
went over the fields too--(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,)
|
|
which made it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home! I
|
|
assure you I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message
|
|
for me. The housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being
|
|
expected.-- Very extraordinary!--And nobody knew at all which way he
|
|
was gone. Perhaps to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps
|
|
into his woods.-- Miss Woodhouse, this is not like our friend
|
|
Knightley!--Can you explain it?"
|
|
|
|
Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary,
|
|
indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot imagine," said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife
|
|
ought to do,) "I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of
|
|
all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect
|
|
to be forgotten!--My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you,
|
|
I am sure he must.--Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;--
|
|
and his servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and
|
|
very likely to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have
|
|
often observed, extremely awkward and remiss.--I am sure I would not
|
|
have such a creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any
|
|
consideration. And as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap
|
|
indeed.--She promised Wright a receipt, and never sent it."
|
|
|
|
"I met William Larkins," continued Mr. Elton, "as I got near the house,
|
|
and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not
|
|
believe him.--William seemed rather out of humour. He did not know
|
|
what was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever
|
|
get the speech of him. I have nothing to do with William's wants, but
|
|
it really is of very great importance that _I_ should see Knightley
|
|
to-day; and it becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious
|
|
inconvenience that I should have had this hot walk to no purpose."
|
|
|
|
Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly. In all
|
|
probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr.
|
|
Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards
|
|
Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
|
|
|
|
She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to
|
|
attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her
|
|
an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,
|
|
|
|
"It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility. Had you
|
|
not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to
|
|
introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might
|
|
have been strictly correct.--I feel that I should certainly have been
|
|
impertinent."
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought
|
|
infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual
|
|
composure--"there would have been no danger. The danger would have
|
|
been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than by
|
|
expressing an interest--. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more
|
|
collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very
|
|
great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those
|
|
of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not
|
|
disgusted to such a degree as to--I have not time for half that I could
|
|
wish to say. I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for
|
|
myself. I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately--in short, if your
|
|
compassion does not stand my friend--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are," cried Emma warmly, and
|
|
taking her hand. "You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you
|
|
might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted
|
|
even--"
|
|
|
|
"You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.-- So cold
|
|
and artificial!--I had always a part to act.--It was a life of
|
|
deceit!--I know that I must have disgusted you."
|
|
|
|
"Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.
|
|
Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done
|
|
quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there. I hope you
|
|
have pleasant accounts from Windsor?"
|
|
|
|
"Very."
|
|
|
|
"And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you--just
|
|
as I begin to know you."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet. I am
|
|
here till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell."
|
|
|
|
"Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps," replied Emma,
|
|
smiling--"but, excuse me, it must be thought of."
|
|
|
|
The smile was returned as Jane answered,
|
|
|
|
"You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I
|
|
am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill
|
|
at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of
|
|
deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing
|
|
more to wait for."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, thank you.--This is just what I wanted to be assured of.--
|
|
Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and open!--
|
|
Good-bye, good-bye."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XVII
|
|
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|
|
Mrs. Weston's friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the
|
|
satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by
|
|
knowing her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in
|
|
wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with
|
|
any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of
|
|
Isabella's sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both
|
|
father and mother best. It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as
|
|
he grew older--and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years
|
|
hence--to have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense,
|
|
the freaks and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and
|
|
Mrs. Weston--no one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her;
|
|
and it would be quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to
|
|
teach, should not have their powers in exercise again.
|
|
|
|
"She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me," she
|
|
continued--"like La Baronne d'Almane on La Comtesse d'Ostalis, in
|
|
Madame de Genlis' Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own
|
|
little Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan."
|
|
|
|
"That is," replied Mr. Knightley, "she will indulge her even more than
|
|
she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all. It will
|
|
be the only difference."
|
|
|
|
"Poor child!" cried Emma; "at that rate, what will become of her?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing very bad.--The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable in
|
|
infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my
|
|
bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma. I, who am owing
|
|
all my happiness to _you_, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me
|
|
to be severe on them?"
|
|
|
|
Emma laughed, and replied: "But I had the assistance of all your
|
|
endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people. I doubt
|
|
whether my own sense would have corrected me without it."
|
|
|
|
"Do you?--I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:-- Miss
|
|
Taylor gave you principles. You must have done well. My interference
|
|
was quite as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to
|
|
say, what right has he to lecture me?--and I am afraid very natural
|
|
for you to feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not
|
|
believe I did you any good. The good was all to myself, by making you
|
|
an object of the tenderest affection to me. I could not think about
|
|
you so much without doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of
|
|
fancying so many errors, have been in love with you ever since you were
|
|
thirteen at least."
|
|
|
|
"I am sure you were of use to me," cried Emma. "I was very often
|
|
influenced rightly by you--oftener than I would own at the time. I am
|
|
very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be
|
|
spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her
|
|
as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is
|
|
thirteen."
|
|
|
|
"How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your
|
|
saucy looks--'Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I
|
|
may, or I have Miss Taylor's leave'--something which, you knew, I did
|
|
not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad
|
|
feelings instead of one."
|
|
|
|
"What an amiable creature I was!--No wonder you should hold my speeches
|
|
in such affectionate remembrance."
|
|
|
|
"'Mr. Knightley.'--You always called me, 'Mr. Knightley;' and, from
|
|
habit, it has not so very formal a sound.--And yet it is formal. I
|
|
want you to call me something else, but I do not know what."
|
|
|
|
"I remember once calling you 'George,' in one of my amiable fits, about
|
|
ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as
|
|
you made no objection, I never did it again."
|
|
|
|
"And cannot you call me 'George' now?"
|
|
|
|
"Impossible!--I never can call you any thing but 'Mr. Knightley.' I
|
|
will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by
|
|
calling you Mr. K.--But I will promise," she added presently, laughing
|
|
and blushing--"I will promise to call you once by your Christian name.
|
|
I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;--in the building in
|
|
which N. takes M. for better, for worse."
|
|
|
|
Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important
|
|
service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the advice
|
|
which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly
|
|
follies--her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender
|
|
a subject.--She could not enter on it.-- Harriet was very seldom
|
|
mentioned between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from
|
|
her not being thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it
|
|
to delicacy, and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their
|
|
friendship were declining. She was aware herself, that, parting under
|
|
any other circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more,
|
|
and that her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost
|
|
wholly did, on Isabella's letters. He might observe that it was so.
|
|
The pain of being obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very
|
|
little inferior to the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
|
|
|
|
Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be
|
|
expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits,
|
|
which appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be
|
|
consulted; but, since that business had been over, she did not appear
|
|
to find Harriet different from what she had known her before.--
|
|
Isabella, to be sure, was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had
|
|
not been equal to playing with the children, it would not have escaped
|
|
her. Emma's comforts and hopes were most agreeably carried on, by
|
|
Harriet's being to stay longer; her fortnight was likely to be a month
|
|
at least. Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were to come down in August, and
|
|
she was invited to remain till they could bring her back.
|
|
|
|
"John does not even mention your friend," said Mr. Knightley. "Here is
|
|
his answer, if you like to see it."
|
|
|
|
It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage. Emma
|
|
accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to
|
|
know what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that
|
|
her friend was unmentioned.
|
|
|
|
"John enters like a brother into my happiness," continued Mr.
|
|
Knightley, "but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to
|
|
have, likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from
|
|
making flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather
|
|
cool in her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes."
|
|
|
|
"He writes like a sensible man," replied Emma, when she had read the
|
|
letter. "I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he considers
|
|
the good fortune of the engagement as all on my side, but that he is
|
|
not without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy of your affection,
|
|
as you think me already. Had he said any thing to bear a different
|
|
construction, I should not have believed him."
|
|
|
|
"My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means--"
|
|
|
|
"He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,"
|
|
interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile--"much less, perhaps,
|
|
than he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve on
|
|
the subject."
|
|
|
|
"Emma, my dear Emma--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" she cried with more thorough gaiety, "if you fancy your brother
|
|
does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in the secret,
|
|
and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much farther from
|
|
doing _you_ justice. He will think all the happiness, all the
|
|
advantage, on your side of the question; all the merit on mine. I wish
|
|
I may not sink into 'poor Emma' with him at once.-- His tender
|
|
compassion towards oppressed worth can go no farther."
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" he cried, "I wish your father might be half as easily convinced
|
|
as John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give,
|
|
to be happy together. I am amused by one part of John's letter--did
|
|
you notice it?--where he says, that my information did not take him
|
|
wholly by surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing
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something of the kind."
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"If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having some
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thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly
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unprepared for that."
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"Yes, yes--but I am amused that he should have seen so far into my
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feelings. What has he been judging by?--I am not conscious of any
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difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare him at this
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time for my marrying any more than at another.-- But it was so, I
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suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I was staying with
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them the other day. I believe I did not play with the children quite
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so much as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys saying, 'Uncle
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seems always tired now.'"
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The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other
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persons' reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was
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sufficiently recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse's visits, Emma having it
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in view that her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause,
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resolved first to announce it at home, and then at Randalls.-- But how
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to break it to her father at last!--She had bound herself to do it, in
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such an hour of Mr. Knightley's absence, or when it came to the point
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her heart would have failed her, and she must have put it off; but Mr.
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Knightley was to come at such a time, and follow up the beginning she
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was to make.--She was forced to speak, and to speak cheerfully too.
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She must not make it a more decided subject of misery to him, by a
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melancholy tone herself. She must not appear to think it a
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misfortune.--With all the spirits she could command, she prepared him
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first for something strange, and then, in a few words, said, that if
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his consent and approbation could be obtained--which, she trusted,
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would be attended with no difficulty, since it was a plan to promote
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the happiness of all--she and Mr. Knightley meant to marry; by which
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means Hartfield would receive the constant addition of that person's
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company whom she knew he loved, next to his daughters and Mrs. Weston,
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best in the world.
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Poor man!--it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried
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earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once,
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of having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would
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|
be a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of poor
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Isabella, and poor Miss Taylor.--But it would not do. Emma hung about
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him affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that he
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must not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages
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|
taking them from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change: but
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she was not going from Hartfield; she should be always there; she was
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|
introducing no change in their numbers or their comforts but for the
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better; and she was very sure that he would be a great deal the happier
|
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for having Mr. Knightley always at hand, when he were once got used to
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the idea.--Did he not love Mr. Knightley very much?-- He would not deny
|
|
that he did, she was sure.--Whom did he ever want to consult on
|
|
business but Mr. Knightley?--Who was so useful to him, who so ready to
|
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write his letters, who so glad to assist him?-- Who so cheerful, so
|
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attentive, so attached to him?--Would not he like to have him always on
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the spot?--Yes. That was all very true. Mr. Knightley could not be
|
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there too often; he should be glad to see him every day;--but they did
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|
see him every day as it was.--Why could not they go on as they had done?
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Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome,
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the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.--
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|
To Emma's entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley's, whose
|
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fond praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome; and he was
|
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soon used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.-- They had
|
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all the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters of the
|
|
strongest approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready, on the first meeting,
|
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to consider the subject in the most serviceable light--first, as a
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settled, and, secondly, as a good one--well aware of the nearly equal
|
|
importance of the two recommendations to Mr. Woodhouse's mind.--It was
|
|
agreed upon, as what was to be; and every body by whom he was used to
|
|
be guided assuring him that it would be for his happiness; and having
|
|
some feelings himself which almost admitted it, he began to think that
|
|
some time or other--in another year or two, perhaps--it might not be
|
|
so very bad if the marriage did take place.
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Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she
|
|
said to him in favour of the event.--She had been extremely surprized,
|
|
never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her; but she
|
|
saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had no scruple in
|
|
urging him to the utmost.--She had such a regard for Mr. Knightley, as
|
|
to think he deserved even her dearest Emma; and it was in every respect
|
|
so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable a connexion, and in one
|
|
respect, one point of the highest importance, so peculiarly eligible,
|
|
so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed as if Emma could not safely
|
|
have attached herself to any other creature, and that she had herself
|
|
been the stupidest of beings in not having thought of it, and wished it
|
|
long ago.--How very few of those men in a rank of life to address Emma
|
|
would have renounced their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr.
|
|
Knightley could know and bear with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such an
|
|
arrangement desirable!-- The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse had been always felt in her husband's plans and her own, for
|
|
a marriage between Frank and Emma. How to settle the claims of
|
|
Enscombe and Hartfield had been a continual impediment--less
|
|
acknowledged by Mr. Weston than by herself--but even he had never been
|
|
able to finish the subject better than by saying--"Those matters will
|
|
take care of themselves; the young people will find a way." But here
|
|
there was nothing to be shifted off in a wild speculation on the
|
|
future. It was all right, all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any
|
|
side worth the name. It was a union of the highest promise of felicity
|
|
in itself, and without one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay
|
|
it.
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Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections
|
|
as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing
|
|
could increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would soon
|
|
have outgrown its first set of caps.
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The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread; and Mr. Weston
|
|
had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes were enough to
|
|
familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.-- He saw the advantages
|
|
of the match, and rejoiced in them with all the constancy of his wife;
|
|
but the wonder of it was very soon nothing; and by the end of an hour
|
|
he was not far from believing that he had always foreseen it.
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|
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"It is to be a secret, I conclude," said he. "These matters are always
|
|
a secret, till it is found out that every body knows them. Only let me
|
|
be told when I may speak out.--I wonder whether Jane has any suspicion."
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|
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He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on that
|
|
point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter, his eldest
|
|
daughter?--he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present, it passed,
|
|
of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton, immediately
|
|
afterwards. It was no more than the principals were prepared for; they
|
|
had calculated from the time of its being known at Randalls, how soon
|
|
it would be over Highbury; and were thinking of themselves, as the
|
|
evening wonder in many a family circle, with great sagacity.
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|
|
|
In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him,
|
|
and others might think her, the most in luck. One set might recommend
|
|
their all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield for the John
|
|
Knightleys; and another might predict disagreements among their
|
|
servants; but yet, upon the whole, there was no serious objection
|
|
raised, except in one habitation, the Vicarage.--There, the surprize
|
|
was not softened by any satisfaction. Mr. Elton cared little about it,
|
|
compared with his wife; he only hoped "the young lady's pride would now
|
|
be contented;" and supposed "she had always meant to catch Knightley if
|
|
she could;" and, on the point of living at Hartfield, could daringly
|
|
exclaim, "Rather he than I!"-- But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed
|
|
indeed.--"Poor Knightley! poor fellow!--sad business for him.--She was
|
|
extremely concerned; for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good
|
|
qualities.-- How could he be so taken in?--Did not think him at all in
|
|
love--not in the least.--Poor Knightley!--There would be an end of all
|
|
pleasant intercourse with him.--How happy he had been to come and dine
|
|
with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.--
|
|
Poor fellow!--No more exploring parties to Donwell made for _her_. Oh!
|
|
no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on every
|
|
thing.--Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry that she
|
|
had abused the housekeeper the other day.--Shocking plan, living
|
|
together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple Grove who
|
|
had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end of the first
|
|
quarter.
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|
CHAPTER XVIII
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Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would
|
|
be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it
|
|
one morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her,
|
|
when Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts were put by.
|
|
After the first chat of pleasure he was silent; and then, in a graver
|
|
tone, began with,
|
|
|
|
"I have something to tell you, Emma; some news."
|
|
|
|
"Good or bad?" said she, quickly, looking up in his face.
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|
|
|
"I do not know which it ought to be called."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! good I am sure.--I see it in your countenance. You are trying not
|
|
to smile."
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|
|
|
"I am afraid," said he, composing his features, "I am very much afraid,
|
|
my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! but why so?--I can hardly imagine that any thing which pleases
|
|
or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too."
|
|
|
|
"There is one subject," he replied, "I hope but one, on which we do not
|
|
think alike." He paused a moment, again smiling, with his eyes fixed
|
|
on her face. "Does nothing occur to you?-- Do not you
|
|
recollect?--Harriet Smith."
|
|
|
|
Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something,
|
|
though she knew not what.
|
|
|
|
"Have you heard from her yourself this morning?" cried he. "You have,
|
|
I believe, and know the whole."
|
|
|
|
"No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me."
|
|
|
|
"You are prepared for the worst, I see--and very bad it is. Harriet
|
|
Smith marries Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared--and her
|
|
eyes, in eager gaze, said, "No, this is impossible!" but her lips were
|
|
closed.
|
|
|
|
"It is so, indeed," continued Mr. Knightley; "I have it from Robert
|
|
Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago."
|
|
|
|
She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.
|
|
|
|
"You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.--I wish our opinions were
|
|
the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make one
|
|
or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need
|
|
not talk much on the subject."
|
|
|
|
"You mistake me, you quite mistake me," she replied, exerting herself.
|
|
"It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy, but I
|
|
cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!--You cannot mean to say,
|
|
that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot mean that he
|
|
has even proposed to her again--yet. You only mean, that he intends
|
|
it."
|
|
|
|
"I mean that he has done it," answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but
|
|
determined decision, "and been accepted."
|
|
|
|
"Good God!" she cried.--"Well!"--Then having recourse to her
|
|
workbasket, in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the
|
|
exquisite feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she must
|
|
be expressing, she added, "Well, now tell me every thing; make this
|
|
intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me know it all. I never
|
|
was more surprized--but it does not make me unhappy, I assure
|
|
you.--How--how has it been possible?"
|
|
|
|
"It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days
|
|
ago, and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting to
|
|
send to John.--He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers, and
|
|
was asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley's.
|
|
They were going to take the two eldest boys to Astley's. The party was
|
|
to be our brother and sister, Henry, John--and Miss Smith. My friend
|
|
Robert could not resist. They called for him in their way; were all
|
|
extremely amused; and my brother asked him to dine with them the next
|
|
day--which he did--and in the course of that visit (as I understand) he
|
|
found an opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not
|
|
speak in vain.--She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is
|
|
deserving. He came down by yesterday's coach, and was with me this
|
|
morning immediately after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first
|
|
on my affairs, and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of
|
|
the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much longer
|
|
history when you see her.-- She will give you all the minute
|
|
particulars, which only woman's language can make interesting.--In our
|
|
communications we deal only in the great.--However, I must say, that
|
|
Robert Martin's heart seemed for _him_, and to _me_, very overflowing;
|
|
and that he did mention, without its being much to the purpose, that on
|
|
quitting their box at Astley's, my brother took charge of Mrs. John
|
|
Knightley and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry;
|
|
and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith
|
|
rather uneasy."
|
|
|
|
He stopped.--Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak, she
|
|
was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree of happiness.
|
|
She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad. Her silence
|
|
disturbed him; and after observing her a little while, he added,
|
|
|
|
"Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make you
|
|
unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected. His
|
|
situation is an evil--but you must consider it as what satisfies your
|
|
friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better of him as
|
|
you know him more. His good sense and good principles would delight
|
|
you.--As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your friend in
|
|
better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could, which is
|
|
saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.--You laugh at me about William
|
|
Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin."
|
|
|
|
He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself not
|
|
to smile too broadly--she did--cheerfully answering,
|
|
|
|
"You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think
|
|
Harriet is doing extremely well. _Her_ connexions may be worse than
|
|
_his_. In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they
|
|
are. I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize. You
|
|
cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly
|
|
unprepared I was!--for I had reason to believe her very lately more
|
|
determined against him, much more, than she was before."
|
|
|
|
"You ought to know your friend best," replied Mr. Knightley; "but I
|
|
should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be
|
|
very, very determined against any young man who told her he loved her."
|
|
|
|
Emma could not help laughing as she answered, "Upon my word, I believe
|
|
you know her quite as well as I do.--But, Mr. Knightley, are you
|
|
perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright _accepted_ him. I
|
|
could suppose she might in time--but can she already?-- Did not you
|
|
misunderstand him?--You were both talking of other things; of business,
|
|
shows of cattle, or new drills--and might not you, in the confusion of
|
|
so many subjects, mistake him?--It was not Harriet's hand that he was
|
|
certain of--it was the dimensions of some famous ox."
|
|
|
|
The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and
|
|
Robert Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma's feelings, and so
|
|
strong was the recollection of all that had so recently passed on
|
|
Harriet's side, so fresh the sound of those words, spoken with such
|
|
emphasis, "No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,"
|
|
that she was really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some
|
|
measure, premature. It could not be otherwise.
|
|
|
|
"Do you dare say this?" cried Mr. Knightley. "Do you dare to suppose
|
|
me so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?--
|
|
What do you deserve?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put up with
|
|
any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain, direct answer.
|
|
Are you quite sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin
|
|
and Harriet now are?"
|
|
|
|
"I am quite sure," he replied, speaking very distinctly, "that he told
|
|
me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity, nothing
|
|
doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you a proof that
|
|
it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he was now to do. He
|
|
knew of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he could apply for information
|
|
of her relations or friends. Could I mention any thing more fit to be
|
|
done, than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not.
|
|
Then, he said, he would endeavour to see her in the course of this day."
|
|
|
|
"I am perfectly satisfied," replied Emma, with the brightest smiles,
|
|
"and most sincerely wish them happy."
|
|
|
|
"You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before."
|
|
|
|
"I hope so--for at that time I was a fool."
|
|
|
|
"And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all
|
|
Harriet's good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake, and
|
|
for Robert Martin's sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe as
|
|
much in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her. I have
|
|
often talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that I did.
|
|
Sometimes, indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me of
|
|
pleading poor Martin's cause, which was never the case; but, from all
|
|
my observations, I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl,
|
|
with very good notions, very seriously good principles, and placing her
|
|
happiness in the affections and utility of domestic life.-- Much of
|
|
this, I have no doubt, she may thank you for."
|
|
|
|
"Me!" cried Emma, shaking her head.--"Ah! poor Harriet!"
|
|
|
|
She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little more
|
|
praise than she deserved.
|
|
|
|
Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of her
|
|
father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was in a
|
|
state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her to be
|
|
collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits; and till
|
|
she had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed and reflected,
|
|
she could be fit for nothing rational.
|
|
|
|
Her father's business was to announce James's being gone out to put the
|
|
horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls; and she
|
|
had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.
|
|
|
|
The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations may be
|
|
imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the prospect of
|
|
Harriet's welfare, she was really in danger of becoming too happy for
|
|
security.--What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to grow more worthy
|
|
of him, whose intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her
|
|
own. Nothing, but that the lessons of her past folly might teach her
|
|
humility and circumspection in future.
|
|
|
|
Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her
|
|
resolutions; and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the
|
|
very midst of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of
|
|
the doleful disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart--such a
|
|
Harriet!
|
|
|
|
Now there would be pleasure in her returning--Every thing would be a
|
|
pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
|
|
|
|
High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities, was the
|
|
reflection that all necessity of concealment from Mr. Knightley would
|
|
soon be over. The disguise, equivocation, mystery, so hateful to her
|
|
to practise, might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving
|
|
him that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was most
|
|
ready to welcome as a duty.
|
|
|
|
In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father; not
|
|
always listening, but always agreeing to what he said; and, whether in
|
|
speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his being
|
|
obliged to go to Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be
|
|
disappointed.
|
|
|
|
They arrived.--Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:--but hardly
|
|
had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks
|
|
for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the
|
|
blind, of two figures passing near the window.
|
|
|
|
"It is Frank and Miss Fairfax," said Mrs. Weston. "I was just going to
|
|
tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive this morning.
|
|
He stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been persuaded to spend
|
|
the day with us.--They are coming in, I hope."
|
|
|
|
In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad to see
|
|
him--but there was a degree of confusion--a number of embarrassing
|
|
recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling, but with a
|
|
consciousness which at first allowed little to be said; and having all
|
|
sat down again, there was for some time such a blank in the circle,
|
|
that Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged, which she had
|
|
long felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more, and of seeing him with
|
|
Jane, would yield its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined
|
|
the party, however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer
|
|
a want of subject or animation--or of courage and opportunity for
|
|
Frank Churchill to draw near her and say,
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"I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message
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in one of Mrs. Weston's letters. I hope time has not made you less
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willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you then said."
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"No, indeed," cried Emma, most happy to begin, "not in the least. I am
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particularly glad to see and shake hands with you--and to give you joy
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in person."
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He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak
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with serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.
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"Is not she looking well?" said he, turning his eyes towards Jane.
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"Better than she ever used to do?--You see how my father and Mrs.
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Weston doat upon her."
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But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes, after
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mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named the name of
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Dixon.--Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.
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"I can never think of it," she cried, "without extreme shame."
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"The shame," he answered, "is all mine, or ought to be. But is it
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possible that you had no suspicion?--I mean of late. Early, I know,
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you had none."
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"I never had the smallest, I assure you."
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"That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near--and I wish I
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had--it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong
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things, they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no
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service.-- It would have been a much better transgression had I broken
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the bond of secrecy and told you every thing."
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"It is not now worth a regret," said Emma.
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"I have some hope," resumed he, "of my uncle's being persuaded to pay a
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visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the
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Campbells are returned, we shall meet them in London, and continue
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there, I trust, till we may carry her northward.--But now, I am at such
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a distance from her--is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?-- Till this
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morning, we have not once met since the day of reconciliation. Do not
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you pity me?"
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Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession of gay
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thought, he cried,
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"Ah! by the bye," then sinking his voice, and looking demure for the
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moment--"I hope Mr. Knightley is well?" He paused.--She coloured and
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laughed.--"I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember my wish
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in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.-- I assure you
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that I have heard the news with the warmest interest and
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satisfaction.--He is a man whom I cannot presume to praise."
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Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style; but
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his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his own Jane,
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and his next words were,
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"Did you ever see such a skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!--and
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yet without being actually fair.--One cannot call her fair. It is a
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most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair--a most
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distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.-- Just colour
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enough for beauty."
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"I have always admired her complexion," replied Emma, archly; "but do
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not I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so
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pale?-- When we first began to talk of her.--Have you quite forgotten?"
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"Oh! no--what an impudent dog I was!--How could I dare--"
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But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could not
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help saying,
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"I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time, you
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had very great amusement in tricking us all.--I am sure you had.-- I am
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sure it was a consolation to you."
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"Oh! no, no, no--how can you suspect me of such a thing? I was the
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most miserable wretch!"
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"Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it was
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a source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking us
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all in.--Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell you the
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truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself in the same
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situation. I think there is a little likeness between us."
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He bowed.
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"If not in our dispositions," she presently added, with a look of true
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sensibility, "there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny which
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bids fair to connect us with two characters so much superior to our
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own."
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"True, true," he answered, warmly. "No, not true on your side. You
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can have no superior, but most true on mine.--She is a complete angel.
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Look at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn
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of her throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.--
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You will be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously)
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that my uncle means to give her all my aunt's jewels. They are to be
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new set. I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head. Will
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not it be beautiful in her dark hair?"
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"Very beautiful, indeed," replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that
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he gratefully burst out,
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"How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such excellent
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looks!--I would not have missed this meeting for the world. I should
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certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come."
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The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an account
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of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before, from the
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infant's appearing not quite well. She believed she had been foolish,
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but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half a minute of
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sending for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed, but Mr. Weston
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had been almost as uneasy as herself.--In ten minutes, however, the
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child had been perfectly well again. This was her history; and
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particularly interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her
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very much for thinking of sending for Perry, and only regretted that
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she had not done it. "She should always send for Perry, if the child
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appeared in the slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment.
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She could not be too soon alarmed, nor send for Perry too often. It
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was a pity, perhaps, that he had not come last night; for, though the
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child seemed well now, very well considering, it would probably have
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been better if Perry had seen it."
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Frank Churchill caught the name.
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"Perry!" said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss
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Fairfax's eye. "My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying about Mr.
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Perry?--Has he been here this morning?--And how does he travel
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now?--Has he set up his carriage?"
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Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined in the
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laugh, it was evident from Jane's countenance that she too was really
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hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.
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"Such an extraordinary dream of mine!" he cried. "I can never think of
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it without laughing.--She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I
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see it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown. Look at
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her. Do not you see that, at this instant, the very passage of her own
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letter, which sent me the report, is passing under her eye--that the
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whole blunder is spread before her--that she can attend to nothing
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else, though pretending to listen to the others?"
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Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile partly
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|
remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious, low, yet
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steady voice,
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"How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!-- They
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_will_ sometimes obtrude--but how you can court them!"
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He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly; but
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Emma's feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on leaving
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Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men, she
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|
felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill, and really
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|
regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never been more
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|
sensible of Mr. Knightley's high superiority of character. The
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|
happiness of this most happy day, received its completion, in the
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animated contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.
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CHAPTER XIX
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If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a
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momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her
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attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept another man from
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|
unbiased inclination, it was not long that she had to suffer from the
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|
recurrence of any such uncertainty. A very few days brought the party
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|
from London, and she had no sooner an opportunity of being one hour
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|
alone with Harriet, than she became perfectly satisfied--unaccountable
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|
as it was!--that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr.
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Knightley, and was now forming all her views of happiness.
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Harriet was a little distressed--did look a little foolish at first:
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|
but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly, and
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self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die away with
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|
the words, and leave her without a care for the past, and with the
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|
fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to her friend's
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|
approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of that nature, by
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|
meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.-- Harriet was
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|
most happy to give every particular of the evening at Astley's, and the
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|
dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all with the utmost delight.
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|
But what did such particulars explain?-- The fact was, as Emma could
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|
now acknowledge, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin; and that
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|
his continuing to love her had been irresistible.--Beyond this, it must
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|
ever be unintelligible to Emma.
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The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her fresh
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|
reason for thinking so.--Harriet's parentage became known. She proved
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|
to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford her the
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|
comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent enough to
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|
have always wished for concealment.--Such was the blood of gentility
|
|
which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!-- It was likely to
|
|
be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many a gentleman: but what a
|
|
connexion had she been preparing for Mr. Knightley--or for the
|
|
Churchills--or even for Mr. Elton!-- The stain of illegitimacy,
|
|
unbleached by nobility or wealth, would have been a stain indeed.
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No objection was raised on the father's side; the young man was treated
|
|
liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became acquainted
|
|
with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she fully
|
|
acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth which could
|
|
bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt of Harriet's
|
|
happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him, and in the home he
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|
offered, there would be the hope of more, of security, stability, and
|
|
improvement. She would be placed in the midst of those who loved her,
|
|
and who had better sense than herself; retired enough for safety, and
|
|
occupied enough for cheerfulness. She would be never led into
|
|
temptation, nor left for it to find her out. She would be respectable
|
|
and happy; and Emma admitted her to be the luckiest creature in the
|
|
world, to have created so steady and persevering an affection in such a
|
|
man;--or, if not quite the luckiest, to yield only to herself.
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Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins,
|
|
was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.-- The
|
|
intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must change
|
|
into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought to be, and
|
|
must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual, natural
|
|
manner.
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|
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|
Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw
|
|
her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction, as
|
|
no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood before them,
|
|
could impair.--Perhaps, indeed, at that time she scarcely saw Mr.
|
|
Elton, but as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might next fall
|
|
on herself.--Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple engaged
|
|
of the three, were the first to be married.
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|
Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the
|
|
comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.--The Mr. Churchills
|
|
were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.
|
|
|
|
The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared, by
|
|
Emma and Mr. Knightley.--They had determined that their marriage ought
|
|
to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, to
|
|
allow them the fortnight's absence in a tour to the seaside, which was
|
|
the plan.--John and Isabella, and every other friend, were agreed in
|
|
approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse--how was Mr. Woodhouse to be induced
|
|
to consent?--he, who had never yet alluded to their marriage but as a
|
|
distant event.
|
|
|
|
When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they were
|
|
almost hopeless.--A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.-- He began
|
|
to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it--a very
|
|
promising step of the mind on its way to resignation. Still, however,
|
|
he was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise, that his
|
|
daughter's courage failed. She could not bear to see him suffering, to
|
|
know him fancying himself neglected; and though her understanding
|
|
almost acquiesced in the assurance of both the Mr. Knightleys, that
|
|
when once the event were over, his distress would be soon over too, she
|
|
hesitated--she could not proceed.
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|
|
|
In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden
|
|
illumination of Mr. Woodhouse's mind, or any wonderful change of his
|
|
nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another
|
|
way.-- Mrs. Weston's poultry-house was robbed one night of all her
|
|
turkeys--evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in the
|
|
neighbourhood also suffered.--Pilfering was _housebreaking_ to Mr.
|
|
Woodhouse's fears.--He was very uneasy; and but for the sense of his
|
|
son-in-law's protection, would have been under wretched alarm every
|
|
night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence of mind of
|
|
the Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence. While either of
|
|
them protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.-- But Mr. John
|
|
Knightley must be in London again by the end of the first week in
|
|
November.
|
|
|
|
The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary,
|
|
cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at the
|
|
moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day--and Mr. Elton was called
|
|
on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin, to
|
|
join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
|
|
|
|
The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties have
|
|
no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the particulars
|
|
detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby, and very
|
|
inferior to her own.--"Very little white satin, very few lace veils; a
|
|
most pitiful business!--Selina would stare when she heard of it."--But,
|
|
in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes, the hopes, the confidence,
|
|
the predictions of the small band of true friends who witnessed the
|
|
ceremony, were fully answered in the perfect happiness of the union.
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FINIS
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